BE PATIENT, sometimes manifestation is a journey of SELF-GROWTH

[ikeism727]

I had been very dissatisfied with my relationships with women for a number of years, so starting late '09, I decided to CONSISTENTLY employ manifestation techniques to make it better.

Hearing from a guy who had a "rockstar" life with women, I learned how he used the Law of Attraction how to improve this area of my life.

What he explains is to write down your current life now as it is, with all your complaints and things that you want changed.

The explanation is that it's all a "story", and the reason why your life is this way is that you accept this story as true.

Thus, to live the life you want to live in any area of your life, you have to create a new story and believe in it.

His advice was to stand in the mirror twice a day, once when you first wake up in the morning and once before you go to sleep and repeat this story to yourself out loud (if you have roommates like I do you may not want to talk to loud or else they might think you're crazy). He also advised doing visualizations.

I committed to doing this starting December '09, starting off small by saying a few statements. As time went on, I added statements to my new story and tweaked the ones I already had.

Part of my story was women giving me their numbers, women coming up to me during the day, etc, etc.

Now it was difficult at first because all the negative chatter started going off in my head which led me to doubt, but I kept at it. Soon enough, I became so used to saying the same story over and over again that my mind began to quiet down. When my mind quieted down, I witnessed in the "gap of silence" that now existed that I was able to CHOOSE whether I wanted to believe in my story or not.

I finally saw that rather than being some far off concept, belief is a CHOICE.

Also, I began to hear more stories from other people who this was working for and a close friend of mine began to recount his own successes which further strengthened my belief.

Now here's the thing, as my belief in my story being true began to rise, I started to change. I started to have epiphanies that transformed who I was, opened my mind, and also epiphanies that showed me why I was experiencing such scarcity beforehand.

As I started to change, my success with women began to increase. Soon, women in the train, in clubs, at bars, at gatherings and other places started offering me my number, or asking me for mine without me bringing it up first.

I started also getting more compliments and I also started dating more consistently.

More also began to pursue me.

A year later, my mindset about my dating life and my actual dating life are completely different.

Now, I'm still waiting for more of my "story" to come into PHYSICAL fruition, but as I grow as an individual, my life will reflect that.

This bring me to the whole point of this post, that if you think whatever you're manifesting is taking too long, be patient, because you have to change first BEFORE your reality changes.

Remember you can only attract who you are. You can't attract abundance in ANY area with a scarcity laden mindset.

When you set your intentions in motion, you now have to experience changes and growth within to see changes without. There was NO WAY with the mindset that I had a year ago that I could be experiencing the success I'm experiencing now.

As I got new epiphanies, I began to see the world differently. As I saw the world differently, I began to expect different things and ACT differently. As I expected different things and ACTED differently, I began to attract different things. As I attracted different things, these cemented my new reality.

To attract what you desire, you have to grow into it, and that may take time.

Relax. and allow the Universe to do its work.

[SethWilliams]

That "Gap of Silence" is known as magickal consciousness.

Belief is a choice. Belief is a tool.

But yes, you have to change yourself first. You and your reality are one or connected.

[ikeism727]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

That "Gap of Silence" is known as magickal consciousness.

Belief is a choice. Belief is a tool.

But yes, you have to change yourself first. You and your reality are one or connected.

Wow, it's good to hear that I'm on to something when I noticed the "gap of silence," and not just conjecture on my part. There really is something to it.

[Wax Frog]

I had a thought just now, and as this topic was the first I spotted to fit, I decided to post it here:

I just got my first valuable nugget from "My Big TOE" - the possible connection between my apparent ability to summon rain as a child, and the fact that at that time I was about as egoless as I've been in my whole life; it was a fun activity, not a "Wow, look at how MIGHTY I am!" imposition.

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

I had a thought just now, and as this topic was the first I spotted to fit, I decided to post it here:

I just got my first valuable nugget from "My Big TOE" - the possible connection between my apparent ability to summon rain as a child, and the fact that at that time I was about as egoless as I've been in my whole life; it was a fun activity, not a "Wow, look at how MIGHTY I am!" imposition.

Ha. Yes, the ego does like to play power games.

The thing is, having the ability to summon rain doesn't make you special. It makes you human. Everyone could do that, if they let themselves.

