Preparing My Courageous Dream

[ChildOfNone]

Hello, I am embarquing on the second stage of my journey. And I am guided by the phrase "Courageous Dreaming" which is the title of a new book by Alfredo Villoldo. Alberto Villoldo - Courageous Dreaming

(How I came up his title is yet another story of manifestation and "coincidence" that I will share later. That I have not been able to get myhand on this book led me to believe that I am to follow my gut in interpretting what "courageous dreaming" will be and will mean for me. Perhaps I will read Villoldo's book when I have progressed into my own courageous dreaming.)

[I rely on a higher power which I refer to as God. But for the most part I will often use the term Universe to refer to my higher power as I wish to give no offense to those who are not open to the word "God".]

The first step in this stage of my journey is to face fully the obstacles that I have resisted and in resisting have given force to. Yesterday I began by naming them and ordering them heirarchically. Then I wrote on a card "I have no opinion about ________." In that black I wrote the most pernicious obstacle which emanates from each of the others and which gives life to the others. That obstacles name is fear.

I then wrote that same line over and filled in the blank with each of the other named obstacles, one per each line, until my card was filled and my list exhausted. Should denial roll back on any other, I will treat it in the same manner.

This line, "I have no opinion about ...." came from a book by a woman named Gloria Benish and I came upon her book serindipitously just days after I encountered Villoldo. The two books were presented up to me by the Universe and I knew that an was and am greatful.

Benish writes that this line transforms theseobstacles from the tension of good and bad into a powerless state of just being. It is in passing the judgment over it that it takes on a power over me.

I gave fear a name because it tends to be a universal obstacle. Another name for fear is doubt and doubt is the great inhibitor of manifesting. Knowing this I tend to supress doubt and fear or deny them. That, unfortunately does not quell their power.

The opposite of fear and doubt are love and faith. Fear cannot exist in pure love of the Universe. As I notice fear and name it I then defang it by putting it through the neutralizer described above. This is NOT a one time event but something that I may repeat often as there are many tendrals of fear and doubt that have been cultivated and nurtured in my being up to this point. But I do have great faith that this process will triumph.

Now that I am fully on the way to overcome these obstacles it is time to begin the courageous dreaming.

My next post will begin the creation of that dream and I will also log the sightings of manifestations along the way. As I seem them begin as a blade, I will nurture them into full development, knowing that they already exist and believing them into full physical manifestation.

This is very exciting.

I have been holding onto these dreams for a very long time but unwittingly giving life to the anti-force. No more.

[lycan]

What is fear?

[ChildOfNone]

Well Lycan - that is certainly an interesting and deep philosophical question that could be quite difficult to answer or lengthy at best. I hope that you ask because you do not know fear. I, unfortunately know it far too well and this journey I am on is one in which I plan to leave the fear and doubt behind, to no longer feel permeated by them to no longer resist them but to rise above the karmic duality of which fear is one pole.

When I experience aspects of fear I am reminder tomake a shift in beliefs and response. First the blade and then the ear is a phrase I learned from a remarkable Aussie Cannon Jim Glennon, looking for the tiniest, nascent evidence of my intention. That evidence feeds the belief and the belief increases the evidence.

Order is so important for me because I tend to jump from one aspect to another losing track and focus on the growing evidence in one area. I have more than once been sidetracked and stymied throgh that process.

I have a crazy day today but I am longing to get to a place where I can begin to put my dreams into words, to take yet another step on my journey.

[lycan]

Fear is a physiological state activated by the unconscious mind for the purpose of alerting the conscious mind (telling it to pay attention). Are you sure it is anything more than this? What do you actually feel that you call "fear"? Doubt and fear are not, in my impression, the same thing. It may be of value to consider that.

[ChildOfNone]

Your description of the physiological responce is an apt one for fear.

While fear and doubt are not synonymous nor even interchangeable, both, when present, stand in the way manifesting intentions. Fear can induce doubt and vice versa.

The brain can be programmed to experience a fear response via association. For example: if a traumatic experience happened in a particular place or while a certain song was playing or during some other sensory experience those other experiences can trigger a panic/fear response via association.

For people who experienced chronic trauma over a period of time, fear can be triggered by a myriad of ordinary occurances. In such circumstances fear can become practically omnipresent.

[ChildOfNone]

Yesterday and today several areas of order began taking shape.
I continue to hold an intention for increasing order in my home and in my life.

Today I learned that a check that I have been in great need of will be delayed several weeks. My account is empty and checks are being returned.
I intend to receive the money I need in the gap. I intend to make money tutoring and by windfall. I need $750 in the gap.

I intend to begin creating community - receiving and giving support and encouragement.

I have an important legal issue pending and have had a difficult time getting the necessary legal representation. I have a phone call out to an attorney I would like to work with. I intend to have that relationship opened and cemented in the next few days.

I would like to work on this with both of my brothers. I intend for the broken relationship to be repaired so that we might all work together for each other's benefit.

