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shasah · 03-22-2010, 02:10 AM

Part II of the post is going over Part VII of the book. I read and reread it and have already filled a page on the first 16 points. So this will be a long one LOL.

Visualization is the first thing that caught my attention. I'm good at visualization and I always have been. This brings up some questions for me though. Why have some past visualizations not come to fruition? Was it because of: A) lack of intent; B) the universe/my subconscious knows when an intention is fully fleshed out and knows whether I am ready for that particular vision?

Next was that work, labor, hard mental labor, is necessary for IM to work. I know this but I wonder how many that work at IM realize it?? It's not magic and poof, it appears, at least not at first. Effort is needed.

Idealization brings up questions too. It says that a plan must be solid and permanent. So what happens if you change your mind?? Or does this explain why some visualizations work and others don't? conflict of interest within the subconscious??

The book says that faith leads to confidence that leads to endurance and courage. If you develop the power of concentration, you can then exclude all thoughts except the one you are intending. No arguments here, just think it's an important link.

Yet another question from the statements - make sure of your material and repeat the image and fine tune it to be more clear and accurate. I can understand this but wonder why some visualizations work after one try? I can think of numerous examples: getting my wheat pennies back, the lights changing for me on the way home, getting photography lessons, etc, etc. Was my faith in these intentions so clear that it only took one try while others still have some type of conflict attached even if I don't recognize it as so??

And that was only the first 16 points. Will continue with the others at a later time. Will probably reread this tomorrow too to see if any of the answers jump out at me. Too many questions at once may be counterproductive.

Ciao...

shasah · 03-24-2010, 03:12 AM

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This brings up some questions for me though. Why have some past visualizations not come to fruition? Was it because of: A) lack of intent; B) the universe/my subconscious knows when an intention is fully fleshed out and knows whether I am ready for that particular vision?

A bit of both I think. When I have intent but there is still some doubt within my subconscious, then it will not manifest. And since my subconscious is the universe and the universe is my subconscious, it/I know whether I am ready or not.

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Idealization brings up questions too. It says that a plan must be solid and permanent. So what happens if you change your mind?? Or does this explain why some visualizations work and others don't? conflict of interest within the subconscious??

Yes, I think the conflict will affect whether or not you are able to manifest. Or you can be sure consciously and unconsciously and get what you have manifested. If it is not all that you thought it would be, then you don't change it, you build another plan that is solid and permanent.

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Yet another question from the statements - make sure of your material and repeat the image and fine tune it to be more clear and accurate. I can understand this but wonder why some visualizations work after one try? I can think of numerous examples: getting my wheat pennies back, the lights changing for me on the way home, getting photography lessons, etc, etc. Was my faith in these intentions so clear that it only took one try while others still have some type of conflict attached even if I don't recognize it as so??

The photography lessons are explained below, but the others were probably my minds way of giving me faith that I can manifest things. After all, if it didn't work at all, how would I build faith? So I/the universe were giving me little things to show me the way.

After rereading the rest of the chapter, there is only one thing I want to add. It states that failure is from dealing with externals. People want money, power, health, abundance. These are all external. They are effects. Once you find the cause internally, that is when you can manifest.

An instance of this for me is the photography lessons. I recognized within myself that this manifestation would help me to concentrate, that it would take "me" out of the equation and give me an added tool to learn how to be calm, focused and not thinking about myself.

So all I have to do is decide what I want, build a vision of it and have faith that it will happen. Easy right? LOL. I must say this is one of the most rewarding/frustrating/learning/changing/life-altering journeys that I have ever taken. And I enjoy each step that I take and love the feeling of power and peace that I am gaining from it. Therefore, am I manifesting the journey itself? ....

shasah · 03-24-2010, 03:14 AM

Okay, so now I'm talking to myself. LOL

marinik · 03-24-2010, 04:57 AM

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Okay, so now I'm talking to myself. LOL

Yes my dear, you are talking to yourself but then is there anybody else anyway???

shasah · 03-28-2010, 03:19 PM

I have moved on to part VIII. But I have also taken some time off. I wanted a more active social life and I have been enjoying it. The thing is, I found I also need to build some down time into that because I have found myself getting back into the worrying about what others think. I have been neglecting my meditation in favor of going out and having fun but there is a price to pay for that and my anxiety levels have increased over the last couple of days.

I am therefore going to have a more active social life but I am also going to have time to meditate and pay attention to what's going on inside my head. I have sadly neglected MKS and the exercises I had been doing. This morning I have done two things: one was to go out and photograph again. I went through 4 rolls of film and enjoyed it very much; the second was to reread part 8 again and to start thinking about what it is saying. I'll post about the points later.

