Things fall apart?

[Angela]

Yeah. The great news is that *faking* being relaxed and trusting, by which I mean just going ahead and relaxing and trusting, even though you don't really have good reason to, helps your unconscious mind authentically feel relaxed and trusting, in an upward spiral of attraction.

Now, if there really is a wolf at the door, or you really do have to do something RIGHT THIS SECOND to get some money or you'll die, being on high alert might be a good idea. But I'll bet you have lots of moments when you're basically ok, right? You have enough to eat, there is no one at the door with an eviction notice, you have a blankie to keep you warm. Those are good moments to practice getting yourself into upward spiral -- into the vortex, as some might say. Practice while it's easy, and that'll make it easier to practice when it's more challenging.

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Angela

Yeah. The great news is that *faking* being relaxed and trusting, by which I mean just going ahead and relaxing and trusting, even though you don't really have good reason to, helps your unconscious mind authentically feel relaxed and trusting, in an upward spiral of attraction.

Y'know what's interesting about this is that I felt like I was really faking it real good. I spend a lot of time in perpetual crisis mode, but in general, hardly anyone, if anyone, would ever know it. I haven't talked about money issues here in a really long time (I don't think).

But . . . in this case, I guess I have to fake it to the universe, not just to other people. And boy. That's something different. That means I actually have to conjure up the actual feeling rather than just pretending.

Now, if there really is a wolf at the door, or you really do have to do something RIGHT THIS SECOND to get some money or you'll die, being on high alert might be a good idea. But I'll bet you have lots of moments when you're basically ok, right? You have enough to eat, there is no one at the door with an eviction notice, you have a blankie to keep you warm. Those are good moments to practice getting yourself into upward spiral -- into the vortex, as some might say. Practice while it's easy, and that'll make it easier to practice when it's more challenging.

Oh yes, at least half the moments are pretty content/peaceful/relaxed, and it's not an immediate crisis. It's the fear of an impending crisis that I keep feeling that I have to head off. So I spend an hour or two feeling content, and then zing -- "oh no it's going down to 38 degrees tonight and if this goes on much longer etc." Boy, I go all over the place with that one.

I have this weird mix of emotions, and have had for quite some time . . . believing things will be okay mixed with being afraid of impending crisis. And also, the idea of believing things will be okay, and then if they turn out not-okay, will get me in trouble, like moriarty raised the issue of being too complacent.

[Zenn]

Moonrambler, I think you are making it very clear that LOA works. Which is a good and reassuring thing. You know what you have been feeling and acting and what exactly got manifested. Why keep on the same way? Unless you want to continue your current state of being for whatever reason, or if you expect different outcomes from the same way of thinking and feeling and doing. Throw them all away. If you've been manifesting what you don't want, then you know you have to do the opposite to get what you want. And by "do" I mean "feel". Not fake feelings, but real feelings of what you wish to be at. When you fake, your awareness is still on your perceived reality. For a change, throw caution to the wind. Trust in abandonment and enjoy every moment you could, feeling you are exactly where you wish to be at. Put your awareness on your desired scenario and feelings, not the pending wolves and disasters your create in your mind. If you got the same result, at least you feel good and have fun meanwhile. What've you got to lose?

BTW, I don't get that people think to feel and act rich means to be a reckless spendthrift. Do you think that's how really wealthy people behave? Some appear to behave so but the truth is not what it appears. Some of them don't really have the wealth mindset and they lose it all. Some put on the public display as part of the image and "job requirement" so such spending is an investment. Also they are often sponsored and not spending their own money. Wealthy people know how to manage wealth and get good values for their money, be it material or psychological. No matter your wealth level, you have to relax, give, and enjoy the money. Living beyond your means, disrepecting money, or being attached to it will diminish your wealth.

[Reefs]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

Y'know what's interesting about this is that I felt like I was really faking it real good. I spend a lot of time in perpetual crisis mode, but in general, hardly anyone, if anyone, would ever know it. I haven't talked about money issues here in a really long time (I don't think).

But . . . in this case, I guess I have to fake it to the universe, not just to other people. And boy. That's something different. That means I actually have to conjure up the actual feeling rather than just pretending.



