Busting Loose from the Money Game

[ellie]

he he! I just started re-reading this book again today. The first time I didn't resonate with it, because I felt upset that everything was just an illusion, but I don't know something has shifted. I'm getting into the book and had some "ah ha moments".

I realise that I actually am scared of money, I should of clicked to this...due to the fact whenever a client says "send me the bill" I procrastinate for a long time in sending it. I mean I procrastinate sending the bill for months on end. And I realize that's because I actually don't like money and what I think it stands for. I think this also comes down to issues about how my father handled money, and how my dads family are rolling in it, and think "money" is what makes you.

I've been surrounded by rich people all my life, and yet have never been "rich" myself which I think is rather interesting. I need to ponder what this all means a bit more.

[Diandra25]

Ellie

that is very interesting indeed.

probably it s cause you actually dont like money.so it doenst come to you.is it?

[Criseyde]

I'm reading it!

And the day after I started, my grandmother sent me $100 for my birthday (which is coming up) and another $150 just because, for no reason. She wrote that in the card...



I have to call her and say thank you.

[impaul99]

I'm moving past the "Life is an Illusion" phase now to the next phase.

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[Criseyde]

Is anyone else just starting out with this? If so, we should be moral support buddies. I'm having nightmares, everyone around me is directly reflecting my emotions (much more so than ever before), which are not pleasant at the moment, and I feel like I'm kind of on the edge of losing it.

I'm actually going through the thread now and I see that this is fairly normal... sigh...

[Wax Frog]

Right after I made a commitment to follow the plan in the book, WHAM, I got my first antibiotic-worthy infection in a DECADE! I guess I chewed off a bit too much all at once, but I'm getting better and will get right back into Processing!

[Nomen]

<Is anyone else just starting out with this?>


I'm just starting, I read this thread on July 29th from beginning to end...two days later I had the book and devoured it in a day . So I've been doing the process since then.


<If so, we should be moral support buddies.>


I could use a little moral support sometimes

[Criseyde]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Right after I made a commitment to follow the plan in the book, WHAM, I got my first antibiotic-worthy infection in a DECADE! I guess I chewed off a bit too much all at once, but I'm getting better and will get right back into Processing!

Yikes. I'm glad you're feeling better.

Originally Posted by Nomen

I'm just starting, I read this thread on July 29th from beginning to end...two days later I had the book and devoured it in a day . So I've been doing the process since then.

I could use a little moral support sometimes

Awesome. How are you doing today?

[Nomen]

Awesome. How are you doing today?[/QUOTE]



I'm doing good I think. When I first started I did have vivid intense dreams, I'm not dreaming anymore but I think I have traded the dreams for seeing strange things on a pretty regular basis. I have also been noticing patterns, I know they've always been there but not until after reading the book have they become glaringly obvious.

The very best thing about this whole process has been, so far, this incredible since of relief and calm. I wake up every morning with the certainty that everything's going be alright, that's freeing, I've never felt that before.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Nomen

The very best thing about this whole process has been, so far, this incredible since of relief and calm. I wake up every morning with the certainty that everything's going be alright, that's freeing, I've never felt that before.

I've had brief tastes of that, but the old worry habits are well-established.

[Nomen]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

I've had brief tastes of that, but the old worry habits are well-established.

And I was truly amazed because I always thought that unless my life was perfectly the way I wanted it and free of problems would be the only thing that could create that state of being. Now I am interested to see what happens, will (what I perceive as) problems go away or correct themselves or maybe they will cease to be problems at all anymore. Because they were the reason why my life's been so rough. I mean I wasn't miserable for no reason. So now that the terrible feelings and anxiety don't exist anymore that I associated with those "problems", I'm excited to see what the outcome will be.

This is new territory for me, so I'm just a spectator waiting on the edge of my seat. I'm ready for whatever's next

[MotivatedSista]

Did you guys see Inception? I loved every minute of how they created the illusions and got other people to believe they were real. And the ending was just wonderful. I was so happy when I saw it, I just felt I'd done an amazing job of making the movie for myself to appreciate.

