Rockchick thread and.. "nothing works for me"!

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by Angela

And that's what makes your life a Pity Party - a minimal receptiveness to change. "Oh! I want what I want, and I should have what I want! But I'm not willing to change my SELF. No, it's everything ELSE that needs to change, not me!"

You're right -- you don't NEED to change. And your circumstances don't need to, either.

I DID change, over the last 3 years or so, but those ways I changed don't have anything to do with the things I can manifest. What I need to do is change how I practice the LoA. I am fine the way I AM, I just need to change how I do things (or don't do them).

This is kinda interesting, The Artist's Way actually has a section about this, only they call it a result of taking this course (the book is actually a course). It says once you start doing these exercises, you'll start to notice things in your life that you want suddenly appear. So it sounds like another version of LoA without going that route, all I have to do is write 3 pages of nothing when I wake up every day. Supposedly this jump starts things to start happening in your life.

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by CaterpillarWoman

That IS change. Duh.

Like I said, I just have to change how I practice LoA, I don't have to change my personality or my morals or my values, just how I go about manifesting. I don't consider that changing myself, it's just changing how I do something.

Yes, of course. It's all about external things, and nothing to do with you. You're just a victim of circumstances, no choices, no options, no responsibility for any of it.

I didn't say it didn't have anything to do with me, I just said I don't have to change myself to change my circumstances. I've never had to do it before to get different circumstances.

It seems that NOTHING anyone says to you actually makes an impact. You're as blind as you can be, just see what you want to see... My impression yesterday that you really ARE incapable of any sort of awakening seems to be correct.

Well that's how you see it, but I don't see it that way. And I actually had my awakening a few years ago, that was when REAL change took place. And now that I think back on it, that could have been what started the turn of events that ended with me getting laid off! I believe this is working perfectly, I'm only scared of the worst case scenario that might happen in a few months, but I can't say for sure that will happen. My life could end up being totally awesome, I don't know that for sure. So i'm going to just relax and not worry because if worse comes to worse, at least I have a backup plan. (the organic farm/work exchange thing)

(Not that I expect you have ANY understanding whatsoever of what I just wrote, but someone else might, and I certainly do. Enough is enough, though. Time for release.)

Of course I understand what you just wrote, I just don't agree.

2 more people claiming to be done with this thread, we'll see how long they last! Not that I will be upset if they don't come back, I really think it's served it's purpose for me and if people stop posting, I'll have more time to get my stuff done! But i'm very happy that it's helped so many people besides me!

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by Gracestars

Is Rockchick a type 4? Fascinating. Skimming this thread I picked her as a 4.

Well I took a few different tests on different sites, I got high scores for 4 on all of them but one said I was a different number, I forget now which one it was, I think I was a 9 on another site, but my scores for 4 was high on all of them.

I'll address why to RC, I feel funny talking about her as though she's not there!

Thank you! I was starting to think people were doing that just to make me feel like I was about as important as dirt.

RC, there is something that comes across in your thread which demands "but I am special, I am unique!!" which further translates, "you don't understand what I have been through, and how I live, and because I have been through something so unimaginably different to everyone else, I am therefore entitled to special allowances meant only for me." In your case that one special allowance reads like paralysis.

I know it comes off that way, but to me, I'm just explaining how I am. I never say that I'm the only one who is like I am, just that I am how I am. I do believe that I don't fit in with the majority of society, I often feel like a misfit, like I'm going against the grain, like I am outside the box, but I still realize there are others who have it worse than me as far as their problems. I am not an idiot, I know that I have a very strong advantage compared to some people. I just respond by explaining how I feel about my problems, not that I'm the only person in the world with them.

[wolfgang]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

all I have to do is write 3 pages of nothing when I wake up every day. Supposedly this jump starts things to start happening in your life.

aren't you already doing that here?

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by wolfgang

aren't you already doing that here?

Oh very funny!

I just said "nothing" because you're supposed to just write whatever you are thinking right after you wake up, it doesn't even need to be anything important. Like, "I'm so tired, I wish I could lay back down, but I can't. Oh I don't know what to say. My pajamas are blue." Supposedly this works miracles.

[wolfgang]

ps. when I said you could practice following through on plans - I meant practicing on plans that are not necessarily related to your grand master plan (RC concert organic farmer).

And this is only if you think you want to do anything about feeling like you don't follow through on plans. like you say you are a great planner but then don't execute them.

If that bothers you, if that's something you want to change - the idea is to make a really small plan - like a 30 day experiment, or to decide to just listen to your father for a week (maybe that's too big), or to make a plan to write 10 minutes a day personally for 2 days. Don't argue against my plan ideas - those are just my examples and I am not suggesting you pick one of those at all.

And then actually do these plans. Make them so small that you are guaranteed to follow through on them.

