|06-05-2010, 02:55 AM||#31 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
What can you learn from this?
Now, I believe you can read this on a VARIETY of different levels. You could read it as a confessional, you could read it as me making a bad decision in my life, you can read it as a journal entry before I head to disaster in my life, or you could read it as if though I'm dying - I'm sure this is bound to happen with some people, but it's all good.
However, if you're able to read between the lines (which I know you're fully capable of), you realize that this is an opportunity not only for myself but also for you. The choices I've made are done and completely in the past. It doesn't matter what I've done - the past is forever behind us. However, from doing this, I've learned a really big lesson: most of the time in our lives, we're living in fear.
Usually, it's *VERY* subtle. It's like the hum of a VERY soft air conditioner in the background. We don't notice that it's there and we "cant' put our finger on it" until it stops. To some extent, we all carry some emotional baggage that serves as nothing to strengthen a false sense of self. The more we cling to this identity, the stronger it becomes in our lives. When I use identity, I mean any choices, habits, actions, behaviours, thought patterns, people, past events, or positions of status that no longer serve us. We keep wondering what we need to change in our lives, however, because we've lived with the fear so close in our lives, we can't put our finger on the problem immediately. Sometimes we can because we have internal issues that we know we need to fix - we might not mentally or consciously acknowledge it to ourselves, but we can intuitively feel that something is not right in our lives. By bringing awareness to what it is that needs change in our lives, we start the powerful shift of shedding off the layers of falsehood, denial, and dishonesty that we've been carrying.
Eventually, there comes a point when we realize that *WE* hold the key to breaking free of our fears and identities. When we gain enough awareness, we realize that we hold the plug to our "Air Conditioning Fear Units" and we can plug in the fear or take it out anytime we want. Most people don't want to take out the plug because they are afraid to face to unknown. Some people "accidentally" unplug from their fears only to realize that their fears were imaginary and purely in their head - this happens usually when we make spontaneous decisions and realize that there "negative consequences" that we imagined in our heads never came to pass. Some people gain enough awareness to realize that they are ultimately in control of their lives and have ALWAYS had control of the plug - they unplug it and feel lighter, more englightened, but more importantly, they gain greater clarity of what they want in life and they draw one step closer to their true life's purpose.
However, most people keep the plug in for various reason. Mainly because of Fear of the Unknown. However, it is only whenever we face our fears directly do we realize that they were nothing but "Paper Tigers" - growling at us and causing us to be fearful and intimidated but really purely in our head and easily conquered.
"Our choices, made in a moment, can transcend a lifetime" - DJ Demarco.
NOTE: I'm not saying that you should do what I've done or anything related to it. I'm just saying this: look deep inside yourself and ask yourself, "What have I been running from in life?" or "What have I been wanting to change in my life, but too afraid to change?". But just take a look inside yourself and look at what doesn't feel right even on the most subtle level. You don't have to do anything on a MASSIVE level, but start at the smallest things in your life and see if you are willing to change them today. What worked for me and my life may or may not be the thing that you need to change in your life.
I say that if you're facing a difficult decision in your life - a decision that you KNOW you need to make, a "nagging feeling" that you've been getting over and over about a specific course of action you need to take, a relationship you know you need to end (or maybe even begin, or take to the next level), a habit in your life that you know you need to cut out (or add), or a change in your lifestyle that you know will push you out of your comfort zones - then I'm here to remind that you alone hold the power to change and everything you need is right here, right now. If you decide to keep living according to your identity that you know is "not you" (at a VERY core level), then keep doing so but notice the affect it has on you. Bring awareness to whatever emotions you conscious may have been repressing - allow them to come to the forefront and then, begin to ask yourself whether to not you should continue with your current lifestyle and reinforcing a false sense of self. Start questioning what it is that you believe to be true - don't allow yourself to continue with the same thought processes that you've been doing all along, change it up, purge your pre-existing thoughts, challenge your belief systems. Eventually, by doing this, you will either 1) change your beliefs to something new or 2) strengthen your beliefs - either way you win and you learn about yourself in the process.
Or, you could take the Path of Adventure and start living your desired lifestyle right this very second. This comes from a decision that you've had enough of your old lifestyle and that it's time to take MASSIVE ACTION in your life. This is my favorite one, but by doing it, you've got to have a belief system that's three things 1) Open to new beliefs 2) Flexible yet 3) Strong. People may or may not think that you've gone off the deep end with your decision. However, when you're coming to yourself from a place of PURE HONESTY and Truth, then you'll understand the true reasons for your actions and not be affected by whatever else is happening around you - the external world will not penetrate your internal world because your conviction alone will give you all the power you need and will also guide your path one step at a time.
Paradoxically, when we're not afraid to lose is when we truly win. We might face temporary setback, but we ultimately emerge as winners internally and usually externally.
"Don't be afraid to go out on a limb. That's where the fruit is."
I hope that you've learned that what I've done in my life does not require any mourning nor sadness but should be call for joyfulness and celebration. I wish that you take a step in your life towards drawing closer to your life's purpose and ultimately, who you're truly meant to be.
If you've read this far, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
NOTE: This was done a while back, but if you're reading it, you can see some of my underlying motivations for why I'm doing what I'm doing.
|06-09-2010, 02:59 AM||#33 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Exam Passed - flying colors.
Faced with first real temporary setback.
Overcame by taking action.
Exam tomorrow - Adjusters. SHALL BE PASSED.
