|08-16-2010, 08:32 AM||#61 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
I just got done hanging with my best friend CS. I had a great time with him as always, and I hope that I was able to impart some of my learnings to him and help him grow into his own in any way. I see the importance of having someone to learn from who's "been there already". We had a great time and talked about some important stuff.
Today, I had my Atlanta Symphony Orchestra Chorus auditions. Now, I COMPLETELY owned the theory part of this, along with my solo, and the pitches that they wanted me to come up with. However, when it came to the sightreading, I was COMPLETELY thrown off mainly because I had no clue where I was going. I looked at it and there were 3 sharps. I was like..."What the **** is this key???" and I could NOT figure it out for the life of me. Lo and behold, it was the key of A, but actually F# minor.
You know, I kinda bombed the sightreading, but this was actually something that was TRULY out of my control. Yeah, I could've practiced key signatures a little bit more, but the key of A is my absolute weak-spot. In addition, I've never really seen a piece in the key of A, so I had no choral reference. I was lost, but, I tried my best...
I think that the auditioner loved my rolled R's. It was a good time.
Afterwards, I went to Atlantic Station just to see where I'd be living. In fact, I remember that I was driving and I saw the entire skyline of Atlanta and I just completely started smiling because I knew that this would be where I would be. So when I got to Atlantic Station, it was actually a lot less lively than I had in my mind, BUT, it was exactly the way that I saw it. I got to see the apartment lofts, and the only thing that I was disappointed about the entirety of Atlantic Station is the lack of parking. It's actually REALLY confusing to navigate, the parking deck is KINDA far away, but everything worked, so, yeah...
It's a really chic place in the middle of everything, and on top of that, I love the idea of living in the city. The nightclubs are LITERALLY just 10 minutes away. I'm sure that this place will be even more lively as time goes on and colleges start getting in session. There weren't TOO many good looking chicks here, I only saw like 4, but it was also Sunday at 6 PM...
The greatest thing about this was this. "Even though I'm a social butterfly, the entire idea of being in this big city all by myself even puts a little bit of fear into my wings". Essentially, if I were to do this, I'd be ALL on my own...I would have to be 100% responsible for EVERYTHING that I do with my life. I'd HAVE to manage my health, finances, and everything. I would have to be start building a social circle from scratch pretty much....but I've done it once, so I know that I'd be able to do it again. I'm a little intimidated by the fact of everything.
However, I know that in fear...lies nimbus. I'd really take on something that is challenging to me and I'd grow in the process...either we're growing or we're dying. This would DEFINITELY be a growing experience for me. I'd SERIOUSLY have to think on my own...without the outside help of other people. I'd have to stand up for myself, get things done for me, and just really take FULL responsibility for myself and my life.
Am I "ready" for it? Honestly, no.
Am I going to do it? Honestly, *devlish grin* yes. This is going to be one of the greatest experiences of my life, and I'm going to make it happen. The big city is a cold place...that's what it feels like. It scares me a bit, there are people I don't know everywhere, there are cars flying by everywhere, it's a COMPLETELY different culture than what I'm used to, and there are completely different ways of getting things than those that I'm used to...this sounds like it's EXACTLY made for me.
I'm sure I'm going to make countless friends in the process, and I'm going to make sure that I enjoy every single bit of life in the meanwhile. There is no final destination on this adventure...this is the adventure of a lifetime. In addition, this is PREPARATION for me moving to the bigger cities on my own...in addition to learning new languages, becoming a world traveler, and conducting myself as a man and living on my own.
This is happening, and I'm going to make it happen because I want to live here
|08-23-2010, 03:31 AM||#62 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
So everything has been nice so far, but tomorrow is the day that everything comes into full swing. I'm basically going to be starting everything up. All the business and legal stuff is now falling into place, my apartment has become open and it's only a matter of time before I get my spot. I've got to make the money first, and I've got to get my deposit down there.
