Journal MKS

[shasah]

I am reading The Master Key System by Charles F Haanel. Started on Part I 3 days ago and I am trying to do it the way it is meant to be done. In other words, 1 part per week. I decided I want to journalize my journey.

First thing is that I am the type of person that is always moving. I don't sit still very often and therefore find that the exercise of sitting for 15-30 minutes without any movement at all is very interesting. I thought it would be a problem, but it is actually very peaceful and actually helps restore my energy. Then again, I have only done 15 minutes at a time. This weekend I will try to see if I can maintain non-movement for 30 minutes.

Don't have a lot of time right now, I'm on the move But I will write more later this weekend.

[shasah]

Still haven't tried the 30 minutes but 15 minutes is quite easy. The 30 minutes is still on the agenda for this weekend though.

Reading Part I every night and I noticed something today while at the gym. Instead of seeing them all as individuals, I am seeing others more as a part of myself. My perceptions make them who they are in my eyes as their perceptions make me who I am in their eyes. This makes it much easier to approach and talk to people because I don't worry about how they perceive me. We are all part of the same unit and our interactions a very small piece of the whole.

I have been working on mastering getting over what other people think about me but this is probably the most progress I've made in so short a time. About 6 months ago, I was constantly thinking about what everyone thought. Three months ago, it was on and off. Now, my thoughts don't go there. I'm listening to all around me and seeing things through different eyes. Progress

[Arboretor]

Congratulations for your progress and good luck!

[shasah]

Okay, so I made the half hour of sitting completely still. A lot harder than 15 minutes. At about 20 minutes or so I had the indescribable urge to move my fingers or toes to make sure they will still there. Kind of a disconnect from the body. But I did not move them. Thoughts were also clearer but at the same time more questions came up.

Analyzing each point made in part one, I believe in the majority of them. The questions start coming up when I start thinking about universal consciousness. Probably stems from the fact that I was brought up in a catholic household and then married an atheist. So I went from one extreme to the other and both families would deeply frown upon the thought of a universal consciousness which causes limits in my own mind.

What do I believe? That, is the question. I believe the subconscious is vastly powerful and can help us achieve great things. The universal consciousness concept is something that I am trying to understand and have seen where it helps me. For instance, I went to the gym the other day and thought about the other people as if they were all a part of the same universal thought pattern and it did give me a feeling of belonging and security. However, my logical mind says maybe that's because I convinced my subconscious that it would be that way. So is it truly a universal consciousness or did I just convince myself that it was?? And so I go in circles. I will continue pondering about it and see where it leads me.

On to Part II tomorrow. Maybe it will help me clarify a bit.

[shasah]

Wow!! The exercise in Part II is soooooo much harder for me than the non-movement. Inhibit all thought. I was not cooperating with myself. Maybe as I keep trying it will get easier?? At first I was able to recognize when thought/s were trying to intrude but as soon as I turned that one away another tried to take it's place until toward the end I didn't recognize one as a thought and it took right over. It reminds me of a book that I read about a year ago (don't remember which one) that discussed a man's mind vs a woman's mind. It stated that men take out one thought at a time and process that thought. Before they move onto the next thought, they put the current one away. It also stated that they have an empty box in which there was literally nothing. So if you say to a man (general man in all of the above) "what are you thinking about?" and he says nothing, he may really mean it. Whereas a woman's mind was compared to a tangle of wires coming out of a computer. There are lots of thoughts all intertwined with each other and they can be hard to separate. And that a woman's mind (once again general) does not have a nothing box. Well I definitely did NOT have a nothing box tonight. It's actually pretty amazing how many thoughts were trying to make their way into my consciousness while attempting this.

But I have confidence that I will achieve this challenge. Anyone reading this may get a laugh either because they've been there or because they know the challenges that lie ahead but this is actually a brand new experience for me and I am very excited about it. I thought I had tried meditation before but I wasn't even close. It makes me want to race ahead and learn the next thing but I won't. I know I have to master this to get any value from the lessons yet to come. Ciao.

[shasah]

Ended up on pause for a short time. But today I will get back to it. My brain is functioning again so....

[shasah]

Reread Part II and there are a lot of things in here that resonate with me. The subconscious mind has so much power to change my world. A couple of examples would be:

For most of my life, I had a hard time remembering peoples names. I decided about 2 years ago that I would work on this and told myself over and over that I would be good at it. Nowadays, I can be introduced to someone once and as long as I see them within 6 months or so, I can remember their name.

