Depressed about job hunt

[CroMagna]

I have started commercial sex work (dancing, sex work).

Meanwhile, I'm still looking for that dream long term career. I narrowed in on Sexuality Studies professor because it incorporates my talents and interests, and is at the core of what I believe in: women's sexual liberation.

I'm afraid to go back to school, owe the government a quarter of a million dollars, and be unemployed or still dancing for tips.

So I decided to look for a similar job at a sexual freedom foundation where you'd only need a bachelors and I can just work my way up the food chain. If I could do that, I'd be living my dream. I don't care that much about money, I'm a very simple, frugal person who just enjoys the basics.

I've located many places but I feel discouraged. I feel like this job hunting process is taking way way way too long and that I deserve to have a good job by now. I'm a good person, I was a diligent student, I don't get it. What am I doing wrong here? I know we're in a recession but everyone I know has a job. To make matters worse my mom is not exactly supportive of my dreams.