Oh yes, at least half the moments are pretty content/peaceful/relaxed, and it's not an immediate crisis. It's the fear of an impending crisis that I keep feeling that I have to head off. So I spend an hour or two feeling content, and then zing -- "oh no it's going down to 38 degrees tonight and if this goes on much longer etc." Boy, I go all over the place with that one.

I have this weird mix of emotions, and have had for quite some time . . . believing things will be okay mixed with being afraid of impending crisis. And also, the idea of believing things will be okay, and then if they turn out not-okay, will get me in trouble, like moriarty raised the issue of being too complacent.

Putting on a happy face sticker is not the way to go.

[AngelPsychic444]

Y'know what's interesting about this is that I felt like I was really faking it real good. I spend a lot of time in perpetual crisis mode, but in general, hardly anyone, if anyone, would ever know it. I haven't talked about money issues here in a really long time (I don't think).

moonrambler,
I do think the LOA works, so I'm not debating that point with you, but in conjunction with the LOA I think you should consider also trying to use some MBO's (most benevolent outcomes), where you ask your guardian angel for help with whatever crisis presents itself. Using MBO's can be a very easy solution sometimes, which I've proven to myself countless times, so I know they work. I know you're familar with the MBO thread but I'll put a link here for anyone else who's interested:

The Gentle Way: requesting most benevolent outcomes

There are more than enough testimonies in this MBO thread to give you all the proof you need, also if you list some of your problems I can come up with some MBO's for you to say so you can get started on this right away, and hopefully see some quick results.

Truthfully, in my own case, I can sleep easy at night knowing that my guardian angel can give me help with just about any crisis situation that presents itself, and my stress levels have gone way down, plus my positive attidude is given a much needed boost too.

[Moriarty]

moonrambler But I'm willing to play with the LoA stuff too, like vibrating with a frequency of abundance and all that.

Amen to that!

There seems to be some unpleasant gunk connected with all this. I'm not sure I create Things Fall Apart because I believe Things Fall Apart, but maybe I get something else out of it. Like -- this issue with the mortgage company -- I really don't want to have so much chaos in my life just to "stick it" to the bank, yet I listened to myself talk about about it and I know there's some vengeful glee going on there

Wow! fantastic! your already beginning to make head-way. Isnt it great when you have others as a sounding board to raise up crapola into your awareness? This is an example of my saying to you about the subconscious sabotaging Now that youve brought it to the conscious mind, you have the opportunity to now change your perspectives on it.

I also feel icky about this sense of entitlement I seem to have, that when I make things fall apart, somebody will bail me out. I'm actually amazed how many people continue to step up and bail me out of this or that

Ahhh..the safety net...

So to answer your question about what aspects don't fall apart -- well, most don't fall apart. I have a lot of very long-standing close relationships with people, for instance. I'm driving a car with nearly 300K miles on it. Even professionally, I've accomplished a great deal in a relatively short time and built upon what I've done previously.

It's the money situation (once again) and because of that, the house, where things are falling apart

What one feels internally, is reflected into their external world. Perhaps now is the time to look deeper into why you feel your 'falling apart' and work on that to change things round.

[moonrambler]

The episode with Reefs getting the boot and the ensuing discussion made some stuff bubble up for me, because there were some aspects of it I related to, although in a different way.

With Reefs, it was choosing to enter into a contract of sorts (becoming a member here and agreeing to follow the forum guidelines), then spending a fair bit of time rebelling against those guidelines and acting like the guidelines are out of line.

This reminded me of how I behave in my financial life. I can't get a handle on how this started, or if that matters (though it seems to) . . . but I approach finances that way. I enter into a contract of sorts and then I don't pay my bills on time. I owe everybody money because I always figure I can pay it back right away and then I can't.

Zenn asked where my focus was for three years. I'm not sure about three years, but looking at this year in particular, I can see that even though I did very well up until the past couple months, I could have done a lot better. It's like there's a complacency where I'm not compelled to accomplish at a certain level unless it involves a financial crisis. That's a reason, I think, that a lot of what I did wasn't "inspired action." I realized it was strange even while it was ongoing that I always had just barely enough to pay current bills, even if I hadn't consciously figured out what was due that particular week.