We could all be rich, if we just saw it as a normal, everyday occurrence. As normal. OR mundane.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

The thing is, having the ability to summon rain doesn't make you special. It makes you human. Everyone could do that, if they let themselves.

We could all be rich, if we just saw it as a normal, everyday occurrence. As normal. OR mundane.

My frame of reference was even better than that. I had no concern about being "made human"* or anything else. No concerns at all. It was a very straightforward experience - my folks got me a drum and, for whatever reason - maybe having seen cheesy Westerns - I thought it would be fun to get into a circle with my sisters and bang away while we chanted "We want ra-ain!" over and over (Happily, all three of them to this day will corroborate my memory, and none of them could be labeled as flighty/New Agey)...

As time goes by, and I read more and more material, more and more my thick skull is pierced by the truth that the barrier between me and my "power" is all the dysfunctional stories that have encrusted my (soul?) over the painful years of my teens* and the mostly dull ones of my adulthood.

*From about 5 years old through most of my teens, I had many experiences - mostly of the bullying/psychic torment variety - that made the idea of being human revolting. Now there's some fodder for developing limitation if ever I knew any.

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

My frame of reference was even better than that. I had no concern about being "made human"* or anything else. No concerns at all. It was a very straightforward experience - my folks got me a drum and, for whatever reason - maybe having seen cheesy Westerns - I thought it would be fun to get into a circle with my sisters and bang away while we chanted "We want ra-ain!" over and over (Happily, all three of them to this day will corroborate my memory, and none of them could be labeled as flighty/New Agey)...

As time goes by, and I read more and more material, more and more my thick skull is pierced by the truth that the barrier between me and my "power" is all the dysfunctional stories that have encrusted my (soul?) over the painful years of my teens* and the mostly dull ones of my adulthood.

*From about 5 years old through most of my teens, I had many experiences - mostly of the bullying/psychic torment variety - that made the idea of being human revolting. Now there's some fodder for developing limitation if ever I knew any.

Im sorry for your experiences.

But you dont have any power. Making rain isnt a power. Thats the first illusion you have to break. Picking up a cup isnt a "power". There the same thing.

When you was a kid, you could make it rain. I bet you didnt find it hard. Just like picking up a cup.

Technically you can still make it rain.

Get a drum out, and do it.

[Lakshyayidhi Lakshmihi]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

*From about 5 years old through most of my teens, I had many experiences - mostly of the bullying/psychic torment variety - that made the idea of being human revolting. Now there's some fodder for developing limitation if ever I knew any.

This is a great topic because I have been marinating on just this thing. I read this and it was funny because I could have written this.

And now to see this thread really helps me confirm my nudges. I've felt and had signs that writing or narrating is important for me and I realize that I need to rewrite my own narrative. Rather than rewrite the same de profundis over and over again to reinforce this role of tragic heroin that has become so intimately woven into the fabric of this life.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Im sorry for your experiences.

But you dont have any power. Making rain isnt a power. Thats the first illusion you have to break. Picking up a cup isnt a "power". There the same thing.

You'll note I use irony quotes alot, usually to indicate that I'm not using a term in a strict and absolute sense

When you was a kid, you could make it rain. I bet you didnt find it hard. Just like picking up a cup.

Technically you can still make it rain.

Get a drum out, and do it.

Sadly, I don't have a drum, and haven't been able to track down one like the first (which a neighbor's dog got hold of, around the time I was on the verge of "growing up", that is, getting initiated into the great Materialistic Lie). Anyway, I'm still being blocked, as my 'metaphysical' stuff has remained hit-or-miss

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Lakshyayidhi Lakshmihi

This is a great topic because I have been marinating on just this thing. I read this and it was funny because I could have written this.

And now to see this thread really helps me confirm my nudges. I've felt and had signs that writing or narrating is important for me and I realize that I need to rewrite my own narrative. Rather than rewrite the same de profundis over and over again to reinforce this role of tragic heroin that has become so intimately woven into the fabric of this life.

A past acquaintance who had the knack for IM/LoA told me that all I had to do was literally write a new story for myself. I haven't tried yet, mostly because I'm more visually oriented, and also because I like to whine about how to do it without it feeling like a lie or self-deception.

