My Awesome Goals
 

Lol I feel like Im going off an a huge ego trip but anyway...:p

My broad over arching values are to help people, bond with others, be healthy and content and at peace doing something I love.

Now, within that framework, here are my goals that inspire me to action.

Creative Career in Fashion and Media as a top fashion photographer and creative director.
I love fashion, media and advertising. I spend hours sketching fashion images. Creating my own and tracking the careers of models both commercial and fashion.

So I want to find my place within the industry. Broad goal is to become a well respected Creative Director and Fashion photographer and Modelling Agent.

Short term goals:
I want to complete an 8 week make up course in fashion make up for Camera. Then I can start building up my portfolio. I want to understand all aspects of the business.

Start an art and drawing class to further develop my drawing skills. And do life drawing and fashion drawing classes.

Get into sales and promotional modelling for high class fashion events. That way I can meet lots of people, promote and sell products I love and network. Can't wait.




Challenges:
I need to stop being a people pleasing pansy. I'm smart, creative and outgoing. So I am observing and writing down the ways in which I people please. Its an automatic thing I do and I want to make it a choice, so I can choose rather than being an automatic suck up.

Clarification
 

The next big question I'm struggling with is modelling. I have always thought I wanted to be a model but now I'm not sure. In fact sometimes i feel bored with the idea, I want to be behind the camera instead. That scares me. Have to work through that.

As part of being a high profile fashion photographer I will get to travel the world and meet lots of new people. I will get to work with top models I admire. I would get to create and shoot the advertisments and editorials I love.

Alternatively, I could be a creative director. Creating the vision and carrying it through. I would get to boss everyone around and create beautiful pictures.

Importantly, the goals are an experience not a destination. Life won't stop once I get there. I am going to enjoy learning and building my dream career every step of the way.

I am starting a make up course in October. I will be learning fashion make up for photography. After that I plan to take a basic photography course.

As for my eating disorder, originally the goal was get better, but now I'm less concerned with it. I am much more interested in my new life and that will gradually fade away. So I will continue to go to my therapists and work through the issues but remain focused on the long term direction.

Sounds awesome!!

I think for now, you don't have to choose yet what you will do. Photography or Director. You'll have plenty of time to do a bit of both and then decide from experience which you like best.

I'm very excited for you!!

That really does sounds really awesome...
You sound really positive, and that is really good!

Keep updates how it goes.

Thank you for all the encouragement!!!

I am feeling really positive about this journey. Just thinking about my goals makes me feel enthusiastic and energised. Interestingly even my heart rate increases just thinking about it.

I am in the process of finding a good basic photography course. I want to learn the basic skills first and take it from there. I don't feel rushed. I have a life time of quality learning ahead of me.

Current Role Model
One of my role models and sources of inspiration is petite model Erin Wagner.
She was a contestant and runner up on the Petite Cycle of America's Next Top Model. I admire Erin because she is still pursuing modelling sucessfully after the show finished, she performs effortlessly and puts in alot of work and is comes across as a strong and determined individual.

Creating Space
Now I just feel that I need to create the space for my intentions to manifest. I have noticed I have to much clutter in my life at the moment.

So I am going to re organise my room. Clear out all the draws and the bookshelves. Make sure that I have a system that is organised and low maintenance.

I have lost interest in my eating disorder, I have lost any desire to engage with it. I just notice it and keep on going. My goals are too exciting.

I am going to need to start teaching myself how to self structure. I struggle with feeling overwhelmed by mess and unfilled spaces of time. So I am going to start writing a to do list the night before and planning my time in advance. That way I will feel less overwhelmed and actually progress steadily.


Things I'm working on
- Planning out my time
- Using a diary
- Cleaning my room
- Finding a good basic photography course
- Booking into and attending a weekly drawing class
- Getting my license

Sorting out the Junk
 

Well still clearing out all the clutter in my room. It feels never ending. I keep clearing out lots of rubbish. But on the plus side, I am definately less inclined to buy things. I have become far choosier and aware of what I actually like. Throwing out lots of things will do that for you!!

I need to become more goal oriented. I have been observing that my anxiety and obsessions and people pleasing all take me further away from goals. In a sentence..