Right now, this is the last day that I'm doing everything, so yeah...enough procrastinating, it's time for me to become the fastest reader that I can.
Because I'm going into this industry with a lot less first-hand experience UP FRONT, I've got to somehow cram my ability to get knowledge and really take my business to the next level. This is my business, I get to decide how I run it, and it's up to me to call the shots.
This is something that I'm motivated for. I really want to make this happen, everyone else has been working on my behalf because they see the potential that I have inside. In fact, I even see it myself.
These past 4 months have been pretty "reclusive" to say the least. Was it mandatory for me to lock myself up in this way and take the path that I did? Well, I'll never know otherwise. But now, I'm starting to see everything come together. Although, things aren't in the way that I expected them to, I'm actually making progress and it's just a matter of time. It's like right now, I'm on the Taxiway with my plane...I'm fully stocked and just ready to go, I just need that green light and "all-clear" from ATC to takeoff.
Once I get down that runway, I'm going to take off and never look back. It will have been the last time that I'll ever be on the ground. From here, I'm going to pretty much turn into a rocket and take off. I'll have to deal with a new set of problems, challenges, and dilemmas, but the experience that I'll have is something that will be so unique to me....it's a once in a lifetime opportunity.
I'm so thankful for everything that has happened so far, and I'm extremely even more grateful for the fact that I was able to learn all the lessons that I did on the path to get here. College, all the friends I made, the people who I'll never forget, the souls that I have touched and who I have been touched by in return, and everything regarding the good-will of others.
My journey is not done, but it is getting closer.
I feel though that some of the greatest challenges have yet to come...this may only be the beginning...
Adventure of a lifetime.
|09-15-2010, 03:53 AM||#63 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Day 256 - September 15, 2010
It is 256 days since January 1st - the day that I first met BP. And it is about 3 months and 13 days since my last burst of massive achievement. This has been the most amazing year so far, but it's about to kick back into high gear again. For the past 4 months, I haven't been as active as I'm used to.
Yes, I've done some stuff like passed insurance tests, gotten certain goals, and done some really amazing things with my mind, but the main reason that I haven't been able to fully go on all 6 cylinders is because I lacked the means to support myself financially. I set massive goals for myself because I believed that I could do them. I could, and still can, but because I live in a world where money is required to play, I wasn't able to get to where I needed to.
It was the equivalent of having the right "password" to get to a new level.
Some people might say, "You don't need money to make money"...eh, you need SOME money to make money. But still, anything can happen in this world. I digress...
Tomorrow, this all changes.
For the first time in a while, everything is coming together bit by bit. I've planned EVERYTHING out that I want to do whenever I start getting my money, and now it's just a matter of making it happen. Whenever I start getting into a VERY active state, I have a supreme rush of adrenaline which basically shuts down my ability to think clearly and project myself into the future. However, I'm able to follow "lists" and get amazing things done, so it's a balance. It's creativity vs action.
I have a fear that I'll take TOO much action and get burned out from this. However, I plan on mixing my work with my play. I have a mission which is greater than everything else. And for me, I know that whenever I have a true mission, something that I TRUELY care about...I make it happen. This adventure has taken me to places that I would've never gone before, I've met people that I've never would've dreamed of meeting, and I've done things that have even amazed myself.
Even writing this note, I feel the same emotions of presence and centeredness that I've felt whenever I'm on my path. It feels as if though the past couple of weeks have just been me waiting for this day. Simply because once I've started today, I have NO MORE EXCUSES. I'm ON and it's just a matter of me making a new plan, establishing what it is that I want, and making it happen even more.
I feel like I'm planning a mutiny. I'm rebelling against my parents simply because I know that I need to leave them. I can't stay here anymore, and I understand that I need to go back to making decisions on my own. Even though it's ALOT more difficult for me to live on my own, it's a lot more fun, and internally, a lot more rewarding.
What is on my heart right now? 95% positive emotions such as empowerment, passion, love, and appreciation - courage also. 5% fear of me saying, "What if this doesn't work out for me?"