I need to read this book again, to remember the things I had forgotten more than once.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Nomen

This is new territory for me, so I'm just a spectator waiting on the edge of my seat. I'm ready for whatever's next

Was it just diligent application of the tools that brought this about, or was there some other identifiable shift?

[Nomen]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Was it just diligent application of the tools that brought this about, or was there some other identifiable shift?

I have been really using the tools and really staying on top of using them every time and my sense of well being just happened naturally on it's own.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Nomen

I have been really using the tools and really staying on top of using them every time and my sense of well being just happened naturally on it's own.

Good to hear! Maybe I'm missing a golden opportunity here, but I really would like to get rid of this bug completely before getting back to Processing smaller 'dragons'

[Nomen]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Good to hear! Maybe I'm missing a golden opportunity here, but I really would like to get rid of this bug completely before getting back to Processing smaller 'dragons'

Oh yeah, now that I don't have to struggle against fear and anxiety the process is much easier and I feel like I'm making gains faster. Good luck to gaining your sense of well being! Hopefully it comes quickly

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Nomen

Oh yeah, now that I don't have to struggle against fear and anxiety the process is much easier and I feel like I'm making gains faster. Good luck to gaining your sense of well being! Hopefully it comes quickly

Thanks! I'm guessing my sudden stubborn illness (along with other crazy stuff that happened the past 6 weeks) was a manifestation, if you will, of a bunch of suppressed stuff coming up all at once.

[Nomen]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Thanks! I'm guessing my sudden stubborn illness (along with other crazy stuff that happened the past 6 weeks) was a manifestation, if you will, of a bunch of suppressed stuff coming up all at once.

Yep, I know I'm heading in the right direction too when the crazy and unusual stuff jumps up. Take it as a good sign!

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Nomen

Yep, I know I'm heading in the right direction too when the crazy and unusual stuff jumps up. Take it as a good sign!

To paraphrase Mother Teresa: I know my Expanded Self will not give me anything I can't handle; I just wish that he didn't trust me so much.

[AlmostGodess]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

To paraphrase Mother Teresa: I know my Expanded Self will not give me anything I can't handle; I just wish that he didn't trust me so much.

Smart, cute, funny Waxy!

[AlmostGodess]

The book was delivered personally to me at 7 am today. Apparently the book did not fit into my postbox, so the postman had to wake me up and deliver it personally.

I guess I will spend my day reading today

Originally Posted by Criseyde

Is anyone else just starting out with this? If so, we should be moral support buddies. I'm having nightmares, everyone around me is directly reflecting my emotions (much more so than ever before), which are not pleasant at the moment, and I feel like I'm kind of on the edge of losing it.

I'm actually going through the thread now and I see that this is fairly normal... sigh...

[Arboretor]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

I know my Expanded Self will not give me anything I can't handle; I just wish that he didn't trust me so much.

Take it rather as reassurance that you can be trusted.

[On A Lark]

I'm starting to realize how valuable this book was for me, my first introduction to Subjective Reality and it has completely changed my view on everything.

I did the Process diligently for about 4 months and things went to hell in a handbasket...just like RS described. Now I'm realizing that I don't choose to buy into his idea that things have to be dramatic, bad or hard. I think he had a lot of guilt wrapped up in the knowledge that he had a pretty dramatic head start in life given his family's financial situation. I think RS felt like he had to somehow karmically "make up" for that.

I don't! I'm really feeling the Abraham material (lots of specific to-do type things there that to me feel more genuine and more powerful that the BL process) and Mike Dooley (Notes from the Universe and Infinite Possibilities). I just figure that since I'm committed to the idea that I create everything, then it's easy to commit to the idea that everything will be easy. I don't need the added drama of making it difficult.

[SunnyDays]

Originally Posted by On A Lark

I just figure that since I'm committed to the idea that I create everything, then it's easy to commit to the idea that everything will be easy. I don't need the added drama of making it difficult.

