New Focus

[straysweeper]

Recently, I have been focusing a lot on my problems. Writing this now makes me realize that I assume by putting energy and thought into them solutions will arise, however my frustration seems to be breeding a form of writers block. Most of my thoughts are in my financial realm right now. As that one pillar is probably the worst and weighs on me the most. It is odd that when I got fired several months ago I was actually energetic, and kind of excited about the turn of events. I didn't use that energy to find another work, instead I thought of trying something my brother was doing. Where he made several thousand in a short time, I thought if I did it, I could get same results. Not true after he would figure in his cut. I used this as a way of avoiding the real problem and facing potential rejection in other areas. Now, after months of not doing anything, I feel inadequate for the jobs I want. Ideally, something during the normal daytime hours, that involves both learning, growth and problem solving and a decent ability to live built in.

I'm thinking perhaps I should focus elsewhere for a while, like getting back into the gym and running daily. (Though thoughts then lead to eating right so not to make myself sick).