Journal MKS

[shasah]

Okay, so finally, Part V. LOL I usually post the points close to the time I start the section.

All of the bullets are interconnected but about half of this part covers the subconscious and its great power, heredity - both physical and environmental - and doing a mental house cleaning every day. Interesting point made about heredity not necessarily meaning just from family but from the universe itself.
I also like the part about desire it, assert your claim and take possession. The author is correct that most people go through life planning the house they're going to build more than their mental processes. Sad to say I wasted a lot of time on this merry-go-round. Glad I finally wised up.

Power comes from within is the next subject covered in the next bullets. Be positive and courageous and you can do anything. The power within cannot be released unless it is given. Not sure I am getting the meaning of this last part correct but to me it correlates with exercising your mind as you would your body. I guess I make that connection the best because I am a gymrat and I know that if I stopped going to the gym, I would not maintain my tone. Therefore, I think he is saying the same about if I don't exercise my mind in a positive way, it will affect what I can do.

No controversies for me here. I agree with what he is saying. Which I guess means that I have finally accepted the universal mind theory

Later....

[shasah]

I almost forgot one part of the formula and that is to be grateful. Yesterday I realized that, made sure it was known I was grateful, and the most amazing things are starting to happen. Can't wait to see what's next

[shasah]

Laughing at myself. Sometimes I wonder if everyone goes through the ups and downs at the rate that I do. Just the other day, I had it all figured out, and then the doubts come creeping insidiously back. I'm still better off than when I started traveling this road. I wouldn't go back even a year and change a thing. However, I would like to see progress with my manifestations that stay on track instead of going back and forth.

Probably my own fault, I posted something about wanting to experience the highs and the lows and it looks like I'm getting what I asked for. So now I am going to post that I want to experience an extended period of highs and meeting my goals and enjoying each day as it comes to me without worrying about what other people think but rather bringing the people in my life on a glorious journey of happiness and plentitude with me.

I feel better already

[rgmwilliams]

You piqued my interest.

First off, I went and ordered the MKS book. Then I read, that there are two versions of it - one long, one short (~100 pgs). I ordered the short version. Don't know if it will make a dif, but I'll go from "there" when I receive the book.

Mostly, I'll keep the points you've made in mind.

Secondly, I've always felt there was a higher power. It's where it is, that's the question. I also know I don't need to be born again - if I do, I suppose I can talk to my Mom about this.

Take care, and no need to wish you good luck. Luck isn't a wish!

Rich

[shasah]

Originally Posted by rgmwilliams

You piqued my interest.

First off, I went and ordered the MKS book. Then I read, that there are two versions of it - one long, one short (~100 pgs). I ordered the short version. Don't know if it will make a dif, but I'll go from "there" when I receive the book.

Mostly, I'll keep the points you've made in mind.

Secondly, I've always felt there was a higher power. It's where it is, that's the question. I also know I don't need to be born again - if I do, I suppose I can talk to my Mom about this.

Take care, and no need to wish you good luck. Luck isn't a wish!

Rich

Hello Rich, That is a great compliment. Thank you! I am reading the 198 page version, I didn't realize there were different ones so I guess I got lucky LOL. Travel the higher road and enjoy!!

[shasah]

Things are coming along nicely at the moment. Meditated yesterday for the second time with eyes closed and it was... kind of like I was asleep but aware? The phone rang after about half an hour and I immediately came out of it and was very aware.

My doubts of the other day are not there today. Went through a rough patch yesterday but got through to the other side and felt good about my reactions and thoughts. Made another stride toward being complete. I did not worry about others reactions, I did what felt right to me and because I did, I have had a very full and satisfying weekend thus far and have plans that I look forward to for the rest of the weekend. If I would have reacted another way, I could easily have had an absolutely miserable weekend. Basically I threw out the rule book about what I should do (what society expects me to do) and instead did what I wanted to do. I am grateful that this is my life and I am looking forward to all that it brings!! Ciao.

[Acting Like Godot]

Hi there:

Just want to congratulate you for sticking to MKS and giving it a good go. Keep it up.

[shasah]

Thanks ALG. I appreciate your comment. I am enjoying the journey even with all the bumps along the way. If it was easy, it wouldn't be nearly as satisfying (or so I've found with other things). I feel like 2 pieces finally starting to come together as a whole. Take care.