Now, though, it's taken a different twist, where I really don't have enough.

There also was one of those mind-bending coincidences involving the current Reefs thread in Fun & Rec. While this was going on yesterday morning, the discussion with the mods etc., I had been thinking of another incident with another member here earlier this year where I strongly advocated not banning this person, and there was a lot of discussion in the mod forum. I finally said I would watch the posting and ban this person if the behavior didn't stop. Le Roi said, "HA! You never ban anybody!" Which of course isn't true, but he knows I really, really hate doing it.

But I was well-pleased that the incident resolved itself and the person even apologized in the thread and has done very well here ever since.

So I got mind-bended when I got an automatic e-mail about a response to the previous thread in question, that I had subscribed to in order to keep an eye on it, and it hadn't been posted in since spring. It's like I conjured up that thread . . . not sure why . . . maybe just a reflection of my thoughts, or maybe showing me that sometimes it does work out.

Perhaps weirder yet, it actually had been posted in a couple times this month, but I never got any automatic e-mails on it until today.

[Zenn]

It sounds like you have been working away in your chosen path, without focusing on the results you really want. If you don't have the finished sculpter constantly in your vision, all the chipping, chiseling and carving won't bring about a piece of art, or at least a good product. You are really working the hard way, instead of putting the LOA to work for you, showing you far better ways. Insisting on the "how" is always the hardest way, not getting you what you desire most of the time. Focus on the outcome and let it actualize, seizing opportunities and taking inspired actions along the way. It's a different feeling. Much more enjoyable instead of hard work you make yourself do, reluctantly but on auto pilot without revision.

I just read Neville's Sound Investments today, in which he was informed of and analysed the message his wife received in her dream: You must stop spending your thoughts, your time and your money, for every thing in life must be an investment.

Let you and me both start investing our thoughts, time and money. May things come together for you miraculously and joyously.

[moonrambler]

What I don't get is how to magically get phone bills paid while doing inspired action, rather than generating a more guaranteed income. Yes, I keep looking at the small picture, but it's been hard for me to look at a bigger picture when everybody wants me to pay them the money I owe them. Imagine that!

[Zenn]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

What I don't get is how to magically get phone bills paid while doing inspired action, rather than generating a more guaranteed income. Yes, I keep looking at the small picture, but it's been hard for me to look at a bigger picture when everybody wants me to pay them the money I owe them. Imagine that!

Exactly. Imagine that!

Have you tried it, imagination, with real belief? Obviously your more guaranteed income has not been enough, so what will hurt with adding some imagination? If you accept and insist what you have been doing is the best way to resolve your problems, then there is no point for you to be here. Instead of wasting time complaining, you should go put in more time in your income generating activities. Work harder until you are satisfied with the outcome. That makes sense, right?

[moonrambler]

That last post wasn't complaining, it was asking. I truly do find this confusing.

[Zenn]

Everything you write about show LOA works but you haven't fully use the power of intentional manifestion. You have been untintentionally manifesting very successfully. What you believe keeps showing up to prove you right. What about changing your belief for a change, even if it goes against your current belief so it's confusing? IM is all about belief and faith in what is not currently perceived as reality, or as possible.

Maybe you can start from scratch to build such faith by intending something insignificant you can be detached about. Small successes in IM may convince you to have faith in what is to you a major issue in your life.

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Zenn

Everything you write about show LOA works but you haven't fully use the power of intentional manifestion. You have been untintentionally manifesting very successfully. What you believe keeps showing up to prove you right. What about changing your belief for a change, even if it goes against your current belief so it's confusing? IM is all about belief and faith in what is not currently perceived as reality, or as possible.

Maybe you can start from scratch to build such faith by intending something insignificant you can be detached about. Small successes in IM may convince you to have faith in what is to you a major issue in your life.

This is straying away from the main idea, which isn't a need to manifest small things to build faith, but to figure out why -- with the IM lens -- I manifested better success than ever before at finances, only to manifest it falling apart several months later.

