30 Day Challenge - Be more loving

[Grandiouse]

Day 28, 29, 30

Happy month of June! So I ended the challenge a little earlier than expected. I did not update for the full 30 days even though I tried to do my best to be loving. I had some break through moments like acknowledging my mother for looking out for me even though I disagreed with her criticisms and was really angry because of them. I also apologized to a friend for something I did a more than a year ago. I ended up going to the Los Angeles area for the week and my computer access was limited. I was also distracted by the city as I went out and explored all of the area of the county.

Throughout the challenge, what I learned was that being more loving is a conscious decision. During the heat of emotions, it is very easy to go unconscious and to not be loving. This is especially true with emotions like anger, jealousy, or overwhelm. But even if one is not loving during the heat of the moment, you still has a choice to be loving afterwards and to do what’s right - whether it be to apologize or to acknowledge your part in the situation. It is all about putting the destructive ego aside and using the ego for a good purpose at that point.

Overall, it was a very good challenge. It’s definitely something that I want to implement into my life for the long run. As they say, what the world needs is more love. I think taking on this challenge kind of woke me up to the idea of what love does for me on a daily basis.