Total and utter Surrender is the key

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by cortocabezas1111

there's always something else to do, huh? im a big fan of your posts angela, even back when i cut off heads i was a huge fan.
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these pavlina boards so funny.
if you are trying to surrender into "something" i think you are missing the point. the point is you're totally cool right now, as is! so surrending is a "non doing", a giving up. trying to surrender to "become" something, makes no sense. you are you. there's nowhere else to go, there's nothing else to do. this is not an exit, my friends! it's just BEING. surrending is a non doing.

it's not BEING A JESUS, or BEING A GURU or BEING AN INTERNET MESSAGE BOARD SAVIOR..............no. it's just being. being you. being right now. being here. experiencing this moment. if you keep looking for yourself in all these funny places, you might miss out on this beautiful experience! You cannot be found! It'd be like trying to see your eyes without a mirror. it cannot be done. Consciousness/awareness/whatever the whatever you want to call it, is not an object. It's not something that has a certain location. It's not hidden in your head, or behind your spine, or anywhere, so stop looking, you'll never ever be able to point to it. You are it.

Thats what i thought surrending was. Stop trying and just being.

[cortocabezas1111]

bingo. the detailed list of instructions on how to "surrender" made me laugh.

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by cortocabezas1111

bingo. the detailed list of instructions on how to "surrender" made me laugh.

Well i figured the list was just an emotional exercise to help to just be.

[cortocabezas1111]

The natural state of being.

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by cortocabezas1111

bingo. the detailed list of instructions on how to "surrender" made me laugh.

Its not about surrendering its about becoming awake first or a conscious creator then surrendering.

Thats all.

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Well i figured the list was just an emotional exercise to help to just be.

It is for someone who is not a conscious creator to implement before surrender.

[SethWilliams]

Originally Posted by nicbrahms

It is for someone who is not a conscious creator to implement before surrender.

Exactly ! Your awesome Nic,

Love Seth

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by cortocabezas1111

The natural state of being.

I appreciate what you are saying, but I have read all of this stuff when I started 11 months ago and in all honesty it is hard for someone who is starting out or beginning on their journey to just get it.

It is getting it intellectually that is easy, but feeling it is a different kettle of fish.

I am trying to outline my path for people so that they can work with that.

After all it took you 5 years to get it didn't it?

Peace my friend.

[dmac]

Be helpless, dumbfounded,
Unable to say yes or no.
Then a stretcher will come from grace
to gather us up.

We are too dull-eyed to see that beauty.
If we say we can, we’re lying.
If we say No, we don’t see it,
That No will behead us
And shut tight our window onto spirit.

So let us rather not be sure of anything,
Beside ourselves, and only that, so
Miraculous beings come running to help.
Crazed, lying in a zero circle, mute,
We shall be saying finally,
With tremendous eloquence, Lead us.
When we have totally surrendered to that beauty,
We shall be a mighty kindness.

Rumi

And another from Rumi , which may serve here :

No matter if its animal,
or vegetable, or mineral.

Every bit of the universe
is filled with wanting,
and whatever any bit wants,
wants the wanter!

This subject must dissolve again.

The mystery of loving
is God's sweetest secret.

Keep it. Bury it. Leave it here
where I leave it, drawn as I am
by the pull of the Puller
to something else.

You know how it is. Sometimes
we plan a trip to one place,
but something takes us to another.

When a horse is being broken, the trainer
pulls it in many different directions,
so the horse will come to know
what it is to be ridden.

The most beautiful and alert horse is one
completely attuned to the rider.

God fixes a passionate desire in you,
and then disappoints you.
God does that a hundred times!

God breaks the wings of one intention
and then gives you another,
cuts the rope of contriving,
so you'll remember your dependence.

But sometimes your plans work out!
You feel fulfilled and in control.

That's because, if you were always failing,
you might give up. But remember,
it is by failures that lovers
stay aware of how they are loved.

Failure is the key
to the kingdom within.