I think we've gotten a pretty good handle on the psychological dynamics behind some of that. Then I introduced a new one, which is why wasn't I even more effective, when I certainly should have been able to? I think it's because I wasn't inspired. Not creatively. My goal has been to pay back all the money I owe, but having to keep doing something that could drag me down sometimes (I used to think the word "enervating") made me less than effective, especially because it's not like I'm going to a job and getting a regular check. I have to be disciplined to make it work.

I think that also built into resentment against the organizations I was having to send large amounts of money to, building into further resentment at the one in particular being unwilling to work with me the way I want them to.

Now, when I sit here back in a similar situation I was at before, after making some really good headway, I wonder how to get into something more inspiring. But I don't feel like I can just say "I quit." Because if I say "I quit," won't they come and shut off the phone?

So then I think, is it a matter of continuing to generate income at the work which can get enervating, while holding in thought the more perfect work I can do? Or, is it a matter of just dumping the enervating work altogether and trusting that the universe will see to it that they don't shut the phone off?

Does that make sense?

[Criseyde]

Just a question... is the phone bill meant to be a synecdoche for all your bills, or is it actually the phone that is going to get shut off? And if it's the latter, is it really the end of the world if it does? I think, if I were in your situation, I would let the phone go -- it's easier and probably energetically better than worrying and stressing about it. You can just get a pre-pay cell for like $15 that you can use if you need to call 911, right?

[moonrambler]

The phone bill is sort of a symbol of everything else, such as, how long can I live without a decent source of heat in this house. But, the phone bill is immediate. It is with an Internet package and there's only one DSL provider out here. Otherwise I'd have to get satellite which costs more and is less reliable.

[Criseyde]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

The phone bill is sort of a symbol of everything else, such as, how long can I live without a decent source of heat in this house. But, the phone bill is immediate. It is with an Internet package and there's only one DSL provider out here. Otherwise I'd have to get satellite which costs more and is less reliable.

Oh. I get it. Never mind, then.

[Debo]

Sorry if I'm off topic here as I've only read a short bit of this thread, what understand of LOA and my own life's ups and downs is that trusting in our higher self and things will get better, is a major factor,well has been for me anyhow, here's an example of me making things worse by trying to control everything,,,,,,

I emigrated again to australia, this time with very little money and me and my hubby having no job to come to, we have two daughters but took the plunge anyway. We were almost near the end of the money we had and still no job in sight, we applied for anything and everything to no avail, I was crying daily and really stressing out,then one day at a car boot sale I picked up the book you can heal your life,I'd heard of it but never bothered with it, but for some reason I read that book cover to cover then again. It did heal me because I remember driving back from dropping my daughter off at school, coming back I just decided to let all the worry and stress go, I said to myself I will be ok, then a week later I got a job.

Detachment,trust and love has helped me at these life challenging times

Debo

[moonrambler]

Here's what I've been doing.

Visualizing the propane delivery guy coming in November (visualizing the picture on the November calendar when he arrives). Counting out money in my mind (which I used to do, but haven't in many months). Staying in a trusting, relaxed calm, content state as much as I can.

Thursday night, I also had a meltdown after I broke a hard plastic lampshade while tripping over various cords lying around on the floor. It wasn't about the lampshade; it was about everything. I cried and wailed and spent about a half hour sweeping up the lampshade pieces, as of course it had shattered into a zillion shards. Then I went to bed. On the couch, because no heat in the bedrooms.

The next morning I woke while it was still dark and I asked God, Jesus, the guardian angels and the universe and any other benevolent spirits who might like to help, to help me with inspired action for more income. That I would trust when I don't have busywork to generate immediate income, I can pursue inspired action work. I asked for when I woke up later in the morning to have some ideas.

Neighbor Buddy and Chuck the Electrician had spent a couple hours here Tuesday night investigating the wiring situation and the three breaker boxes. I set up a lamp in the kitchen and did dishes and did some cleaning. I was thinking it was weird that I was feeling rather content to be doing housework in a room where it was 52 degrees, but there was that sense of doing something to take care of my house and make the house happier. I didn't even feel a need to fantasize about the B&B under renovation.

