Need to move, need new experience NOW

[cbreeze]

I'm done. Have had enough negative experiences which LoA has snowballed into more as I'm so inner/outer unhappy. Last stop? The ocean. Any encouraging words on how to attract motivation for goodbyes here, then find new home/friends/life pronto. Am so batterered/bruised emotionally w/all kinds of different losses here in this state that I need out and am lost in isolation only to focus on all heartbreaking stuff that i've attracted and am sad/angry. Need to pack up and move not knowing where to go to in CA. Can anyone send positive energy/words my way pls?

[Jenny]

Hang in there annah!

It sounds like you have a lot going on. I think it is okay right now to feel sad, overwhelmed and unhappy although I understand how uncomfortable those feelings are. Sometimes in life it is helpful to pull back a bit and re-evaluate. Maybe this is one of those times for you. Friends and a "life" will come with time and as your energy starts to return. I'll send you my best thoughts on the home situation though!

Take care!

[Angela]

I agree that washing away all your positive ions in the Pacific Ocean is a great idea. If I were you I would schedule myself a coastal adventure vacation so I could check out all the little beach communities in Southern California. The further away you get from L.A., the more affordable the living is. But each community has its own distinct personality and you'll want to make sure you mesh with the right one.

Learn to play beach volleyball!

[safiya]

Hello Annah

I have nothing helpful to say, only wishing you peace and quiet to sort things out in your head. I've had a few times in my life where I am as low as it's going to get and every time I have finally given myself the gift of space and thinking time to find a path through the difficulties...a sojourn to the sea sounds like a great place to start some healing.

Good luck Annah...sending you some calm.

Blessings

Saffy

[Ree]

Annah, I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time right now and I'll be sending good vibes your way.

May I suggest a book which meant a great deal to me? It's called "Gifts From The Sea" by Anne Morrow Lindberg. Not long at all, it's a warm, beautifully written book that I've read over and over again. My copy is literally dog-eared.

In it she says, "One is free, like the hermit crab, to change one's shell."

[Max Power]

Originally Posted by annah

I'm done. Have had enough negative experiences which LoA has snowballed into more as I'm so inner/outer unhappy. Last stop? The ocean. Any encouraging words on how to attract motivation for goodbyes here, then find new home/friends/life pronto. Am so batterered/bruised emotionally w/all kinds of different losses here in this state that I need out and am lost in isolation only to focus on all heartbreaking stuff that i've attracted and am sad/angry. Need to pack up and move not knowing where to go to in CA. Can anyone send positive energy/words my way pls?

It's not good enough and you're not done, it only looks like that. You're letting your perception trick you into thinking it's crap, but it's not true. Everything you need right now is inside of you including us

The game will keep running wether you sit there and watch it happen or wether you jump back in. Yes the score is crappy right now, but you've still got all the necessary skill to play and win.

You're evolving into something better, the crap in your life is like the struggle and strenght you need to build a cocoon for you to emerge out of into the most beautiful creature. That creature will always be a part of the old one, but it will be mighty and magnificent.

As painful as it sounds, all this crud that's happening is actually a good thing, you must not think it, you must know it, from this mess your world is only going to get better, don't think it, know it.

I want you to go and do something really selfish that you now will be really fun and enjoyable, forget the crud, forget the pain, screw that! Go and do something for you and you only and make it really good, it doesn't have to be anything big, but it has to be fun.

Then when you come back, you'll see it's not that bad, you're still in the game

Enjoy!
Max

[Acting Like Godot]

Originally Posted by annah

I'm done. Have had enough negative experiences which LoA has snowballed into more as I'm so inner/outer unhappy. Last stop? The ocean. Any encouraging words on how to attract motivation for goodbyes here, then find new home/friends/life pronto.

You do not need new friends. Not now anyway.

You need to learn to be your own best friend. To be happy with yourself. To be comfortable being alone with yourself, for a long time. To learn not to need anyone.

And then you will be ready for someone. Who will appear, as usual, when the time is right.

[jerome]

Believe in yourself annah!

You have more power inside of you than you can ever imagine possible. Don't look to others for strength, all the strength you need is inside you.

Then, once you have made peace with your self you will be ready to welcome in all the love that comes to you from the world. In the end, the solution must always be found within.

Remember that the Chinese simbol for crisis is made up of two other symbols: one for problem and one for opportunity. In every bad situation there is always a vital lesson to be learned, or perhaps a new door that opens up for us. We must look out for these signs.

Your worth as a person is not in your ability to avoid falling, but in your ability to get up again.

I wish you the best annah. Don't give up!!!

[Freelancer]

Every time I've experienced a similar situation it precluded a major shift in my thinking/personality (for the better) so well I'm happy for you.