The exercise at this time is to pick an object and imagine where that object came from. Going back through time to the conception of the idea of that object. That is on my list of things to do today along with some much needed meditation. Time to take control again instead of letting events overtake me.
I intentionally built today into a day of relaxation and plan to take full advantage of it. Have a good one.

shasah · 03-29-2010, 05:14 PM

I am happy to say that the items on my "to do" list helped immensely and I feel great! Cheers

shasah · 04-01-2010, 12:45 AM

I'm stuck again. This chapter deals with positive thought and I can see what he's talking about. Some negative thoughts can cause things to lead to others and it piles up until you change your mindset. Thing is, I don't know about anybody else, but I do not find it possible to think positive thoughts all the time. And I'm not sure that I want to. ?? I've done it in the past and got so wrapped up in me and mine that the world passed me by for a long time. I came out of a long sleep and reveled in my emotions, positive and negative. Not sure I want to go back. Don't get me wrong, of course I want to be happy, but I don't want to be so happy that happy becomes normal. Don't know if this makes sense to anyone else, and really it doesn't have to, it makes sense to me. Guess I have further to go to become enlightened lol.

I'll continue reading and see if I can get past the first 4 points without wanting to retch. Sorry not very helpful I know. Maybe I'm just tired this week and it will make more sense later?? Funny thing is, I'm going to bed one to one and a half hours earlier and I'm more tired? Anyway, no inspirational message today. Maybe tomorrow....

shasah · 04-01-2010, 09:35 AM

A little sleep can go a long way towards helping my attitude. That and knowing that today is not a 14 hour work day.....

Still have the same belief but from a more positive perspective LOL>

shasah · 04-02-2010, 02:19 AM

I have been working on my list, trying to build my dreams and consider the consequences as Steve has talked about. Funny thing occurred to me, most of the things on my list are things that I already have. Now, how did that happen?
There are a few that have yet to manifest but the majority already have. Therefore this chapter's exercise about imagination is something that I can utilize.

The author tells you to imagine an object from now back through time to where the idea of it was conceived. I picked the wrong objects as my first attempts at this because there were too many branches. And too many things I don't know. I thought that a car might be a good thing since I work for a company that makes parts for them. However, there are way too many parts and I only know the ones we make. Then I was in the shower and tried the shower walls, but I haven't got a clue as to how they're made. Made me think of KISS, Keep It Simple Stupid. So my next 2 that I will try are one of the parts that we do make and a wooden bridge in back of my apt. That shouldn't be too hard right lol. We'll see....

Meditation is going great. New things occurring but I will wait to post until I see if they become regular happenings or not. Seems to be my motto tonight, we'll see....

Night...

shasah · 04-05-2010, 04:51 AM

Another weekend, and so many interruptions and outings that I haven't been able to sit down with MKS or meditate. I did and do have time to be grateful though. I am very thankful for a great weekend with family, friends and a new romantic prospect.

I "should" have taken the time tonight to do either since it's been quiet for a few hours now but I didn't. This week will be less busy and will give me the time to dedicate to MKS and photography.

I felt guilty for a short while but decided that the whole point of my beginning this journey was so that I could enjoy my life. I am, and even the most dedicated need a break sometimes. Delayed not derailed

I'll post more this week.

shasah · 04-06-2010, 03:37 AM

Meditation has taken on a new dimension which is interesting. I start out with my eyes open like I always have and the patterns in the air are more distinct. The heaviness of body comes and then ... everything below my jawline feels like it's dropped away. At that point, I close my eyes. When I first close my eyes there are all these colorful squiggly lines shooting across my inner vision. As I breathe deeply and concentrate those squiggly lines become shapes. The shapes are very real and I can actually feel them there. Today was another added dimension. Here I go again with the strangeness, but one of today's shapes was like an elk and it came close and there was a pressure on my eyes as it "snuffed"?? very close to my face. It was peaceful though?? Not scary. When it disappeared though there was this itch that began behind my ears, on my neck. And I couldn't ignore it. Like ants crawling up the sides of my neck. Very intense and couldn't help but move to itch it. I also have the chills now. I've been warm all day and now I feel cold. At least now this kind of stuff doesn't scare me but rather piques my curiosity even more. I think I'm done for tonight, but I am looking forward to exploring more again. It got pretty much the same time after time until the last couple of times. Maybe my subconscious waiting until I was ready for more?? Good night all.

shasah · 04-06-2010, 03:57 AM

New dimension indeed!! I just finished meditating and posting when I received a text from the guy that I started seeing last week. We've been exchanging youtube music videos for a while and I sent him one earlier tonight. He texted that he hadn't gotten his video today. I went back to Youtube and checked the address I have saved there and the last time I sent one it had the number 23 in it. Tonight it had my number, 213 in it instead. So it didn't go through.

I was wondering why I hadn't heard from him today and he was wondering why he hadn't heard from me. That may not seem like that big a deal, but those of you who know me, you know about the thing I have with 213. So what is the universe trying to communicate. Keep him because he texted even after he thought I was ignoring him, or run!! because it prevented me from sending it in the first place???? What an interesting conundrum

shasah · 04-07-2010, 03:00 AM

Meditating tonight was peaceful. There were images but none as vivid as last night. Harder to retain what I saw. A fox, an owl, hands, a see saw... many others. Not sure what they meant. I'll keep trying.