But Friday morning I felt that I needed to get some heat in here or I would lose my mind. As mentioned, the living room could stay relatively warm with space heaters, but that meant I couldn't run lamps off those same outlets and get light anywhere else in the house. Also, every time I went into another part of the house it was REALLY cold. I felt like I couldn't stand it anymore. I was ready to go pawn jewelry.

Friday morning I got an abundance of work projects that would keep me busy all weekend. That was cool. I called the propane place to find out pricing for this year and tell her my story; long story short, she said I could post-date two checks for the next two following weeks and they'd come deliver some LP. I was so excited I called Neighbor Buddy and he said "WOW." I could swear I had asked them once before about post-dating checks and that she refused.

(It wasn't November anymore, but I had forgotten to change the November calendar over to December )

Today, Saturday, Chuck the Electrician called and said he had figured out what the problem was. He came over and within about 90 minutes he had the electricity back on in the entire house. It's all sort of jimmy-rigged with (non-live) wires running along the ground from the garage to the crawlspace, but it's jimmy-rigged by a licensed electrician who works for the local electric company. He says come spring he and Neighbor Buddy will put everything together the way it should be.

It's so very weird that last Wednesday morning everything looked so dire and 11 days later everything is okay again, and within one 30-hour time frame I got heat, electricity and work.

I wonder if I needed this to take a good hard look at what's actually been going on with me -- work, house, money, attitude.

[Criseyde]

Awesome!! I'm really happy for you.

I've wondered that too, about myself -- you might know that I was unemployed for about 6 months. I didn't talk about it TOO much on here, but it was really bugging me. I'm employed now (though I'd still like to improve my income) and I feel like things are looking better overall, but SO much happened during those 6 months, internally -- it makes me wonder if I needed it in order to sort of figure everything out. I think life does that to you sometimes.

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Criseyde

Awesome!! I'm really happy for you.

I've wondered that too, about myself -- you might know that I was unemployed for about 6 months. I didn't talk about it TOO much on here, but it was really bugging me. I'm employed now (though I'd still like to improve my income) and I feel like things are looking better overall, but SO much happened during those 6 months, internally -- it makes me wonder if I needed it in order to sort of figure everything out. I think life does that to you sometimes.

I knew you were unemployed but I didn't know it was bugging you a lot, although I can imagine that it would be. It's cool that it turned into a chance to help you sort of figure everything out.

I guess one can look at it either way -- that universe/God creates these situations to give us insight, or we manifest the situation ourselves and wonder why in the world it happened.

[Criseyde]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

I knew you were unemployed but I didn't know it was bugging you a lot, although I can imagine that it would be. It's cool that it turned into a chance to help you sort of figure everything out.

I guess one can look at it either way -- that universe/God creates these situations to give us insight, or we manifest the situation ourselves and wonder why in the world it happened.

Oh yeah, it was bugging me really badly, and I was SO stuck. I couldn't even get hired by retail places, even though I've worked in them before. But, I actually ended up having an experience kind of like yours! I decided I was going to just relax, visualize when I felt like it, etc... within two weeks I had like four things turn up (whereas before I had NOTHING), and one of them worked out. Funny, that...

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Criseyde

Oh yeah, it was bugging me really badly, and I was SO stuck. I couldn't even get hired by retail places, even though I've worked in them before. But, I actually ended up having an experience kind of like yours! I decided I was going to just relax, visualize when I felt like it, etc... within two weeks I had like four things turn up (whereas before I had NOTHING), and one of them worked out. Funny, that...

I don't know though if I can say this came about because I relaxed. In fact, it seemed more the opposite. Everything came together when I felt like I couldn't stand it anymore and started crying and wailing and planning to borrow money at a pawn shop.

[Balbrae]

Hi, MoonRambler:

I have now read the various posts of this thread. I keep asking myself one question: what about the obvious? What about the purple elephant that stands in the living room?

Simply put, I ask: to where do you want to relocate? Anyone can come up with money, if their heart is in it. Anyone can please a bank, if their heart is in it. Anyone can make anything work, if their heart is in it. I just get the impression that your subconscious mind and the Universe are conspiring to give you a better scenario--literally a better scenario, as in scene, location, another place.