Our prayer should be:
Break the legs of what I want to happen.
Eat me like halva.
It’s spring, and finally
I have no will but thine.

[dmac]

thanks for the link- gorgeous

[dmac]

have being 'trying' to 'get' this for 20 years! The natural state of being... slowly... but relaxing into real trust in the world as well that is something else..

[Lemon Juice]

Nic, I think you should write books! You have written a good piece of quality material in your posts here. Very good explanation but unfortunately we won't get it unless we gain the inner knowing.

There's a fine line between visualization out of need and out of surrender. This is a difficult combination to grasp - either we work on our goals under stress or give up deliberate creation altogether for the sake of surrender. But thanks for your descriptions anyway!

[ursixx]

Originally Posted by nicbrahms

Well the **** hit the fan last night. He was coming in and outta my business all day in a mad fume.

I was set for a nice evening in and he came and started smashing the place up, he really lost it. So weirdly enough I thought we could amicably call it a day, but alas was not to be so.

He smashed I decided I may aswell make the most of it and decided to let rip after initially staying calm. And throughout it all, the smashing, the damage I never stopped loving him unconditonally and accepted what he was doing.

He tried to lock me in the back room, he threatened all sorts.

I started resisting what was happening and talked to myself as expanded, and I could feel the greater part of me observing me in my manifestation the entire time, and there was a delight to it, all of it. It sounds quite masochistic and sick but there you go.

Eventually I got home at midnight after 3 hours of it, he then turned up at 4.30am and rang me to let him in, despite not living there now. I left the bedroom and slept in another room, he made my stomach turn.

Still I felt for him and asked for guidance and prayed he find his peace. It was a nightmare.

I didn't sleep, awoke groggy, shattered and he started again. It was relentless.

He followed me to work for which i was now late.

Throughout the morning my astute little neice came in and as I have siad before children are our greatest and clearest manifestation, she said things she couldn't have known, she wouldn't leave the room, ending the torture, my little protector. My mainfest works in wonderful ways.

God anyone would have thought I had actually cheated.

Anyway he has done what he usually does and swept it under the carpet. And he wants to make it work.

He came in this morning and said have you cancelled your account on facebook? I looked at him and said 'have you listened to anything I have said' of which I had said I don't want you, over and over.

He continued in his vein, I remained surrendered. Throughout it all I knew it was happening for a reason, as usually I benefit on some conscious level. I am waiting to see what happens.

Anyway after another two hours he said his life was meaningless and he can't live without me. I said when you can come to me and say 'my life is wonderful, fantastic and I want you in it' then things would be the way they should be.

I spoke about spiritual matters he listened, never having paid any attention to anything I say or do. He said he was an *******, and regretted it.

Basically he will do anything to not let it end. Thank God he works away. I cringed everytime he touched me and I know he knows its over, I know it is.

I won't live by his rules anymore, I am happy in myself and will no longer be subject to anything. I manifest myself a new way of living.

And now I just got why all this happened, I needed to break free of his rules and regulations and he has promised to read 'busting loose' for the description of it all is key in that book.

I feel free now, happier and as usual am still completely surrendered.

Whether it was for the realationship to end or if it was needed for him to change I don't know. All I know it was needed, and now I think on it, I think he has to change his vibration and considering what he has put himself through, I beleive he will now make the change.

Perhaps we work it out who knows. All I know it was a major shift.

the mental image of a balloon slipping away from someones grip and flying carefree away entered my mind when I read this post.
enjoy your flight Nic

[ursixx]

"Surrender is the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to rather than opposing the flow of life."Eckhart Tolle

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by Lemon Juice

Nic, I think you should write books! You have written a good piece of quality material in your posts here. Very good explanation but unfortunately we won't get it unless we gain the inner knowing.

There's a fine line between visualization out of need and out of surrender. This is a difficult combination to grasp - either we work on our goals under stress or give up deliberate creation altogether for the sake of surrender. But thanks for your descriptions anyway!