Resisting my obsessions hurts now. Following them hurts ten fold more.

I am still observing my people pleasing behaviors and just making gradual modifications to my behavior. I haven't been able to change radically overnight but I am making some definate progress. By dealing with these other issues as they arise I will be able to achieve the end goal otherwise I just lost in the middle.

Okay, I am now half way through cleaning my room. I have reorganised everything and now I just need to be vaccum and take all the rubbish to the bin. And attach labels to all the drawers. I feel so relieved. My new room feels more compatible with the energy I am giving out.

I have bought a diary. I just need to fill in the appointments and carry it around.

The next thing I am going to do is sign up for my drawing class and make up course. I am going to do that today. Keep up the momentum!!

Enrollment!!
 

I love this thread!!! Everytime, I read it I feel a powerful sense of purpose and achievement.

I have now bought a diary and started scheduling in all my appointments. Fairly basic but still an important first step.

Ok so now I am going a little course crazy. There are so many things I want to do and will help me in my creative pursuits.

I have enrolled in my art class. The art teacher is one of those crazy individuals who time stops for as she her life to the fullest. She is very inspiring to be around so I am excited about that.

I have found a local basic photography course that starts in a few weeks and covers all the basic techniques. It has three levels so if I choose I can go on to do more extensive courses and then specialise in fashion later.

I now am working on creating a budget and understanding my finances better so that I can spend my money properly and invest further.

Ha-ha I love this thread too! It's very inspiring!

Thanks Sarah!! Woot, inspiration party :p

Starting my art class on Wednesday. I am really excited.

I also have alot of free time at the moment and lots of skills I need to learn.

I am just going through the brochures on different short courses and looking at what skills I can further develop that will help me with my degree and photography careeer.

On the short List:
- Basic Photography Course
- Photoshop Course
- Introduction to the Stock Market
- Computer Courses in Publisher and Excel

In the meantime, I need to develop a better planning system. I am still recording all my appointments in the diary but I am going to create a wall planner so I can see my plans for the next three months. I also need to create daily to do lists and weekly timetables. I struggle to self structure and spend hours looking for things to do and getting bored and frustrated.


Broad Short Term Goals:
- Select Photos I want to draw and set up my drawing things
- Draw and fill in with water colour pencils 10 fashion pictures
- Arrange 3x weekly driving time and book a date for the driving test
- Transition to a Gluten Free and Dairy Free diet
- Find Low GI recipes within the above catergories
- Write a weekly meal planner with planned meals and snacks to give myself structure and variety

Progress So far
 

I am starting my make up course tomorrow morning and it will run for 8 weeks. I am very excited and I will be learning professional make up techniques for personal use, fashion and bridal make up. I am very excited!!!

I have attended one art class and it was fantastic. I learnt alot and I am now just practising drawing until the next class.

I am working on improving my diet so that it better suits my needs and reading books about healthy eating and how the body works. It has been fascinating and I realised how little I really know aside from calorie counts and my meal plans.

Make Up Course
 

The make up course was fantastic!!!
I had an amazing time and learnt alot even in just one day. If I want to work on photoshoots and editorial then I will also need to be able to do hair, I am fairly good at hair already but I intend to a hair styling course too.

This week I am going to buy some of the basic items I will need for my make up kit. I have found a wholesaler of beauty products for students which is fantastic.

Also the Academy where I am doing my course will help me develop a porfolio and find work experience opportunities. Essentially, to start with I will volunteer my time and build up my confidence and experience and then move onto paying work. I am also planning to get into bridal make up as well.

I am still proceeding with my make up course. I am almost half way through and I am loving it. I am finding it very stimulating. While I am enjoying the experience I don't see this as a long term pursuit rather a personal development interest and a hobby.

I have spoken to the a few different people within the fashion industry and offered to volunteer my services at photoshoots. I want to experience more of it.

I recieved an email out of the blue asking me if I was interested in an ongoing modelling assignment, from a photographer I was in touch with a few years ago. I would definatley love to get into modelling but my body is still transitioning to my natural weight at the moment so I don't think its the right time. I put on alot of weight from choices I made during my Eating Disorder and now I am working to return to a healthier lifestyle.