"But the message loud is heard. Homeland, Homeland. Rewew your youth. Restore your soul"
|06-11-2010, 03:55 AM||#35 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: born in Germany, lived in Egypt, now the Midwest and soon California
Definitely living the "self-imposed tornado" right now as well and in the best possible way
Moving to California on the 15th July and decided to do so .... 2 days ago!!
It is for a job opportunity for my husband and I (20 and 23) to participate in a revolutionary method of organic farming in a loving and enthusiastic enterprise with extended family. We are moving from a small Midwestern town to surround ourselves with "people like us"... hard to explain
After meeting during my foreign exchange year 3 years ago we lived in Berlin Germany for 2 years and came back to live here together.
We will be building a yurt from scratch and do what we love and eventually I want to start a dog rehabilitation business for dogs with extreme behavioral problems that would normally be put down
Full days every day and experiencing peak motivation to wrap up our lives over here and move us, the 2 dogs and remaining belongings (after all the purging) across the country in a little wagon car haha.
When you're on a mission there's nothing that could possibly stop you, and the fact that you're passing all your exams does not surprise me at all !! Aligned with intention perhaps? Who knows
You're on it! Keep going!
|06-11-2010, 11:15 PM||#36 (permalink)|
Join Date: Dec 2008
Location: Nationality: British Soul: Otherworldly Current Location: Barcelona, Spain
If I can make a suggestion? Focus on self acceptance and acceptance of where you are at. That's just the vibes I get from you. Achievement is great, but it's meant to be fun while you're getting there and not just when you arrive
Anyway good luck mate
|06-11-2010, 11:42 PM||#37 (permalink)|
Join Date: May 2007
Location: Philadelphia, PA, USA
It sounds like you are spending a lot of time living in the future. On 9-11 many people entered the Trade Towers with plans for the future.
A very famous American psychologist, Abraham Maslow (1908-1970), said "I can feel guilty about the past, apprehensive about the future, but only in the present can I act. The ability to be in the present moment is a major component of mental wellness."
Kahlil Gibran, author of The Prophet, says "There is a cup of joy inside of you, but you cannot drink from it save [unless] you forget the past and renounce the future."
Eckhart Tolle says "Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry-- all forms of fear-- are caused by too much future, and not enough presence. Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness, and all forms of nonforgiveness are caused by too much past, and not enough presence."
I think that somone shoud find out what their life is for before doing all these things with it. The above comes from this webpage.
|06-23-2010, 07:05 PM||#40 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Well, I think that I'm definitely a little bit better for my wrists, so I'm just going to type for a little bit and make sure that everything gets said that needs to be said.
The past 12 or so days I've kinda "strayed" from the path that I initially laid out for myself, but I also found a deeper path - one more relevant to what I actually want in life.
I'm still following Insurance and I'm making sure that I'm taking action every single day, but right now, the goal is to become Financially Free. Once I become financially free, I can start persuing everything that I want.
I've been reading alot of the information by T Harv Eker, and I listened to the "Millionaire Mind Intensive" and for the first time in my life, I'm starting to realize just how important money is. Not in the way that I USED to think it was, but how if I were to all of a sudden get 1 million dollars, I would NOT be happy. Hell, even if I got the 25K that I wanted initially, I would be broke just a little bit later.
I just simply didn't have the habits to get started and successfully build and manage my money. I'm starting to see more and more everyday how important it is that I manage my money. My parents don't do it. How do I know that? Because they haven't taught me how to manage my money while I've bee growing up.
Fortunately, I have the Internet, this forum, other people, resources, and a myriad of other places to get an education from. This is TRUE education right here for me - not just sitting in an ****ing Econ class learning about **** that I'm never going to use. - HA! University Rant.
But I found out that I never want to work a "job" - I never want to be a slave for 47 years of my life hoping that one day I'll be able to retire and enjoy my life from there. I want to enjoy my life right here, right now.
Before, I was running this race like it was the 100M Sprint...only about a week or so ago did I realize that this isn't a Sprint....this is a **MARATHON**.
I was using all that energy to get everything in my life handled short term so that I'd be able to get a quick superficial change, THEN I'd be able to go back to my bad habits. I wasn't looking for TOO long of a deep, internal change, but when I started on everything, I realized that there is more to the picture than I was initially seeing.
As for my goals: They have changed massively. The only thing that I want to do still is go to my Bootcamp on August 18th. But I have alot more personal things that I want to do in my life - like Reading Genius, expanding my vocabulary, getting a Phenomenal Memory, and managing my money alot better.
I realized that it goes along with something that I wrote a while back....
The idea of "more" will never make a person happy. The "more" we get, the more in spiritual debt we put ourselves. Only whenever we work on BEING first, then it goes to DOING, then HAVING.
Everything in my life comes down to a simple matter of being who I'm meant to be and then doing what I'm supposed to do from there.
If I keep taking all the steps, then I'll get to whatever goal I need to in the future. I CAN put all of my focus and energy into the present. It's the only way to work and simultaneously enjoy what I'm doing.
PS: IDK how my wrist is, but I'll definitely be posting back up soon.
|06-23-2010, 07:08 PM||#41 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
But more than anything, I'm realizing just how FORTUNATE I am to be getting my life "handled" at an early age.
I know that this won't be a completion of anything in my life, but I'm essentially getting a 10 year head start on what people seem to work on in their later years in life.
I guess the best description of everything would be a "proactive strategy to avoiding a mid-life crisis".