It's one thing for people to try to guilt-trip you into believing that something you are doing or not doing doesn't measure up to the LoA or what you "need" to be doing. However, my take is far simpler. My take is that you (i.e., your higher self) know exactly what you are doing--all too well! That is to say, it's time for you to move out.

So what about walking away from the house? The bank would be crazy not to allow you to do a "short sale." If you walked away from the house, what would you do? Where would you go? What would your life be like? I think the Universe is telling you to consider such a possibility. This may or may not be one of those situations where "your troubles follow you when you leave, if you don't learn the lessons facing you, by staying." But who cares? It might just be that you have manifested an outcome that you no longer want. Given that you are a responsible person, the Universe may have a hard time "knocking you over your head" to wake you up, to realize "this is not what I want."

Please let me give you an example, which does not assume that the facts of my story apply to you in your situation. There was a time in my life that I was a starving waiter in California. I was supposed to be focusing on my screenplay writing and my playwriting. Was I? Not to my optimal standard, no. Why? Because I was caught up in my poverty. I was so unhappy waiting tables--it just wasn't me. I felt shame all the time for being so unable to provide for myself in a meaningful way. I was always one step ahead of eviction. But I was a good waiter. Long story short--I made inquiries into becoming a court reporter, which required that I go to court reporting school in the day and work nights at the restaurant. That wasn't going to happen, as a waiter/waitress' lunch-dinner-shift schedules switched every 2 weeks, and the managers wielded too much power in shifting everyone's schedule (keeping them insecure and humble), to allow me to have a clear shot at all-dinner-shift schedules. No, they were going to give me lunches and dinners like the rest, and I would not be able to go to court reporting school, without some clever change in approach.

Out of "nowhere" I got fired from that job because of my mediocre performance as a waiter on a "secret shopper" report one very busy Sunday, when the staff was prematurely sent home, and I was left working three sections of the restaurant, which nobody could adequately cover, not even I. The bottom line: this "forced" me to go to paralegal school, because I couldn't "afford" to go to court-reporting school. Yet, in time, working at law firms as a paralegal cured my insecurity about going to law school, which I did, which has now led me to a much happier life, as an attorney. From this perspective, nearly 20 years later, I am completing my screenplays and my 30-year musical. The place where I write now is a place of joy and abundance, not suffering and starvation, as it was before.

I wondered in astonishment, years later, that if it were not for the Universe forcing my hand in going to law school, I never would have. The point is that responsible folks who "play by the rules" often never wake up out of their "normal" framework, to see that inspiration, oddness, and risk continuously knock at their doors, inviting them to try big life-changes--for the better, even though leaving the bounds of "normalcy" might look scary at the time. So the our unconscious minds, in loving cooperation with the Universe, set up situations that force us out of a situation that we are too stubborn to leave on our own. My stubbornness was staying in poverty in the situation I was in. Thank God the Universe kicked my ass! I'm in a much better place now.

So when I read your post, I scratched my head and wondered--perhaps the Universe wants you to move out? I could be wrong, of course. But the thought kept playing in my mind, and I wanted to express my thought to you.

Either way, from the perspective of the future, it all worked out beautifully for you! Peace and love!

[moonrambler]

Hi Balbrae, thank you for sharing your cool story.

I have wondered this myself, but what I always ask is -- why does it have to involve all this unpleasantness?

Wouldn't it be a lot more fun if I started making a bunch more money, paid off all the money I owe within just a few months, and be free to move on if I feel like it?

Or, wouldn't it be a lot more fun if somebody showed up here and said, "I would like to buy this property, none other will do, and I will offer you $XYZ for it." And that offer is so fantastic that I'm incredibly happy about it!

I would prefer that if I move out of the house, that the scenario doesn't involve defeat and default.

[Balbrae]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

Hi Balbrae, thank you for sharing your cool story.

I have wondered this myself, but what I always ask is -- why does it have to involve all this unpleasantness?

Wouldn't it be a lot more fun if I started making a bunch more money, paid off all the money I owe within just a few months, and be free to move on if I feel like it?

Or, wouldn't it be a lot more fun if somebody showed up here and said, "I would like to buy this property, none other will do, and I will offer you $XYZ for it." And that offer is so fantastic that I'm incredibly happy about it!