I had skin problems since I was young and I convinced my subconscious that I now have clear skin and I do.

I had convinced myself that I could not be funny and that was true. However, I now know that I can be funny and therefore I am.

There are so many more examples of this in my life. As I identify each area where I have negative beliefs, I am working on that specific area and changing the person that I am into the person that I have the potential of being.

Today I had an easier time of calming my thoughts and trying to inhibit them. The thoughts were still there, but they were not flying willy-nilly all over the place so although I got sidetracked by being sick, I still have made progress. I need to work on it some more though so I will continue with Part II for a while longer before I move on to Part III.

[shasah]

Tonight's thought inhibition was tougher again even though it lasted for longer if that makes any sense?? It was tougher because someone inadvertently pushed one of my buttons and then I did the exercise. It was harder to inhibit the thoughts that were running through my mind but once I was able to do so, it lasted longer. And then after I was through with the inhibiting thoughts arena, I continued to sit in the same position without moving and let the thoughts overtake me. It led to a discovery, something I've known but never really recognized.

I'm somewhat hesitant to post the next part because it exposes something about me, but what the hell, nothing ventured, nothing gained. The other hesitation is that the person/s that pushed this button could read this and I don't want them to think that they can't kid around, this is my problem, not theirs. The button that was pushed was someone making me feel like I was pretty dumb not to make a connection that others had.

There were times during my life that I thought I was ugly, times that I thought I was a total clutz, times that I thought I could do nothing right. A lot of this came from A) an overly critical father and B) a downright beautiful sister. Of course, said sister could do no wrong according to said father. Then, of course, there were the bullies and the people that would pick on me or say ugly things to me just because they could. I took all of it to heart and thought that I was less than others in those areas. Through all of this, I always knew that I had above average intelligence and no matter how many knocks I received in other areas of life, I always had that to fall back on. No one could take it away from me, it was there. No amount of other lacks could destroy that knowledge and it helped me to get through my other confidence problems.

Nowadays, I no longer believe that I am any of those negative things. I know that I'm attractive, I know that I can do anything I set my mind to, I know that I do a lot of things right (although not all), I am athletic and can be funny, etc. etc. But for some reason, I still have this protectiveness about my intelligence. Do I now think I'm dumb? Well, no. But I do not like to "feel" dumb. I'm sure no one does, but this seems to be a bit more than that.

So, it feels like I need to reiterate to myself that although no one is better than me, I am not better than anyone else. Kind of reverse of how I had always said it before. A lesson in humility?? Perhaps. A glimpse of something that I ought to pay attention to? Absolutely. Smart does not equal better any more than beautiful or talented equals better.

Didn't think this would go in quite this direction when I started writing but...what's there is what's there. So this is somewhat off topic, but hey, it's my journal and I can write what I want Until next time.

[shasah]

Performed the exercise for the last few nights and it is becoming easier. But I still don't really have a nothing box. It is not truly nothing because to stop the thoughts that are trying to make their way into my consciousness, I am actually repeating the word "inhibit" in my mind so I am still having the thought inhibit. But I am not having to say it as much as I was, so some progress. I tried concentrating on my breathing for a while but then I am still thinking something. Is it really possible to inhibit all thought?? I will continue working on it but I am going to go on to Part III.

[shasah]

So I read part III and there are some questions there for me.

It refers to the sympathetic nervous system. It then refers to the solar plexus as the center of the sympathetic system. I've always thought of the center of the sympathetic nervous system as being in the spinal column. I looked it up and the information available on the web is also saying that the spinal column is the center and the solar plexus as a periphery of the SNS.

The solar plexus is the sight of the "fight or flight" reaction within the SNS. The book does refer to having to defeat "all" fears. I am having a problem with assimilating this. The "fight or flight" reaction is a safeguard for our bodies and I'm not sure that trying to tame it would be a good thing?? Is he referring more to emotional fear rather than physical safety?

Next this part is saying that the solar plexus is the "sun" of the body. This makes me think of the chakras which although I have read some and don't deny their value, I don't have enough knowledge to know if it falls within my belief system.

So, I run into my next set of limiting beliefs and will need to reread a few times to see if it can resonate. Some of it does, but not all. A little research may be called for too.