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

You'll note I use irony quotes alot, usually to indicate that I'm not using a term in a strict and absolute sense



Sadly, I don't have a drum, and haven't been able to track down one like the first (which a neighbor's dog got hold of, around the time I was on the verge of "growing up", that is, getting initiated into the great Materialistic Lie). Anyway, I'm still being blocked, as my 'metaphysical' stuff has remained hit-or-miss

But what is this block?

Then dont use a drum. Drum on the bottom of a bowl, singing "its raining men".

Same thing really.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

But what is this block?

Then dont use a drum. Drum on the bottom of a bowl, singing "its raining men".

Same thing really.

About a year ago, I did a wild and goofy ritual to manifest a thought-form that would go around gathering prosperity for me (and others). Hasn't worked. As of now, I'm getting back into my meditation habit, and trying a variant of garden-variety visualizing...

[SethWilliams]

You wanted a thought-form to make prosperity?

Is not a good thing to start off with your first thought form. Your sabotaging yourself there :P

Make a thought-form to find you a book. Or something like that.

A first time thought-form is going to have trouble with making prosperity :P

All because one thing didnt work, doesnt mean another wont. And all because one thing didnt work once, doesnt mean it wont work a second time.

What do you have to lose?

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

About a year ago, I did a wild and goofy ritual to manifest a thought-form that would go around gathering prosperity for me (and others). Hasn't worked. As of now, I'm getting back into my meditation habit, and trying a variant of garden-variety visualizing...

Cool! Meditation is good :P

Hope it brings you what you need to get unstuck

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

You wanted a thought-form to make prosperity?...Is not a good thing to start off with your first thought form. Your sabotaging yourself there :P...A first time thought-form is going to have trouble with making prosperity :P

Is this a case of "the first thing a newb picks will be what most challenges him"? Or is it just rule of thumb that this doesn't work well?

Make a thought-form to find you a book. Or something like that.

Back early on, I intended for red dragons and blue eagles and green gryphons, with some apparent success, having spotted them in various artistic representations afterward. From there I got bored and jumped to bigger things, perhaps like a kindergartner signing up for an advanced college course?

All because one thing didnt work, doesnt mean another wont. And all because one thing didnt work once, doesnt mean it wont work a second time.

What do you have to lose?

Very little, quantity wise, beyond what I seem to have lost already My mere constant presence at this forum proves what a stubborn little SOB I can be...

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Cool! Meditation is good :P

Hope it brings you what you need to get unstuck

I may have worn a groove into the ol' LP with the following phrase, but as always, we shall see!

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Is this a case of "the first thing a newb picks will be what most challenges him"? Or is it just rule of thumb that this doesn't work well?



Back early on, I intended for red dragons and blue eagles and green gryphons, with some apparent success, having spotted them in various artistic representations afterward. From there I got bored and jumped to bigger things, perhaps like a kindergartner signing up for an advanced college course?



Very little, quantity wise, beyond what I seem to have lost already My mere constant presence at this forum proves what a stubborn little SOB I can be...

Yes. In the magickal world, you dont ask a new magickian to make you a millionaire. Only if you wanted to kill any chance of him getting a result.

At first, Be simple. Be kinda-vague. And at most, be detatched.

Then, after you get your first result. Be simple. Be kinda-vague. And at most, be detatched.

Then after you get your second result, be simple. Be kinda-vague. And at most, be detatched.

Then after you get your third result, be simple. Be kinda-vague. And at most detatched.

I cant tell you when to stop being simple, being kinda vague and being detatched, only you will know when. When you enough confidence in manifestation, but i cant tell you how many manifestations that will take.

The process of manifesting bigger and bigger things is a long process.

Unless your the kinda person to see one result, and then know deep down you can make anything happen.

[Wax Frog]

Well, let's hope the part of me that I long ago disfigured into an 'evil genie' doesn't dig me too deep a hole before I have a chance to get the ball rolling, eh? This current avatar of whatever-I-am would like to have at least a *little* fun before the curtain falls...

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Well, let's hope the part of me that I long ago disfigured into an 'evil genie' doesn't dig me too deep a hole before I have a chance to get the ball rolling, eh? This current avatar of whatever-I-am would like to have at least a *little* fun before the curtain falls...

I dont know what this evil-genie is. But it doesnt have any power to stop you. Only make you think you cant do something.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

I dont know what this evil-genie is. But it doesnt have any power to stop you. Only make you think you cant do something.