Everyday, I grow more and more thankful that I dropped out of college because I'm realizing just how many opportunities are laid out for me by following my heart.
|06-23-2010, 07:12 PM||#42 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
And I DO think that this is pretty much aligned with intention...things have been happening that would have never happened before.
Lifetime being the key word in that.
|07-29-2010, 07:07 AM||#44 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Well, I figure that I've spent enough time contemplating whether or not I'm going to update all the information in this thread. It just seems like it would be too hard to assimilate all my experiences that I've had in the past 30 days or so, but I've accomplished some goals and I've not accomplished some goals.
July has been the hardest month so far, but mainly because I've not been taking the necessary actions. I've fallen out of momentum and it just seems like it will be ten times harder to get started again.
But I remember the MOST important distinction that I made in the past month: When you KNOW what you want, it's only a matter of wanting it badly enough. From there, it's not a matter of IF, but a matter of WHEN you'll get what you want.
It's that time again for action and heavy change in my life, but I'm going to go about it a little bit smarter. I'm in it to win the marathon, not just the sprint.
I KNOW what it is that I want, but in order to get there, I need money, so it's time that I actually start taking the bull by the horns and getting stuff done to handle my finances. My finances are the MOST important part in this entire deal. EVERYTHING that I want to do in my life requires me to have money - maybe not everything, but a LARGE percentage of the things I want to do in the nearby future.
Once I get the money, alot of things are going to come....
Now, I don't believe that money directly makes a person...but I'll say, not having money can piss a mofo off.
Time to take action, again. Adventure of a lifetime.
|07-29-2010, 07:08 AM||#45 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
And on top of everything, I guess that I'm going to be revising my goals over again to the things that I REALLY want and putting MONEY first and becoming financially independent that I can live and SUSTAIN the lifestyle that I desire.
It's not about making tons of money, but morely becoming financially free and living teh lifestyle that I desire.
|07-30-2010, 04:54 AM||#46 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
It's time that I write an entry that I've been putting off for the longest time, but the time for me to write this is now.
For the past 30 days, I've been in a massive slump. I've gotten things done, but I feel as if though I haven't been being true to who I really am.
The worst part about everything is that I see how I've sacrificed what I want in order to make other people happy. Stepping down, listening to my parents, listening to others, and following others has done more to hurt me than help me.
I feel that when I was at UGA, there was a transition period where I was able to break free from my parents and experience what it was like to be on my own and make decision without having people telling me what to do. Now, I've got motherf-s on my back all the time. This is not how I am supposed to live my life.
The period from June 1-June 15th was perhaps one of the most glorious periods of my life. Everyday, I woke up with passion, every night, I slept knowing that I had come one step closer to living my ideal lifestyle. It came together bit by bit, and I took so much action in such a short amount of time, that I probably freaked myself out.
For the first time in my life, I saw myself getting results and actually LIVING up to my potential. Not what OTHERS saw my potential as, but what I KNEW my potential truly was. I became a wrecking ball of action. It didn't matter what the task was or how long it would take because if it was a task on my path, then I would do it.
I stepped outside of my comfort zones, I completed entire lists of super hard tasks (super hard on a personal level), I actually disciplined myself to follow rigid structures and timelines, I saw myself achieving my goals every morning and every night, I woke up at 5 AM everyday so that I'd have just enough time to do what needed to be done, I hustled from 5 AM to 11.30 AM everyday straight for 15 days, I became absolutely obsessed with achieving my goals and stepping into what I wanted to do, I lived with a low-level of anxiety because I didn't know how ends would meet or how I would do certain things...
But you what the scariest thing about it all is? I loved every single minute of it and I'd go back to that lifestyle in a heartbeat.
For the first time in my life, I saw that I was making a positive change in my life. I SAW myself actually reaping the rewards of my actions, I literally SAW myself moving and accomplishing my goals. I actually stepped up in my life, and for that, I felt a level of soul-satisfaction that I had never felt before.
However, it was a VERY rough time, and because I felt completely overwhelmed, I stopped taking action. I felt that I was giving up everything that I had and that I wouldn't be able to ever get it back. In retrospect, this was just my mind playing tricks on me - I was actually achieving my goals...something I had never done on such a level before.
The most balls trippy experience about it all was that I wasn't able to properly "chill out" I was ALWAYS on. 24/7...I was ALWAYS ready to get things done, and I ALWAYS had to be doing something. I wasn't sure if this was "proper" for me to feel this way...but on the deepest level, I knew that it was the right thing for me to do.
But in that time period, I experienced SUCH a level of depth that I had never seen in life before. I saw that all things are one, and I understood that to live consciously and take right action is not as SIMPLE as it sounds, but it's something that you continuously keep digging in.
And oh my god, I experienced such thankfulness and gratitude for my "situation".
What is my "situation"? Well, I dropped out of college so that I could do blogging. I had written an article and my friends had really shown a lot of interest in it, so I decided to to take blogging up while I was here at the house. But, whenever I got back home and told my Dad about my plans, he actually didn't give me the financial support that I needed to get started. And I'm starting to realize that EVERYTHING I'm going through right now would be solved if I had the proper amount of money.
"Money can't be happiness, but not having money can get you really pissed off"
But even though he didn't give me money, I ended up doing something that HE wanted me to do: insurance. And at first, I thought that it was the BIGGEST load of ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ to begin with since I was already set on what I wanted to do, but once I got into it, I realized...HOLY ****...there is ALOT of money to be made here. And on top of that, I would NOT have to spend all my time working and I could actually accomplish what I want, get rich, align my passions and talents together, and really live my ideal lifestyle.