I have noticed that people pleasing within this industy is not even remotley tolerated. If you don't believe in yourself and your not tough, go home. Point taken. I am definatley making a big effort not to people please.

I am now getting into freelance recruitment and Business Development. It is a little left field but I really enjoy it and I am very good at it.

I am assisting as a make up artist for a short film over the next two weeks which is fantastic. It should be lots of fun.

I love advertising and marketing and I am currently networking with people within the industry and it is so amazing to be around like minded people!! Its like, wow, someone else who loves ads!!!!

My next goal is to get work experience for big media agencies and magazine companies. So I need to start database building and calling up the agencies I want to work with.

I spent Saturday assisting with make up for a short film. I had a ball. It was lots of fun and I learnt alot. I had to powder the actors before going on set and then apply stage make up through out the day. I am going to be assisting again next weekend.

I am possibly assisting at an editorial photoshoot for a hair magazine with 17 models this week. So that is exciting.

And I have teamed up with a hair stylist and freelance photographer to do a Bridal Photoshoot. I will be the creative director and make up artist, now all I need to do is find a model and good location. I am really excited as I will use the photos from the shoot to start building a portfolio.

Wow. I just found this thread now, and am amazed at how you simply stated your goals in the OP and went straight towards realizing those. Lots of progress, good for you! A good example for other people, I think.

Thank you. I think it is a combination of drive and discipline. Its funny because its like all this positivity and action has taken on huge momentum that keeps me motivated and pushing forward even in the hard times.

I organised a photoshoot a few weeks ago with two models and a photographer. I did the make up, hair and styling. We took beauty shots, bridal shots and then a couple pyjama shots. It turned out quite well and I learnt alot.

Now I have another photoshoot coming up for my make up porfolio. I have to organise a model, hair stylist and styling. We will shoot 4 different make up looks.

Wow good for you! Welcome back - hadn't seen your posts in a while. How's the healing from bulimia going?

Thank you. :) I am doing really well in my healing journey. I have largely let go of it all, including the label, the behaviors. I find that my new goals are just so exciting and so enticing that they replace the old goals and behaviors which is nice. Now just trying to let go of the last of the weight I gained through the process. Its a slow process but Im getting there. :)

Wow, this thread is super inspiring!! Congrats u are super cool.
U know why? I'm actually in a journey quite similar to yours, it involves all the fashion and model and drawing parts. I find this pretty awesome and ur progress has really inspired me.
I'm in the dive straight to your projects phase. Cleared the clutter, organized my space, put up inspiration, created space in my life for new things, now all that's left is to get to it.
I've changed my major from management to arquitecture, and am learning drawing to complement my super clothe making skills.
What i need to do now is get to the agency i know and drop my shots, i'm so excited too :).... For u and me.
Please keep updating, you are an inspiration ^_^

Thanks lazygirl. :) I'm really excited for us too. Let me know how things go with the agency!

Enviroment
I have cleaned up my room and my wardrobe. I have cleared out all my 'fat clothes' and bought new well fitting items and now when I look at my wardrobe I feel invigorated because everything is well organised and fashionable.

Photoshoot
I am now finalising the details for my make up portfolio shoot. The shoot will take place at the Make Up school. I have met the photographer already and she is fantastic. This will be a much simpler shoot, (learnt from experience) and I will shoot 4 different make up looks close up, so need for a stylist, just hair and make up which I will do. I just need to find a model. I have asked a close friend who is breaking into the industry and failing that I'll cold call the big agencies and ask if they have a someone new to thier books who wants to trade time for pictures.

Travel
I am leaving for Asia in a few days. I will be there for 10 days with Uni learning about International Business and I plan to spend my free time looking at the make up store and just generally absorbing the culture. I am really looking forward to it.

In that beautiful way that things just work out, I finished with my part time job today. I have been working in an office on and off for a the last two years. I learnt alot and worked hard but my heart was no longer in it and now I was able to let go. The doors are open if I want to return and I am free to continue to continue to create my career.