That is if you think you want to change what you do regarding being a planner and not doing the plans.

Or maybe you already do this - make little plans and follow through - in which case stop saying you don't follow your plans - just notice you do for the plans that aren't so big and nebulous to not be motivating for you.

[wolfgang]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

Oh very funny!

I just said "nothing" because you're supposed to just write whatever you are thinking right after you wake up, it doesn't even need to be anything important. Like, "I'm so tired, I wish I could lay back down, but I can't. Oh I don't know what to say. My pajamas are blue." Supposedly this works miracles.

oops. wasn't trying to pick on the "nothing" statement but you saw it that way. I just thought you have been kind of journaling here, but now I see the book's idea is different than forum posting and journaling.

[wolfgang]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

...I was about as important as dirt.

organic dirt is really important!

I know it comes off that way, but to me, I'm just explaining how I am. I never say that I'm the only one who is like I am, just that I am how I am. I do believe that I don't fit in with the majority of society, I often feel like a misfit, like I'm going against the grain, like I am outside the box, but I still realize there are others who have it worse than me as far as their problems. I am not an idiot, I know that I have a very strong advantage compared to some people. I just respond by explaining how I feel about my problems, not that I'm the only person in the world with them.

comparing...

you are unique, just like everybody else.

but also you are a follower in ways - how you describe not being able to do what you want because that would produce change and disturb your relationships - so you are stuck in a role in your micro society of people you interact with.

[missbhaven]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I don't know how to change this attitude, so right now I am doing nothing. I can only change what I know how to change.

Yes you do know how to change this attitude! You talk about changing how you work at LOA. Does your sentence above sound like something you WILLING choose to appear in your reality becuase of LOA? Sit 10 min in silence and ask yourself that question over and over, I'm pretty sure your mind can spit out a couple of suggestions. It's just that after the suggestions you start making excuses for that you "can't" or "don't know how". Don't listen to teh voice that says's "Can't" and if you say "I don't know how." DEMAND to be shown the way!

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I won't say it because I can't do that! How exactly does one start small when it comes to traveling around the country in an RV? I already said I can't afford to rent one. I can't drive anywhere far away, and that wouldn't be the same thing anyway. I can't start small with living on an organic farm, that's something you either do or you don't do, there is no in between. The way I see it, all my plans are things I have to save up and dive into, you can't just practice for an hour or two a day.

Agian... In talking about rejecting advice. Did this particular advice ONLY apply with your RV or moving to an organic farm? No.
You choose to pick goals that seems too big that it can't be done, an excuse to stay stagnant and do nothing becuase you don't know how it can be done. Thus using your excuses to reject it as advice that could be applied in your life. But this advice could be applied to any other area of your goals, like photography or videomaking lessons/ online tutorials. Starting small could be planning a 1 hour nature walk in the daytime twice a week for the whole month for the purpose of getting 2 shots you LIKE or APPRECIATE per walk. And doing it! You don't have to get it perfect everytime, just get up and try it! May work out once that week, twice the following week, twice the week after, once the week after that and 3 times the last week. Trying to implement and FOLLOW THREW your SMALL plans was the suggestion. WHich is something you CAN do now. Or have you forgotten all aspects of your goal? Don't push aside (reject) this advice just becuase you feel your goal is too big. THAT WHY HE SAID START SMALL.

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

Everything bad that I say, can be seen as good from a different perspective. I can sit on the fence about something or I can see both sides. That might be why things I say seem to contradict other things I say.

Soo lets switch this up from us then to you. Show me the good in the list of YOUR excuses that ALG had compiled as to why you aren't currently accomplishing your dreams. Since everything bad (like your pitiful excuses) can be seen as good from a different perspective. SHOW US WHAT IT'S LIKE!. You current circumstances aren't good or bad either, just based on how YOU look at them. Just like people here can look at your own words from a bad perspective, you can be having that same bad perspective on your own words and on your own life. After all you look at your current circumstances unfavorably.

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

Because I have been here for the whole thing, I've read it all. And I have books and ebooks to read that will take me a long time. Why would I stall myself even further by going back and reading something equivalent to a book, when I'm already behind on my reading? I could have missed stuff, yes, and I could pick up on something that I didn't the first time, but I will get to that next time I read it all. Right now I feel like I can't do anything until I get caught up on everything I'm behind on. The garage sale is in 2 weeks and I still have 2/3 of my stuff to go through, and if it's anything like the last month, I'll be working almost every day. So I don't have time to add any more things into my schedule.