I experienced the greatest amounts of gratitude that I had EVER done in my life because I started seeing that I was at the GREATEST advantage in the world...I had NO liabilities what so ever in this world. I don't have a family to provide for, I don't have a girlfriend, I don't have to pay my rent, I don't have to buy food, I don't have to pay for ****. Basically, there is NOTHING to tie me down in this world, I have no obligations.
However, on the flip side, I have basically been living my last 18 years in a "The world provides for me, I don't have to provide for myself because everything else is handled for me" and all of college along with my June achievement burst period was a TRANSITION from that to a mindset of "I am a man, I take action, and I get things done in my life".
But this is the thing...I had sped up my mind and my consciousness to the point where the entire world was standing too still for me. I had become capable to do what I needed to do, I just didn't have the resources to take everything to the next step. I'm still at this great advantage of living with my parents and having everything provided for me, but I can't live here anymore...I'm sacrificing my personality, who I am as a person, and essentially living a life in prison when I'm here. I'm taking orders when I should be giving them, I'm becoming a little ♥♥♥♥♥ again, I'm letting others lead my life (and not in a good way either), I'm not taking action in my life, and I'm allowing my dreams to be trampled on by my parents, and anything that is in my way.
|07-30-2010, 04:54 AM||#47 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
I've learned that if I really want to do something...I'll do it. I don't care AT ALL what other people see as possible or impossible, because I KNOW that I'll get it done. Where other people have come short, I have ALWAYS succeeded.
I excel where other people come short. I excel at whatever it is that people fail to do. Where others fall short, I step up and stand tall. This is perhaps one of my greatest strengths. I've shown myself my entire life that it IS possible to do anything....and I mean ANYTHING. It's only a matter of if you want something bad enough and if you're willing to go all the way for it. What others have considered "impossible" or "too hard" to do, I have considered as "just right for me". I like a challenge and the reason I haven't been excited with my life is because I haven't been challenged except for few rare opportunities in my life. Even though opportunities ARE everywhere, there have been VERY FEW opportunities given to me by others that really required me to step up. So that's why I was just so ****ing bored in school, in college, and in a lot of things in my life.
The only times that I was truly "happy" with myself were the times that I challenged MYSELF. I** had to give myself the challenges that made me all bothered and hott. Whenever I'm challenged, it's like I'm turned on and I just want to have sex with life. I want to make love to the world with EVERYTHING I've got. It feels very much in the same way when I'm penetrating a girl and I'm just going at it with EVERYTHING that I got for a couple of seconds or minutes at a time. In fact, whenever I'm challenged - and I mean TRULY challenged - it feels a lot like sex. Steamy, hott, raunchy, hair-pulling, name-calling, ass-slapping, screaming, and moaning sex.
Yeah...it's like I'm turned on by life and I'm "horny" to live my life. I just want to do it ALL DAY LONG and with EVERYTHING I got. It's an amazing feeling.
So what's holding me back from doing it?
1) I need something new to do. The old goals that I've set for myself are past and gone. There's only one that I can achieve and I don't think that it's going to be happening as of right now. It WILL happen, but not in the time frame that I set it as. So I need to get what I want to do. I have to write it out and actually decide that I'm going to do it. It has to be something that I WANT to do...I've gotta be convinced that I want to do it.
2) I've got to use my imagination, have some fun with it, and actually SEE myself being there. I've got to overwhelm my mind so that when I face the field, I can deal with anything that might be an obstacle. I've got to spend the necessary time to close my eyes and actually see where I want to be. The Universe makes it happen ever time that I close my eyes and see myself already at where I want to be.
3) I've gotta accept that achieving my goals might be uncomfortable. This entire "taking action" and "taking control of your life" thing is really new to me. I'm essentially CREATING MY LIFE...something that I've never really learned in school or even read about in depth, but I'm essentially becoming who I want to be. However, it's not going to be "comfortable" in the sense that it will be glorious rainbows, palm trees, beaches with bikini babes, and Handel Choruses everywhere. It's going to be a bit stressful, and I need to know that it's ONLY TEMPORARY. Although it MIGHT feel like it's killing me and that I'll never make it through, I need to keep facing my fears, get back into the ring, and keep stepping up even though it might hurt.
4) I've gotta remember that this is a MARATHON and NOT a Sprint. I've got to continue running, but not tire myself out too quickly. Before, I was hoping that I'd just sprint myself to my entire ideal lifestyle. And that would have been EASILY possible if I had the proper resources. However, without the money - at the time - I wasn't able to journey as fast as I wanted to my goals and they didn't happen when I wanted them to. The limiting factor of everything as of RIGHT NOW is simply money. This is THE ADVENTURE OF A LIFETIME...I'm on it...it's me and ONLY me, Alexander the Great baby. I'm in this for life...I get to live my life early. This is ALL pre-emptive midlife crisis treatment.