Went back to Part VIII and read and reread again. Not sure why it still annoys me still on the first four points that he is saying all negativity must be gone. But later points did help me get past it. It makes more sense to me when he says that imagination should be used for constructive thought and that you can't think negatively 90% of the time and positively 10% of the time and expect to manifest what you wish. He also states don't confuse daydreaming with imagination. Since I do tend to daydream a bit, I'll have to see where I go with this one

I think since I have been so long on this part, I will continue to the next and come back to this one. Maybe by then I can figure out why I consider complete positivity to be on the boring side. Where's the spice of life without a little conflict?? Not a lot but a little? I'll work on it. (maybe

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shasah · 04-07-2010, 03:56 PM

Every time that I post about this Chapter and my problems with 100% positivity, something happens on the negative side. So, Universe, okay, I get the message. 100% positivity in process. Sense of humor and fun are positive, correct? Let's go.

shasah · 04-08-2010, 03:30 AM

First of all, Part IX was so much easier to read and understand. It hit a chord in me and I am looking forward to going back and reading it again. Health, wealth and love. Will post about it later.

Next, tonight's meditation, amazing!! I had a realization at the beginning when the squiggly multicolored lines were passing by on my eyelids. They are not squiggly multicolored lines, but pictures, scenes, events. As some of them passed, they would open up a little and I could see pieces of them. But my mind would keep going and pass by them until it found the ones I wanted to see.

Once I got to that point, there were numerous things that stand out. My daughter running tomorrow with no pain, her breathing controlled and easy and she finishes her 2 miles in 17:04.

Then I hadn't moved at all, but I was reading a magazine and the words were clear and I was happy and content and the words had great meaning. When I looked up from the magazine to contemplate a point, I was amongst the stars. A field of stars that took my breath away.

I feel like I've slept for 8 hours and have some fantastic energy, but I know when I go to bed I will sleep deeply and awake feeling refreshed and ready for another fantastic day.

This is where I wanted to go when I started this. I am once again excited to be on this journey. Absolutely fascinating!!!

shasah · 04-08-2010, 11:19 AM

Got the good night's sleep. Didn't get the 17:04

Daughter just failed her PT test. Somehow, someway though, she is still going to get commissioned. She is still going to continue getting her military scholarship. She is going to succeed in her dreams. I can't help but cry for her right now. Wow, I know this is a blow for her. Give her the strength to get through this and help me to help her.

shasah · 04-08-2010, 05:23 PM

Although my daughter's situation is a setback and although I have been feeling very down about it today, I am not going to let it affect my attitude overall. It is natural to feel these things and to worry about her and how she is handling it, I wouldn't be much of a mother if it didn't concern me. She will come through this because she is a strong young woman who will not be stopped whether she gets in the army or not. Maybe that's not her destiny, not what the universe has in store for her. And that's okay because some of the best lessons come from a failure that occurred. She will learn from it and come out the other side an even better person.

Tanja · 04-08-2010, 05:42 PM

I don't have anything wise to say, just sending love and positive vibe to you and your daughter, I know it may be difficult to see it now but I'm sure there are other amazing things in store for her...and you.

cacheborn · 04-08-2010, 05:46 PM

Agree with Tanja. Sending you lots of love and positive energy, Shasah.
And I say again, this, too shall pass. *mwah*

marinik · 04-08-2010, 07:09 PM

Joining these two in sending + energy and love!

shasah · 04-10-2010, 05:45 AM

Sometimes I have to laugh at myself. A little story follows that has me laughing now.

Yesterday I had a minor surgical procedure done. Eat light, take the meds an hour before, and 1 hour in the office and you're done. No pain. (yeah, right) Of course I also got the news from my daughter about her PT test yesterday but I was not going to let it affect my positive attitude (hmmmm). My friends all seemed to be in a bad mood or bad things were happening with them. Everything seemed to be going wrong. So I get back yesterday afternoon, took more meds, slept for 14 hours, got ready for work, big meeting, clean plant for big visit, try to get something from the vending machine and hit the wrong button, ended up with cookies, oh well, eat them anyway. Later, someone brought in bavarian cream doughnuts, scarf down 2 of them, drinking coffee all day long. I thought I would be going out with my new beau but he is busy this weekend. My best friend has her boyfriend in and didn't tell me to stay away, but my perception was that was what she meant. So, I get home at 9:30PM tonight and I was just so depressed. I couldn't stand being in my apartment any longer. I packed a bag and got in my car, just wanted to drive anywhere. I was at the point of tears. Drive 75 miles before I stop and decide to get something to eat.

About 2 minutes after I finish eating, it hit me. It had been over 36 hours since I had eaten anything good for me and I ate light before the procedure, so any substantial food had been about 60 hours. Let me tell you that going from eating yogurt, fruits, chicken, etc. to eating cookies and doughnuts and drinking coffee all day long is NOT a good idea lol.

I drove 75 miles back home in a much better frame of mind than when I left.

I was hurting for my daughter (who btw has another chance 4/19 so my vision may yet come true) and I was in physical pain and I hadn't eaten and I was on caffeine and sugar. Oops!!