And I haven't? I have stated I HAVE read this topic at least 3 times. Mostly becuase I was tracking a conversation. Checking to see if that was something you really said. I notice you did not mention anything at all, ANYTHING AT ALL, about my comments about introspection of yourself in this response. Or how this this like a journal to you (which YOU have stated, but if you don't want to go back and read your own words I don't see why I should dig to prove to you via quotes that you said it.). When given a task that you should enjoy, the only one here you seem to respond to.. READING. YOU RUN.
I must say I am happy, you are soo scared to re-read your own words and the heaps of tailor made specific advice (which is a comglomerate of all the books you have to read. Especially if they were suggested in this topic, since they, the board members, would have given you the advice they feel best suits you from what they KNOW from the book the HAVE ALREADY read themselves.). Yeah, I am glad that you are soo scared to re-read your own words, that you are now using your goals and your to do list to skirt around doing your own introspection.
You claim you want to be able to heal yourself, yet when given advice on how to start, the first thing you mention is you don't have time. You have time to respond to every person that replies to you. But oh no no no, no time for a lil introspection, no time for yourself, your TRUE self that is. There is a post where someone listed the ways you maybe afraid, which is why you say you don't know how. I file your feelings of self-introspection into this category.

The step I know I have to take feels like a huge step backward, and I'm afraid I'll get stuck there;

Introspection feels counter-productive to you becuase it will require you to STOP, take a couple of moments to look BACK at your own words that you are manifesting into your reality now with LOA. I mean hello, look at the first line I quoted. Is that what you want to manifest in your life currently? Doing NOTHING, becuase you can ONLY change what you KNOW how to change, and you don't KNOW HOW to change your OWN self and attitudes. How many people have told you inthis thread, that you are the most powerful manifestor they know.

Soo you don't have the right circumstances via money to go and make the reality easier for your dreams, and you don't have the time for introspection to change your prespective to make the reality easier for your dreams.
And here I thought you just freed up some time becuase LOST is done soo you can catch up on some reading. What book are you going to pick up that's worth more of your time rather than re-reading your own version of a journal?
What words can someoneelse tell you via a book or e-book that can be worth more than taking the time to re-read the wisdom your own words and solidfy your goal intentions. By re-reading your own words, you could just push some of your goals further into manifestation by agreeing with it wholeheartedly and decide you don't agree with many of your limiting statements and try and
cancel them out or twist your persceptive on them before they do become reality.

[missbhaven]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I never denied that living on my own is more important than an RV or a camera, because to me privacy and independence are my 2 biggest values. But since I already have those (for the time being), I was able to relax and think 'ok now what is my life missing?' and the answer was the ability to travel and explore my hobbies. So that's why I started thinking about those because my need for privacy and independence was being met. The reason why I never moved home to save up for an RV was because then I would be suffering for the last year and a half, and probably for 5 more years yet! RV's are something mostly retired people can afford, my measly $290 checks would only be a drop in the bucket, I would probably need a decade to save up for an RV, AND unemployment wont last forever anyway so once that's gone, I'd have NO money, and then I'm still not saving, AND i'm still suffering at my moms!I already had that plan thought out when I got laid off which is why I chose to stay here, at least I have my privacy and independence.

Remember you are a powerful manifestor. 1st underline... belief you can't maintain it, soo you won't. That was your choice.
2nd underline. Well that's going to be your life coming up anyway if you won't find a solution for your unemployment and the checks stop coming in. If you bit the bullet you coulda been living like that with a downpayment on a used rv or a plane ticket to get to topical farm where to volunteer for 6 months with a lil spending money. Now you just may go down that road with nothing but your values of independance to show for it. As the colorcoded post a while ago said. "I'm still gonna be 50, I'd rather be 50 and a vet" How much will you suffer when you have NO cash flow at all and are forced to move in with moms? What are you going to do then? How much longer will it really take?

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I know it's screwed up to think money can buy you happiness, I know it can't, but what it can buy is the ability to live your life how you want to. If you are completely broke you can't take train rides across the country, you can't follow bands around on tour, you can't stay in hotels for free every night, you can't eat healthy for free, you can't fly to England for free, and if somebody can find a way I can do all these things without money then show me. I'm still waiting for that answer.

Perspective can do that also, not just money. You say if you had money you wouldn't have to worry about a job. That doesn't mean you won't stop worrrying all together. You just may end up hording all your money and not doing much because you are worried you end up like those not soo smart bankrupt lotto winners, supposed you only win $10,000 you stated that still won't be enough. After all doing all those things listed would take up a lot of money, they don't just happen for free like you are saying. You would have to spend that money, if you are a worrywart you'll STILL be worrying about money.
You can wait for an answer all you want. Or you can make your own answer and make it reality, that's what scientist do. It's called creating a theory, testing it until it become truth. What testing have you done for yourself?

