why i can't i let myself escape?

[GrGrimm]

I had promised myself "no more call center jobs." They bore me; they kill my soul and my creativity. That was two years ago before the unemployment was about to run out, and I went for a job making more money that i ever made before. And now, I'm still dumping my time into "Toxic-Mobile" customer service. What would've made it sufferable was a training position that wouldve got me off the phone a couple weeks a month. So, I got my "scores" up for about a year until i felt i could actualize it into existance. I applied, and yesterday they took me into a room to tell me they were passing for now. So, i got out of the room with composure, but ended up crying (again) because the idea of getting back on the phones (and having ppl yell at me because of their bill) was too stressful. I feel like I am stuck in some sort of prison for my mind, and I want to just quit, but I don't know how to just take the leap into the unknown without any unemployment checks. I have a wealth of other talents, and I've read this site backwards and forwards, so I know for my sake i need to quit eventually. But should I plug away for a few more months and get some money saved, or do what i really want to do and just not show up again?

[David Cain]

If you really hate it, I would find something else immediately. Anything else, even if you take a pay cut. You'll survive... don't forget there are always other people subsisting on less money.

It's too costly to do work you really hate; it taxes your mood, your self-esteem and your outlook on life. I can't imagine working in a call center and would not do it for any amount of money.

What is it you really want to do? Even if you can't do that now, is there any entry-level job that would give you a chance to develop the skills you will need to do what you want for a living?

If you are within leaping distance of doing what you really want to do, I say take the leap. Things have a way of working out when you are following your passion.