On the way out I was wondering why I'm bothering trying to learn IM and meditation, what's the use? On the way back, I realized that they are working. I wanted to date, I'm dating. I wanted to learn photography, I am. I want my daughter to succeed, she is. Just because they are not turning out exactly as I thought doesn't mean it's not working, it means I need to make sure my intentions match my true desires.

I also need to remember that sugar does not make a good diet

Hope you're as entertained by this as I now am. Sometimes it's good to laugh at yourself.

rgmwilliams · 04-10-2010, 04:48 PM

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On the way out I was wondering why I'm bothering trying to learn IM and meditation, what's the use? On the way back, I realized that they are working. I wanted to date, I'm dating. I wanted to learn photography, I am. I want my daughter to succeed, she is. Just because they are not turning out exactly as I thought doesn't mean it's not working, it means I need to make sure my intentions match my true desires.

I also need to remember that sugar does not make a good diet

Hope you're as entertained by this as I now am. Sometimes it's good to laugh at yourself.

Funny thing, too, Shasah, just before I read your update, I also read a posting on Gratitude, in the IM forum. Your posting and this link seem to tie in together.

I've been trying to focus on using gratitude AND reading the MKS book since it walks the reader through meditation techniques.

Keep up the good work! It sounds challenging, but it's making us grow.

With love,

shasah · 04-10-2010, 05:54 PM

Thanks Rich. It is challenging but most worthwhile things are. There are numerous things that come together to make our reality better and if you forget a little piece, you end up with results other than your exact intention.

Thanks for the link. I am going to go check out that thread too. Sounds like there are some good reminders there.

Take care

Sue

shasah · 04-10-2010, 05:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Tanja

I don't have anything wise to say, just sending love and positive vibe to you and your daughter, I know it may be difficult to see it now but I'm sure there are other amazing things in store for her...and you.

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Originally Posted by cacheborn

Agree with Tanja. Sending you lots of love and positive energy, Shasah.
And I say again, this, too shall pass. *mwah*

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Originally Posted by marinik

Joining these two in sending + energy and love!

I didn't mean to ignore the three of you. Your positive thoughts are appreciated. I think we fed off of each others negative emotions and it was a wild ride for a little bit there. I am glad we're all back to our cheerful selves!! You help me keep my head straight and I am very grateful to have all of you in my life!!!

shasah · 04-11-2010, 01:39 PM

After I posted about being grateful, things started coming together again. A friend came over and we went and sat out back with some others. We drank crown and seven for a while and I have discovered that my alcohol tolerance is very low nowadays lol. That is fine with me, I think I'll stay away from the whiskey in the future!! The guy I've been seeing texted and called and we set up another date. And I'm going out today for another photography lesson. I am very grateful for all that I have and for the connections I have made both IRL and in computerland. I didn't meditate yesterday but I am going to do it now. And I did reread part of this chapter but will read it again before posting about it. To all of you that read this, thanks for the encouragement!!

lifetimelearner · 04-11-2010, 06:27 PM

I feel selfish for not recognizing these posts earlier this year !

looks like you have been having quite a journey
and
I commend you for your honesty

and for allowing us to glimpse into your private thoughts

you are a brave and beautiful soul !

and BTW I love your photos !

shasah · 04-11-2010, 09:03 PM

No reason to feel guilty!! This journey began with a place to post my thoughts on what I am learning and I didn't really expect anyone to be reading it. When others referred to it, it was a bit embarrassing at first and I thought it would make me pull back, but it hasn't. I love that I'm getting support when I hit rough patches and encouragement when I break through to a new level. You are a welcome addition!! I especially love when something I write helps someone else. Talk to you soon.

lifetimelearner · 04-12-2010, 11:53 PM

thanks shasah !

shasah · 04-13-2010, 03:03 AM

Part IX - "if you wish to change conditions you must change yourself" and "cause and effect" stand out for me. These are so true in my life. I was well on my way to being a sour old woman before I stepped out of my situation and started over. Now I feel young and free. What a difference a year makes. My divorce was official one year ago yesterday and although I had started the journey before then, I see a different person when I look in the mirror nowadays. Others in my life comment on it. Those that didn't know me back then find it hard to believe I was ever as I describe to them. For that I am deeply grateful!!

Intentions coming to fruition are so satisfying. It wasn't long ago that I posted (not sure if here or another thread) about meeting people IRL that I could talk to about IM. And what do you know? I recently started seeing a man and decided that I was going to be totally open about my beliefs. On our second date, I mentioned IM and we got into a discussion about IM vs coincidence. We didn't talk about it too much after that, but yesterday he handed me a book and told me he doesn't share that side of him with anyone. It is a book about how coincidence and consciousness can come together to make us a better society. Hard to explain, but a lot of it runs parallel to IM. I'm only in chapter 3 or so but I am excited about visiting with him again and discussing the parallels and polarities. One of many things that I like about him. Fits 2 IM's in one shot! So Angela and Rei have named their men, mine I think will be Musicman. Okay, make that 3 IM's.