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I can't say this any other way. You show me how I can do all these things with no money:

-travel around the country almost constantly for the rest of your life
-have a place to sleep every night that isnt in a tent or on someone's couch
-eat healthy (without stealing food from people's gardens)
-have a home (be it an apartment, house, or RV) to YOURSELF (because privacy is my biggest thing)
-go to concerts (I dont mean just winning a pair of tickets here and there, I mean going to A LOT of concerts, follow them around the country
-create videos (without a videocamera)
-write (without a computer)

I could even go on more, what it comes down to you need money for literally everything on my list. Every single person in here needs money or they wouldn't even be able to post in this forum!

1. flight attendant.
2. what the frig is wrong with camping and friends couches? Hotels and even hostels are expensive, besides sleeping on a couch means more fun money and I have a friend in the area to socialize with. Hmmmm spending time with my friend and sleeping on a couch or a lonely plush hotel room. Plus answer 1 covers this also.
3. answers 2 also. work on an organic farm that provides food and shelter
4. Ha! I found a way to offset a mortage... my fear is if I do it I just maybe labelled a terrorist. Doesn't mean that it can't be done. I'm just fearful to try it.
5. Make it a career, get a press pass. Move to a big city and only hit up free shows catch most of the bands before they were big and become a roadie. learn electrical or set up set and be a roadie. This answers 1 and 2.
6. buy a used one. rent one. borrow a friend's, Use the video feature on your camera.
7. THIS IS RIDICULOUS! You admitted, how many blank notebooks you have? What you don't have a stack and pens and pencils?

Those are my first thoughts. NO CREATIVITY used at all to answer your questions. You are creative enough to come up with reasons why it can't work but can't use that creativity to think of how it can. A shame.
Please don't reply to list with your excuses as to why it can't be done, I really don't care. My point as I could answer them easily without the use of my creativity.

[James81]

Just thought I'd play around with the thread title a bit...

Nothing works FOR me...

Nothing is what works for me...

For me, it is being NOTHING that works....

[Angela]

Originally Posted by James81

Just thought I'd play around with the thread title a bit...

Nothing works FOR me...

Nothing is what works for me...

For me, it is being NOTHING that works....

I love it! Yes, for me, too -- nothing works for me!!

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I DID change, over the last 3 years or so, but those ways I changed don't have anything to do with the things I can manifest. What I need to do is change how I practice the LoA.

Like I said, I just have to change how I practice LoA, I don't have to change my personality or my morals or my values, just how I go about manifesting. I don't consider that changing myself, it's just changing how I do something.

I didn't say it didn't have anything to do with me, I just said I don't have to change myself to change my circumstances. I've never had to do it before to get different circumstances.

What's fascinating to me is we've gone 54 pages into this thread and here's the insight achieved.

[moonrambler]

Originally Posted by missbhaven

7. THIS IS RIDICULOUS! You admitted, how many blank notebooks you have? What you don't have a stack and pens and pencils?

Missbhaven, with all the commentary about how a person can't take good pictures with a cheap camera, I just KNEW it would come up that a person can't write without a computer

[James81]

Originally Posted by Angela

I love it! Yes, for me, too -- nothing works for me!!

:highfive:

Nothing sounds like a busy little bee.

I wonder, (and I'm gonna do a little roll playing here) but if I am nothing, what would I charge to work for people? Do I work for free? Or do I charge high quality rates and ♥♥♥♥?

[moonrambler]

you guys are channeling e.e. cummings

"anyone lived in a pretty how town . . . "

[Angela]

Well, nothing works for me, but I am nothing doesn't work for me.

I mean nothing works for me, though.

[cylon]

Originally Posted by Gracestars

Oh and Cylon, I've been interested in the enneagram for a while now, and was thinking I'd recommend you some pretty awesome books, one in particular goes into quite a bit of depth about how to heal unhealthy manifestations of each type. Then I read the rest of your post, and will instead support you in your book ban.

Recommend away. I'm interested in the subject, my point was basically I don't have to own every single book on the topic in order to start applying what I read in the first book, to my life.

We self-help aficionados have to be wary of falling into this trap: Self-Help Junkies

If you recommend a good one then I'll look into it. Plus I'm sure there are others reading who would be interested.

[Lauxa]

Rockchick, of COURSE there are ways to travel with no money. You have rejected the most obvious one (sleeping on people's couches). Here's another -- a friend's brother travelled with a band setting up their equipment and sound system for each show in their tour. Or you could be a nanny for a family that likes to travel a lot. I'm sure there are many more ways, but it would be more effective if you would come up with them yourself.

It's funny how whenever someone gives you a suggestion, you are like "no, I can't do that because ______" but when ALG says you can't do something you respond "yes I can, absolutely I can do that". Now you see how my negative affirmations work, by triggering the part of the brain that is contrarian and putting it to work for you.