[shasah]

Well, I finally read part VI. I probably only absorbed a portion of it though, my thoughts were elsewhere. I will reread in the morning with a fresh mind. I didn't get much sleep this weekend and a lot has been happening.

So I will put in writing that I am grateful for quality time with my kids, quality time with my friends, 10 hours worth of lessons in photography (and more to come), a date with a great guy (and more to come LOL), a full and satisfying weekend (ditto), a job that I love and a few less hours to do it in (negotiated a reduction in my hours this week), time at the gym to keep in shape, my health, a place to live and the means to support myself comfortably, the luxury of finding an art print that I enjoyed and being able to afford to purchase it, friends that I have made here on the forum, getting my sense of humor and my confidence back and all the other fantastic things in my life now and in the future. There are so many other things to be grateful for and I may change my format in the future to add at least one to every post?? I'll think about that. Some of them I may not want to post Good night all, may you manifest all your good intentions now and always.

[marinik]

[shasah]

Well, it seems like I got a little distracted with all that's going on but I'm back to it. I reread Part VI (and will again and again). I will go over the points after reading it a couple more times. Made more sense this time though. The exercise is to look a picture for ten minutes and concentrate, trying to bring the picture back into your mind after that ten minutes. I chose a picture of my grandmother (the one mentioned earlier in this thread) because she was a very spiritual person. She was the granddaughter of an Indian Seer and I feel a connection with her. I was partially successful with this exercise in that I could see each piece (eyes, nose, etc.) but did not see the entire picture as clearly as I would like. I will keep trying.

I think the fact that I just took up photography will help me with the concentration needed to master this chapter. You have to be able to see the world around you and all the minute details when searching for your next picture. That is one of the reasons that I took it up. Photography also is one of the things on my list that I was able to manifest without it costing me much. I have a teacher, use of his expensive camera and lenses and all I have to pay for is the 35mm film for the camera he is letting me borrow. (not the super expensive one, but not cheap either).

I almost made the mistake of getting so many things that I have been ordering that I almost forgot that I have to continue learning and applying if I want to continue on this path. In all the excitement of getting what I wanted, I haven't been practicing and reading as I feel I need to. But I will devote the time because it is most amazing what you can gain both spiritually and physically.

So today I am grateful for finding my consciousness, expressing my emotions, and receiving what the universe has offered me.

[shasah]

How do you set an intention and then forget it? I was able to do so before I started receiving things but now I can't get it off my mind. For instance, I posted the below on another thread:

Excuse me, waiter? I'm ordering one fit, funny and friendly man who can curl my toes with his sex appeal and is independently wealthy. Oh and I'll take faithful and loving to me with that. While you're getting that, he needs to have a healthy dose of compatibility and adventure. Please don't take too long with this order as I have other things going on and would like to get this settled soon.

Then I forgot about it. Within the week, a man fitting most of these with the potential of fitting all of them came into my life. Well, there are a few problems and I am adding unselfish, consciously aware, and concerned for my safety and his own to that list. (also added physically pleasing to my eyes just in case the universe decides to throw another curve ball).

But now that I received the first manifestation, I am having problems getting the improved one off of my mind. Any advice???

[marinik]

Originally Posted by shasah

But now that I received the first manifestation, I am having problems getting the improved one off of my mind. Any advice???

I know you are going to laugh but when I get into something like you have posted I sing a variation of the song "let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...." I sing "let it go, let it go, let it go..." and I do! it takes a bit of time... but it works for me.

[shasah]

Originally Posted by marinik

I know you are going to laugh but when I get into something like you have posted I sing a variation of the song "let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...." I sing "let it go, let it go, let it go..." and I do! it takes a bit of time... but it works for me.

I actually read this earlier today and it is starting to work so I will not laugh but instead say thank you!! Now how do I get rid of the song JK

[shasah]

Part VI read again, will probably post about it tomorrow.