Since he was so willing to listen about that, I decided that I would be as open and honest as I could with him. So far, so good.

I will continue with my perceptions of Part IX in another post. My meditation is strong then weak. I forgot to turn off the music when I started tonight, so I had to stop and turn it off because it was distracting me. Then I started over but had a hard time turning off/tuning out. I still "saw" but the images were not as distinct and seemed more random. The only one that I felt was really successful was at the suggestion of the author of MKS. Planting a favorite flower through growth. The rose bush that I visualized was beautiful and I really could smell the fragrance of the flowers. Time for bed which will be peaceful and restful. Goodnight.

shasah · 04-14-2010, 02:17 AM

Back to Part IX. "Positive will destroy negative just as light destroys darkness". I think that may be where the author was trying to get me in the last chapter but it felt more preachy there. "you must" has always been a problem for me. This says it in a way I can understand and appreciate.

He talks about health, wealth and love being the 3 things that people need and desire in their lives to attain happiness. He is correct in that most people aren't going to argue about health or love as something they desire. Wealth has a set of limiting beliefs that goes with it. When I first came to this forum that was one of the things that annoyed me. Everyone was talking about becoming wealthy and some of the IM books were written specifically with that in mind. I thought them very superficial and thus had some very limiting beliefs about it. I have avoided the books that were written in that direction. I now see it in a different light. I no longer think of an abundance of money as something for someone else. Why wouldn't I want money? And everyone that is honest would say that yes, they would take more money if it didn't violate their principles. Most see it as a means to an end, to get the other things that they really want or to be able to give to those that they love or want to help. So as long as I can come by money honestly and with my integrity intact, I have no problem with it. Bring it on

I'll continue more later, wrote enough for tonight and barely scratched this chapter lol. Night.

04-06-2010, 03:57 AM	#72 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	New dimension indeed!! I just finished meditating and posting when I received a text from the guy that I started seeing last week. We've been exchanging youtube music videos for a while and I sent him one earlier tonight. He texted that he hadn't gotten his video today. I went back to Youtube and checked the address I have saved there and the last time I sent one it had the number 23 in it. Tonight it had my number, 213 in it instead. So it didn't go through. I was wondering why I hadn't heard from him today and he was wondering why he hadn't heard from me. That may not seem like that big a deal, but those of you who know me, you know about the thing I have with 213. So what is the universe trying to communicate. Keep him because he texted even after he thought I was ignoring him, or run!! because it prevented me from sending it in the first place???? What an interesting conundrum Last edited by shasah; 04-06-2010 at 04:05 AM.

04-07-2010, 03:00 AM	#73 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Meditating tonight was peaceful. There were images but none as vivid as last night. Harder to retain what I saw. A fox, an owl, hands, a see saw... many others. Not sure what they meant. I'll keep trying. Went back to Part VIII and read and reread again. Not sure why it still annoys me still on the first four points that he is saying all negativity must be gone. But later points did help me get past it. It makes more sense to me when he says that imagination should be used for constructive thought and that you can't think negatively 90% of the time and positively 10% of the time and expect to manifest what you wish. He also states don't confuse daydreaming with imagination. Since I do tend to daydream a bit, I'll have to see where I go with this one I think since I have been so long on this part, I will continue to the next and come back to this one. Maybe by then I can figure out why I consider complete positivity to be on the boring side. Where's the spice of life without a little conflict?? Not a lot but a little? I'll work on it. (maybe)

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03-22-2010, 02:10 AM	#61 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Part II of the post is going over Part VII of the book. I read and reread it and have already filled a page on the first 16 points. So this will be a long one LOL. Visualization is the first thing that caught my attention. I'm good at visualization and I always have been. This brings up some questions for me though. Why have some past visualizations not come to fruition? Was it because of: A) lack of intent; B) the universe/my subconscious knows when an intention is fully fleshed out and knows whether I am ready for that particular vision? Next was that work, labor, hard mental labor, is necessary for IM to work. I know this but I wonder how many that work at IM realize it?? It's not magic and poof, it appears, at least not at first. Effort is needed. Idealization brings up questions too. It says that a plan must be solid and permanent. So what happens if you change your mind?? Or does this explain why some visualizations work and others don't? conflict of interest within the subconscious?? The book says that faith leads to confidence that leads to endurance and courage. If you develop the power of concentration, you can then exclude all thoughts except the one you are intending. No arguments here, just think it's an important link. Yet another question from the statements - make sure of your material and repeat the image and fine tune it to be more clear and accurate. I can understand this but wonder why some visualizations work after one try? I can think of numerous examples: getting my wheat pennies back, the lights changing for me on the way home, getting photography lessons, etc, etc. Was my faith in these intentions so clear that it only took one try while others still have some type of conflict attached even if I don't recognize it as so?? And that was only the first 16 points. Will continue with the others at a later time. Will probably reread this tomorrow too to see if any of the answers jump out at me. Too many questions at once may be counterproductive. Ciao...

