Slow flow with relationship

[JesusJuice]

Hiya

I need some help on this one

I intended and attracted a man on the basis that it would be just on sex and if anything happened after to make us lead into something more meaningful than grate. This is just because I didn't want anything heavy from the word go as that would make me run a mile esp when I don't even know the person.

Anyways the good news was I got him ...well he came to me and I didn't think Oh that is the chap that I intended. It clicked much later. The whole event wasn't anything to write home about because we was both on guard and BUT really liked each other and was connected in some cool way. We was just going with the flow but I didn't ask him too many personal questions as I knew that he hated talking and has difficulty doing so. I made sure that i kept the questions related to his hobbies and work.

He made a few comments that I didn't like about women and how he saw them because of being hurt in his last relationship. He told me that they came last on his list for everything and in another breath he wanted to get married and have kids later down the line.

Anyways we planned to keep in contact by phone/text and see each other as and when we would find the time. I was a bit cold towards him in the morning but it was not directed at him but more that I couldn't sleep, he couldn't at one point either. The thing is I think we both got in deeper more we would like to admit. I did tell him this and after a few heated text messages, him pressing the wrong buttons, telling me he was by the sea over the weekend etc. for a response just to see if I was jealous. Of course I was and I said something very bad to him regarding his comments about women and understood why his ex of 6 years left him. In My text I did tell him that I was going to email him but done it a few days later as I was just going to forget about the whole event. He thanked me for the email and my apology but didn't want anything serious** because of my comment to him. Hey I didn't want anything serious** as I didn't know him. We still kept in contact but not by phone as I knew that he was still very angry with me but told me that he was OK to meet up only if we still had sex together. Well I didn't want anything more from him than that but could not understand WHY he still wanted to sleep with me if he hated me so much and also kept on going on about the serious* relationship bit. Then saying that he has no time, but wanted to make the time for me. I know that he has lots of female friends that he does sleep with but I don't care one bit. But what i didn't like was the fact that he wanted to make me jealous. Something which I found very childish, but then again he has a low self esteem.

Don't people just go with the flow esp. that we made it both clear from the start. it was just for fun! I wasn't even going to meet up with him because I thought he was just a player.

The weird this is that it felt that something was unfinished, We did make contact again via email and I told him that it's best to wait until he feels less angry with me. I did show a lot of remorse but I said stop as I'm not desperate. I have other offers from men like he has from women. I wouldn't normally put so much thought and time such matter.

My male friend told me that he wanted something serious from me but I didn't see that but then again why would he KEEP saying that he didn't want serious anything from me but yet was open to see me any time I wanted. I know people can just have sex with others for the sake of it but why would you want to see someone that pi$$ed you of when you have other women to choose from?

I'm I missing something here? Please do tell me, I don't get it!

I did mention that we should do one or two things together but it didn't warrent any get me out of here signs etc. He also told him that I was more than welcome at his place anytime...

I would also like to know what more can I do LOA wise???
The minute I let go and detach from the whole thing I get a text/email with all the Oh let me know when we can see each other but with no intention to speak on the phone.


The thing is I expect and believe MORE to happen from this all in the good sense but it can't feel it.

ANY thoughts good /bad????

Thanks in advance!

[JesusJuice]

I didn't notice but I'm not cut out for booty calls/friends with benefits relationships. I just had to put the little white surrender flag up this morning.

Well because I was'nt clear about what I wanted, so I just got want I ordered. I will swipe out all this maddess that happened and start again. Something meaningful, mutual attraction, love, trust, openness, adventure, warmth and able to commuicate with eachother about anything and everything.

I will make my list, intended it, let go and trust that it will be given.