Thats how I feel and so far it works

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by AlmostGodess

Smart, cute, funny Waxy!

Successful, happy, IM-proficient AlmostGoddess

Originally Posted by Arboretor

Take it rather as reassurance that you can be trusted.

I just wonder what else I have in store for myself besides the Bacterium That Wouldn't Die (during the amoxicillin phase, that is)

Originally Posted by On A Lark

II did the Process diligently for about 4 months and things went to hell in a handbasket...just like RS described. Now I'm realizing that I don't choose to buy into his idea that things have to be dramatic, bad or hard. I think he had a lot of guilt wrapped up in the knowledge that he had a pretty dramatic head start in life given his family's financial situation. I think RS felt like he had to somehow karmically "make up" for that.

Prior to "Busting Loose" I'd read a similar book called "The Presence Process". One of the notable differences is that the latter claims to allow you to accomplish the same sort of release, but very gently. Sounds like everyone inevitably injects their own illusions, so that even RS's work isn't immune to the skewing he warns of.

[lsm285]

Wow, first of all I wanted to say this is my first post, but really that I stumbled on this book (and this thread) a few days ago. But had been reading Steve's SR stuff, then becomingnow.com stuff, the bust loose website stuff, then this.

Sidenote, someone mentioned around page 8-11 a dream of "reclaiming their power from poitics" and didn't know what it meant. Couldn't the whole illusion of reality be poitics, i.e. this is how life should be lived. Reclaim your power from those "politics" man. Hugely profound.

Trying to keep this brief but I've had some cool things happen since finding all this about 2 weeks ago and just getting into the book, let's see if I can remember them all.

1. Life is fun again, the reality is like a dream analogy really helped me find an exciting perspective on everything again, for instance in my job that was boring me to death, same thing over and over again, now seems lighthearted and not so stressful.

2. A manager that for some reason did not like me, and would NEVER go out of his way to talk to me, I wasn't even sure if he knew my name. I started seeing him as "me" and all of a sudden we have been having really awesome conversations lately - out of the blue. Unexplainable. This never happened before, I truly had the feeling he did not like me at all.

3. Almost got scammed on concert tickets off craigslist, or maybe mislead is more appropriate. Did some last minute background checking and found out they weren't as advertised. Ended up finding a girl on craigslist who last minute couldn't make it and needed to get rid of her tickets desperately for whatever she could get. I said $25 which was slightly below face. She seemed estatic to get rid of at that price. Show up at the concert expecting very back of GA lawn seats. End up getting escorted to a VIP area that included a private bartender and super great, close view. That was unreal!

4. A girl I was seeing, was really a ball buster, teasing type person. To the point I was almost fed up. Like, c'mon, can we just have a good semi-meaningful conversation already? All of sudden started being the most encouraging, supportive person I have in my life at the moment, cheering me on saying how she admires so much about me.

5. Oh and how I got this book. I reserved a copy at the local bookstore. But the bummer was they only had the "money game" version and not the newere "business game" version. I said whatever, I need to read this and reserved it online for at my local store. Showed up and checked to see if the shelves had the newer version, they had neither. So I figured it was rerserved. The lady infomed me there was no reservation made (wtf?) so talk to another worker who will see if they have it. Ok, I guess, he goes looking for a long time and lo and behold comes back with the newer "business game" version. I couldn't believe it, I almost didn't go talk to the other guy cause I had already looked. hahaha

6. Not last, but the last one before I bore people. People have been looking, or rather staring at me in a weird, but not uncomfortable way. Almost like it's in a fascination sort of way, not quite like they know me, not quite like I'm someone who totally stands out, but just sort of in a deja vu reaction kind of way. Not sure how to describe it, but it's never happened like this before or at this frequency. Oh and pretty girls have been extremely nice to me too

And more too, but this is getting long. And I need to get to reading.