Did I ever tell you I had some notions of doing something artistically for a living? Well, if I felt moved to I could write out over half a dozen times when it seemed I was on the verge of a breakthrough, only to have circumstances misalign at the last moment to ruin it all.

One example: a neighbor of mine once wanted to hook me up with a friend of his in Spain, one who had a website promoting and facilitating the sales of artists' work. Not long after we talked about this, the train bombings happened. Now, this neighbor and his friend happened to be on opposite sides of the political fence, so this event caused a strain in their friendship, ultimately ending it and, as one consequence, permanently slamming that particular door on me.

Another: I made friends with a woman in AZ who was into animating. When she saw what I could do, she thought she could get me a job doing the same. A short time later she told me she was going in for surgery, then disappeared for what seemed an overly long time. Eventually my worry overcame my wisdom, and I called her paranoid/jealous husband (she'd warned me about him, and how he might jump to the wrong conclusion re: our friendship), which caused a fight between the two of them and resulted in her cutting me off!

When something like this happens once, it can be written off as a bad break, but when it happens over and over and over?

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Did I ever tell you I had some notions of doing something artistically for a living? Well, if I felt moved to I could write out over half a dozen times when it seemed I was on the verge of a breakthrough, only to have circumstances misalign at the last moment to ruin it all.

One example: a neighbor of mine once wanted to hook me up with a friend of his in Spain, one who had a website promoting and facilitating the sales of artists' work. Not long after we talked about this, the train bombings happened. Now, this neighbor and his friend happened to be on opposite sides of the political fence, so this event caused a strain in their friendship, ultimately ending it and, as one consequence, permanently slamming that particular door on me.

When something like this happens once, it can be written off as a bad break, but when it happens over and over and over?

But that was all you. Created by some weird self-defeating beleif. That doesnt have to happen. You made yourself unlucky. Make yourself lucky.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

But that was all you. Created by some weird self-defeating beleif. That doesnt have to happen. You made yourself unlucky. Make yourself lucky.

*ding*ding*ding* Exactly! How do I make myself lucky? Years of thoroughly convincing life experiences swayed me into believing that The World® and (nearly) Everyone In It® were out to get me. How do I create conditions to reprogram/convince me otherwise?

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

*ding*ding*ding* Exactly! How do I make myself lucky?

BY BEING LUCKY!

Write a new story for yourself. You were once unlucky. But now your lucky.

Both of them are experiences. Youve done the first experience now. That was fine. But now you can do the second one. For contrast purposes.

To be lucky, stop resisting the unlucky. If unlucky things happen, then thats okay. Wont bother you. Because your lucky.

[SethWilliams]

They are both equal experiences.

You've done the first one, now its time for the second one.

[Wax Frog]

Am I still too obsessed with the "how" of things?

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

*ding*ding*ding* Exactly! How do I make myself lucky? Years of thoroughly convincing life experiences swayed me into believing that The World® and (nearly) Everyone In It® were out to get me. How do I create conditions to reprogram/convince me otherwise?

But they werent out to get you.

You were out to get you. To perpetuate the experience of having something out to get you.

You dont create conditions, you just stop resisting it. Just let it. LEt it flow over you like water.

Then, be lucky.

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Am I still too obsessed with the "how" of things?

Well, apparently :P

Thats just something we'll never have control over when it comes to things like this.

You have to let go of the how. Let it flow over you,

[Wax Frog]

[Flashback to "Illusions", with the reed clinging aquatic creatures yelling at the one who decided to let go]

I guess I'm on the right track with my ever more frequent impulse to "dissolve myself"...

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

[Flashback to "Illusions", with the reed clinging aquatic creatures yelling at the one who decided to let go]

I guess I'm on the right track with my ever more frequent impulse to "dissolve myself"...

Dissolve yourself?

Sounds painful.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Dissolve yourself?

Sounds painful.

It's my poetic way of saying that I'm trying to detach from the impulse to fix things, or be afraid of impending doom, not get caught up in drama, just sort of let everything take on a fuzzy dreamlike quality. Get back to drifting through my life like a bubble. The impulse to think of things that scare me, particularly current circumstances in my life, is viciously strong, but I release as I'm able, keep telling myself that if 'the worst' happens it probably won't be as scary or ruinous as my fear 'wants' it to be.