What you want and how it makes you feel

[AaronB]

This is a very powerful realization for Aaron today. Big aha here!

Whenever anything is disturbing, he can ask himself, what does he want instead and how would that make him feel? Then he sees what feeling he is seeking to create excuses to have through external circumstances.

A fun way to play with this: Imagine you are given a check for 100 Billion dollars. Does it effect you at all? If so there is a feeling that you are holding out on, waiting for external circumstances to justify it. But it seems powerful to just allow that feeling fully right now. Once it is no longer affected by the 100 Billion dollars, the carrot at the end of the stick becomes much less interesting. Then you are free from a carrot. But there are plenty more carrots where that came from! Why not clean them all up!

[cylon]

Originally Posted by AaronB

Does it effect you at all? If so there is a feeling that you are holding out on, waiting for external circumstances to justify it. But it seems powerful to just allow that feeling fully right now.

Good observation. I've also noticed that believing you can have what you want isn't so much a problem as the fear that your lifestyle will change and that you may have to explain yourself to others if they can't understand how you manifested something.

For example if you wanted to manifest so much money, you might want it right away yet you may fear that it means you are not a hard worker, that it's not fair you should have so much when others suffer, that other people may not believe you deserve it and resent you if you get it and they don't, or not respect you for taking the "easy way out" when they struggle and work so hard every day.

That sort of thought usually comes AFTER the initial good feeling of just having it right NOW. I think the initial feeling good is your true self celebrating its own creation, and the doubt and fear that follows is your ego trying to keep you down in the mud with it, afraid you're crawling out of the hole.