I agree its not easy, as I said it took me nearly a year to get here and in some ways i think I must have decided I would have an awakening like this, thats probs why its been quicker for me than it is for others. Something I agreed to before my advent into 3d.

A leap of faith is not easy either, we do complicate things endlessly.

I think that if people are serious about awakening as I know you all are, you will find your path and it will become apparent as it has for me.

Just keep with it.

Peace

[nicbrahms]

Okay something quite monumental happened this morning.

Yesterday I was stuck in my store all day from 10am to 9pm at night as my staff girl was ill with a bad headache.

I knew immediately it had happened for a reason.

So I stuck it out, by the end of the day I had had enough and went home, chilled and then hit the sack.

This morning I awake, keep in mind I have been wanting to break free of the illusion altogether. I lie in bed and still thinking on yesterday's marathon day, I decide screw it, I am not playing to the illusion anymore. I lay in bed and decided there and then I would only ever do things i wanted to do, when I want to do them.

It was a shift in my brain immediately, I then decided I wouldn't open my store until I felt like it. As usual I had the usual whispering of 'you can't, you gotta open, what about the money, the rep etc.'

I ignored it all, and seeing the illusion more clearly than ever as an illusion, I absolutely decided I would get up when I wanted, have a leisurely shower and wash my hair and get ready and do what I wanted as i wanted.

And so I did, I could feel the change in me, I am master of my illusion and it will no longer dictate to me what must and must not be done.

I will command it and I asked myself 'do I feel fully supported?' when I got into my car the following lyrics from a song were playing 'I got your back'.

I laughed. I can feel I am so close to breaking through the illusion so entirely.

I have completely stopped paying bills as i have stated, I now don't entertain them at all, they are thinking of old and I have done away with thinking of old. To entertain them now would be to give them power.

Its all an illusion of consciousness, I could sense it so clearly this morning it was extraordinary. I remain surrendered, although the surrender does not seem to be required as much.

I got this funny notion that surrendering once completely seems to be enough to allow yourself to change in that you acknowledge your love and power in your greater self and then surrender does not seem so important after that. Because you become the greater part, so your perception is changed and you don't have the same desires, and needs or wants anyway. Or you appreciate stuff and let it go quickly as you know it is done.

It is different, anyway I remain surrendered with a weird mix of excitement buzzing through me all the time.

I am becoming, forever becoming and I know I am changed.

Also I have seeking to have a leap of faith and never felt ready, and this morning I was ready to make my leap of faith and it filled me with delight and I felt a shift in my consciousness again.

I take my leap of faith knowing I am fully supported by myself in all I do or become.

It is very empowering.

Love and peace

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by ursixx

"Surrender is the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to rather than opposing the flow of life."Eckhart Tolle

Exactly, and thank you for your other comment, its quite poetic.

Although on that note, we are still together.

My bloke is working away and he is tormenting himself and ringing me at all hours about his doubts etc.

I understood today that the whole thing had to happen to shift his consciousness.

I said to him, 'what would you prefer? That this didn't happen and we split up cause we have grown apart? Or that this happen and our relationship changes incredibly and we last forever?'

So, I told him that he needs to see it through whatever he is going through, cause at the end of it he will feel secure, a different person and our relationship will be improved no end and now made to last.

I told you I had visualised him in my future, so he's gotta be there, just not the way he was.

This my friends is what happens when the people around you do not yield to the changes in your consciousness, if they are important to you, then they will undergo a consciousness shift in ways that will enable them to be the version of them that you need in your life.

At least on some level thats what I think, however, considering my thinking is rewriting itself continously now, there will probs be another conclusion I will arrive at soon.

Peace as always.

[themaster]

Hey Nic,

Your looking good as usual

And surprisingly your posts are more coherent/readable for me today..

I find it ironic your choosing not to go to work (for a while) and I've having some debate issues about dealing with inconvenient timing customers.. (and was considering changing their appointments or refusing their business.. I have done it once or twice.. ) this morning.. I suppose I'll probably take them on.. only cause I rarely work

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by themaster

Hey Nic,

Your looking good as usual

And surprisingly your posts are more coherent/readable for me today..