I would prefer that if I move out of the house, that the scenario doesn't involve defeat and default.

Hi, MoonRambler:

I'm glad you asked those questions. I have simple answers. The unpleasantness may stem from your resistance to leaving? The point is not that you would pay off the debt, feeling a lot more fun. The point is not that you would have someone show up, prize your property as a rarity, and pay a sum certain for it. Imagine, if you will, that the Universe is asking you to access a completely different situation--not one where this one is patched up or amended, but rather a "brand new" one that you can't imagine now because it's not in your frame of reference. I'll go way out on a limb here--way out, so please don't be offended. Perhaps, you wanted to experience the dilemma of clashing priorities: freedom versus "being responsible." Perhaps this is a rite of passage that you want to experience, and so it is unfolding this way. It is one thing to "manifest" staying, but something else to "manifest" an exit.

Why do people assume that manifesting an "exit" is inferior to manifesting a "stay"? Perhaps you are biased in this way; staying and hating it is superior to leaving and loving it. Only you can answer that question. But exits do not imply defeat or failure. Sometimes, they indicate tremendous courage and accomplishment! For example, Deepak Chopra once left a really mean boss, and he was quite happy after he switched jobs. Your relationship with your house and your bank is not completely unlike your relationship with an employer; they each make their demands on you, and provide you with seeming "security." Your situation could be like Deepak Chopra's, where you leave a really mean house or bank, and become quite happy after that. At the very least, you could always consult your unconscious mind, and present the option of staying or leaving to your mind. It won't steer you wrongly! Either way, keep your own counsel, and don't let anyone bully you into a decision or guilt trip. Your higher self knows what it is doing! It all worked out beautifully for you!

[Criseyde]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

I don't know though if I can say this came about because I relaxed. In fact, it seemed more the opposite. Everything came together when I felt like I couldn't stand it anymore and started crying and wailing and planning to borrow money at a pawn shop.

I guess I misinterpreted your post. It seemed like this part --

The next morning I woke while it was still dark and I asked God, Jesus, the guardian angels and the universe and any other benevolent spirits who might like to help, to help me with inspired action for more income. That I would trust when I don't have busywork to generate immediate income, I can pursue inspired action work. I asked for when I woke up later in the morning to have some ideas.

-- was exactly what I did, especially telling myself that I would do whatever I felt like doing, and trust that things would work out.

Either way, I'm glad things are better.

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Balbrae

Why do people assume that manifesting an "exit" is inferior to manifesting a "stay"?

I'm not assuming that one is superior to another. But I think there are more pleasant ways of exiting than having the house foreclosed on, if exiting is indeed what I'm unconsciously trying to manifest, and I don't even know if that's the case. I mean, just catching up on back payments and selling the house would be a much more pleasant option.

And as for prize property, why not? It's nearly an acre, and waterfront.

Plus I always remember when they widened the nearby highway to four lanes. There was a little bar & grill on the corner of an intersection and they paid the owner a big pile of money for that piece of land. And I tell you, she was down that road in a cloud of smoke

Now THAT's an exit

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Criseyde

especially telling myself that I would do whatever I felt like doing, and trust that things would work out.

Yeah, I know . . . it was like a combination of releasing all that emotion, deciding I couldn't stand the heat (or lack thereof) situation anymore, and releasing the income situation to the universe. Or maybe it wasn't. Maybe it was just one thing. I do not know!

[Balbrae]

Originally Posted by moonrambler

I'm not assuming that one is superior to another. But I think there are more pleasant ways of exiting than having the house foreclosed on, if exiting is indeed what I'm unconsciously trying to manifest, and I don't even know if that's the case. I mean, just catching up on back payments and selling the house would be a much more pleasant option.

And as for prize property, why not? It's nearly an acre, and waterfront.

Plus I always remember when they widened the nearby highway to four lanes. There was a little bar & grill on the corner of an intersection and they paid the owner a big pile of money for that piece of land. And I tell you, she was down that road in a cloud of smoke

Now THAT's an exit

Either way, it all worked out very well for you, indeed!

[moonrambler]

You see, it is a pattern of nearly my entire adult life, and I really, really want to make a new pattern.