Let me ask you this, how are you going to travel around the country in an RV if you have a job that requires you to stay in one place? Is your current plan to save up enough money to buy an RV and then quit your job and then live off your savings? I'm not saying that can't work, but it's not very integrated. I think it would be better to come up with a plan to earn money while you travel. Getting a job that forces you to delay your dreams probably doesn't inspire you very much and thus not much progress is made.

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by wolfgang

ps. when I said you could practice following through on plans - I meant practicing on plans that are not necessarily related to your grand master plan (RC concert organic farmer).

And this is only if you think you want to do anything about feeling like you don't follow through on plans. like you say you are a great planner but then don't execute them.

If that bothers you, if that's something you want to change - the idea is to make a really small plan - like a 30 day experiment, or to decide to just listen to your father for a week (maybe that's too big), or to make a plan to write 10 minutes a day personally for 2 days. Don't argue against my plan ideas - those are just my examples and I am not suggesting you pick one of those at all.

And then actually do these plans. Make them so small that you are guaranteed to follow through on them.

That is if you think you want to change what you do regarding being a planner and not doing the plans.

Or maybe you already do this - make little plans and follow through - in which case stop saying you don't follow your plans - just notice you do for the plans that aren't so big and nebulous to not be motivating for you.

The kind of plans that I am good at executing are like, vacation plans! Or music related. Or plans with friends.

Even when I know I need to do something and I plan to do it at a certain time, that time comes and goes and I just say "I'll do it later, I always have the time." even if it's something small like cleaning my apartment or meditating for 5 minutes or going for a walk! So it isn't that I can't follow through because a plan is too big, because small ones haven't been any easier, it's that I can't follow through when I'd rather be doing something else, or it's not exciting enough. And I know I always have more time to do it later because I don't have a full time job. And a voice steps in to tell me it's ok because this phase is only temporary anyway. I kind of feel like I have permission to be lazy now while I can be because after I get a job, I won't be able to be lazy anymore.

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by wolfgang

oops. wasn't trying to pick on the "nothing" statement but you saw it that way. I just thought you have been kind of journaling here, but now I see the book's idea is different than forum posting and journaling.

Oh you didn't mean that in a mean way? Sorry, I guess I thought you were more like ALG than you are!

Yeah the book says to write whatever you are thinking, even if it's nothing important, in fact it's probably always going to be nothing important because it's right after you wake up so your mind is still foggy.

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by wolfgang

organic dirt is really important!

Touche!

you are unique, just like everybody else.

I love this quote!

but also you are a follower in ways - how you describe not being able to do what you want because that would produce change and disturb your relationships - so you are stuck in a role in your micro society of people you interact with.

Yeah I'm a follower in that sense, actually I've always been a follower, not a leader, I feel uncomfortable with the spotlight on me and a bunch of people listening to me, I feel uncomfortable with everyone's attention on me. I like being a follower in the sense that I am kind of hidden, and I can do things "my own way" but at the same time nobody notices me because they're all paying attention to the person they're following. Does this make sense?

BUT-I am not a follower when it comes to certain things, for example religion, and consumerism, and most of society's rules...I LOVE to break rules, laws, and norms. I don't agree with most people when it comes to a lot of things, so in that way I'm not a follower. But I like to do my "non following" in a way that appears to be following, so as to not gain any attention from anyone.

Basically i'm a wayward follower!

OMG That would be an excellent title for a book!! *thinks about that*

[ssandra]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

Oh you didn't mean that in a mean way? Sorry, I guess I thought you were more like ALG than you are!

Yeah the book says to write whatever you are thinking, even if it's nothing important, in fact it's probably always going to be nothing important because it's right after you wake up so your mind is still foggy.

So how many days have you done this already? The writing 3 pages I mean?

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by missbhaven

Yes you do know how to change this attitude! You talk about changing how you work at LOA. Does your sentence above sound like something you WILLING choose to appear in your reality becuase of LOA? Sit 10 min in silence and ask yourself that question over and over, I'm pretty sure your mind can spit out a couple of suggestions. It's just that after the suggestions you start making excuses for that you "can't" or "don't know how". Don't listen to teh voice that says's "Can't" and if you say "I don't know how." DEMAND to be shown the way!

I have already tried many different ways of LoA, from Wicca to Abraham/Hicks to visualization to Tony Robbins' Personal Power program, I have tried almost all of the suggestions/exercises in the Abraham/Hicks books, and that's proof that I can't give up. I hate giving up on things when I know they work, I will try 50 more ways before I give up.

Agian... In talking about rejecting advice. Did this particular advice ONLY apply with your RV or moving to an organic farm? No.
You choose to pick goals that seems too big that it can't be done, an excuse to stay stagnant and do nothing becuase you don't know how it can be done.

