Lightworkers vs. Darkworkers

[renie408]

I might be a little late coming to the polarity thing and I am not real sure which forum it belongs on, but I am not sure I either 100% agree with the premise or perhaps I am not understanding fully what Steve is talking about. After today, I am completely open to my doubts being based in my own misunderstanding.

I have been pondering all day which category I fall into...and I don't see a clear cut answer. I don't see a clear cut answer for anyone. Except Dick Cheney. And Mother Teresa. Those two seem pretty clear to me.

I would like to think of myself as a lightworker and I know the people around me would say that. But I am currently working on unconditional love for all people and that is NOT easy for me. I think I have wanted to beat the crap out of more people this past week since I have been working on unconditional love for everybody than before when I just tried to tolerate people. I am also competitive and greedy. Not for money, I am greedy for acclaim. I want to be patted on the head. A lot. By everybody. I am working on it; again, not easy.

So, am I a frustrated darkworker or a lightworker who just needs some more work? I do not *think* that my only use for people is what they can do for me. I think. Or maybe I just don't WANT to think I think that way because we are conditioned to believe that is icky? So maybe I am a darkworker. I mean, I really would like to be rich. But I have also always thought that if I won the lottery, I would have to give most of it away cause who could sleep at night having that much money and knowing that other people were out there starving?? So maybe I am a lightworker....