Well, I've been guided along since Day 1 and I have a strong feeling that this is the next step on the path. I've had plenty of time to regain my composure from the last year of just going out, socializing, and being extroverted 24/7. Now, with batteries recharged, I'm ready to take my life to the next level.
I already know what the plan that I have in my head is. Tomorrow, I learn the specifics of how I can make it work. I'm appreciative for everything that has happened so far. Morely, I fall into a deep admiration for myself because of the tremendous amount of courage that I've had in the past. The decisions that I've made are decisions that I made not knowing the outcome, but I TRUSTED that everything would work in my favor through me taking action and making things happen. I'm appreciative that I didn't listen to other people when they said that "it couldn't be done" or that I'm "taking the wrong path". But quite honestly, a lot more people have been EXTREMELY supportive. In fact, there have been more people that support me than have tried to despairage me.
What is the reason for this? The first thing that comes to mind is just the fact that I've been a nice guy to them and I actually like people for who they are. But then, I have to think a little bit deeper...soul level deep.
At the deepest part of my core, the deepest fiber of my being, I know that I'm going to be successful at whatever I do. There's no question about it. I know that if I want, I can be the best at anything. Right now, I'm in it to win it, but I'm not in it to be the "world's best". I'm just in it to live my life, be as fulfilled that I can, and follow my Path. If I get to become the "world's best", then that's awesome. But if I lose that title, I'll STILL be okay!
As of late, I've been comparing myself to an airplane. Everything has started with an idea. Probably about 4 or 5 years ago around this date, I read Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich" and I learned that through Imagination and belief, we can do ANYTHING that we want. We truly CAN "Conceive, believe, and achieve". Five years ago, those seeds were planted in my mind and they are beginning to come to fruition. Even though they took ALOT of time to sprout and there have been many false starts, the roots were ALWAYS growing.
Back to the airplane...
I've spent my time learning the "theory" about how to fly, how the design works, I've spent time designing the plane myself, I've been reading about how to perfect my technique, and I've learned and memorized the checklists and procedures. All the "head knowledge" is there and I have the maps and the destination that I'm trying to get to.
In the past year, I've taken that training to another level and I've started "flying in the test simulator". I've crashed, but I've also landed successfully a lot. I finally know the controls - they are in my muscle-memory. I see how things work in the cockpit, and I have a better idea of what to do. I'm starting to see my head-knowledge come into play. Also, I've personally witnessed little innuendos about how my plane works that were never mentioned in the manual.
The 3 months have been my plane at the gate doing the turnaround. It's prepping for takeoff - the food, the crew, and everything else is getting ready. The passengers are set and ATC has just cleared me for pushback.
Right now, right this second, I'm pushing back from the gate and I'm on the taxiway. The engines are slowly turning on, but I'm ready to go. I've prepared for everything that I've done and I'm ready.
Fortunately, there are no clouds right now, conditions are fair, and I'm the only plane at the airport. I've got the all clear.
I'll have more to write about this tomorrow, but I'm extremely thankful for everything and everyone. I've dodged some massive bullets to get where I am, but it's my journey and I'm thankful for it.
|09-24-2010, 01:45 PM||#64 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
And inspiration has struck again.
But this time, I attribute it to EFT. I'm thankful that I've learned it or else I'd be in trouble. It helps remove all of my blocks - both emotional and mental - that prevent me from achieving things.
|06-19-2011, 03:40 AM||#70 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
I've made about $1,000/day for the past 30+ days.
Funny how quickly life turns around.
I also live on my own...for the time being.
I have something to do during the days.
I eat whatever I want.
I can get Chick-Fil-A salads whenever I want.
|06-22-2011, 04:41 AM||#71 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
it looks like I'm moving to Maryland. LOLLLLL
This is pretty cool. Working on Sedona Method. Did about 5 or 6 CD's in one day, and already the changes are coming about.
Addiction? Gone. Financial Abundance? Yep. Here and Now.
