the essence of being specific or "wow, it really works"

[bananya]

I'm speechless because it really works, I mean I knew that, but sometimes you get so desperate when you want something and it's not coming, but then only when you switch your thinking it starts working!!! I'm amazed...
I made an exel document that I called "my weekly intentions" and I put there things I'm gonna do this week and things I want the Universe to do for me.. - 85% are happening the way I asked or better.. It's really a lot about your concious, you can even call it "programming".. whatever, but it defenately is worth being used!

Now, my problem (next level up) is having courage to accept it when it comes.

And sometimes we want something JUST because we don't have it.. like me - I've been desperate for months about meeting a guy to date.. (just because I was tired of being single and worried for staying single forever, etc.), and now when I switched my thinking and really started to have it "within" me and being positive - here we come - there is a nice guy asking me out, but... just beacuse I was working on another intention at the same time - getting a job abroad and moving to a different place (really wanted this for quite some time) I'm now confused.
If I want to move, I don't want to start any relationship (coz I don't just "date" - if I'm in a relationship - it's serious for me) and do I really want to move, or I wanted it because I was bored and single here..? and the opportunity to go abroad for several months also appeared after months of craving it and I again hesitated to take it then because it wasn't like PERFECT offer, but it was good anyways.. now it might be gone forever or I might have another chance (will find out in few weeks)...

Now the question: what do I REALLY want? I want both - a relationship and moving... so I keep rushing in between these 2 desires all the time wishing for them to be in one.. ohhh I really have to decide what I want, but it's so hard..

I know I'm the only one to answer this, but maybe someone had similar struggles and can share?

p.s. this LoA thing does freaking work!!!! this is inspiring at least! just make sure you know WHAT you want!