I tried a different way with concentrating on the picture. Yesterday I was looking at each part and trying to memorize each individual feature. Today I tried concentrating on the overall picture. I also used a different picture, this one of a friend who moved away. I thought at first that maybe this was the key because as I was concentrating on the overall picture, it started to look kind of like a negative of a picture. I thought maybe this would imprint it better in my mind when I tried to recall it. But it was the same as yesterday when I tried to close my eyes and bring up the picture. I think that this will work but I need to get my concentration more focused. I noticed a couple of wandering thoughts while doing this and think this may be why it is not happening quite the way I want it to. I will keep trying.

Another odd thing happened today. I have the photography lessons which I am taking and apparently I manifested more help. Today, someone that I've known for 16 years brought up hobbies. So I told him I was taking up photography. Well, wouldn't you know, he is a photographer. He sent me some of his work and it is absolutely awesome!! The one friend who is teaching me is very good at close up and water shots. This other friend is very good at action shots. A Cheetah running, a bobcat in a tree, the blue angels, a motorcycle on a racetrack. So, I think that I will have the best of both worlds.

I no longer think it is odd when these synchronicities appear in my life. It is becoming a part of my everyday life and I am very much enjoying it. I want to finish this book first and then I am pretty sure I will be posting that list of intentions. I'm posting them here and there right now, but as seen from my earlier post, I don't have it fine tuned yet and want to make sure I know exactly what I'm ordering and what the consequences of those orders will be.

Almost forgot, today I am grateful for my family and friends.

[marinik]

Originally Posted by shasah

I actually read this earlier today and it is starting to work so I will not laugh but instead say thank you!! Now how do I get rid of the song JK

Just let the song go

No seriously, the song is very useful in so many situations in which you should let things, feelings, situations... whatever just go! I used to say:"This is not about me.." but then I would get tangled into analysis and an inner discussion about if it was true or not... the song is so easy.

[shasah]

Today I found myself stressing about a situation that happened last week and I'm not really sure why? I will probably start a thread on that but what I did about it was come home after work and sit with a picture for 10 minutes and concentrate on it and only it and it helped. I did not get the "negative" effect this time but I was able to picture it in my mind more clearly. Maybe because I used one of the photos I took??

Then I meditated the way I did back in Part III, inhibiting thought and relaxing. This seems to have done the trick. The feeling of falling and the rolling ceiling were actually a comfort instead of something scary like when I first started. It really calmed me down and centered me.

I am going on a trip this weekend so I won't be writing. Hopefully I will be able to find some private time and space so that I can continue with the meditation. I know I will be bringing the book and my camera. So I wish anyone reading this a fantastic weekend and will post when I get back.

Today I am grateful for receiving enlarged prints of the pictures I took last weekend. I was thinking about doing it but they were provided for me. What a nice surprise!! Think the frames will come to me the same way??

[shasah]

I am back and I am very thankful for the life I now have!!! I now realize why I had become so filled with stress in my past. My parents, I truly love and wish all the best for them, but wow!! They could turn bickering into a sport. They didn't bicker at me, but at each other and at anyone that was even a little different from how they thought they should be. Driving with them is truly an adventure of curses After one evening with them, I was ready to come home. But I didn't leave, I spent another day with them and I will go back more often because I truly love them. They just bring my stress levels very high.

I also didn't get to meditate since I had no time to myself. Now that I'm back home I am looking forward to reaching that level of peacefulness once again. One very good thing that came from this weekend is that I was able to share with my son some of my beliefs and he is interested in learning more. He has read some about IM/LoA and he thinks it might be within his realm of beliefs also. I will share some of my books with him and let him decide for himself.

I also was able to reconnect with my brother and one of my nephews. That was also fantastic!!! I hadn't seen them since 2002 and we now have plans to get together again and we shared an open invitation to each others lives. Next is my sister. We also have not seen each other since 2002 and although we talk on the phone sometimes, it has been strained. I have a great relationship with my kids, but because of circumstances, have not been close to my brother and sister. That changes now.

I am grateful for all of my family and wish them health and happiness. My intention is for us to be closer than ever before and to share our lives and enjoy each others company as often as possible.

[gigij]

Sound like things are going great for you! Just wanted to say congrats and all the best - you deserve it! Keep it up.

[shasah]

Thanks gigij. I appreciate the support.