[shasah]

Okay, so research kind of helped and kind of didn't. I've taken some psychology classes but either they didn't teach this or I wasn't listening. Apparently the scientific community in general and the psychology community specifically do not recognize the subconscious as viable. The sources that I found refer to it as "new age". Really? I always thought it was part of psychology?? Shows how much I know. Some of my doubts stemmed from the fact that I could not find any information in regards to the solar plexus as controlling the subconscious. Well, considering that they don't even recognize the subconscious, is that any wonder? There are a lot of other words floating around that basically mean what I mean when I say subconscious but apparently even the researchers don't agree and argue about what is true and what is not.

Does that change my mind about the subconscious. No, absolutely not. I may not be able to prove its existence to someone else, but I deeply believe that my subconscious helps me and hinders me depending on the situation. I am trying to get to the point where it always helps me. So now I see why some people say the more they look into it, the more questions they have.

[shasah]

Took a break yesterday, but back at it today. After reading this part again I found a reference to Judge Troward and decided to look him up. Found his Edinburg Lectures of Mental Science. Read part of it (will be going back to it to read all of it) and found that Charles Haanel and Joseph Murphy both have utilized his teachings to come to their conclusions and what I read makes sense to me. So I feel back on track. Also after rereading this section, the things he is saying make more sense to me. Nonresistant thought vs resistant thought particularly resonated. Also rereading the part about fear, he is talking about the fear of criticism and mental attitude. Exhibiting a good mental attitude through courage, confidence and power.

I seem to run into problems when encountering more spiritual teachings rather than pure scientific teachings. Not sure why I shy away from dealing with the spiritual. Is it that I fear being brainwashed again when there is no tangible proof or is it the actual past brainwashing trying to get me to avoid things that are not part of the religious teachings I received in the past? Good question and another thing that needs to be explored further. My list gets longer.

I have been doing the meditation and an added element this time is to relax. Probably should have been part of the last part because it is much easier to inhibit thought with the relaxation brought into it. Seems like it would go hand in hand, but, at least in my case, it did not. I was tense because I was having a hard time inhibiting thought. Done on purpose?? Perhaps, but today's session was a LOT easier while relaxing and inhibiting. I guess that's all for now. Until next time.

[shasah]

I'm going to go off on a tangent a little here because I want to clarify something in my own mind. I've been going down my current path for about a year and a half now. Started with some books on how to improve myself in a business atmosphere and continuing my journey through now. And I realized something that is such a huge stride for me. I recently celebrated my birthday and there were a couple of people that I would have expected to hear from that did not contact me. If this would have happened last year, I would have been angry and hurt and confused about it. This year, I am at peace with it. I have no feeling of having to forgive them because there is nothing to forgive. Three of them have since contacted me and there was no angst, no explanation wanted or needed. One of them hasn't contacted me yet but I sent her a text today just to see how she's doing. This is such an event for me!!!! Although MKS did not "do" this for me, it's more of a progression of all the things I've done and read, MKS certainly did help.

So, back to MKS. Today's meditation was different yet again. For one, it was easier. The other thing was that the "separation" occurred between body and mind again but also there was a wavering..kind of a pattern that appeared. When I meditate, I sit in the same recliner (not reclined) in the same position and stare at the same wall every time. I don't stare at a particular object right now because it tends to distract me still. The white wall and the shadows on the wall seemed to merge and then a pattern of gray moving swirls was evident. I'll be interested to see if this was just because I did it later than usual or if it will continue to appear with each successive session?? Anyway, that's all for tonight. It's late and time to hit the sack.

[shasah]

Tonight I did things a little differently. I am a person who is very connected with music and normally, I am playing music while meditating. I can hear it now, NO, NO, NO, you shouldn't be playing music!!! But music is a huge part of my life and I have it playing every chance that I get. So tonight I decided to try the meditation without the music. At first, it wasn't working because I heard every little sound from the heater going on to the refrigerator humming to the upstairs neighbor walking around, but then all of that faded and I didn't hear it anymore.

The whole thing was pretty intense once I got past the incidental noises. When I was able to get into the zone, the shadows were almost pulsing. They seemed to have a depth that wasn't there before. Kind of like a lava lamp going up and down. The next thing that I saw was out of my peripheral vision. One of the paintings nearby seemed to have a nimbus of light around it. Then my body got heavy like I weighed twice as much as usual. My breathing was deep and steady.

