Manifest: What is my life purpose?

[Illkarma]

Hail all,

I typed what is my life purpose into google after laying face down on my keyboard for about 3 months. I came to the How to Discover Your Life Purpose in About 20 Minutes page. Decided to give it a go. I do believe in a life purpose. Unfortunately the only thing that made me want to cry is that nothing made me want to cry. i wrote and wrote until i couldnt think of anything else. i will try again.

Ive done a lot of things. ive worked so many jobs been in the military deployed three times. been to culinary school worked more random jobs. had lots of money and had no money. had addictions to alcohol pot and video games. lived straight edge and everything in between. im 27. the typical life story.

I recognize the difference between my ego and myself. My last job was a strip club manager i was making about $8,000 a month. i could only pull it off for about 3 months. I was like seriously there has to be something more important. it ate me up inside how little intellect it took to do the job and how little creativity and honesty there was involved. i came to loath the men who would come in and get drunk and be like "oh man you have the greatest job ever" I would put my fake smile on and be like yeah it sure is swell. In this economy how could anyone give up that easy cash. how could i stay there and watch this spectacle i felt bad for everyone the customers and the dancers. when i saw the men around the stages with there beer bottles going "ohhhhh loook at her" i would mentally see a movie of like men in the medieval times eating off a bone and grunting spilling beer on each other and taking advantage of women. it made me sick.

Ive dreamed about giving up all my possessions (which arent much anymore because ive already downsized once) and going for a walk to i dont know where. it seems exciting for a bit and then fades as with every single idea i have. i could do this i could do that woo hooo then about a week later im like eh thats lame. I can only afford about one more month of bills and im completely out of money and i dont care enough to do anything about it. Im down but im still optimistic. i know i have a path and even now im on it some how.

I originally quit my job because i was like ok this is it. Im going to meditate every day. Im going to discover myself. Im going to read these books on the ego, lightworking, reiki, chakras, and divine guidance etc., "im really going to figure out what it is i want to do for real this time" i kept saying. first i got addicted to world of warcraft again for about a month playing 12-18 hours a day every day. until my internal "WTF ARE YOU DOING" went off and i began to get extremely angry and smash things. so i gave that up. i havent drank or smoked in ages and nothing could make me go back to that no matter how bad i percieve anything. but with no addictions i still just sat and did nothing.

i know its all about perception and all i have to do is change my mind. but i continue to just sit and not go deep with in. i dont interact with anyone. im sick of the routine all my friends are in. WORK - BAR - TV. it seems like thats all anyone does. i cant stand it. I WANT PROFOUND MEANING AND EPIC ADVENTURE. yet i sit and sit and sit and sit. ive come to understand what distracts the mind. so i actually sit with the tv and computer off. and do absolutely nothing. although im not really stuck and i know all i have to do is decide on "something", for the love of god anything . . . i dont i just sit. maybe its part of the plan for me to allow my current life situation to dissolve so something new can blossom.

this is why its confusing to me why i should even write this post. if everything is all part of the plan what is there to worry about, ponder about, think about ever. everything is going to happen the way its supposed to. i guess.

i could have written so much more but really its just making the illusion into a solid problem that takes on a life of its own.

all in all i have had a great life. i am grateful but im not in motion and that hurts.

love you all
I like to speed type so i dont concern my self with proper grammar sorry.

[jeff3]

The key is don't give up. There are many "methods" for life purpose discovery, just plug it in google and see for yourself. Maybe the crying thing just wasn't the right one for you. Maybe your path to finding your life purpose will actually be your purpose and in turn you could help others who are stuck.

Once again, persistence is the key, just resolve to stay at it even if it takes months, try other things and take a little time to have fun.

[bananya]

wow..illkarma...

yeah, determing your life purpose is a hard thing, even painful I'd say, at least it was for me... I have always wondered if all these people around who do the same thing everyday ("work-bar-tv") they look pretty happy, but are they? they seem to not struggle with all this life purpose stuff, they just live.. but I have also discovered that I'll never be like them, I know there is so much more out there, adventures, new experiences, growing, etc.. it takes courage, yes..
I started reading articles and books and forums on Personal Development about 6 months ago and I think only now I'm getting clear about how it works.. I had no idea what I wanted and therefore how to get it, but I had this big and burning desire inside of doing smth and going somewhere, I felt really stuck at where I was and I still am, but now I know that I'm going somewhere..
Why don't you make a list of 10 things you really enjoy doing, this should give you a direction of where to go..

and try to not feel like a victim, it's all in your hands, it's for you to decide what makes you happy and bring it into your life... I was waiting for it to come from "somewhere" and be like "this is your life purpose, now do this and this".. ha, didnt work, I'm still going though a painful process of figuring it out..

so meditate, go to the forest and cry out loud there, stare at the ceiling, make lists of things that make you feel good - do whatever you have to do to discover your "life purpose", but just don't be willing to accept an orninary life

[Wax Frog]

Though my life story is way different, I too find myself in a place where I see my old life dissolving, and wonder if I'll just fade away (in a manner of speaking), or a new life will materialize to take its place.