[shasah]

I just got done meditating and it felt absolutely amazing!!! It took longer to get it to work, to get the thoughts under control. I wasn't sure if I could get there without more sessions. It was even more so than before in that the very air had patterns and the flow was strong and swift. The feeling of falling occurred not once as usual, but five times and each time it felt like I was reaching deeper. I feel rested and rejuvinated. The only other time this weekend when I felt at ease was when I went outside alone and star gazed for a while. I'm ready for another amazing week.

Up or down, I know that life is an awesome gift and I am ready to receive all that it has to offer. That probably sounds strange, but the times when I am not as happy remind me what happiness is supposed to feel like so I embrace the sadness, the anger, the other emotions that aren't as pleasant. They keep me balanced and let me know that I am truly alive. There is no limbo or on hold in my life anymore. I am living it in all it's glory, good, bad and ugly and I accept that I am not perfect but I am ALIVE!! Maybe you would have to have lived my life to understand what I mean but suffice it to say that I feel human again. So when I sound down or mad or whatever, don't feel bad for me, feel happy for me because I have emotions again and I can express them and release them and will get back to joy soon enough

[shasah]

It is kind of ironic that this part is about concentration and my concentration has been all over the place which is exactly what MKS says you don't want. Having said that, I still have found it useful in addressing some of my own stresses and reactions.

So on to the points of this lesson:

The secret of mental power is dependent on the mechanism which is attached, in this case the mechanism being the brain. A person must have enough faith and purpose to bring about their manifestations. I can see this and understand it. I have done it numerous times. Sometimes though, doubts creep in and these must be controlled. I've always been a "control freak" but I have addressed my control to the wrong areas. I was always trying to control the external. Nowadays I am getting better and better at controlling the internal and understanding why I am the way I am. I still have a ways to go but I am further along that road than ever before.

Attention and concentration are required to affect the internal and therefore the external. That is the purpose of the lesson on concentration which I am thus far failing abysmally. That's not really true, my concentration is much better than ever before and attention to detail is becoming a part of my psyche. However, I still have a LOT of work to do.

I think my favorite part of this chapter is "focus this power through attention and concentration on any single purpose for any length of time and nothing becomes impossible". Speaks for itself.

I want to go on to the next chapter but I don't feel that I have accomplished what I am supposed to yet. I was dealing with too much other stuff to give it proper attention and concentration LOL. So, I will continue with this one until I have a better grasp of and ability to focus and concentrate.

I have seen some of the wondrous things that can happen with IM and I get impatient to proceed but I don't see getting the full value if I don't have a complete understanding and ability to do all that is meant. I want the whole thing, not half.

[rgmwilliams]

Originally Posted by shasah

A person must have enough faith and purpose to bring about their manifestations.

Truer words were never spoken! The phrase "Courage of [your] convictions" is hackneyed and, to me, somewhat misleading (although I haven't looked into its origins and the situations it's used in).

BUT, in any case, it's not my convictions I need to work on; I need to apply the courage aspect of it, which also means I need to persevere.

In the meantime, I just received the book your reading (from Amazon), so I'll get on it.

Thank you for the posting.

Rich

[shasah]

Originally Posted by rgmwilliams

Truer words were never spoken! The phrase "Courage of [your] convictions" is hackneyed and, to me, somewhat misleading (although I haven't looked into its origins and the situations it's used in).

BUT, in any case, it's not my convictions I need to work on; I need to apply the courage aspect of it, which also means I need to persevere.

In the meantime, I just received the book your reading (from Amazon), so I'll get on it.

Thank you for the posting.

Rich

Hello again Rich. I am getting a lot out of reading the book and posting about my experiences. Feel free to add your impressions as you go along.

I can persevere in some things but others tend to get the best of me. There have been a lot of starting things that I never finished. I think though that those were things that I was not passionate about. If you can find the passion, the courage and perseverance will naturally follow.

Guess I'm pretty passionate about this LOL. Glad you are joining me on my journey

[shasah]

Today I worked on my concentration again and had much better results. Perhaps because I picked a picture of my daughter who is never far from my mind and I find to be an amazing person. I chose one of her senior pictures and almost immediately the negative effect came up. But then it changed to there being a "halo of light" around her and then it was almost 3D. I was able to concentrate and then recall the pic pretty easily. As a matter of fact, it is still there, easily seen.

I will try the same with my son's picture tomorrow. I'm willing to bet it will come back easily too.

