-----My journey to achieving a better life----- More inside!

[Ceoarob]

Originally Posted by MC Kejml

I have no idea. Never thought about living elsewhere, but maybe living with my friends ( as in HIMYM ) could be really nice. I suppose I'll be saving for a decent flat in the next couple of years.

Well, good for you then.

I actually didn't realize this until I got back from college, but I spent the entire past year "getting my parent's voices out of my head" and whenever I finally did that, I was able to make REALLY powerful decisions based on what *I* wanted as opposed to what THEY wanted.

It was a REALLY unconscious thing that I never really noticed happen until I moved BACK in with my parents and I started hearing "their voices again" - it's almost like I became much more conscious of them.

I still make decisions based on what I want, but there's more of a "haze" around it.

-AR

[MC Kejml]

Ok, some news.

The movie meeting was THE ****. We made a clear plan how will we achieve our goals and I felt that synergy really flowing. Looking great so far.

Anyway, I played this seminar from Anthony Robbins called the "Unleash the power within". And I already like some of the topics.

He says that we become the people we hang out with and arguments with the "caring" of our peer group. That if we have higher standards, they often drag us down not to drag us down, but out of fear we might become "higher" than them, so.. yeah.

Along with sceptic people really being full of fear.

Wish I could remember more, but if you know the guy, he talks about the same things a lot.

And this thing. I discovered that whenever I fear something and do it anyway (and it succeeds), I become incredibly excited and happy. Who knew lol. It's just if there's a lesson from this, I'd love to hear about it.

As for work, I decided to mail the local CEOs and ask them if I can join them at lunch and talk about work. You know, to model them. Few of my colleagues did that and it's recommended anyway, so... let's go.

I befriended this new girl classmate at college. She invited me to a concert today, so I sure hope we'll have a good time.

Oh, and... college beginning tomorrow. 12 hours a week, that's good, but at least the same number of books to read :-D

[MC Kejml]

It's a blast, everything.

As I was driving through the night to the convert, I suddenly realised a the three main things are on their way. And that right now, life is awesome, no questions asked.

College is an exciting experience. A lot of friends, interesting seminars, beautiful girls, new social level of my peers, cantina selling all kinds of food and drink including cigars and shots for cheap.

Business is blooming. My clients' net is expanding and the work becomes easy.

The movie is on it's best way. People are disciplined, rich with ideas, friendly and determined.

Every day brings me something to be happy about in these three departments.

We had a great time at the concert; for my friend, it was a great introduction to Prague

The only thing that I'd like to improve is my relationship to the other gender. I don't make any moves or let anybody know of my intentions. The debacles from my past are deeply rooted into my nervous system. I can't look on any relationship without the image of me failing.

Tony R once said "people start to live when they're about to die". And I now know why. They don't have to bear the shame of failure for a long time. While I don't see failure as failure in any other department, but as a sign of improvement, I can't do that here. It's not I'm one of those creepy PUA guys that go to a random girl they don't know and start negging her if I miss a chance with the one I really want. That's just ... disturbing for the girl. If I'd see something like that, I think I'd laugh.

Sometimes I even think the girls around me are interested in me. And I can't make a move anyway...

So yeah, there's this girl classmate at college I've become a friend with...

[MC Kejml]

Hm...

Is it just me, or the more happy I become, I become less and less killed/cornered/captured in my dreams?

[MC Kejml]

Today wasn't too good, I think.

The story is, one of my friends is interested in working in the company. He passed the initial talk with my director, and absolved an information seminar. He seems to be heavily interested in the thing and I am supposed to lead him.

Why? A half year ago, I brought about four interested friends to the company and as a novice with little to no experience, my director was supposed to lead them.
Not ONE passed. And I know it wasn't their error.

So I want to lead my friend by himself. Today I was having an introduction meeting with him, showing him the offices etc. Talked with about goal setting and so on. At some examples, he laughed, but I believe it wasn't because I'd be acting stupid.
Then, my director came and gave me this "Are you actually setting the offices on fire?" look.

I KNOW she can't lead the guy. In fact, we had a annual meeting of our company, talking about the results how many people started and stayed at the company in each directorate for the last year and SHE HAD A FRIGGING ONE GUY. YES, THAT'S ME, OUT OF ABOUT 50 PEOPLE!!!

My drive is high, so that's why. I am committed and going for the top.

I've been talking to her director, it was better for a while but now it's **** again.

I don't know what to do. Please, someone, help.

[MC Kejml]

So, seeing I conquered some of my early fears I had, I'm thinking of making a new thread with some new additions.

[DanFromSeoul]

Originally Posted by MC Kejml

Today wasn't too good, I think.


My drive is high, so that's why. I am committed and going for the top.

I've been talking to her director, it was better for a while but now it's **** again.

I don't know what to do. Please, someone, help.

Hey man,
I'm impressed with your drive for a better life.

Is there any way you can get a new director or move to another branch of the company?

It sounds like you're the one keeping your director in business and could easily replace her (which is what she's afraid of maybe?)

My 2 cents is to either get a new director or keep working at it until you are promoted.

Granted I've never been in your shoes so take what I say with a grain of salt but those would be the options I would act on.

Dan

[MC Kejml]

Thanks for your reply Dan.

Yeah, I've been talking with her director and he agreed to switch me to another director if the relationship doesn't work long-term.

You know what, you're the second person telling me that and I even think you could be right. I've never seen anybody at the same position as me in the company that would be so independent as I am (and another director as old as me) and she's probably a bit intimidated by that. I love when she gives me the look "Are you actually setting the offices on fire?" when I do something unexpected, in a good way.

I guess I'll have to wait till I get promoted and run my own show. She's not a bad person, we just don't understand each other. It's like liquid nitrogen and water, simple chemicals but together they just make a mess.

[MC Kejml]

Allright. As I've said before, since I managed to overcome certain problems, I'm PMing a moderator to have this thread locked. I'll be making a new, different one.