School Issues. I need help

[air nomad]

My daily life composes of waking up, going to school, go home to do homework, and then I go to sleeping.(note:I'm a junior in High school) This happens every week day and has happened so far for this last whole semester. I don’t know how much more I can take before my mind brakes from this joyless existence. Once the weekend arrives I completely stop working and procrastinate from my homework, which I start on Sunday, but do not ever completely finish. This leads into a cycle where I am constantly playing catch up (which involves all-nighters for many of the days of the week ) with previous nights work. With lack of sleep, I tire and because I’m tired the cycle begins again once
the weekend comes.

I don’t know what to do.

I was thinking about dropping everything not done(homework) and to just start over, but the problem with that solution is what's going to prevent this from happening again? What if I slip up and this occurs again? The easiest thing I could think of would be to drop a class, but I really do not want to that because I made a commitment to myself and I know I have to potential to excel in these classes

I have plenty of time during the weekend to get things off my list, but I...just keep procrastinating, which is from I feeling so overwhelmed during the week. Because of I know I have plenty of time, I’m always somewhat angry and frustrated at myself because I’m not fixing this major problem I have. I know I should listen to the anger and frustration, but my overwhelmed feeling powers up my ability to procrastinate to the point where it more than enough to keep and cage my anger and frustration at the back of my head away from me to listen. This makes me feel like I'm constantly putting myself up to this pain. As if I was a masochist. I realize that everything I do is self-inflicted, so I don’t know why I am doing this. It's like I'm setting up the circumstances against myself on purpose. Because I know, this I don't understand why I'm not changing an why I'm not stopping my procrastination.

The classes this year, honestly, aren't much different from last year. The only real difference is the difficulty. Things just got harder when compared to last year, so also I don’t know if I should just grit my teeth and deal with this (referring to the homework. The problem I want to get rid of for sure.)

So I was wondering if would get some advice?

[Smiley]

If I understand your post, your greatest concern is that you feel as though you have too much to do, which is exacerbated by your tendency to procrastinate. Did I understand correctly?

[air nomad]

Yes, what you said is true. By week's end, it becomes really hard for me to resist procrastinating. I get physically worn out from the lack of sleep, mentally taxed from trying to keep up with my work, and emotionally pissy becasue I'm angry at myself for leting these problems get as far as they have. After weeks and months of doing this, I am fed up with it, so I want to change.

I've also told myself to be more reponsible of my actions, but I'm finding it near imposible to get past these issues to do so.

excuse my bad grammer in the first post

[Smiley]

Do you remember a time in your life--even for a day--when you felt productive and active in accomplishing your tasks?

[Lupe]

Take my advice and drop out of high school to start an online blog business--by the fact that it is much more lucrative, exciting, and motivating--you'll do much better on blogging than on schooling, and eventually you'll end up with more money and would have saved more time than if you went to college the wage-slave-factory and end up wasting your life on a job. So stop being on the

do well on school>>go to good college>>get a high paying job.

path.

go this route, short-cut:

start blogging today (first create an outline plan of your blog)>>put things of value and monetize it>>get out of the rat race as soon as possible.

Read what Ashley Qualls did.

[Victor Vikingr]

I understand exactly how you feel. It's not fun at all. I did this for most of the two first years of the Norwegian "upper secondary/high school" (I don't know if it's completely equivalent), but this year I finally realized (much thanks to Steve and one of my friends) that I should stop doing what other people thought were smart and rather do what I wanted to. Almost half-way into this semester, I went down to the counsellor (if that's what he's called) and told him that I wanted to quit maths and physics to start studying German instead.

I don't know how this works where you live, but it seems what you're studying isn't right for you. Maybe you should take Lupe's advice and start blogging. Do what you feel is right, though.

I wish you luck - nobody should have to be in your shoes! I know a few who are, though.

EDIT: By the way, is it work you have to do to get an evaluation in the subjects, or work you have to do to understand what's going on? If it's the latter, is it possible you could do only what's necessary to keep up with the subjects?

[Rapid]

air nomad,

Hang in there. Will you have a break from school around Christmas and New Year's Eve? Take time off during winter vacation and really just chill. Try some blogging for fun, if you wish.

I wouldn't discount formal schooling altogether, not until you take the time to explore your passions and figure out your life purpose (this will take some time, maybe a few years). If you're considering attending college, just know that you will have more freedom to take the classes that you want to take and a more flexible schedule to accomodate an on-line business, internships, club activities, partying, etc.

Having an on-line business at home may be lucrative for some, but it's not for everyone. For me personally, I thrive on face-to-face contact with people.

Remember that what you are going through is just part of your life journey (many of us have had the same/similar experience, sometimes more than once). If it helps, you can keep yourself accountable by posting updates to this thread.

Just some food for thought.