The next thing was really strange (I would have thought all of that was strange less than a month ago) but the shadows started to have color to them. Reds, blues, greens - I'm not really sure how to describe it. But it scared me and my breathing started getting quicker and I felt like I was about to have a panic attack. I stopped my meditation early because it kind of freaked me out. I will go back to it tomorrow and I think I'll try it without the music again because now I'm interested in finding out what happens next. If anyone would have ever told me these things or tried to describe them to me in the past, I would have thought they were slightly nuts. Now, because it's me, I don't consider it crazy. Since it was so intense though, I think the music is going on now and it's just time to relax.

I wonder if it affects others like this??

[marinik]

Never meditated with my eyes open except looking at a candle flame. But I decided to join you in this quest and will start today.
Love m

[shasah]

Originally Posted by marinik

Never meditated with my eyes open except looking at a candle flame. But I decided to join you in this quest and will start today.
Love m

Hello Marinik You are more than welcome!! I'm going to finish exploring this particular phenomenon and then I may add the candle flame. With the way things have been going, it may become a dragon or some such though LOL. Good thing I like dragons Let me know how it turns out for you.

[shasah]

I was able to once again reach the point where the colors appeared and go beyond it. I actually meditated longer than I meant to because it was not scary this time. Well, part of it was, but I was able to get past that point.

The same shadows pulsating, the same moving patterns, the same nimbus of light around other objects, the same heaviness of body and then the colors. The reason that it scared me so much yesterday beyond being so unexpected was the feeling which I couldn't identify yesterday but which feels kind of like when you dream you are falling and wake up suddenly with your heart pounding and your breathing coming quickly. That's the only way that I can think of to describe it. Since I did expect it this time, I was able to sit still through it even though my heart rate still accelerated. The falling sensation lasted for a bit and then...how to describe?? The ceiling started moving like a wave, the walls seemed to expand and contract, the colors became one with the patterns and seemed almost rainbowish. Each object in my peripheral vision seemed to exude its own pattern. The bookshelf seemed to be moving as did the pictures on the bookshelf but not in the same direction. I don't know that my words are good enough to describe it. Kind of had to pull myself back from it so that I could "become" again.

I just reread that and want to say that, no, I am not on any drugs LOL. Time to continue my journey and move on to Part IV.

One other thing that is occurring is that people are starting to PM me and make other references to my experiences that I am writing about. At first, I was afraid that this would affect what I write and how I write it, but I don't think it has. ?? I looked at the count of how many people are hitting here and find it hard to believe that people are reading this. I find all this very interesting but when I started this, I thought it would be just me, myself and I. I don't mind that others are reading it which is another step in the right direction and I hope that you all don't think I'm totally loony But if you do, that's okay too. I'm doing it for me and in the hope that others may get something out of it. Ciao for now.

[shasah]

So, I've read Part IV twice and at first I thought, ah, just where I need the most help, spirituality. There are some useful things here but it seems I've already done most of them. So does that mean that I'm more spiritual than I give myself credit for??

For instance, the book talks about letting go of self and realizing that every interaction needs to benefit not only "me" but anyone else involved in the transaction. That is something that I've had problems with in the past but I have been working on it and being quite successful. Some people that I once considered as "my enemies" are actually now my friends. People that I had a problem trusting because I thought they were out to get me are not and it was my lack of trust itself that caused the problems. Some people that I worried about their opinion of me are actually just as worried, if not more so, about my opinion about them. I've pretty much worked through this and I no longer feel animosity towards any of these people and I consider what they are taking out of the situation so that it can be win/win.

Then there is the affirmation "I can be what I will to be". I've believed that for a very long time. My self-confidence problems when I was younger were resolved thanks to a 4-year tour in the Army. They showed me that I can do/be anything that I want. I just have to know it. I think I lost sight of this in my personal life for a while. The other exercises have helped me to put the problem behind me.

Some of the bullets seem to be an attempt to guilt me into keeping to it. I think they were unnecessary and a little condescending. Habit of failure blah blah, and one of the words that I think should be banished from the language "never". I "never" have liked that word LOL.

