How powerful is negative energy, and what can it do?

[Midwinter Mist]

How powerful is negative energy, and what can it do?

I've lived much of my life believing I've been cursed, and while people say that it exists so long as you believe it and make life difficult for yourself, I have my reasons for believing it. Nonetheless, despite life providing its genuine difficulties, my negative energy must be burning through the roof, and I do consider that my negative energy is so powerful that it has manifested this so-called 'curse'. In my head, the 'curse' is real. I want to break it, but it's so strong that it's almost as if it has created a life of its own.

One thing I think about is how communicating with strangers over the internet can be difficult for me in that a lot of people I reach out to won't reach back. Although I haven't experimented with this as such, it seems to me that if I were to write 'today's a good day' on a good day, I'd attract more strangers than if I were to write 'today's a good day' on a bad day. They cannot see anything different, and yet there seems to be something there that shares this hidden truth. The more negative I am, the less people will want anything to do with me, even if this negativity is unknown to them.

Coming from the bottom in a life that is genuinely difficult, how can I break this negative energy? I simply can't claim that life is great and manifest wonderful things, because I know I'd be lying to myself. Have I tried? Mildly. My life takes a lot of wrong turns so even when I do find some positive energy, it is quickly eliminated.

Even if I could manifest some great things, this underlying energy is... weak. My god, is it weak! I was going to tell you that the energy is strong enough to push away anything I manifest, but I'd be lying.

I admit it, changing my tone into a positive one, making a mockery of the negative energy, does feel good, but it weakens fast because I manifest negative things as if nothing else exists.

[wstein]

Q: How powerful is negative electricity?
A: Just as powerful as positive electricity.

First, energy is energy is energy. How powerful it is depends on how much you have and how much that energy affects you. Positive and negative is your judgment about the effect the use of that energy had.

[Bonadea]

I've paid attention to the people who seem to get things easily.... First, they seem to have this ingrained sense of (can't think of the word)..... entitlement. They seem to feel worthy of good things.

Second, they seem to find joy in those things. They enjoy spending money on the finer things. They are happy and smiling when buying that top of the line stove.

Where as I always feel guilty, even when I try not too. I feel I shouldn't spend that money, I feel unworthy.

I'm sure there's more to it than that, but that's a big part of what I've noticed so far. I'm still kind of new at it though.


Another story, one time my mother was in a coma in the ICU.... we had been with her as much as possible, but given the circumstances, we were very grim around here. One day I'm sitting by her side praying for her to come out of it and I got the thought....

Would I really want to come down from the heavens to be around a bunch of depressing, mopey people.... NOPE.... So I tried being light, happy, joking.... she woke out of it that night.


I had a friend who was always like that. Very light, happy, fun. Always got any job she went for even though her resume was wretched, she dressed any which way. Never mattered, always hired no problem.

Of course knowing that and doing it are 2 different things.... That's where I have a hard time. Then when I do try really hard and things don't work.... I get even worse.

[Midwinter Mist]

Bonadea, I also feel unworthy when it comes to expensive things. I don't feel right buying them, and other people have even questioned me on the few occasions in which I've gone ahead with an expensive purchase. I feel guilt, whereas you'll find others will buy those things and will not even care. If we told one of those people, for example, that it was silly of them to buy that, it won't really do any damage to them.

I also wonder if mutual energies help these people even more. What I mean is that it's hard enough for me to break this negative belief, but it gets even harder because so many people will disagree with things in my life. It's not just about opinions in life, but even a good opinion seems worthless when nobody cares to listen. But when it comes to these incredibly positive and "lucky" people, I wonder if their energy is increased or even protected, in some sense, when they manage to persuade and put belief into those around them. When everybody else begins to believe in this person and they truly believe that this person is strong and superior, they must be increasing that person's energy even more, right?

Do you notice how some people truly believe they're something special and they are? Not like those who think they're special but have problems behind the scenes. They have this magnetic energy that just vibrates. They're already manifesting great things. When people come into contact with this energy and are persuaded into believing it, they completely believe in this person. Nothing but good energy is given to this person. It must strengthen the positive energy and manifestations. Have you noticed how sometimes when somebody great makes an error, they can disappear? It's as if the opinion changes, the positive support is removed and this person begins to crash down for no good reason because of one mistake.

[Acting Like Godot]

Originally Posted by Midwinter Mist

Bonadea, I also feel unworthy when it comes to expensive things. I don't feel right buying them, and other people have even questioned me on the few occasions in which I've gone ahead with an expensive purchase. I feel guilt, whereas you'll find others will buy those things and will not even care. If we told one of those people, for example, that it was silly of them to buy that, it won't really do any damage to them.

Firstly I am quite wealthy.

Secondly there are many things I will not buy.

Thirdly I don't feel unworthy.

Instead I consider myself to be smart. And smart means that you make intelligent decisions about what you will or will not spend your money on.

Doesn't matter whether it is $2 or $200,000. The question is whether it is worth that $2 or $200,000.