Detaching

[ChildOfNone]

I started this I/M process here just a couple of weeks ago and I had a list of areas which ran the gamut for my life (as I am in need of a full turn around - srom soup to nuts.)

Fascinatingly (to me) a couple of areas in which I described my intentions, but around which I had little emotional charge, have been coming in quite regularly. It is a steady stream of activity, and while mundane, they is out of the norm for me. But what I noticed is that simply by putting that intention out there without "working it" and without even giving it a second thought, voila, the manifestations are many.

For instance, one of the intentions was to connect, to generate a social life. Since I put that out my child and I have received invitations 4 weekends in a row; dinner, theatre tickets, symphone tickets, invitation to watch a football game with friends. There are relatively routine activities for many but have not been for me. It has been great fun.

I have also been manifesting more students and small amount of cash that have been essential to keeping gas in the tank and food on the table.

But I have three important issues that my and my son's lives depend on and I have not made any progress on these. I realized that I have enormous emotional attachment to them.

Tiime to get to work on detaching.

One of the other things that I have manifested was the guidance I needed to move forward in this process. Over a dozen comments from you guys here have tweaked or shaped my focus and attention in just the right way. So I am putting it out here again.

Part of that tweaking involved addressing some age old anxieties that I thought I had moved past but found that I had suppressed. Letting them be, acknowledging them and exposing them to the light while focusing on the "feeling" of being in the light has been good in several ways. First of all this process takes off the extra layer of anxiety about the anxiety itself - being anxious that the anxiety is coming back or being felt.

Something that a couple of people have written about on other I/M threads bears mentioning. ALG posted about a conversation he had with an organizer as being a form of LOA and another person wrote about a problem he wanted to use LOA on and in time was lead to add a more conventional solution. I believe these are examples of getting from I to M. Once the I is expressed the road to the M may come in a very conventional form quite different from the more magical ways that are indisputably I/M. But the more conventional means should be noticed and welcomed as well. And I suspect I am on the path to experience both.

So here are actually 4 issues that I am looking for manifestations on:
1) money - I am expecting a significant check from the state. The check is for funds that belong to me but were turned over to the state. I have completed the paper work and the check was to have come early in September but has been held up. Meanwhile I have an empty bank account with bills mounting, including my electricty and water. Clearly I have been in the way of this manifestation because it takes no magic here to receive what is already mine. Yet it is time to open up the channels so that it arives in the earliest possible time.

2) a law suit - an important case for which I have had a very difficult time getting representation. this case involves my siblings as well and there has already been disputes and struggles. We need a) top (yet affordable) legal representation and b) to win.

3) Order - in the past decade I have had a series of stressful events, beginning with the welcomed but stress provokingg birth of my only child which was followed a few short months later with my husbnds sudden death, the loss of my business, (together meaning the loss of all income other than social security), a$30,000 bill for mold that lead to the utter destruction of many rooms in my home and so many more too numerous to list. These traumatic events led to a cascade of struggles and a disempowerment that left my home in utter physical chaos.

Without resources things have fallen into such a state. Time has come to overcome the feelings of powerlessness, shame, inadequacy, failure (as mother) and undeserving and replace these with resollution and gratitude that the storm is over and the clean up has begun.

As I live in an area that has been beset by natural disasters that have wiped out neighbors and nearby friends this is a metaphor that is easy to apply.

I intend to manifest order and comfort in my home for my child and for me.

DETACHMENT
to detach emotionally from these formerly emotionally charged issues has become a clear mandate. Therefore I intend to detach emotionally and allow the I/M process to work fully in these three areas of my life.

I open this thread up for comment or support or both and look forward to posting about progress, great and small in all three.

[pianoperformer]

Try this meditation:

One at a time, look at each of the issues you want to be resolved. If it appears as some image for you, that's fine, but it's fine if not, too.

Just send love to that issue. Don't resist it, don't try to change it to something else, just send love to it sincerely.

You should feel as though it is losing its grip over you. Move onto the next issue and do it again.

If any underlying beliefs or attitudes arise in the course of doing this, then do the same for those, because they may be the source of your resistance.

Now try your best to stop worrying. If you continue to worry, do the meditation again.

[ChildOfNone]

JUDGMENT
Detaching is closely related to stepping out of judgment, of judging feelings, experiences, anything as either "good" or "bad" rather than just "is". That judgment keeps me attached.

MATCH HIGHER ENERGY
Part of the process of detaching is to match my energy with that of Love or with that of Christ's light.

suddenly yesterday I had an epiphany that I have been attaching or connecting or dialing in on the low, destructtive energy that matches with my father who taught me to fear and be affraid and expect failure. I spent many years matching that expectation, that energy. Detachment will be the result from matching the energy to the love that PianoPerformer refers to.

EINSTEIN
"No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it." ~ Albert Einstein

[ChildOfNone]

Wow. Some things really connected for me yesterday!!!

All the pieces have been in place truly for a few years and yet the connections I have been making here has effectively pulled all the pieces together.

I have been tuning in, like a radio tuner or even like tuning a guitar, piano or harp, to the WRONG frequencies. hELLO!!! SOOooo. I began retuning and tuning into the higher frequencies, the correct match and BINGO that yuck stuff vamoosed.

NOW I can really tune into the Presence. The practice will be much easier.

This is a breakthrough that I have been moving towards for many, many years. I am beyond words in a state of gratitude. Keep it coming God, I have so much to do. I have been lieing around frozen for so long. I can't wait to get living, to get started manifesting all those things I have been wanting to do for these long years.

The first thing that happened this morning was that I popped up and began creating order. That is one of my major intentions and it began. Halleluia.

[pianoperformer]

I'm so happy for you! God wants to work in your life. Now you are set to start letting Him.

[Merr]

I relate to you in so many ways ChildofNone. We're both teachers looking after a child without a partner. I even feel like a failure as a mother sometimes in the way that you're describing. In terms of the first issue about money: one of the key aspects of manifestation is to be open as to how the universe provides what you want. I would suggest just asking the universe for financial security, for your bills to be paid, etc. It will have the effect of opening up the possibilities for financial assistance and will take the pressure off requesting money from a specific source.

As for the legal battle - I've faced something similar myself recently. Do you need top representation to win and do you really need to 'win' a court case to get what you want? Do you want compensation, an apology, or what? Find the answer to the specifics of what you want from the legal process and you'll feel more comfortable. It'll make it easier to let go and manifest what you want.

In terms of the feelings - you're already making progress. In terms of all your other feelings, it seems to me like you could also feel those really intensely and try and find out why. I've had feelings of guilt and inadequacy about my abilities as a mother and someone advised me to just let myself feel guilty and not try and prove to myself that I'm innocent. To really just feel it and let it go. It's working well for me. Also, I've been asking myself what a good mother really is and who decides it. In reality, so many people have different ideas about what it is that it's never really possible to be a good mother. I've decided to focus on being a 'happy' mother instead of a good one or even at least a better one.