Self Observations

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After reading Ranit’s all concept notes, I am constantly thinking that how good this article was written by Ranit. What I liked about it most? The Clarity of his thoughts which was clearly reflecting in his writings. THIS CLARITY of the subject attracts me towards him in terms of respect and honor. I noticed in me that, after constant thinking about his writings, I automatically started BELIEVING that he is better than me. And the same has reflected in my behavior in terms of FOLLOWING the pattern of his writings etc. I asked myself why he has good clarity than me. (I am not asking these questions as I am jealous but it is just for healthy competition) than my mind told me that because Ranit has more UNDERSTANDING of the subject than me. Why? Because he reads a lot and I don’t read anything. And in order to follow him I unknowingly asking how he was thinking so that I can also adopt that kind of thinking pattern and developed myself to gain the good money and respect among the people. I should have stopped thinking more about Ranit and about his writings as I am losing confidence in me and I have started following him blindly. But now …it will not happen again. Thanks my mind. 
From all this, I came to the point that I unknowingly underestimating myself.