The parts that are helpful are to "seek Silence frequently". That is something that had been missing from my life. Always had to be moving, doing, etc. I think I was afraid that my thoughts would overtake me. Last night was the first time in I don't remember how long that I actually went to bed without turning on my music first. I forgot because I was thinking about other, more significant things. My music habit may be part of trying to hide from my thoughts too?? *add to list*

Then there's the one about calling on your emotions to visualize. Well, I am not a very emotional person, so I think this one will take some more work. I am more emotional now than I have been since I was a teenager, but there is more room for growth. It's kind of strange that since I have given myself permission to release my emotions, I am happier than I have been in a long time. I guess repressing them so much, for so long, built up the tension inside myself and now that I've released and continue to release in small increments, the tension is no longer there.

Mental strength being secured by exercise is the next one. I think of myself as pretty strong mentally but didn't really look at it in this perspective. Opening myself to new ideas and not being so rigid or black/white are part of mental strength that I am working on. I've come a long way, but there are still some old ideas that need to be reevaluated. This forum has helped a lot in that area.

I'm kind of disappointed in the exercise for this week though. "let go of adverse conditions". I feel like I already have during the last weeks exercise and in my life over the last week/month/year/s But I guess that means I get to explore my meditation more and start working on some of the things on my list. Universal consciousness, spiritual teachings, and music/movement's relationship to hiding from my thoughts.

Wow, long winded tonight. Time to wrap it up once again. Good night.

[shasah]

Well, today was both a success and not. I decided to try something different. It was such a beautiful day outside that instead of meditating in my usual spot, I drove out to the nearest mountain (small on the scale of mountains) and went the the highest spot where I could park and find a place to sit peacefully. I tried to meditate but have found that I need more focus before I go outside to meditate. I was almost in that zone when a couple came up and started talking to me. It immediately brought me back to earth. They left and a motorcyclist came up and started talking to me and then a couple with a baby asked me to take their picture. Guess I need to find a less busy spot for meditating.

I call it a success though because it was awesome, the sun felt fantastic and I socialized without effort. I also made some connections to go hiking and have found a spot that I can sit peacefully while enjoying other people. So I will definitely go back, just not to meditate

Uneventful for MKS, but a happy day works for me

[shasah]

I realized that I haven't posted about some things that have been occurring lately. Manifestation or synchronicity? Lately, there have been a lot more things happening that I talk or write about. Small things mostly, but there are so many of them that it seems more than coincidence.

I wrote to someone about wanting to learn photography. Now I have someone that is willing to teach me for free. And lend me a professional grade camera.

I wrote to someone about wanting to find another piece of art and yesterday I found 2 art shops on my way to the mountains. Found the perfect lithograph and I'm going back next weekend to buy it.

I wrote to someone about the wheat pennies that I collect being lost to my divorce. A couple weeks later my ex calls to say that he has them and do I want them?

I wrote to someone about missing my dogs and now the opportunity has come up for me to visit them.

I lost my camera and set an intention for it to show up. Within 5 minutes of getting home, my neighbor came over and told me she had my camera.

And so many more. Reading this over it seems like writing my intentions brings them into being. So I guess it's time that I write them more!!! Still have a shyness about writing some things though. Hmmm....wonder if it will work if I write it in my journal? I'll have to give it a try. (usually use my journal for feelings or things that have already happened)

I'll think about posting them. Not sure yet.

[shasah]

The last couple of times I've meditated have been pretty much the same with the intensity levels varying. So, I'm probably going to start posting either when I start a new part or when something different happens.

One thing I will relate is that I am much calmer than I think I ever have been in my life. When people do things that would normally piss me off, it doesn't anymore. I've had people tell me I seem different but they can't pinpoint how. One said I just seem more relaxed. That in itself is an improvement.

Until next time....

[shasah]

I think I have finally found a missing link or two in what has been my life thus far. The ability to fully relax and my spiritual center.

When I first started this journal, I stated how I was always on the move. It was like I had a demon inside that required me to be doing something. Even in my sleep, I was always moving (or so I've been told). The ability to sit absolutely still was beyond me. No longer. This ability has also transferred into the times when I am not meditating. I can fully relax and let my guard down. I didn't really realize that my guard was always up.

As for the spiritual center, previous experience made me weary of the word spiritual. I was connecting it with hypocrisy and negativity. However, my spirituality has always been there, it has just been in hiding. I've always had the belief that god is love not some omnipotent, judgmental being in the sky. Even when they were trying to brainwash me, I believed that. That was why I became so disgusted with the religious back stabbing that I always saw. So why was it so hard for me to see that "god is love" is really the same concept as the universal mind?