I find it ironic your choosing not to go to work (for a while) and I've having some debate issues about dealing with inconvenient timing customers.. (and was considering changing their appointments or refusing their business.. I have done it once or twice.. ) this morning.. I suppose I'll probably take them on.. only cause I rarely work

And you are looking as delectable as ever. I missed you, where you been?

I am glad you are back.

I am as changed as ever, monumental is the only way to describe it.

Oh I wanted to talk to you about dunvalo mechizedeck and merkaba, I have been doing the melchizedek method each night on guided meditation and each morning I awake more and more changed. I am certain I am not in my head as I used to be, if you know what I mean.

What has your experience with it been?

As usual The master I am yours to command. Tee hee.

Love you like butter loves hot toast.

[themaster]

The merkahvah just is.. not much to be said about it..

You might however be using it to transform faster.. that's kind of what it does..

According to something I read recently.. any normal humans not having a merkkavah vehicle will actually have their memory's erased where as those in the vehicle.. can actually keep there memories.. weird.. huh?

I don't of course mean all memories.. I just mean those limitation memory's.. bad/resistant ways to be..

When we switched to the star tetrahedron a few months back.. it was actually much bigger then I realized.. we will soon add within a few weeks to a month add the holodeck option onto it.. making it a dodecahedron?.. I think..

Originally Posted by nicbrahms

And you are looking as delectable as ever. I missed you, where you been?

I am glad you are back.

I didn't really disappear.. just not always popping into your threads

Originally Posted by nicbrahms

I am certain I am not in my head as I used to be, if you know what I mean.

What has your experience with it been?

What has changed for me with my teacher.. whether it be cause of the star tetrahedron or merkkahbah.. is that my heads gotten quieter and quieter.. that's progress if you ask me.. thoughts are now manifesting faster than ever without command.. just thinking a bit..

That's all.. that's really new.. I've been doing my homework lazily and just going through weird periods.. don't know what to tell you.. these weird periods aren't necessarily related to class.. but aren't not necessarily related to class

Grr.. got appointments in like 2 hours.. but I'm tired from having burned through the midnight oil.. I may just have to re-schedule them.. feeling un-motivated

[Divajules]

Originally Posted by nicbrahms

Exactly, and thank you for your other comment, its quite poetic.

Although on that note, we are still together.

My bloke is working away and he is tormenting himself and ringing me at all hours about his doubts etc.

I understood today that the whole thing had to happen to shift his consciousness.

I said to him, 'what would you prefer? That this didn't happen and we split up cause we have grown apart? Or that this happen and our relationship changes incredibly and we last forever?'

So, I told him that he needs to see it through whatever he is going through, cause at the end of it he will feel secure, a different person and our relationship will be improved no end and now made to last.

I told you I had visualised him in my future, so he's gotta be there, just not the way he was.

This my friends is what happens when the people around you do not yield to the changes in your consciousness, if they are important to you, then they will undergo a consciousness shift in ways that will enable them to be the version of them that you need in your life.

At least on some level thats what I think, however, considering my thinking is rewriting itself continously now, there will probs be another conclusion I will arrive at soon.

Peace as always.

I can really relate to this, Nic. I believe it is spot on, too. I went through something similar a couple of years ago. I got really fed up with my man and the way he'd been acting. I was trying all manner of things to change the situation (working on myself) but he was not changing.

I kept holding a vision of him as I knew he could be yet it didn't seem to be working. Finally, I'd had enough. I made a decision to leave him. I didn't have the financial means to do it but I did it anyway (SO unlike me!).

I figured that there must be another out there that fits my vision and as long as I was hanging on this one, the real one would not be able to find his way to me. So, I surrendered. I told myself that if I had to be alone, it was better than this.

I moved out for a year. Over that year, a miracle happened much like you described with your guy. He had a huge shift, we got back together, I moved home and our relationship has been awesome ever since!