I don't choose goals JUST because they're really big and seemingly impossible, I have specific reasons for each one why I want to do them. Having an RV allows me freedom, independence, adventure, and privacy. All the things that matter to me. I love being free to go wherever I want whenever I want, I love not having to live with my parents, I love having experiences, and I love being able to be alone if I want to be. And almost all of my interests fit in perfectly with living in an RV (or at least traveling all the time, but I can't afford staying in a hotel every night either, and with an RV at least I could have my own kitchen and the same bed every night and room to keep my clothes and books and cd's, etc.)

Starting small could be planning a 1 hour nature walk in the daytime twice a week for the whole month for the purpose of getting 2 shots you LIKE or APPRECIATE per walk. And doing it! You don't have to get it perfect everytime, just get up and try it! May work out once that week, twice the following week, twice the week after, once the week after that and 3 times the last week. Trying to implement and FOLLOW THREW your SMALL plans was the suggestion. WHich is something you CAN do now. Or have you forgotten all aspects of your goal? Don't push aside (reject) this advice just becuase you feel your goal is too big. THAT WHY HE SAID START SMALL.

That idea I've had before, I just haven't done it because there is always something to do, I feel like if I don't try to get as much done as possible when I can, I'll get even more behind. I guess if I was excited about the pictures I am able to take, it would be different. But none of them ever turn out good enough to make me even want to try taking more.

Soo lets switch this up from us then to you. Show me the good in the list of YOUR excuses that ALG had compiled as to why you aren't currently accomplishing your dreams. Since everything bad (like your pitiful excuses) can be seen as good from a different perspective. SHOW US WHAT IT'S LIKE!. You current circumstances aren't good or bad either, just based on how YOU look at them. Just like people here can look at your own words from a bad perspective, you can be having that same bad perspective on your own words and on your own life. After all you look at your current circumstances unfavorably.

I have gone through and wrote out all the pros and cons of each option I had, I actually came up with a whole bunch of good reasons for moving in with my mom. But all those good reasons still weren't enough to make it worth it to me, because I would still be giving up my privacy and independence and those come before any other perks I could get.

And all the excuses I use, they are excuses for that specific suggestion at that time, that doesn't mean they will always be excuses or that they might not apply to other suggestions. For example my car is not dependable to drive to another state, I have done it before though, but that's how I know it was a problem. My dad does influence my decisions sometimes but not all the time. For example I don't want to tell him I am a Wiccan but that doesn't mean I won't practice it in the privacy of my apartment.

And I haven't? I have stated I HAVE read this topic at least 3 times. Mostly becuase I was tracking a conversation. Checking to see if that was something you really said. I notice you did not mention anything at all, ANYTHING AT ALL, about my comments about introspection of yourself in this response. Or how this this like a journal to you (which YOU have stated, but if you don't want to go back and read your own words I don't see why I should dig to prove to you via quotes that you said it.). When given a task that you should enjoy, the only one here you seem to respond to.. READING. YOU RUN.
I must say I am happy, you are soo scared to re-read your own words and the heaps of tailor made specific advice (which is a comglomerate of all the books you have to read. Especially if they were suggested in this topic, since they, the board members, would have given you the advice they feel best suits you from what they KNOW from the book the HAVE ALREADY read themselves.). Yeah, I am glad that you are soo scared to re-read your own words, that you are now using your goals and your to do list to skirt around doing your own introspection.
You claim you want to be able to heal yourself, yet when given advice on how to start, the first thing you mention is you don't have time. You have time to respond to every person that replies to you. But oh no no no, no time for a lil introspection, no time for yourself, your TRUE self that is. There is a post where someone listed the ways you maybe afraid, which is why you say you don't know how. I file your feelings of self-introspection into this category.

Introspection feels counter-productive to you becuase it will require you to STOP, take a couple of moments to look BACK at your own words that you are manifesting into your reality now with LOA. I mean hello, look at the first line I quoted. Is that what you want to manifest in your life currently? Doing NOTHING, becuase you can ONLY change what you KNOW how to change, and you don't KNOW HOW to change your OWN self and attitudes. How many people have told you inthis thread, that you are the most powerful manifestor they know.

Soo you don't have the right circumstances via money to go and make the reality easier for your dreams, and you don't have the time for introspection to change your prespective to make the reality easier for your dreams.
And here I thought you just freed up some time becuase LOST is done soo you can catch up on some reading. What book are you going to pick up that's worth more of your time rather than re-reading your own version of a journal?
What words can someoneelse tell you via a book or e-book that can be worth more than taking the time to re-read the wisdom your own words and solidfy your goal intentions. By re-reading your own words, you could just push some of your goals further into manifestation by agreeing with it wholeheartedly and decide you don't agree with many of your limiting statements and try and
cancel them out or twist your persceptive on them before they do become reality.

Whoa, whoa, you misunderstood me. (See how often this happens?! ) Maybe I am not wording myself correctly.