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shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Okay, so now I'm talking to myself. LOL

03-28-2010, 03:19 PM	#65 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	I have moved on to part VIII. But I have also taken some time off. I wanted a more active social life and I have been enjoying it. The thing is, I found I also need to build some down time into that because I have found myself getting back into the worrying about what others think. I have been neglecting my meditation in favor of going out and having fun but there is a price to pay for that and my anxiety levels have increased over the last couple of days. I am therefore going to have a more active social life but I am also going to have time to meditate and pay attention to what's going on inside my head. I have sadly neglected MKS and the exercises I had been doing. This morning I have done two things: one was to go out and photograph again. I went through 4 rolls of film and enjoyed it very much; the second was to reread part 8 again and to start thinking about what it is saying. I'll post about the points later. The exercise at this time is to pick an object and imagine where that object came from. Going back through time to the conception of the idea of that object. That is on my list of things to do today along with some much needed meditation. Time to take control again instead of letting events overtake me. I intentionally built today into a day of relaxation and plan to take full advantage of it. Have a good one.

03-29-2010, 05:14 PM	#66 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	I am happy to say that the items on my "to do" list helped immensely and I feel great! Cheers

04-01-2010, 12:45 AM	#67 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	I'm stuck again. This chapter deals with positive thought and I can see what he's talking about. Some negative thoughts can cause things to lead to others and it piles up until you change your mindset. Thing is, I don't know about anybody else, but I do not find it possible to think positive thoughts all the time. And I'm not sure that I want to. ?? I've done it in the past and got so wrapped up in me and mine that the world passed me by for a long time. I came out of a long sleep and reveled in my emotions, positive and negative. Not sure I want to go back. Don't get me wrong, of course I want to be happy, but I don't want to be so happy that happy becomes normal. Don't know if this makes sense to anyone else, and really it doesn't have to, it makes sense to me. Guess I have further to go to become enlightened lol. I'll continue reading and see if I can get past the first 4 points without wanting to retch. Sorry not very helpful I know. Maybe I'm just tired this week and it will make more sense later?? Funny thing is, I'm going to bed one to one and a half hours earlier and I'm more tired? Anyway, no inspirational message today. Maybe tomorrow....

04-01-2010, 09:35 AM	#68 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	A little sleep can go a long way towards helping my attitude. That and knowing that today is not a 14 hour work day..... Still have the same belief but from a more positive perspective LOL>

04-02-2010, 02:19 AM	#69 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	I have been working on my list, trying to build my dreams and consider the consequences as Steve has talked about. Funny thing occurred to me, most of the things on my list are things that I already have. Now, how did that happen? There are a few that have yet to manifest but the majority already have. Therefore this chapter's exercise about imagination is something that I can utilize. The author tells you to imagine an object from now back through time to where the idea of it was conceived. I picked the wrong objects as my first attempts at this because there were too many branches. And too many things I don't know. I thought that a car might be a good thing since I work for a company that makes parts for them. However, there are way too many parts and I only know the ones we make. Then I was in the shower and tried the shower walls, but I haven't got a clue as to how they're made. Made me think of KISS, Keep It Simple Stupid. So my next 2 that I will try are one of the parts that we do make and a wooden bridge in back of my apt. That shouldn't be too hard right lol. We'll see.... Meditation is going great. New things occurring but I will wait to post until I see if they become regular happenings or not. Seems to be my motto tonight, we'll see.... Night...

04-05-2010, 04:51 AM	#70 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Another weekend, and so many interruptions and outings that I haven't been able to sit down with MKS or meditate. I did and do have time to be grateful though. I am very thankful for a great weekend with family, friends and a new romantic prospect. I "should" have taken the time tonight to do either since it's been quiet for a few hours now but I didn't. This week will be less busy and will give me the time to dedicate to MKS and photography. I felt guilty for a short while but decided that the whole point of my beginning this journey was so that I could enjoy my life. I am, and even the most dedicated need a break sometimes. Delayed not derailed I'll post more this week.

04-06-2010, 03:37 AM	#71 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Meditation has taken on a new dimension which is interesting. I start out with my eyes open like I always have and the patterns in the air are more distinct. The heaviness of body comes and then ... everything below my jawline feels like it's dropped away. At that point, I close my eyes. When I first close my eyes there are all these colorful squiggly lines shooting across my inner vision. As I breathe deeply and concentrate those squiggly lines become shapes. The shapes are very real and I can actually feel them there. Today was another added dimension. Here I go again with the strangeness, but one of today's shapes was like an elk and it came close and there was a pressure on my eyes as it "snuffed"?? very close to my face. It was peaceful though?? Not scary. When it disappeared though there was this itch that began behind my ears, on my neck. And I couldn't ignore it. Like ants crawling up the sides of my neck. Very intense and couldn't help but move to itch it. I also have the chills now. I've been warm all day and now I feel cold. At least now this kind of stuff doesn't scare me but rather piques my curiosity even more. I think I'm done for tonight, but I am looking forward to exploring more again. It got pretty much the same time after time until the last couple of times. Maybe my subconscious waiting until I was ready for more?? Good night all.