5) I've gotta remember that I've been down that path before...I know how it ends. I know what it's like to live a mediocre life where I'm not taking action, where I'm not moving towards my ideal lifestyle everyday, where I'm allowing others to make decisions for me. I'm no longer a little ♥♥♥♥♥. I'm over that. I'm a man now...whether I like it or not. I'm in charge of my life, I get things done, and I make decisions of what I want to do. I'm the CEO of my life and I hire and fire at will. I make decisions whether other people like it or not. EVERY SINGLE TIME THAT I HAVE ALLOWED OTHERS TO MAKE DECISION FOR ME, I HAVE ENDED UP UNHAPPY, PISSED OFF AT MYSELF, AND FEELING LIKE I'VE BETRAYED MY INTENTION. No one else can see what makes me happy, so it's up to me to follow what's inside me and follow it to no end. Keep going on what I standby no matter if the ENTIRE world is against me - I swear, this is the hardest thing in the entire world, but I know that it's my birthright to do. By being born on this earth, I was granted the right to take over my life, become in control of my destiny, to do something greater, to step up, to not care what others think of me, and to BECOME WHO I'M MEANT TO BE. Only I can walk my path, but I can bring others to walk beside me, but ultimately, I'm in charge of what happens.
(note: there's a difference between deciding to listen to someone else's advice and counsel versus allowing others to make life decisions for you)
6) Since I'm not going to be meeting women, partying every single night, and being around people 24/7 like I'm USED to doing all the time, I've got to find and do something that will still give me that emotional high, level of stimulation, and just fun that I'm used to all the time.
Something I learned is that Full belief doesn't come overnight. It is built up time over time. Most of the time, you can't see yourself where you WANT to be immediately, so you've gotta use your imagination. Imagination = faith, and it creates the ability for you to do something. If we have the desire to DO something, then we CAN do it. In my opinion, you don't have "full belief" that you've done something until you've actually done it. And even then, everything changes. It's difficult to articulate right now, but this is what I've learned:
**Every action and thought that we have either brings us closer to full belief or degrades whatever full belief is already there** - this isn't built up overnight, but is built up overtime. Perhaps the SECOND that we have full belief is the second that something manifests in our lives - just a theory about manifestation that I have. And we can STILL take action even though we might not FEEL as if though we have the full capacity to do something.
In fact, every time that I have ever done something new, there has ALWAYS been a minimal amount of fear in my body. Mainly because it's new and I don't know how to do it. But, I trust in myself and my faculties so much that the fear is replace by action and I build that full belief for myself.
The most important distinction I've ever made: Getting something in life only depends on ONE thing: how badly you want it.
Whenever you TRULY want something...and I mean TRULY want something...with all your heart...it consumes you and you think about it 24/7 to the point where it literally becomes a part of your soul and your being and personality, THEN we're able to do some amazing thing and really bring out the best in ourselves. THIS is when we start to challenge ourselves, THIS is when we start to grow, THIS is when we start becoming who we're meant to be.
When this happens, we realize that there was NOTHING holding us back but us. We're the only constant in this game.
I'm Alexander the Great, the world is my playground, and I live how I want. I do what I want, when I want...♥♥♥♥♥.
|07-30-2010, 06:07 AM||#48 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
So, now that I've written that post, I can literally feel the flame starting back in my soul. I'm back right now, but I need to take the action steps that I necessary to get my momentum back.
The one thing that I MUST*** handle is money. I've got to get money.
"Having money won't make you happy all the time, but not having money is bound to piss you off everytime" - that's my personal quote about that. It's time that I start actually 1) Looking for a way to develop some working income for me and start making some money to begin cash flow in my life. 2) I've got to start setting up passive income in order to become financially free.
Financial freedom = winning the money game
Winning the money game = passive income > ideal lifestyle.
I've already established that my ideal lifestyle would cost somewhere around 200K - and this includes ALL of the traveling, adventures, and fun that I want to do in my life.
I'm going to spend some time listing out 10 things that I want to do by Dec 31, 2010.
I can get these things done right here, right now
Reading Genius - Tuesday, August 31
ASO Chorus - Sunday, August 15 / 5 PM
Perfect Pitch/Relative Pitch - Tuesday, August 31
Vocabulary - Sunday, November 7, 2010
Start a Business
17th Street Lofts
Hotseat - Thursday, September 2, 2010
Get a motorcycle
Bulk the **** up
Go to Spain - 3 Mo's. Learn Spanish, Spanish immersion
Go to Australia
Piano Bootcamp - Australia
Learn to Argentine Tango in Argentina
Go to London
The year of Game - travel all over the world. Starts at Summit, ends at Summit.
Bootcamp every single month - the 365 day international challenge
Write "The Book"
|08-09-2010, 07:57 AM||#50 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
So I was just reading some of my journal entries and damn, I was getting pretty bothered and hott. I see how the motivation that I had to do everything mainly stemmed from one thing: imagination. Everytime that I imagined my life the way that I wanted it to be, I took action the next day. Whenever I stopped visualizing, I stopped taking action.
Everytime that I imagined myself already achieving my goals, things happened and I took MASSIVE ACTION - more action than I've ever taken in my life. The only thing was, I had to know EXACTLY what it was that I wanted. There was no "wishy washy" aloud. It was EXACT things with EXACT dates, and I just needed to see myself having already achieved my goal. From there, my mind would serve as the GPS to get me to the location that I needed to be.
During that time period, I took more action than I ever have in my life. I ended up doing some really amazing things, and I just blew away all perceptions about working than I ever had.
What slowed me down then?
Simply put, money. I couldn't achieve everything because I didn't have the money. I didn't have enough money to get started, and I didn't have enough to keep going. I aimed for the moon, but forgot that I have to buy the Apollo rockets to get there first, lol.
In the past 2 months, I've been on an epic adventure. I've been more places in the past 2 months than I have in the past year. I've been traveling from city to city, I've met a variety of new people, made some new friends, passed a ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ of tests, done some things that absolutely blew my mind, flew on more airplanes than ever before, done a lot on my own, felt motivated beyond all belief, and just really wanted to get stuff done.