I know surrender was the key. I stopped fighting and just let the universe handle it. But, you have to be willing to have everything "fall apart" so the transformation can take place. That can be a very scary thing but well worth it!

[SethWilliams]

Im quite confused.

In my reality, my nans cancer has accelerated. I went to see her today.

She was on her death bed, she wasnt coherent. It gave me great grief, sadness and discomfort, so i applied the process to the situation. Reclaiming my power.

I dont know now. I feel just. I just am. Its hard to describe. Applying the process took away its intensity and its impact. Its depth and detail. IT was almost like a picture.

Now, i look around me and my family is sad. Crying and in distress.

It just is.

[Kishka]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Im quite confused.

In my reality, my nans cancer has accelerated. I went to see her today.

She was on her death bed, she wasnt coherent. It gave me great grief, sadness and discomfort, so i applied the process to the situation. Reclaiming my power.

I dont know now. I feel just. I just am. Its hard to describe. Applying the process took away its intensity and its impact. Its depth and detail. IT was almost like a picture.

Now, i look around me and my family is sad. Crying and in distress.

It just is.

Seth, Im sorry to hear about your nans condition. What you wrote is really powerful. I am excited to read about the effect that applying the process had on your experience of this situation. It keeps me motivated to keep using the process in any and all situations in my life.

[AlmostGodess]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Im quite confused.

In my reality, my nans cancer has accelerated. I went to see her today.

She was on her death bed, she wasnt coherent. It gave me great grief, sadness and discomfort, so i applied the process to the situation. Reclaiming my power.

I dont know now. I feel just. I just am. Its hard to describe. Applying the process took away its intensity and its impact. Its depth and detail. IT was almost like a picture.

Now, i look around me and my family is sad. Crying and in distress.

It just is.

Hi, Seth, sorry for your nan, for the pain and for the loss...

[nicbrahms]

Parable of the rope

We are like a person holding on to a piece of rope.

He holds on for dear life, knowing that if he were to let go he would fall to his death. His parents, his teachers, and many others have told him this is so; and when he looks around he can see everyone else doing the same.

Nothing would induce him to let go.

Along comes a wise person. She knows that holding on is unnecessary, that the security it offers is illusory, and only holds you where you are. So she looks for a way to dispel his illusions and help him to be free.

She talks of real security, of deeper joy, of true happiness, of peace of mind. She tells him that he can taste this if he will just release one finger from the rope.

"One finger," thinks the man; "that"s not too much to risk for a taste of bliss." So he agrees to take this first initiation.

And he does taste greater joy, happiness, and peace of mind.

But not enough to bring lasting fulfillment.

"Even greater joy, happiness and peace can be yours," she tells him, "if you will just release a second finger."

"This," he tells himself, "is going to be more difficult. Can I do it? Will it be safe? Do I have the courage?" He hesitates, then, flexing his finger, feels how it would be to let go a little more . . . and takes the risk.

He is relieved to find he does not fall; instead he discovers greater happiness and inner peace.

But could more be possible?

"Trust me," she says. "Have I failed you so far? I know your fears, I know what your mind is telling you -- that this is crazy, that it goes against everything you have ever learnt -- but please, trust me. Look at me, am I not free? I promise you will be safe, and you will know even greater happiness and contentment."

"Do I really want happiness and inner peace so much," he wonders, "that I am prepared to risk all that I hold dear? In principle, yes; but can I be sure that I will be safe, that I will not fall?" With a little coaxing he begins to look at his fears, to consider their basis, and to explore what it is he really wants. Slowly he feels his fingers soften and relax. He knows he can do it. And he knows he must do it. It is only a matter of time until he releases his grip.

And as he does an even greater sense of peace flows through him.

He is now hanging by one finger. Reason tells him he should have fallen a finger or two ago, but he hasn"t. "Is there something wrong with holding on itself?" he asks himself. "Have I been wrong all the time?"

"This one is up to you," she says. "I can help you no further. Just remember that all your fears are groundless."