04-07-2010, 03:56 PM	#74 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Every time that I post about this Chapter and my problems with 100% positivity, something happens on the negative side. So, Universe, okay, I get the message. 100% positivity in process. Sense of humor and fun are positive, correct? Let's go.

04-08-2010, 03:30 AM	#75 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	First of all, Part IX was so much easier to read and understand. It hit a chord in me and I am looking forward to going back and reading it again. Health, wealth and love. Will post about it later. Next, tonight's meditation, amazing!! I had a realization at the beginning when the squiggly multicolored lines were passing by on my eyelids. They are not squiggly multicolored lines, but pictures, scenes, events. As some of them passed, they would open up a little and I could see pieces of them. But my mind would keep going and pass by them until it found the ones I wanted to see. Once I got to that point, there were numerous things that stand out. My daughter running tomorrow with no pain, her breathing controlled and easy and she finishes her 2 miles in 17:04. Then I hadn't moved at all, but I was reading a magazine and the words were clear and I was happy and content and the words had great meaning. When I looked up from the magazine to contemplate a point, I was amongst the stars. A field of stars that took my breath away. I feel like I've slept for 8 hours and have some fantastic energy, but I know when I go to bed I will sleep deeply and awake feeling refreshed and ready for another fantastic day. This is where I wanted to go when I started this. I am once again excited to be on this journey. Absolutely fascinating!!!

04-08-2010, 11:19 AM	#76 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Got the good night's sleep. Didn't get the 17:04 Daughter just failed her PT test. Somehow, someway though, she is still going to get commissioned. She is still going to continue getting her military scholarship. She is going to succeed in her dreams. I can't help but cry for her right now. Wow, I know this is a blow for her. Give her the strength to get through this and help me to help her.

04-08-2010, 05:23 PM	#77 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Although my daughter's situation is a setback and although I have been feeling very down about it today, I am not going to let it affect my attitude overall. It is natural to feel these things and to worry about her and how she is handling it, I wouldn't be much of a mother if it didn't concern me. She will come through this because she is a strong young woman who will not be stopped whether she gets in the army or not. Maybe that's not her destiny, not what the universe has in store for her. And that's okay because some of the best lessons come from a failure that occurred. She will learn from it and come out the other side an even better person.

04-08-2010, 05:42 PM	#78 (permalink)
Tanja Retired Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 6,068	I don't have anything wise to say, just sending love and positive vibe to you and your daughter, I know it may be difficult to see it now but I'm sure there are other amazing things in store for her...and you.

04-08-2010, 05:46 PM	#79 (permalink)
cacheborn Family Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 6,439	Agree with Tanja. Sending you lots of love and positive energy, Shasah. And I say again, this, too shall pass. mwah

04-08-2010, 07:09 PM	#80 (permalink)
marinik Legendary Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Where Living and Loving and Laughing are written into the Constitution Posts: 14,240	Joining these two in sending + energy and love!

04-10-2010, 05:45 AM	#81 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Sometimes I have to laugh at myself. A little story follows that has me laughing now. Yesterday I had a minor surgical procedure done. Eat light, take the meds an hour before, and 1 hour in the office and you're done. No pain. (yeah, right) Of course I also got the news from my daughter about her PT test yesterday but I was not going to let it affect my positive attitude (hmmmm). My friends all seemed to be in a bad mood or bad things were happening with them. Everything seemed to be going wrong. So I get back yesterday afternoon, took more meds, slept for 14 hours, got ready for work, big meeting, clean plant for big visit, try to get something from the vending machine and hit the wrong button, ended up with cookies, oh well, eat them anyway. Later, someone brought in bavarian cream doughnuts, scarf down 2 of them, drinking coffee all day long. I thought I would be going out with my new beau but he is busy this weekend. My best friend has her boyfriend in and didn't tell me to stay away, but my perception was that was what she meant. So, I get home at 9:30PM tonight and I was just so depressed. I couldn't stand being in my apartment any longer. I packed a bag and got in my car, just wanted to drive anywhere. I was at the point of tears. Drive 75 miles before I stop and decide to get something to eat. About 2 minutes after I finish eating, it hit me. It had been over 36 hours since I had eaten anything good for me and I ate light before the procedure, so any substantial food had been about 60 hours. Let me tell you that going from eating yogurt, fruits, chicken, etc. to eating cookies and doughnuts and drinking coffee all day long is NOT a good idea lol. I drove 75 miles back home in a much better frame of mind than when I left. I was hurting for my daughter (who btw has another chance 4/19 so my vision may yet come true) and I was in physical pain and I hadn't eaten and I was on caffeine and sugar. Oops!! On the way out I was wondering why I'm bothering trying to learn IM and meditation, what's the use? On the way back, I realized that they are working. I wanted to date, I'm dating. I wanted to learn photography, I am. I want my daughter to succeed, she is. Just because they are not turning out exactly as I thought doesn't mean it's not working, it means I need to make sure my intentions match my true desires. I also need to remember that sugar does not make a good diet Hope you're as entertained by this as I now am. Sometimes it's good to laugh at yourself.