Also, in the past 2 months, I've just wanted to throw it all away, just give up completely, and stop working on my goals because they seem like I can't achieve them because I don't have the proper amount of money to get started. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes, but more than anything, I feel like I've lost a lot of my independence.
However, the worst thing about the choices I've made is that I'm stuck here living with my parents again. I'm forced to become a little ***** again, to take orders, to do **** that I don't want to, and allow other people to have a heavy influence on my life. I feel as if though I've lost a lot of my independence because I can't do what I want, when I want anymore. I have to come back to the reality that it costs money to do things, that life isn't 100% free, and that I've got to come up on my own.
If I'm going to do this, then I've got to find a way to get completely independent. I've been trying to do this since Senior Year - I remember making plans for myself to leave my parent's house and move out on my own since I was 18. I just want to live the party lifestyle - beautiful women, fun, and parties. I want this to balance out with whatever else I'm doing, business, etc. But the main goal I have is to just become self-sufficient.
It's hard because my Dad is so set on just making money in a certain way. Sometimes I ask myself, "You know, is he just doing this so he can act busy, or is he doing all this to make money?"
I don't want to tell my Dad that I don't want to do adjuster's simply because we've gone too far. If I make money off of it for a little bit, then I'll have my startup funds from that and everything will be dandy. I just need the money to get started. Once I have enough to get this started, then I KNOW I'll be able to make it work. I just need to get enough money to get it started.
I think I'll tap on this simply because it doesn't seem normal for me to be stressed out over money and just down about it all the time. It sucks being home, but the greatest thing about it is that my expenses are non-existent. I don't get to do as much being here at home, but at least my expenses are non-existent.
I truly believe now that Insurance is the best possible industry for my skills. I love people and I love helping people. This helps me leverage my social skills along with making money. The more I help people, the more I earn.
Insurance isn't really about the product, it's about creating a relationship based on the common interest to eliminate risk. I might be young, but I'll tell you...I've got a heart of gold and I know it. I'll go to as far as I need to in order to make sure that a person is well-taken care of. I will show people that they can't get this type of service anywhere else, and I'll make sure that I can spread good-will through my actions so that maybe they can pass it on.
For a little while, I'll be doing everything. All the calls, all the driving, all the selling, etc. However, I'm going to get some agents of my own, train them well, and outsource anything else that they can't do. I'm in this in order to build an ASSET, not something that is going to take up all my time, money, and energy.
I realized that the reason I could never get a "job" is because I value my time so much. Every time that I do a task, I'm trying to figure out "what is the best way to get this done so I can maximize my output while minimizing input?" It's not a lazy way, and it's not a traditional way, it's just a smart way. That's one of my strengths, I'm always on the lookout for the BEST things.
Most of the time, good enough...is good enough. But there are somethings that just need to be done in excellence. Maximizing the most out of my time is one of them.
Quite honestly, I haven't even thought into my 30's. I've just been thinking about the short-term future, and my early 20's. I think that age 25 is the farthest I've thought about my life so far. A little myopic, but this is how I'm viewing it: If I work now, large amount of money, AND ALSO, enough residual income through life insurance renewals, then I'm totally up for that.
That's another reason why I love this industry, I get paid upfront and also in the future. Because I know I have the energy to get this done, if I could sell enough policies that I could make anywhere between 200-500K in "passive" income a year, then I'd be set and for a little while, I'd just work on maintaining all the clients that I have on the books.
I want to spend these next couple of years learning and exploring. I want to live a truly adventurous life of travel, seeing the world, learning new languages, meeting beautiful women, exploring different cultures, and just spending time away from home.
I want to spend these years getting centered within myself and seeing the endless possibilities of life. Yes, I want to live on the wild side and do party things, but I don't ever plan on drinking - alc puts a damper on my personality. Also, I know that drugs are a big no-no. I'm glad that I at least learned that bit in Christian Schools - a sliver of positive social conditioning that I've learned in my life.
I want to be rich. I want to be able to buy what I want, when I want, without having to worry about "do I have enough money?" Sure, I might live a life of excess for a little while, and I might even indulge in some heavy consumersm. But I know that at the core, I'll eventually get tired of all that and there will be a period where I just weed out anything and everything that I don't need in my life.
Whenever I browse online, looking at all the things that I want, I look at them in more of a lusting sort of way. Right this second, I can't buy them. But just not yet. I know that the money is coming as long as I keep moving towards it every single day. After it does come, I'm going to make sure that I manage it and put it in my money jars.
I debate on whether or not I should become financially free vs. making a lot of money. But T Harv Eker put it down there simply..."Win the money game first, THEN go for gravy"
I'd rather rent than own a house. I found the best possible apartment in Atlantic Station for me. I know that it's the right one because I saw it a couple of years ago and said, "This is EXACTLY where I want to live". It's close to clubs and bars, great nightlife, GREAT stuff to do during the day, close to a retail district, VERY close to the Arts District, and probably have enough space for me.
I'll spend a lot of money getting it soundproofed - it won't cost THAT much, but the quiet will be worth it to me. I'll have my piano it there so that I can play whenever I want. I'll have everything that I want there.
Fun day tomorrow. Bed
|08-09-2010, 02:23 PM||#51 (permalink)|
Join Date: Apr 2009
You are one very insightful person dude.