I don't know what will happen, but for those having trouble with limiting beliefs or things that stir your emotions in a not so great way, I suggest reading the articles on becomingnow.com. It really explains in a simple way how to acknowledge your power and then reclaim it in these instances. Whats on that site is basically what I have been doing since I haven't gotten far into the BL book.

And of course all of what I wrote is still just part of the game I seem to be here for Can't wait to see what else is in store.

Thanks for the awesome thread!

[lsm285]

And for Twinma, and all others who are having trouble with this. I can understand, I used to be a very anxiety ridden individual. My particular troubles came in the social arena.

For anyone that can relate, I can't recommend highly enough the articles on becomingnow.com. I don't know the guy in anyway and just found his site. It's also all free, I have yet to buy the book but probably will soon, and also the tennis book!!

but his stuff is not just simply releasing or deflating the issues we all have, but rather consciously acknowledging that "wow, I created this, how powerful is that, I f'in created this huge issue" The fact that you created this circumstance of great anxiety proves the powerful creating abilities you have. Think, if you can create that, now that you are aware, what awesome stuff can you now create for yourself when you claim that power (just that you happened to be using in a not so great way)

That's huge, that is acknowledging and claiming your power in a damn big way, that flips your entire world around - and it's awesome!

edit**

I have long since overcome my social anxiety game, I now have the opposite problem - to many people asking me to commit to too many social events

Sometimes wish I could go back to having lots of solitude lol =)

Something good coming

[Dreamcatcher21]

Originally Posted by lsm285

6. Not last, but the last one before I bore people.

No, these kinds of stories are always wonderfully encouraging to read. Feel free to share more of your positive experiences.

[Gaia333]

I haven't been to this forum in a while but find it such a nice way to round out my understanding of "busting loose". I'm reading From the Business game for the 2nd time and started to notice what sounds like Phase 1 beliefs still from RS. But that's ok as I know even he and this book are my creations.

I've been Phase 2 for almost three years. The first year all sorts of marvelous things happened. This past year was kinda "crappy". I was doing the Process and still feeling "eh". But a lot shifted for me once I created the 2nd book (huge different IMO from "Money Game") and I created you. I'm especially appreciative of creating Nic. When I started reading her posts I was so angry, pissy, name calling - until my wonderful ES said "but she's you".

Yea - Nic speaks a lot like me and has shared some similiar experiences as I. And her/your discoveries with BL have supported me in ways I was not able to create from the book or on my own.

Weird things have been happening all my life so that's not new. My ES has to be even more creative to show me something that makes me go "now THATs crazy!". My favorite one to date: I love the show Family Guy. In a recent episode, there is a character drawn like Ziggy or "Kilroy Was Here". And he changes into a white bath robe. I was so amused by this image.

Few days later, Im waiting for the train and a bald plump man with facial features like Ziggy wearing a white Terry cloth tube top dress (it looked like a
towel) and flip flops comes up to me and asks for directions. At first I think nothing of it as I see cross dressers all the time. But then I realized he was the exact manifestation of the cartoon. I was tickled!

That's all. I just wanted to say "hi".

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Gaia333

Weird things have been happening all my life so that's not new. My ES has to be even more creative to show me something that makes me go "now THATs crazy!". My favorite one to date: I love the show Family Guy. In a recent episode, there is a character drawn like Ziggy or "Kilroy Was Here". And he changes into a white bath robe. I was so amused by this image.

Few days later, Im waiting for the train and a bald plump man with facial features like Ziggy wearing a white Terry cloth tube top dress (it looked like a
towel) and flip flops comes up to me and asks for directions. At first I think nothing of it as I see cross dressers all the time. But then I realized he was the exact manifestation of the cartoon. I was tickled!

Reminds me of the time I was talking with my cousin on the phone, and made an idle joking reference to two McDonaldland characters, only to later watch a first-run episode of FG - something I almost never do - featuring those exact two characters Thank you for reminding me of this, as I'd completely forgotten about it.

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I'd like to think that RS would be the first to say that it would be impossible to avoid skewing even in his own attempts to convey information.