I am focusing on Uni from now on but I intend to find a part time job within the marketing and advertising field that will allow me to learn the tools of the trade and gain industry experience. I also want to do some work experience for a bigger advertising firm.

I have just returned home from my Asian travels. Looking back it has been an amazing experience and I certainly learnt alot about myself. I met so many new people and it was incredibly invigorating to set out knowing no one and return with a whole new set of friends and connections.

Coming back, I have let go of alot of unhealthy habbits. For example I have found all the TV shows I used to watch mind numbingly dull and I have began clearing out my room from all my old books and gadgets. I have finally found my tribe and they are inspiring me to greater heights.

Just moved into College yesterday. I now have access to internet, catering, IT support, tutorials and my own room. I am very grateful for all the support provided and also very excited to get into everything.

I have kept my room very simple, only bringing the essential items that I need. The reasons for this are to allow me the space to think and focus on my priorities rather than wading through junk all day long. I find clutter very tiring, very quickly, no matter how pretty it was originally. Also it means that I don't have to worry about things been stolen or looking after a vast quantity of possesions. I feel very refreshed!!!

I have even left my walls blank rather than plastering them with pictures, to allow myself time and space to think and be. I still have my vision board up but that is a small space.

I am journalling daily and focusing on my goals and objectives rather than just floating along. There are so many opportunities at college and being able to manage and structure myself to all for maximum benifit is going to be my challenge. Attending University from College feels much nicer than when i came from home. I feel part of the community and accepted rather than just an outsider visiting the lonely busy campus. Odd, same place, different perspective, radical new experiences.

Ok, update.

Finished my first semester of College. Still waiting to see if I made through all my subjects but I gave it my best shot. I was doing really well and very on top of things except for exam times. Things then tended to get harder to manage. So now I am planning to put more support in place to avoid the same problems occuring this semester.

I am doing a one week styling course this holidays. I will learn how to style for adverts, catologues and catwalk. Can't wait!!

Then I am still looking for a casual drawing class I can take during term. So that will help, I love drawing. Still making lots of lookbooks and cutting up magazines.

Still journalling everyday and meditating and doing yoga. I am trying to organise my life so that I spend less time on the go and more time centering myself and meditating. I am naturally very anxious and the rush and business I create can just exacerbate that.

I did a little bit of temporary work in an accounting firm. It was interesting and I learnt alot although I am definately not an office person long term. I got bored.

Finished my styling course. I learnt alot and made heaps of industry contacts. It was very inspiring to be admist so much love and passion.

I realised that my interest leans more towards fashion illustration than styling itself.

I have been volunteering at various careers fairs promoting the college I live in and it has been a fantastic way to give back as well as meet new people and see whats out there. Its how I find my current course and a few of the future course I want to do. It also gave me the opportunity to pass out my details and offer my services to fashion schools as a volunteer make up artist.

I am currently arranging to go spend a day shadowing a senior marketing executive for a large company. I was introduced through a friend and she has agreed to show me the ropes and watch her work. Should be a very insightful day.

I have spoken to an established make up artist who has given me her details and agreed to let me assist her on large shoots free of charge. And she also gave me a list of agencies to contact and offer to assist the people on their books.

Now I am just plugging away at all my goals and its slowly starting to come together!! Its a great feeling if not a little surreal. Writing it all down allows me to stay grounded and see how far I have come and still have to go..:)

It's awesome how write down our goals can stay us focused! If you're starting to achieve your goals it means that you wrote them in the right way. Good job and good luck! ;)

Thanks Luigi :)

Lol very funny but re-reading this thread I realised I don't want to be a famous fashion photographer or creative director.

I just want to create beautiful pictures and be part of something bigger than myself. I want to find and explore beauty in unusual places. I want to show people thier own inner beauty.

I'm not as concerned with the how as just enjoying the process and learning as I go.

So yesterday I was on set doing a designer's make up, Lady Gaga inspired for TV. That was exciting and really scary at the same time. I was thrown in to do hair as well...I don't do hair!!! No training in whatsoever, I kept saying that but was ignored and ended up doing it. :) Thankfully she just wanted a bun.

I was amongst a team of other make up students and although we all panicking a bit it turned out great. Lesson learnt, just wing it.