Many people out there don't even know such levels of excitement and motivation are possible, only because they've never seen it before. For every person like you, there are hundreds of others, but they only "flare" up with passion for a passing moment, and absolutely stop following up at all, resulting in the popular view that passion is fleeting.
I think what you're doing with this thread in particular is great because:
1. People are exposed to a passion that they probably don't see everyday.
2. By posting on this thread, you are cementing your learnings and solidfying them in your head.
3. You can look back at your previous entries, and extrapolate new information.
Keep posting dude, and good luck on where ever life takes you.
|08-10-2010, 02:23 AM||#52 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
It's like, whenever I'm truly on my path - I've set something out that I want and I'm working on it...the entire world stands still and I just feel this sense of completeness and fulfillment KNOWING that I'm on the right path.
And the best thing about it: it's the only time that I go to bed knowing that I've done everything in my power to bring about my desires.
To describe the feeling of that motivation as "burning desire" would be an understatement. It's like, whenever I'm this motivated, I've basically BECOME what I'm trying to achieve. The rest of the world becomes dull - the superficial stuff that is - and I just get all my pleasure from working and moving towards my purpose.
It's a feeling of connection like nothing I've ever felt before...
|08-10-2010, 03:34 AM||#53 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2010
This thread has been very inspiring read.
|08-10-2010, 05:54 AM||#54 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Yeah, this has REALLY been the absolute most balls-trippriest thing about this entire deal.
I remember for about 2 weeks, I would wake up at 5 AM, visualize from 5.15-6.15 AM in REALLYYY in depth detail about my day, my future goals, etc. Then, I would go throughout my day, and I would just get monster amounts of work done. After I was done with my day and before I went to bed, I would often visualize for about 1 hr and my vision would only get STRONGER and MORE DETAILED.
I'm not going to get all woo-woo right now, but I could really feel myself attracting what it is that I wanted into my life. I was basically asking for miracles and I got them. I needed the Universe to open up the floodgates of abundance and knowledge, and it did.
I solely visualized myself getting from my exact position to my desired goals and getting there with everything falling in place.
I have no clue what I'm typing as I'm pretty tired, but I will say this...
I got inspired to visualize because Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich" addresses the topic of Imagination and Faith and says that your imagination is really the starting point of all riches.
Now, I'll just spit some theory out and then head to bed. These are just my own observations and experiences:
Everytime that I visualized, I literally felt myself connected to my goals and desires and already having achieved them. This in turn gave me this "burning desire" that I talked about in a previous post and really made me focus on what it is that I wanted most in my life.
Because my plan lasted about 3 months, I couldn't exactly see my way 100% to the end, BUT I was able to get crystal clear advice (possible from a higher intelligence than my own) on what to do the next day. I NEVER got more than one day in advanced of "instructions" and I really had just some amazing forces PUSHING me to action.
Everynight, I just imagined myself taking the proper and necessary actions for the next day and nothing beyond that. I think that this was the SOLE reason I was able to pull 14+ hours of really hardcore action.
Did I burn out from it? Not really, I just kinda got scared. I think I hit a personal success barrier and I was freaking out. I was pretty much living with a strong current of anxiety in my body most of the time, but it was the adventurous type of anxiety - the anxiety that you get before you're about to do something fun like go down a rollercoaster or go skydiving.
But I truly believe that Imagination is the starting point of everything. I believe in it enough that I'm going to visualize again tonight and set some new goals for myself. Alot of my goals have "expired" but not all of them, it's time for me to make some new plans and get some new objectives.
What are your experiences with visualizing? I'd be glad to hear anything that you've got that makes you more effective at doing it, etc.
Thanks for the comment!
|08-10-2010, 06:57 AM||#55 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Okay, after writing that last response, I realize that I'm going to set some things out for myself and just see how far I can push the envelope. If I crash, then I crash, but I'm going to give it whatever I got. I remember that everything has to be DETAILED and SPECIFIC.
1) Signed up with all Life and Health Carriers - Wednesday, August 11, 2010. Why do I want to sign up with all these life and health carriers? Well, I know that it will take a lot of time filling out those applications, but it is completely worth it. The sooner I get signed up and do what I need to do, the sooner I can get out there and start selling for money. The ball is really in my court for this one.
2) Finished Ed Strachar's Reading Genius Course - Thursday, August 12, 2010 Why do I want to actually finish the Reading Genius course? Well, I know that RG has innumerable benefits towards anything that I'm trying to do, but it would just be really awesome to read a lot faster than I currently do so I'd be able to remember books and enjoy literature a lot more.
3) Have in my Possession or at least bought Russ Jones's Ultimate Insurance System - Friday, August 13, 2010. This is going to be the lifeblood of my business. This is going to be a MUST if I choose to even go pro with this. No one else is doing this - at least not as well as I could be doing - and I know that I'd really be able to get **** done here. I need ideas for my business, they are right in here.
4) Passed Atlanta Symphony Orchestra Chorus Auditions - Sunday, August 15, 2010. Why do I want to pass my auditions? Well, first of all, I love chorus. It's simple. I've been singing since youth and I'm going to do it for the rest of my life. It's something that I'm passionate about - I've always got tones playing in my head, and I'm always singing.
5) 300 (HotSeat)+50(Free Tour)+2500 (Rent)+500 (Business)+ 650 (Personal) = 4000 dollars by Saturday, August 21, 2010 - Why do I want $4000 - although this isn't the final amount of money that I want, this is enough to GET ME STARTED. I could REALLY get the "ball of my life" rolling with just this amount of money. These are the things that I need to do ASAP and I know that this would be an adequate amount of money for me to get everything that I need.
