3 AM Epiphany

[renie408]

So, I woke up due to my coughing dog at 3:00 am this morning. Gave the dog some Robitussin DM, which is a project that makes us both end up looking like we have taken a cough syrup shower (90 pound GSD + sleepy woman + 4 tsp of Robitussin. You do the math). I cleaned myself up and then couldn't fall back asleep. I began to ponder something that I was listening to last night from Wayne Dyer.

He was talking about how we are inter-connected and all facets of the same...I dunno...'thing' (see? This is how vague my grasp of this idea has been). He said that until you get a real feel, a real internal KNOWING of this truth, you are not really making progress and won't be able to manifest perfectly. He discussed the ego based separation most of us feel from the rest of humanity. That we are 'I' and everybody else is, well, not.

I have not had an easy time with this concept as a feeling. Intellectually, I accepted it readily. But I still have/had feelings of separation. I had a hard time experiencing myself as a piece of the total unit and the total unit as me. Then last night, laying in my bed freshly cleaned up from my Robitussle (that is a good one, isn't it??) I began to think of the human race as 'us'. Not 'me' and 'them'. Us. I thought, "Wouldn't my emotional reaction be different if when I looked at another person in pain or having a problem and said to myself, 'There is one of us. They are having a bad day. They are not apart from us, they are part of us.'"

I dunno. It might sound simple, but it had a huge impact on me. At the time, I couldn't decide if it were the 'middle of the night' factor. I oftentimes think up stuff in the middle of the night and at the time it feels really profound. Then in the morning, it is a lot less so. But this still feels like a revelation for me.

I think I am starting to take the steps to feeling myself as part of the unit. I realize that this idea will still need to develop, but this is the first thing that I really FEEL. I am very much a work in progress. I have already had a big ole flash of separateness based irritation this morning. But I think I am starting to get the right idea.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that.

[joelyle]

I feel the same you do on this.

[Angela]

That is so wonderful that your unconscious (or whatever ) shakes you awake in the middle of the night, when you and the dog are all warm and vulnerable, to remind you that you are connected and related.

Lots of love from
One of Us

[judge45]

I'm slowly starting to see the connection between all of us.

Knowing we're all from the one source, it's cool to see other people and wonder what part/version are they of me.

Interacting with other parts of yourself is somewhat mind bending, but it's all connected.

Unfortunately there is an underlying flow of information from the media (war, hatred, violence, terror) that trys to break us apart constantly, but it's all such a minority.

Life is good, it's all good.

Jeff

[renie408]

Today when I meditated, I thought about many people from my past that haven't done well by me. There were a couple of people that I have been unable to think about for the past seven years without a lot of resentment and pain. But today I thought of them as a part of us who didn't understand that they were part of us, that their feeling of separateness is what brought about the behavior that had hurt me. I felt myself really forgive them and even generate love for them. This is a HUGE breakthrough for me. Beginning to understand this idea has really helped me to feel calmer and more connected and that is in just one day!

[Dharma]

Originally Posted by renie408

I began to think of the human race as 'us'. Not 'me' and 'them'. Us. I thought, "Wouldn't my emotional reaction be different if when I looked at another person in pain or having a problem and said to myself, 'There is one of us. They are having a bad day. They are not apart from us, they are part of us.'" .

Nice work. Just a touch of fine tuning because it matters. Use 'me' and not 'us'. When you look at another person say, "this is me" to yourself. It will feel different than "there is one of us".

[renie408]

Originally Posted by Dharma

Nice work. Just a touch of fine tuning because it matters. Use 'me' and not 'us'. When you look at another person say, "this is me" to yourself. It will feel different than "there is one of us".

I think I am working there in stages. This alone has been such a leap for me. I swear, I looked at every person I saw differently today.

[Dani]

Nice epiphany,

And one I think a lot of us can learn from.

Even me.

I will try that today as a matter fact. I will go for step 1 - us

step 2 will be - me

[Dharma]

Originally Posted by renie408

I think I am working there in stages. This alone has been such a leap for me. I swear, I looked at every person I saw differently today.

Oh, yes, give yourself the space for the new awareness to get grounded in. Then try out the "this is me" one. I'm excited for you.

[dorothy hanna]

It kind of reminds me of what the Bible says, "There, but for the grace of God, Go I."

[Pagoda]

Renie408,

thank you for sharing your story with "us". Such a nice thread. A good way to start the day.

[Glass Joe]

Humanity.

Go! TEAM! GO!!!

[A.K.Light]

Epiphanies are awesome. I would try to explain how awesome, but my words wouldn't do it justice. You all know what your own epiphanies have been like, lol.

In my own vision, I seem them as giant steps. They seem really big and powerful at first but then that feeling starts to fade after time. You're constantly taking steps forward, and when you hit an epiphany, it's a huge step, but then you just keep going. It's kind of like clicking on that one square in minesweeper that frees up 20 more. There's more work to do but you know you're making great progress.