Trusting his quiet inner voice, he gradually releases the last finger.

And nothing happens.

He stays exactly where he is.

Then he realizes why. He has been standing on the ground all along.

And as he looks at the ground, knowing he need never hold on again, he finds true peace of mind.

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by SethWilliams

Im quite confused.

In my reality, my nans cancer has accelerated. I went to see her today.

She was on her death bed, she wasnt coherent. It gave me great grief, sadness and discomfort, so i applied the process to the situation. Reclaiming my power.

I dont know now. I feel just. I just am. Its hard to describe. Applying the process took away its intensity and its impact. Its depth and detail. IT was almost like a picture.

Now, i look around me and my family is sad. Crying and in distress.

It just is.

My thoughts are with you my friend.

[SethWilliams]

Thank you all

I hope she finds peace soon,

Love Seth

[Lazygirl]

Wow, i stumbled upon this thread searching for something, that's what i do since i feel resistance in my life i search...
As i read all that was written here, i was stunned! I was perplexed, can't even describe it.
This makes me think, the times where i experienced joy, happiness and fulfillment, those where times i stopped forcing things, accepted where i was, and ''surrendered'' to what i was experiencing.
Wow Nic, you are strong and you write from a place of love. There is beauty in your words.
One question though, how do you know when you acting out of desperation and need or you are acting from a place of trust ,"watering your seed"?

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by Lazygirl

Wow, i stumbled upon this thread searching for something, that's what i do since i feel resistance in my life i search...
As i read all that was written here, i was stunned! I was perplexed, can't even describe it.
This makes me think, the times where i experienced joy, happiness and fulfillment, those where times i stopped forcing things, accepted where i was, and ''surrendered'' to what i was experiencing.
Wow Nic, you are strong and you write from a place of love. There is beauty in your words.
One question though, how do you know when you acting out of desperation and need or you are acting from a place of trust ,"watering your seed"?

Thank you kindly for your words.

About acting out of desperation or need instead of trust, you have to look within. Look within yourself in your heart and mind and see or ask yourself what it is you want right now? The answer should come back as 'nothing.'

When the answer is a genuine nothing you know you are surrendered.

Also if you find yourself thinking or worrying about something, about how it will pan out, then let the thoughts go and say to yourself 'I trust this to myself.' Then let it go.

Finally always maintain a place of unconditional love and acceptance for all you have created and all that is.

Peace

[nicbrahms]

Originally Posted by Divajules

I can really relate to this, Nic. I believe it is spot on, too. I went through something similar a couple of years ago. I got really fed up with my man and the way he'd been acting. I was trying all manner of things to change the situation (working on myself) but he was not changing.

I kept holding a vision of him as I knew he could be yet it didn't seem to be working. Finally, I'd had enough. I made a decision to leave him. I didn't have the financial means to do it but I did it anyway (SO unlike me!).

I figured that there must be another out there that fits my vision and as long as I was hanging on this one, the real one would not be able to find his way to me. So, I surrendered. I told myself that if I had to be alone, it was better than this.

I moved out for a year. Over that year, a miracle happened much like you described with your guy. He had a huge shift, we got back together, I moved home and our relationship has been awesome ever since!

I know surrender was the key. I stopped fighting and just let the universe handle it. But, you have to be willing to have everything "fall apart" so the transformation can take place. That can be a very scary thing but well worth it!

Thank you for this.

The ride is a little rough right now, I am grateful he is working away.

He rings me at 5 in the morning having not slept cause his mind is making stories up. He says he doesn't want to live. He is tormented by his thinking. he says he feels different and doesn't feel like himself.

I am helping him all I can, and although I keep explaining that when he is through this he will understand why he is going through it. I told him to ask for help from his larger self. He still refuses to listen to those ideas.

However, I know in admist suffering the help will usually come and he will begin to get through it.

I have to admit I have never seen him so racked with doubt and insecurity and worry. I have never seen him in this state. It is monumental I think, in terms of the changes it will bring about for both of us.

Anyway peace and love as always.