6) Signed lease on my apartment in Atlanta - Sunday, August 22, 2010 - Why do I want to sign this lease? Well my dream apartment becomes available on the 21st. I'd spend that time checking it out and this day actually signing the lease. I'd just make sure that it's really as hyped up as they make it in the pictures, walk into there, and make sure that it's for me. I want this apartment because I'm tired of being here at the house. I love my family and all, but I'm tired of living with them. College showed me that I enjoy it SO MUCH more on my own...it's time to get my indpendence back.
7) Attend RSD HotSeat - Saturday, September 4, 2010 - Why do I want to attend HotSeat? Well, It's really simple. I want to learn to truly become skilled with women. I want to have a pure abundance of beautiful, solid women and become a truly attractive guy. No silly tactics, no routines or lines, just myself. This is going to show me part of the path that I've never seen before.
These are a kinda "scaled" down version of the original, but they are MUCH more focused and they have a greater chance of actually happening. I can feel these being already in my reach. The goals before were very ambitious and I could have gotten them done, but I wasn't able simply due to logistics.
Right now, everything is going to have to go like clock-work...taking action every single day, making sure that I'm not playing around, and doing what I need to do. I'm going to have to tell my Dad what the deal is and that I don't actually plan on staying here. I've stopped caring about what he says about things...it's time for me to get my full independence back. Everything that I'm doing is VERY manageable and I'll make it work. If I work at fullspeed, giving EVERYTHING that I've got, then the Universe is going to have to keep up.
Adventure of a Lifetime.
|08-13-2010, 05:09 AM||#57 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
So I DID complete my applications today, but I didn't finish up Reading Genius. I'll probably have Ultimate Insurance System in little bit, but I've been sightreading my ass off the past couple of days and preparing for my solo. Gonna call the guy and figure out exactly what my audition entails.
Today, I got a call from my Dad that said these things were NOT going to happen...that we were basically going to pull out of Insurance and go to something less profitable. My inner response was pretty much "hell no", and I UNDERSTOOD that this was not even a temporary defeat, but simply a TEST from the Universe.
I wrote a letter, to my future manager, but I don't think I'll post that....I might...I'll think about it.
But this is the amazing thing about everything. One of my greatest qualities is that I hear a "no" and I say, "Is this really a no? Or just a test of my persistence?" Most of the time, it's just a test. Sometimes I pass the test, but sometimes I don't. Today, I definitely passed.
What I plan on doing is going to require alot of courage - I'm going to have to face some people over legal issues. This COULD end out pretty bad, but even the worse-case scenario is something that I could live with.
The fortunate thing about my position is that I've got nothing to lose and everything to gain.
A quote I made today, "I'd rather risk it all and lose everything than risk nothing and gain nothing".
I'm a risk-taker. Sometimes a bit obsessive? Yep, but what type of risk taker would I be if I wasn't?
I feel the next two weeks are going to be pretty abundant....
The nimbus is raging inside me once again....
|08-15-2010, 01:27 AM||#58 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Today, one of the bravest steps in the entire deal was taken...
This is happening, I move closer and closer to what I've been dreaming of every single day.
It slowly crystallizes with every step that I take.
There is NO way that this could NOT happen.
|08-15-2010, 10:53 AM||#59 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
Right now, I'm just pretty ****ing excited about everything. SO MUCH so that my mind is racing and I can hardly contain my enthusiasm about what is about to occur....
This is happening. Like this is actually happening. I know that things are going to occur in the very nearby future that are just going to absolutely rock my world. The actual part of getting people to work together was actually a lot easier than I thought. My father wasn't the "big bad wolf" that I had portrayed him out to be in my mind. It was pretty easy talking to him and I actually ended up with him giving me full support to do what I need to do.
I have a feeling that everything is going to work out pretty soon. The ONLY thing that I want to absolutely do is make sure that I can get this rent working out BEFORE I actually start doing things. Supposedly, there's a plan that allows me to pay just 78$, and I can have the apartment for the month. I know that 30 days from now, I'll have the money that I need to pay for rent EASILY, so I just need to make sure that I get signed up as much as possible.
I feel like the little kid about to unwrap presents Christmas morning. For the first time in a while, I'm seeing my entire plan come together, and I would have never been able to have forseen it any other way...
Maybe because I had SO MUCH focused on the date of August 18th, and it was heartbreaking that I knew I wouldn't be able to attend my bootcamp, the Universe gave me something much greater than I could have ever asked for and introduced me to a person that I would have never met otherwise.
Regardless, I'm still gunning with 100%.
This is going to work. How do I know? Because the last time, I did NOT have anyone to help me out. Yes, I had my Dad paying for everything, but I had no MENTOR, and in this business, someone with the experience is KEY. I'm sure that I could learn the industry, learn how to sell, and really learn how to make money in a short amount of time from him. If I were to have learned everything on my own, then it probably wouldn't have gone so well. I'm sure I would have EVENTUALLY made money, but not enough to achieve what I'm trying to do.
|08-15-2010, 07:53 PM||#60 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2008
So when I wrote that, I didn't even sleep. Right now, I'm running on 4 hours, but I feel perfectly fine...
Everything has been working out nicely. I'm about to leave for my Chorus audition. I've pretty much prepared as much as I possibly can - sightread my entire sightreading book, prepared and sung my solo countless time.
So basically, this is happening.
Everything is coming together....
75 days ago, who would've known that it would end up this way?
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