I will go to sleep tonight feeling very free. I feel like I have conquered two of my limitations and look forward to all that is to come.

[marinik]

WOW! This is a big step, or two you have taken. Congratulations!

[shasah]

Thanks Marinik

[shasah]

I started Part V today. I want to read it a couple more times before I comment on the points. The exercise this week is same position but this time to think of a place with pleasant associations or ideal setting. There were numerous places that came to mind - a campground that I used to go to, the pond behind my apartment with fountains constantly running, Mount Fuji from when I visited Japan, the waterfall I visited last fall, the mountain I went to last weekend to try to meditate. I decided on the mountain. It is freshest in my mind. Funny thing is, this is a place I used to visit with my ex but it doesn't really bring up those memories. The newer ones are there. But I picture it as it is in summer instead of now. I'm looking out over a vast expanse of green, sitting on an old stone wall. There is a flat stoned expanse for about twenty feet and then a sheer drop over the edge into the tops of the trees. The wind is blowing my hair and the sun is shining down warmly. Very relaxing.

I guess that the great outdoors is part of my ideal huh? Every picture that came to me involved being outdoors. I will have to learn how to tune out distractions because I really want to be able to meditate outside, especially once it gets nice out. Well, that's it for now. Until next time....

[shasah]

I have been going through a bit of a rough patch the last couple of days. I won't go into details because a friend was able to help me get to the other side but it is strange that just when I found my spirituality again, it was invaded and I became more like the old Shasah instead of the more open and loving Shasah. I got into a verbal clash at work like I haven't seen since the old days. I think I insulted a couple of people that I consider friends. If I offended any that read this please accept my apologies and know that it was not within my control at that time.

So, I am back to being me (phew) and will continue my journey. I did meditate during this darker time but it was not the same until today. One thing that I did figure out though is that my ideal place is not the mountain top that I imagined (although it is still beautiful and I will go back). This area that I described was missing one thing that brings me peace. That thing is flowing water. When I tried picturing my ideal today, I kept getting the sense that it wasn't right. When I instead pictured the waterfall I visited last fall and could hear the water as well as feel the rest, it clicked better. I'm not sure what it is about the sound of water flowing with strength that resonates but I do know that without that sound, it is not truly ideal. So, I am going to read this part again and will try to write about it tomorrow.

Take care all and thanks to those of you who helped me during this time.

[marinik]

Hold in there my dear friend. We all have the dark side in us and the dark moments. But they become less and less.
Love m

[SatvikBeri]

It's a test! Keep pushing through and you'll make it to something big...you're close now.

[shasah]

Originally Posted by marinik

Hold in there my dear friend. We all have the dark side in us and the dark moments. But they become less and less.
Love m

Originally Posted by SatvikBeri

It's a test! Keep pushing through and you'll make it to something big...you're close now.

Actually, you are absolutely right!!! I made what I consider a humongous breakthrough today. I didn't even realize it was part of me, but I had this guilt about not being a christian that today is gone. How do I know? I posted that I am not christian on a forum that has lots of them and a lot of them are local. Not to flaunt it but just because it is a fact. I also got into a conversation with my assistant today and she asked me if I was christian or not. I told her no, I am not. I've known her for twelve years LOL. The guilt that the christian establishment can instill in a person is unbelievable! The fact that it is finally gone, wow, what a relief!!!

So on the way home, I had this epiphany. I can have anything I want. The universe and I are one. Why is that an epiphany? Because I've been reading it for months now but this is the first time I KNEW it was true. So, just for giggles, I determined that the rest of the traffic lights on the way home would be green, they were. My tags expired yesterday and there was a police officer right next to me. I asked that he be diverted. He pulls a bit ahead of me and then slows down and does a U-turn. I decided that I would have both my license tags and a surprise in my mail when I picked it up (considering I sent the payment for the tags on Friday, this was unlikely) and yes I got both. All this in the 5 minutes that it took me to get home from the gym.

Have I perfected it yet? Only time will tell. Thanks for the support. My journey is by no means over. It is just begun Talk to you soon.

[Xtal]

It's so great to read about your positive experiences, Shasah. Thanks for posting them here.