I intend for the conversation with the opposing attorney to go fluidly and in my favor today.

[ChildOfNone]

I have experienced two synchronicities related to courageous dreaming. Just today an author related a conversation with her husband in which she referred to something from her childhood as "just make believe" and her husband replied, "No, it was a dream and you made it your reality."

The moment I heard those words I saw the message for me and immediately recalled hearing something similar on the radio yesterday. These signs are affirming and encouraging. "First the blade and then the ear."

The dream begins with a transformation.
In the past month I have found myself first seeing, being aware of a portal and then stepping through it. Subsequently I have been bouncing back and forth, in and out.

"Practise the Presence" is the phrase from the Gloria Benish book that connects me to a concept I connected with many years ago when I saw a 60 Minutes segment on Adam the Dream Healer. It is very closely akin to being in the place or the feeling of the actualization of the manifestation.

Being in the Presence is like being in the zone.
Today I have been more in that out.
It is a great comfort. One of the amazing things about that place is that as I am driving down the street and out completing errands people look up and smile and turn around and smile. I don't know if I have ever experienced this before.

The check I had hoped to receive will not be forthcoming for several weeks and yet I am at peace, intending for what I need to come in other ways.

I receive a regular check about the 20th or 21st of every month. I intend for that check to be deposited on the 19th this month. I intend to receive a new student next week whose parents prefer to pay up front.

I am generating and restoring order in places that have simply been points of great suffering for me until now. This transformation is such a welcomed change. Clearly the time is right.

[ChildOfNone]

OK, I have encountered a field of interference.
The check I was certain was coming this week will not be here until sometime in October. That is not only a major let down there will be some substantial ramifications.

The pupils I tutored yesterday and today did not have their fees and will pay next week. I was counting on those fees for buying food for my child and me. My check account is completely empty and I don't have credit cards.

I did receive an invitation for dinner for the two of us so that will cover tonight. Plus I have almost $200 and expect to be paid by another pupil tomorrow.

I need an adjustment of some sort. I intend to receive that adjustment. Perhaps it is letting go of attachment - neither good nor bad, just is.

[lycan]

Neville Goddard Power 1 0f 6 - YouTube

[ChildOfNone]

Thanks Lycan - I'll check it out.

By the way, your post about fear has been bobbing around my mind. Your point gave me an answer. If the physiological response does nnot kick in after the triggering event then there is no fear. I get that. And I have a plan to take advantage of your help. It is called Kava Kava. Many thanks.

[ChildOfNone]

Since I posted my intentions I have have a bust on money 3 for 3 on income that I had every reason to believe was coming my way. You might call it an ANTI-manifestation.

Simultaneously the intention about making connections with people has been resoundingly successful.

I asked myself what was going on. I received an answer. Resistance.
Some old baggage not yet dealt with. An unconscious internalized critical voice "not deserving" and "not good enough."

So I plan to deal with it - using courageous dreaming.
Posting here in this IM forum is a very helpful process.

[ChildOfNone]

I like what
Slick wrote on his blog.
Why Most Dreams Don't Come True | The Subconscious Mind

conscioius mind works on the "what."
subconscious does the "how".

The I -What
remove the obstacles of "not enough", "not deserving", "not good enough" and "servitude/obligation".

The M - How
the future shall reveal

[ChildOfNone]

Lycan - you are a messenger from God.
What a find! Thank you - truly thankful.

[ChildOfNone]

“The only way to change your expressions of life is to change your consciousness. For consciousness is the reality that eternally solidifies itself in the things round about you. Man’s world in its every detail is his consciousness out-pictured. You can no more change your environment, or world, by destroying things than you can your reflection by destroying the mirror. Your environment, and all within it, reflects that which you are in consciousness. As long as you continue to be that in consciousness so long will you continue to out-picture it in your world.”

“Your inner speech is perpetually written all around you in happenings. Learn to relate these happenings to your inner speech and you will become self-taught.”

“All happiness depends on the active voluntary use of imagination to construct and inwardly affirm that we are what we want to be. We match ourselves to our ideals by constantly remembering our aim and identifying ourselves with it. We fuse with our aims by frequently occupying the feeling of our wish fulfilled. It is the frequency, the habitual occupancy, that is the secret of success. The oftener we do it, the more natural it is. Fancy assembles. Continuous imagination fuses.”

Neville Goddard - Neville Goddard - Almost All His Work In One Place!

WOW!

[ChildOfNone]

I just received a check in the amount of $300!!!!!
Totally out of the blue.

Intention:
Order - car, home, life
Income - debts paid, home restored, purpose accessed,

[lycan]

Why do you want your debts paid? Why is that a priority?

[ChildOfNone]

that's a priority because I will lose my house if I do not pay my debts and because I owe people.

[ChildOfNone]

When i began this thread I conceived of the Courageous Dreaming as more of an exercise in images. What I have received here has given me insight into developing and persevering the feeling that attends the images.