I find that I can also easily recall the pics I took a couple weekends ago. The common thread? Passion. When I tried doing it with my grandmother's picture, well, she has been gone for a long time now and the friend, she moved away and we haven't been in touch as much. I love them both dearly but not as I do my kids. The photos I took a couple weeks ago, a newly found passion that means a lot to me.

After my son, I think I will experiment a bit. Maybe a photo from a magazine or something?? Something not as personal. If I'm able to do it with a pic I'm not as connected to then I think I will have mastered this phase. We'll see.

Until the next post....

[shasah]

I was about to write the expected post about my success at being able to blah, blah, blah. But as I was typing, I realized that a situation that had been bothering me is done. It isn't really a problem at all. It was really just a distraction from other thoughts that are running around in this mind of mine.

Two things: one is that my finances have just improved dramatically. My ex put our house on the market Wednesday and signed a contract to sell today. I always try to downplay money for some reason?? But why wouldn't I be happy that I'm about to get a fair amount of money? That would be dumb. So, I need to look into why I have this automatic reaction that money is not important. Who am I trying to impress with the whole "I'm not a materialistic person"? A little soul searching in order again.

The other one is also something I'm having a hard time understanding. A friend on the forum said goodbye today. He did it in a way that was salute to me and our friendship. I am still in touch with this person through other means so why did it have the effect of saddening me while at the same time making me feel important? Why would I be sad about it when I can contact him at any time?

Having said that, I feel that a return salute is called for. He probably won't see this but this person helped return to me a precious gift. I feel like he was a guardian in my life put there for the express reason of helping me find a piece of myself again. No matter where I go or how long I live, I will always remember him with fondness and gratitude.

Hope I didn't bore the rest of you with this. But part of MKS is knowing your own mind and I still have some areas to explore. Writing about them helps me to put things into perspective. Thanks for hanging in there.

[shasah]

Well, I just found my concentration to say the least!! Went out with my camera and was taking pictures of some ducks and turtles. I was so into the zone that I didn't even notice this little girl behind me watching me. I have no idea how long she was there but I stood up to stretch and I jumped because I had no idea that she was there. Then later, I was taking a pic of a waterfall at the pool where I live and there were 2 guys that I didn't even notice that came up and sat down. It's great that I found this but it's also kind of scary. Guess I'll just have to trust in the universe to keep me safe when I'm "there"!!!

It also gave me a fantastic attitude adjustment!! Ran out of film so I'm back but I will be going out again tomorrow, this time with my tutor. Still need a lot of info and am looking forward to learning (or relearning) more.

Have a great day all!!!!!!

[Tanja]

Congrats for being so persistent with this shasah, it's very inspiring to read

[shasah]

Thanks Tanja I wonder sometimes. But then I post more for me and if someone happens to get something out of it, that's even better. And if someone doesn't like it, they don't have to look TTYL

[shasah]

This is going to be a two-part post, first part being trying to answer the questions that I posed above:

Two things: one is that my finances have just improved dramatically. My ex put our house on the market Wednesday and signed a contract to sell today. I always try to downplay money for some reason?? But why wouldn't I be happy that I'm about to get a fair amount of money? That would be dumb. So, I need to look into why I have this automatic reaction that money is not important. Who am I trying to impress with the whole "I'm not a materialistic person"? A little soul searching in order again.

Seems this one goes back to concerning myself with how others see me. There are things that are more important to me than money but there is nothing wrong with wanting more. Therefore, I am done with this limiting belief. Money is good and can help me accomplish other things that I want in my life. Therefore, bring on the money!!

The other one is also something I'm having a hard time understanding. A friend on the forum said goodbye today. He did it in a way that was salute to me and our friendship. I am still in touch with this person through other means so why did it have the effect of saddening me while at the same time making me feel important? Why would I be sad about it when I can contact him at any time?

This made me feel sad because I do spend a lot of time here and it was always nice getting a message or seeing one of his posts. It was automatic and did not require my going out of my way to contact him. Seems like this is a theme in my life. One which I need to change. Friendship is not a matter of convenience but of truly caring enough to go out of your way to ensure contact is maintained. I have some work to do!! There are a lot of friends that haven't heard from me in a while. I need to make a plan and stick to it because friendship is too precious to let it go so easily!!