getting unstuck in certain areas/busting loose/ loa?

[h2cyl]

Hi all-

Just wondering if anyone has any insight. I've been studying LoA for the past 3.5 years or so, a bit of Course in Miracles, and recently I stumbled upon Robert Scheinfeld's "Busting Loose" material. I've read tons, and have seen some major changes in my life. The one area where I seem to get stuck is abundance/financial well-being. I don't need to go into a ton of detail, but just wondering if anyone has advice on how to break out of a (seemingly) particularly sticking belief?

I'm a bit in limbo: have recently quit a job where I was miserable, am now working an ok part-time job, which was a great landing place when leaving my previous job, but now is not quite cutting it (financially). I would like to be making more money, and am enamored of the idea of working for myself (and have loads of ideas to this effect), but can't quite believe I can make it work. On the other hand, I figure I should at least look for a full-time job, but am not at all excited about that.

Here's what it comes down to: I want to work for myself. I want to write a book, to blog, to be creative and innovative and just live my life authentically. I want to travel. I want to be available on weekends to spend time with friends and family

Conversely: I don't know where to start. I [appear to] continually manifest financial scarcity, and the only way I know to make money is to have a job (I'm having a hard time getting away from this one). I can't fathom that money will just come to me, or that opportunity will just present itself. I feel like I need to really be working to make things happen, but I'm so tired after work (0430 wakeup several mornings/week) that I never seem to accomplish anything. I also have several financial obligations (loans etc.) that I would like to honor, so I don't feel comfortable walking away from a job, no matter how little it serves my spirit.

Basically I get stuck, because the things I want to do won't produce the financial results I feel I need to see immediately, so I continue to work the job (and feel I need to spend my free time looking for full-time employment) which depletes my energy so that I'm not doing the things I love. In short, I'm on a hamster wheel!

On the flip side, the ACIM and Busting Loose material really resonates, and I do question the validity of this reality I'm living. But not sure I'm ready for Phase II living quite yet. I see that it's there, but some of the beliefs and patterns are hard to break away from.

Any thoughts, reminiscences, suggestions, mentoring, etc. is greatly welcomed! I've been following a few of the conversations on this material and have learned a ton! Thank you all for sharing you insight on the forum