Dear Steve and everyone else

[KevinJay]

I wrote this before seeing that I couldn't email Steve directly with personal help questions. So I posted it here in hopes of others maybe giving me some advice. Many thanks in advance! -Kevin


Dear Steve,

First of all I just wanted to say thank you for such a wonderful free gift you have given to many people, your personal development blog and website. It amazes me the wealth of knowledge that you have and are willing to share with everyone!

I just wanted to email you because I have a problem. I know I should be talking to someone I know about this but to some degree I am embarrassed to tell anyone. I don't know if it's a pride thing or what but if someone were to know I would feel so small. I'm 20 years old still living with my parents. I dropped out of high school and am not working. Basically I'm just mooching off my parents and am not doing anything productive. For some reason I have no drive to get out of the house and finish/start school or find a job. I know I have to but every morning I get up and find a reason why I don't need to or better yet I will just block it out.

I have a girlfriend who is working and in the beginning it made me incredible jealous and it almost made me get up off my butt and get a job. But, even that didn't work in the end.

I think I may know why I am this way. Whenever I go out in public I get really shy. I keep to myself and I get nervous. However, when I'm out with friends or my girlfriend or anyone I know, that falls away and I'm completely comfortable. I think that is the reason why I won't go to school and finish up or walk down the street to find work. I also think it's more than just shyness. I have no drive. No motivation. But shouldn't I? I really want to move out of my parents house. I want to buy myself all kinds of expensive toys. I want to travel. Yet, I sit here not doing anything productive. I don't know what I want to do when I grow up and maybe that's making just stop here. I don't know.

I'm sorry for this long email and I'm sure you get thousands of these each day. I'm not asking you to totally turn my life around or provide a miracle. I just ask for a bit of advice and a point in the right direction. Do I need to work on something? I know my problems but I still can't do anything about it. Maybe there is another problem I am not seeing? Anyway thanks Steve, if you read this far I'm very grateful for it! I'm also very grateful for all the great things you do, not only for yourself but for many others! Please take care.

Kevin