Let's see if I can manifest some women.
|06-22-2011, 10:51 PM||#72 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jun 2011
Glad that things have been going well for you.
Have you moved your blogging to another website? I notice the updates here but been few and far between.
Good luck with the move to Maryland. I passed through there briefly earlier this year.
|06-23-2011, 06:03 AM||#73 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
I haven't really spent much time on the computer except check maybe a couple of different posts, read up on the technology forms, or just figure out what's new among forum folk.
Most of my life has been one of the following: make money, have fun, play piano, read a book, play some more piano, go singing the chorus concert, meet some people, talk to girls, and spend the money.
There isn't really much detail to say. However, I've been spending a lot of time using the Sedona method and it has improved my life by quantum leaps, and I highly recommend it to anybody that is interested in letting go of whatever limiting beliefs or stumbling blocks they have inside themselves.
Right now, I'm testing out my new speech recognition software – Dragon naturally speaking professional version 11. It's pretty fun, and the new USB microphone that I got seems to be working with 90% plus accuracy.
Right now, I'm just and that "moneymaking". Of my life. Somewhere between August and September I'll have some very interesting life of dates to contribute to this thread. All I can say for now, is that I've learned a lot, I've grown a lot, and I've let a lot of old stuff go.
I've reached the point in my life where I can actually pursue goals without getting in the way and cockblocking myself so to speak from achieving whatever goals I set for myself.
I'm standing on the edge right now. I'm standing between the brink of limitation and boundlessness.
|06-23-2011, 03:52 PM||#75 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
About a year ago from the state, I got a couple of different licenses to sell life and health insurance and also property and casualty insurance (home and auto). In addition I got a very special license called a "independent adjusters" license.
The way that an independent adjuster works is whenever you own a home, you typically have homeowners insurance on it. If you ever follow claim whether it be for hail, wind, fire, or hurricane, there is usually somebody who comes out and assesses the damage. I am "that guy".
At first, I thought this job would be total ****, but I grew to like it a whole lot – I think it's really fun and it is super Baller.
Basically, I spend most my times scouting out damage on roofs, walking around houses and taking pictures of damage, and doing a lot of paperwork. I'm surprised that I even made up more than one month because of how anti-job I am, but I found out that it's really fun and it's going to be something they'll do for the short term.
I work for one of those big insurance companies. If you type in to Google "top three biggest insurance companies in the world" I work for one of those.
I think in the past 45 days, I've made somewhere between 30,000 – $60,000. The billing system is a little confusing, but I know at least I made minimum $30,000 last month. So the pay is really good, but it is still a "time for money trade".
There are some very adventures things coming up in my life that I'll be chatting about soon.
I seem to be out of my rut of being extremely an active, lazy, and not really wanting to approach life 100%. Most days, it seems that my head is spinning, but this is a good spinning – more like a "flow". Sometimes I do feel overwhelmed, but usually that's because I'm magnifying something out of proportion or I'm not really handling my **** the way that it should be handled. Nevertheless, the Sedona method has really helped me live life more openly and get certain things done in my life that I've been procrastinating on for years and years.
Maryland is fun, or at least it sounds pretty fun so far – I'm back in Atlanta for a couple of more hours (probably about 24) and then I'm heading to Maryland to start this new position. If I recall correctly, this is a little bit different than the job I was doing before, and it only earns about $500 a day. That totals out to about 15,000/month which is pretty good for a college dropout :-)
I think that going in knowing that I'm not going to do it for ever and especially that I'm not trying to stay there for 45 years and get a full retirement plan helps me be a little bit more in the moment. I'm still going to give 100% of my effort to this job and really just be open to whatever is there.
Yes. I love my new speech dictation microphone.
|07-27-2011, 03:36 AM||#84 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Gonna start listening to "The Abundance Course"
Headed off to my daily walk.
edit: by daily, I mean my 11:30 PM walk...lol.
the freaks come out at night :PPPPP
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