04-10-2010, 05:54 PM	#83 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Thanks Rich. It is challenging but most worthwhile things are. There are numerous things that come together to make our reality better and if you forget a little piece, you end up with results other than your exact intention. Thanks for the link. I am going to go check out that thread too. Sounds like there are some good reminders there. Take care Sue

04-11-2010, 01:39 PM	#85 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	After I posted about being grateful, things started coming together again. A friend came over and we went and sat out back with some others. We drank crown and seven for a while and I have discovered that my alcohol tolerance is very low nowadays lol. That is fine with me, I think I'll stay away from the whiskey in the future!! The guy I've been seeing texted and called and we set up another date. And I'm going out today for another photography lesson. I am very grateful for all that I have and for the connections I have made both IRL and in computerland. I didn't meditate yesterday but I am going to do it now. And I did reread part of this chapter but will read it again before posting about it. To all of you that read this, thanks for the encouragement!!

04-11-2010, 06:27 PM	#86 (permalink)
lifetimelearner Legendary Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Georgia Posts: 11,359	I feel selfish for not recognizing these posts earlier this year ! looks like you have been having quite a journey and I commend you for your honesty and for allowing us to glimpse into your private thoughts you are a brave and beautiful soul ! and BTW I love your photos !

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04-11-2010, 09:03 PM	#87 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	No reason to feel guilty!! This journey began with a place to post my thoughts on what I am learning and I didn't really expect anyone to be reading it. When others referred to it, it was a bit embarrassing at first and I thought it would make me pull back, but it hasn't. I love that I'm getting support when I hit rough patches and encouragement when I break through to a new level. You are a welcome addition!! I especially love when something I write helps someone else. Talk to you soon.

04-12-2010, 11:53 PM	#88 (permalink)
lifetimelearner Legendary Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Georgia Posts: 11,359	thanks shasah !

04-13-2010, 03:03 AM	#89 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Part IX - "if you wish to change conditions you must change yourself" and "cause and effect" stand out for me. These are so true in my life. I was well on my way to being a sour old woman before I stepped out of my situation and started over. Now I feel young and free. What a difference a year makes. My divorce was official one year ago yesterday and although I had started the journey before then, I see a different person when I look in the mirror nowadays. Others in my life comment on it. Those that didn't know me back then find it hard to believe I was ever as I describe to them. For that I am deeply grateful!! Intentions coming to fruition are so satisfying. It wasn't long ago that I posted (not sure if here or another thread) about meeting people IRL that I could talk to about IM. And what do you know? I recently started seeing a man and decided that I was going to be totally open about my beliefs. On our second date, I mentioned IM and we got into a discussion about IM vs coincidence. We didn't talk about it too much after that, but yesterday he handed me a book and told me he doesn't share that side of him with anyone. It is a book about how coincidence and consciousness can come together to make us a better society. Hard to explain, but a lot of it runs parallel to IM. I'm only in chapter 3 or so but I am excited about visiting with him again and discussing the parallels and polarities. One of many things that I like about him. Fits 2 IM's in one shot! So Angela and Rei have named their men, mine I think will be Musicman. Okay, make that 3 IM's. Since he was so willing to listen about that, I decided that I would be as open and honest as I could with him. So far, so good. I will continue with my perceptions of Part IX in another post. My meditation is strong then weak. I forgot to turn off the music when I started tonight, so I had to stop and turn it off because it was distracting me. Then I started over but had a hard time turning off/tuning out. I still "saw" but the images were not as distinct and seemed more random. The only one that I felt was really successful was at the suggestion of the author of MKS. Planting a favorite flower through growth. The rose bush that I visualized was beautiful and I really could smell the fragrance of the flowers. Time for bed which will be peaceful and restful. Goodnight.

04-14-2010, 02:17 AM	#90 (permalink)
shasah Family Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: USA Posts: 3,750	Back to Part IX. "Positive will destroy negative just as light destroys darkness". I think that may be where the author was trying to get me in the last chapter but it felt more preachy there. "you must" has always been a problem for me. This says it in a way I can understand and appreciate. He talks about health, wealth and love being the 3 things that people need and desire in their lives to attain happiness. He is correct in that most people aren't going to argue about health or love as something they desire. Wealth has a set of limiting beliefs that goes with it. When I first came to this forum that was one of the things that annoyed me. Everyone was talking about becoming wealthy and some of the IM books were written specifically with that in mind. I thought them very superficial and thus had some very limiting beliefs about it. I have avoided the books that were written in that direction. I now see it in a different light. I no longer think of an abundance of money as something for someone else. Why wouldn't I want money? And everyone that is honest would say that yes, they would take more money if it didn't violate their principles. Most see it as a means to an end, to get the other things that they really want or to be able to give to those that they love or want to help. So as long as I can come by money honestly and with my integrity intact, I have no problem with it. Bring it on I'll continue more later, wrote enough for tonight and barely scratched this chapter lol. Night.