Apathy attack - Instinct vs intellect

[AnonyMouse]

I have a problem, which seems to be rooted in a conflict of Instinct and Intellect. Steve calls them concious and subconscious, another blog called them operating system and software, but instinct and intelect seem to be the most accurate.

My instinct is lazy, and in general all it seems to want to do is go to sleep. e It always leads me to avoid things like, homework, social interaction, and sometimes even video games, all of which my intellect enjoys (yes, even homework). While it can never overpower the intellect side of me, it still tends to win, and i just go to sleep/take a nap/sit and listen to music. and all of this time, my intellect is saying, this is wrong, look at what i could be doing, i would really love to do ... But in general, unless there is a pressing issue, instinct will win out. and i will just sit there, while my intellect keeps thinkin away, churning away at problems which i used to think about while biking.

I can see in this instinct, the pre-PD version of me, and it is weighing me down. A while ago, my instinct and intellect were aligned to the goal of getting a fast computer, and i now have a computer at the very high end of performance, which i got for a reasonable price, after all the research i did. But now my intellect wants to move on and enjoy the computer, while my instinct wants me to keep looking at computer parts, overclock for performance i wont use, and latley, look at laptops which i wont be getting

So, when i look at the instinct side, which essentially wants to do nothing, it is as though it is suicidal. But my intellect side has goals and ambitions, which get put off in order to slack. Can anybody suggest how i might get out of this situation, i have started intention manifestation, because i still ave complete control over my thoughts, and it should help, but could this be some sort of in-congruence between my goals and purpose or something like that. when i did the find your purpose in 20 minutes thing, 15 minutes in i had nothing to write. and i just decided on a major purposeful goal that did not make me cry.

I would really appreciate any help or suggestions, now, off to sleep