Work frustration thing...

[StewieGriffin]

I’m trying to identify one problem so I can fight it. I read Steve’s articles from time to time, they are quite good, and so I finally get to this forum. I saw a lot of positive thinking here, cool people I think, so here I am…

What to do when work you love becomes a frustration? I mean, you do something, sometimes okay, sometimes not – it’s the normal path of the process of learning and growing professionally. But, at some point I figured out, all that love and passion is somehow almost lost! I feel huge anxiety when I try to work… When I need to sit down and make a detailed plan, to think, to gain new ideas (something I always enjoyed), I now feel paralyzed. I find dozens of excuses not to work, to think… I can’t sit down and work, and then I give myself a burst in the last minute, where I work hard (and enjoy the process), but it’s often under my real potential because of lack of time and more thinking. Considering my work, I’m sometimes successful and sometimes not (yet, I am still wannabe in my profession, putting everything I have to my work and ideas, to learn and grow), as I already said, but…is it possible it is all about fear of making bad work? How do you call this state, when you feel fear, frustration, anxiety and pain when you are fighting yourself to work something you LOVE? I am currently broke, but things are becoming better. I was thinking maybe that is what’s bothering me? But no, I was broke before, but did not feel that block when trying to work, I WAS passionate and more dedicated…

Any thoughts people? What is it? Anxiety? Fear? Lazyness? Help me identify the problem so I can eliminate it, and finally feel joy when I work… Most of the time I try, and try, and fight with myself, and then finish something in short time, and then again I am fighting with myself, and so on… All the love and happiness is gone… whyy…