I am NOT afraid of self introspection. In fact I LOVE reading things I have written before. I even re-read my own posts before I post them. I even re-read the parts I wrote that people quoted, before I read their replies. I love going back and reading parts of my diary, years later. That's why I keep a diary in the first place.

I am NOT afraid of re-reading what I've said in here. I thought I stated clearly that it was because I am already behind on everything else, and I have paid for this stuff, I paid $100 for this program sent to me in a series of ebooks, and I have only read 1 of them so far (there are going to be like 15 total, I think). So I REALLY want to get those read. I also have paid for all the books I bought and I'm slowly getting caught up there, because I've been able to read every night at work so that helps. I also have an ebook about how to write a blog and earn $100,000 within a year. (So she claims). I really want to finish reading that. I think those things are more important because either I paid for them or they will allow me to earn money. And this thread I feel I've read thoroughly enough for the time being.

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by missbhaven

Remember you are a powerful manifestor. 1st underline... belief you can't maintain it, soo you won't. That was your choice.

You mean it's MY choice that unemployment money will run out soon!? How is that my choice? I didn't create that law!

2nd underline. Well that's going to be your life coming up anyway if you won't find a solution for your unemployment and the checks stop coming in. If you bit the bullet you coulda been living like that with a downpayment on a used rv or a plane ticket to get to topical farm where to volunteer for 6 months with a lil spending money.

My whole thing is AVOIDING that situation altogether. I don't care if I would only have to be there for a few months, it's still something I want to avoid. That overrides any other factors. If I can do anything else before moving back home, I will.

Now you just may go down that road with nothing but your values of independance to show for it. As the colorcoded post a while ago said. "I'm still gonna be 50, I'd rather be 50 and a vet" How much will you suffer when you have NO cash flow at all and are forced to move in with moms? What are you going to do then? How much longer will it really take?

If I end up there, I will probably do the work exchange thing. I'm not limiting it to just organic farms now, I found another program similar that deals with housekeeping, petsitting, working at retreats/bed & breakfasts, and I want to do stuff like that too. So I have even more options now. I would only have to figure out a way to get to these places because most of them would involve flying.

Perspective can do that also, not just money. You say if you had money you wouldn't have to worry about a job. That doesn't mean you won't stop worrrying all together. You just may end up hording all your money and not doing much because you are worried you end up like those not soo smart bankrupt lotto winners, supposed you only win $10,000 you stated that still won't be enough. After all doing all those things listed would take up a lot of money, they don't just happen for free like you are saying. You would have to spend that money, if you are a worrywart you'll STILL be worrying about money.

I don't see how perspective will help me achieve those things even without money. And if I don't get to do them, I won't be happy anyway. I only worry when I don't have something I need. If I can pay rent and bills then I don't worry anymore. I am not a worrying type of person anyway, I ONLY worry about needing money.

I tried not to do this but I feel too compelled. Just in case anyone else is wondering why I haven't done this stuff yet...

1. flight attendant.

This is a good example of where doing something you love is one thing but working is another thing. I love to fly but doing it as a job would take all the fun out of it, I wouldn't be able to go wherever I want whenever I want.

2. what the frig is wrong with camping and friends couches? Hotels and even hostels are expensive, besides sleeping on a couch means more fun money and I have a friend in the area to socialize with. Hmmmm spending time with my friend and sleeping on a couch or a lonely plush hotel room.

I need my privacy, sleeping on someone's couch would be as bad as sleeping on my mom's couch, that's why I don't want to move there.

4. Ha! I found a way to offset a mortage... my fear is if I do it I just maybe labelled a terrorist. Doesn't mean that it can't be done. I'm just fearful to try it.

Huh? Are you saying you DO know of a way to live in a house for free but it's illegal? Well spill it, I wanna know!

5. Make it a career, get a press pass. Move to a big city and only hit up free shows catch most of the bands before they were big and become a roadie. learn electrical or set up set and be a roadie.

I should have clarified, I want to see my favorite bands, not just any random unsigned band just because their shows are free.

6. buy a used one. rent one.

I just asked for ways to do this for free and your first two answers for this involved needing money!

borrow a friend's, Use the video feature on your camera.

I don't know anyone who has one, and my camera sucks, it can't take videos any better than it can take pictures!

7. THIS IS RIDICULOUS! You admitted, how many blank notebooks you have? What you don't have a stack and pens and pencils?

I can't physically write out an entire book! Writers don't write, they type. When you send it to a publisher, it has to be typed.

[Acting Like Godot]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

You mean it's MY choice that unemployment money will run out soon!? How is that my choice? I didn't create that law!

My whole thing is AVOIDING that situation altogether. I don't care if I would only have to be there for a few months, it's still something I want to avoid. That overrides any other factors. If I can do anything else before moving back home, I will.

