How do I begin LOA?

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Hello....

I began researching L.O.A years ago but was at a different state of mind. Since beginning it though, I fell into the hands of a terrible man whom sent me through a wirlwind of trouble. (I account this to my thoughts way before I started contiously practicing. lol ) Anyway, I stopped practicing about 3 years ago due to the constant muddle of my life. I now take medication for disease and deal with on and off depression from the medication but I have come a long way in bettering myself and I am now looking at where I sit and am realizing that I am fully ready to start practicing again.

My problem?

I am concerned about the load of issues and subcontious emotions and feelings bottled up within me that need to be released. I am fully aware of meditations that can help me access those emotions to cleanse myself of them but I'm TERRIFIED to face my skeletons.

(Plus, it is very hard for me to relax enough to even begin meditating again. I keep myself on a constant busy body ruitine afraid that I'll start thinking or fall into depression if I.. stop. This has been a continuous practice for about 2 years. I'm ready to go forward with LOA but obviously you see how my past still affects my future every day.)

Does anyone know if one must face those subcontious issues to clease themselves before starting or would simpe affirmations of being clear and emotionally free eventually do the job just as well?


Here is what I have done so far and it's quite limited.

I nailed up my family's first "Vision Board" in our shared hallway of the house. It is only my 2 son's and I so we are picking out pictures right now to post on tihs vision board. Do we just post them up or do I need to "charge" the photos with intentive thought or will just having the pictures help to manifest our desires?

I also posted a personal vision board, believe it or not, in my master bathroom on the wall across from the toilett!! lol.

The kids and I wrote an intentions list to use every morning. We do our lists before they head out to school in the morning, saying them slowly upto 10 times or more outloud together until our tone seems to feel like we "own" the thought.


Can you please direct me to my next step especially my fear of not being "clear" enough to start. I gained some MAJOR emotional and psychologocal trauma issues from my past. I don't want them to interfere with my future. Thank you.