job dilemma

[Miia]

Hey

I`m in a difficult situation... it`d be awesome if some of you could share some ideas about it

Well, I`m a poor starving sudent (lol) and as you can imagine desperately looking for a job. I finally found one... and not just a random one but a really good one...sort of. It`s a translating job - something that I have been looking for for a long time. I`m quite good at languages and this kind of work would be perfect while I`m still studying...

I was even more happier when I found out that they are looking for someone to work with philosophical and self-help texts because I happen to study philosophy.

Translation jobs are hard to get, specially the ones focusing on the Humanities...they are all taken.

So a perfect oppurtunity...

except

In addition to philosophical and self-help texts, they`d want me to translate books on occultism...taro, etc. I`m not comfortable with that because of my history with the subject...
When I was young (and not very smart, mildly put), I was really fascinated with all the psychic stuff and engaged in some dangerous practices..and got burned.

I managed to put all that behind me (well not completely as this post shows), heal and move on with my life. At some point I promised myself that I`d never engage in that kind of things again... and I have kept my promise with ease. I have kept away from the "paranormal" stuff...I`m not a materialist, I`m spiritual but I do not meddle into the "invisible"... meaning that I dont dwell on the paranormal, I dont try to influence or figure out anything... I have enough work to get done in the "visible" world and I plan on focusing on it...

Some ugly things happened to me and it was very hard at first to change the course back to the "visible". But I managed it and I have been VERY happy since. I don`t want to engage myself with that kind of things again..I just don`t want to.

But then again, I looked at some occultism books that the company has translated and they all sound very "soft" and innocent... no hardcore witchcraft

I guess I`m doubting because 1. I`m scared...that something bad could happen to me again. 2. I don`t want to break my promise because its a promise that saved my life 3. I`m not sure that I could "not get into" the books... I mean, in order to translate well you have to get involved and dig into it... I don`t know if I could keep myself and the text apart...

Has any of you worked as a translator before? Any ideas?

[ellie]

I have no advice for being a translator, but I get a strong sense that you don't want this job, but can see it will be a real opportunity lost...Personally I have learnt when you have strong convictions about something, you should stick to it, even if you miss out on something potentially great. It's hard, but I always find when I go against my gut feeling, intuition, for the chance of something that looks like it could be great on the outside, I get myself into trouble.

I just did this myself recently, got offered a great opportunity (like awesome) but I would have had to tell a bit of a white lie to get what I want. The dellima was, to go for the great opportunity, or do what my "true self" would normally do. This time I went with my "true self"...I can't say it helped with the opportunity, but boy I felt so at ease with my decision if I went with the white lie, to get what I wanted. I think it would of ended in disaster if I had lied.

Some people may say this will be a good opportunity to become more comfortable with occultism, but I would say personally, if this is something you do want to learn more about or get more comfortable do it in your own time. Slowly ease yourself into it.