This is a novel concept to me but it connects well with my knowledge and beliefs concerning energy.

I experienced many years of unceasing criticism and condemnation as a child and as an adult I discovered that this lead to an omnipresent subconscious critical inner voice and ever-present anxiety that emenates physically in the trapazoids and neck regions. This sensation of perpetual unpleasant electrical pulses has intensified when I have been through traumatic experinces (which I encountered many over a rapid succession in a very short period of time.) Consequently, I unconsciously began withdrawing and shutting down as all endeavors tended to generate the unpleasant to excruciating dread and trauma feeling.

So now I am intent to fully engage and shift from that feeling to ones attached to that which I intend to achieve. This will be an interesting process for me - utterly new and completely foreign.

[ChildOfNone]

I had expected to be writing out he images that I intend to manifest via coourageous dreaming however this process has moved me to work on my feeling dream, preparing the feelings to accompany the images.

As I do this I bump into the feeling obstacles that have been with me in this present manifestation.

I am working on them, with the goal of transforming them from this present manifestation to the one I intend. I have not yet seen the first blade but I will be persistant until I see the first sign which then will grow fully into the new manifestation.

[ChildOfNone]

I intend to shift my baselilne feeling from anger, resentment and frustration to joy, peace, love, and anticipation of fulfullness.

[raykilleen]

Originally Posted by lycan

What is fear?

Ignorance.

[ChildOfNone]

I started this thread with one thing in mind and find myself on the correct road anyway.

The insights are flowing.
One insight shows me how I have manifested the state I am in over a period of time. I was not conscious of how I was doing it and was mindful of searching for a way out, a shift. Persistance has led me to the right place even as I held the incorrect feeling.

I have been aware for many, many years that I dialed in to a low frequency just as one used to dial for a radio signal. I did not undestand that I had control over that dialing. It seemed out of my control.

Today I am using intention to dial into the feeling that correspondce with the state that I desire.

I think of the book Switch which describes by analogy how change is made. My elephant has been my subconscious and with persistance I will bring that elephant along the course desired by the rider. I cannot do this without designating the road of choice.

The experience I wrote about earlier, of having such wonderfully uplifting encounters with strangers and acquaintences one day, I now recognize as a foretaste of that which I intend to be my norm. It was given to me as a feeling to re-member so that I can move into that feeling as a norm rather than as a result of conscious effort.

This process is a gift. I thankfully receive it.

I have sight of the first blade - (changed attitude and refusal to be directed off course, (away from the intended feeling.)

Of all traits that I have desired but lacked persistence is not one. Persistance has been my constant companion and that gives me great hope and confidence for this intended transformation that is manifesting.

[cortocabezas1111]

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[ChildOfNone]

I received a new student yesterday.

I sat down next to a woman in my son's school foyer yesterday. She called me by name and introdced herself to me as someone who helps my organizattionally deficient child get his assignments written down. She began by saying that she thanks him in advance for completing his work. As she described her process in more detail I replied that I pray that way. "It's th right way to pray," she answered.

I told her about the concept of "Practicing the Presense" and she looked me straight in the eye and said, "you coming into the manifestation of that even now." "Yes - this conversation is part of that manifestation."

[ChildOfNone]

I receive encouragement by coming here. It helps me stay in the right feeling. That is my constant intention at this time.

I would like to manifest order in my car and a vision of a road map going forward - tired of being/feeling like a vagabond - desiring direction and a rudder.

[ChildOfNone]

I have been manifesting smmall amounts of money and I am thankful for them.

I am ready to turn up the power on manifesting.
As I keep my focus on the intent and stay in a place of gratitude I find that the blocks or obstcles are being made clear. As I become aware of them I acknowledge them and clear them.

this week that includes some serious bouts of anxiety that are tied to vvery old wounds which were being triggered by some current issues. But I have cleared those.

Ready to develop and hold the feeling of manifestation already realized.

[ChildOfNone]

Here is n outstanding quotation from Albert Einstein:

No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it." ~ Albert Einstein

[ChildOfNone]

OK - I have three areas in which I desire matterial manifestation. In two and perhaps three of these areas I am aware of blocks that need clearing. I am working on those and writing about them in another thread.

When I began writing here I was lead to do the other work but I found that manifestations came through as well. So I am going to work at it from both ends.

1) order - the inner chaos and disorder has been manifested into my home and I am ready to reverse that and manifest order in my interior and home. To begin - I intend to manifest order in my son's room and our kitchen/den.

2) exercise - I intend to walk daily in the mornings - walk/jog.

3) food - I intend to get the gas stove functioning and plan and prepare regular healthy meals for my son and me

4) brothers and sisters-in-law - I intend to have loving and open relationships with my brothers and their families, overcoming all rifts.

5) law suit - I intend to make progress on our law suit and prevail in a timely manner with all barriers falling.

6) test prep - I intend for the business I have envisioned to begin to fall into place.