I think I'm off-track

[laciemn1]

Summary: I am 18 years old. I planned to start a successful jewelry business but it's not working out and I don't feel the drive and motivation to put work into it anymore. I've quit my job, I don't go to college(I did for like one semester), don't have a car, live with my mom, AND my savings are running out pretty quickly.
--On the plus side, I'm actually not really depressed, I'm eating better, losing weight, exercising, and being a LOT more sociable than I was a year ago.

I spend my time IMing, general internet stuff(myspace, forums, etc), going out with friends, and playing Dance Dance Revolution, playing my guitar, or reading.

I want to find my passion or at least a direction. I feel this urge to either go off to college or get a job ASAP, but my mind keeps telling me that it's not really what I want. I don't know what I want!

I have many undeveloped interests and things I could probably be pretty good at. I'm pretty smart, independent, I'm not really lazy but I'm in a slump at the moment. There are so many things I could do, but it just seems like my days just keep slipping away! I'll wake up and my friend will want to hang out, I'll check the computer, talk to friends online, maybe go out somewhere, come home and play video games, I have plenty of free time but it just whizzes by before I get the chance to do anything. I don't know what exactly is my problem, I've been productive for months at a time, but it's completely stalled!


My vision: travelling around the world meeting all sorts of people, partying, being carefree and happy, attending festivals and concerts, and living that sort of lifestlye associated with big cities and entertainment.

My interests(things I could probably become skilled at): Photo editing, web design, photography, writing, business, self-improvement, music, playing the guitar, DDR, cooking, meditation, neuroscience, history, education, travel, people.

When I think of having a career in one of these things, I think I'd be happiest if
A) I have a lot of freedom
B)I am able to use my brain for creative things
C)I meet interesting people
D)I have experiences I wouldn't otherwise have.

Some things I have considered that I like the idea of are chef, college professor, flight attendant(when I'm 21), br-r-rain scientest, writer(an old childhood dream). The only thing I don't like the idea of is having to go to college for years to get a good job. I can't see myself doing that, it seems like such a waste of time!

Yet at the same time, it would be educational and I would probably make a lot of friends.


Help me decide what I should do with my life everyone, analyzing welcome!

I'm sure many people have similar experiences on this board.