If I end up there, I will probably do the work exchange thing. I'm not limiting it to just organic farms now, I found another program similar that deals with housekeeping, petsitting, working at retreats/bed & breakfasts, and I want to do stuff like that too. So I have even more options now. I would only have to figure out a way to get to these places because most of them would involve flying.

I don't see how perspective will help me achieve those things even without money. And if I don't get to do them, I won't be happy anyway. I only worry when I don't have something I need. If I can pay rent and bills then I don't worry anymore. I am not a worrying type of person anyway, I ONLY worry about needing money.

This is a good example of where doing something you love is one thing but working is another thing. I love to fly but doing it as a job would take all the fun out of it, I wouldn't be able to go wherever I want whenever I want.

I need my privacy, sleeping on someone's couch would be as bad as sleeping on my mom's couch, that's why I don't want to move there.

Huh? Are you saying you DO know of a way to live in a house for free but it's illegal? Well spill it, I wanna know!

I should have clarified, I want to see my favorite bands, not just any random unsigned band just because their shows are free.

I just asked for ways to do this for free and your first two answers for this involved needing money!

I don't know anyone who has one, and my camera sucks, it can't take videos any better than it can take pictures!

I can't physically write out an entire book! Writers don't write, they type. When you send it to a publisher, it has to be typed.

Yes I agree with you.

Your unemployment money will run out soon; it is impossible for you to get another job. Without money, you will never get the camera you want; you'll never make it to the organic farm; you'll never be able to write anything worthwhile; there's no way you'll ever be able to see any of your favourite rock bands perform again; there's no way you are going to fulfil your dreams of travel and stormchasing; you won't ever have your own house to live in; all your aspirations are doomed. Hahahaha.

On the plus side, the world will always have too many books for you to finish them all.


Farmer Tom, in the year 2067. Died in 2063, still waiting for the love of his life to show up.

[Acting Like Godot]

Days Elapsed: EIGHT!

("So the days became weeks, and the weeks became months ....")

Action Steps Taken:

(1) Signed up online to join WWOOF, an organic farming website
(2) Shortlisted possible farms to volunteer at.
(3) Went through 1/3 of apartment and identified items to sell at garage sale.

Next Steps:

(1) Prepare for garage sale to raise some money. (1/3 done, two-thirds left to do)

********************************

Previous Questions We Pondered:

(1) What on earth will Rockchick do with WWOOF, after paying money to become its member?
Answer: Uhh, absolutely nothing. So far, anyway.

(2) What might Rockchick do with her shortlist of organic farms, after shortlisting them?
Answer: Uhh, absolutely nothing. So far, anyway.

(3) When will Rockchick complete her garage sale preparations? (Only two thirds of her apartment, left to go!)
Answer: Uhh, no news so far. However she did water her plants.

(4) What baby steps might Rockchick possibly take today, to fulfill her intentions of being a writer; getting a better camera; or finding a job?
Answer: Uhh, no news so far. However she did take a shower.

(5) What might Rockchick do on Tuesday nights, to fill the gap left by the end of Lost?
Answer: Uhh, no news so far. However she probably WILL eat on Tuesday.

To find out, stay tuned for the next episode of "Rockchick's Life Story".

[Angela]

Originally Posted by Acting Like Godot

(5) What might Rockchick do on Tuesday nights, to fill the gap left by the end of Lost?
Answer: Uhh, no news so far. However she probably WILL eat on Tuesday.[/INDENT][/INDENT]

No, you missed: catch up on all the reading she's "behind" in.

[Acting Like Godot]

Originally Posted by Angela

No, you missed: catch up on all the reading she's "behind" in.

Catch up on her reading? Waitaminit, wasn't that from her to-do list of July 2009?

"So the days became weeks, and the weeks became months, and the months became ____ "

[Acting Like Godot]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

If I end up there, I will probably do the work exchange thing. I'm not limiting it to just organic farms now, I found another program similar that deals with housekeeping, petsitting, working at retreats/bed & breakfasts, and I want to do stuff like that too. So I have even more options now.

And of course, you'll proceed with this program with as much enthusiasm as you did, with your shortlist of organic farms. Right?

Seriously, housekeeping isn't for you. Look at the state of your own kitchen. And most people do want their housekeeper to stick to a schedule - I certainly would. If my maid said, "I like to be unstructured and spontaneous, I'll clean your bathroom when I feel like it, it could be tomorrow, or next week, or maybe around Christmas, I'm not sure", I'd sack her in a jiffy.

As for pets, they might bite - and notice that animals were never included in the list of your passions and interests (bear in mind that unlike most people, you're a different kind of human being and you absolutely cannot bear to do anything falling outside your list of passions and interests).

And if you work at retreats/B&B, you'll have to meet and talk to customers. We already know that you can't do things like that. You're too shy, you can't talk to people etc etc. Remember?