[Manuel]

Hello there,

Very interesting post this! When I read it I get the impression that you are trying to find your purpose by thinking about it in an abstract way. But it seems to me that a person's sense of purpose will come naturally out of doing what they love and what has meaning for them.

Is there nothing you are passionate about? I would suggest to forget about purpose for a while. Is there something you love to do so much you would do it for free? If you can't think of anything, maybe you should try out more things.

I have always been passionate about music since I started playing guitar at 10 years old. But the only reason I know music is my passion is because my mom paid for guitar lessons at that age! If I had never started music lessons I might have felt an interest for it, but I never might have known how much I love it and how much it means to me. So I think the only way to find out what gives real meaning to your life is to try lots of different things. You mention you have already had lots of jobs, but did you pursue those out of the need for money or because you were really interested in them?

My suggestion would be to stop thinking about it so much, and instead simply try out lots of things that you are interested in. Forget about what's possible or not and simply follow your intuition/heart about what kind of work would be meaningful to YOU, and then go and find out if it really is. My personal experience is that I do much better thinking by combining it with action than just sitting around at home thinking about things. Because when you go out and try stuff you get experiences which greatly help to achieve new insights that simply won't come from thinking throughs things at home in an abstract manner.

Hope this helps somewhat, and I wish you best of luck with finding meaningful work!

Manuel

[jacare]

Once I had a daughter, I never had to wonder what my life purpose was again. It's all about her now. Now, I'm certainly not recommending having children, especially if you are not capable of caring for them. I guess my point is that giving to others, doing things for others, that is a good place to start. There are plenty of people out there that can use a helping hand. If you start giving to others, you might discover your own purpose.

[Illkarma]

thank you all for your help. Im going to apply one thing to my life. enthusiasm. im actually very excited right now. i dont have much time to type but i feel i have broken the mind battle cycle. im ready to be in motion again. it feels great. ill write more later.
thanks again

[gloci]

I was like that a few weeks ago too and couldn't find my purpose either.. And then a while ago I put out the intention to find my purpose. Then I got the books "Life on purpose" "Is your genius at work?" and "Strengthsfinder 2.0" (You can find them in recommended products---personal development books at the side on Steves page). I'm working on finding my genius now and after that I'm going to find my purpose. I don't have either of them yet but I'm closer than ever and I know I will find them. I would reccomend doing this if you really can't decide what to do

[Rockchick26]

I'm struggling with this as well, and a lot of the things you said mirror my own life, especially the "just sitting" part. I have many ideas but I don't know why I continue to sit on my computer and find more and more ideas yet never put any of them into action. It could be fear of failing, fear of wasting even more time on another less than perfect job, could just be laziness. An object at rest wants to stay at rest, and an object in motion wants to stay in motion. Once you lose momentum, it gets harder to get going. Everything in this universe is constantly changing and growing, to stop growing means to die. So just get out there and do things, go for a walk, go to a free museum, go to a library and see what section you gravitate toward. What would you do if you knew you only had a year to live? What would you make sure to accomplish before anything else? If you can't narrow it down, write down all the jobs you'd like to do (or try) and find out the traits they have in common. I just did that exercise last night and it was pretty helpful. I also realized my problem is lack of money. Once you get to a certain level of being broke, it's hard to take any steps forward. Hopefully you can find your answer before you get so broke you don't have any options left. If you want to PM me and have a "purpose buddy" I'm here! Good luck!

[StarieEyed]

Oh my gosh Rockachick, I could have just written your whole post! And I don't remember exactly what, but for as long as a year or two I have resonated with your posts. Wow.

[themaster]

Originally Posted by Illkarma

I WANT PROFOUND MEANING AND EPIC ADVENTURE. yet i sit and sit and sit and sit. ive come to understand what distracts the mind.

It's coming.. for me it may be there within a year (no promises.. but it's possible )

Don't judge yourself as useless even when sitting.. don't ever think "your wasting your time" cause you're not.. start to look at the experience of limitation as the last time you'll get to experience it.. cause it's just about over.. you will shift at some point.. it will happen so the idea "enjoy" it for what it is..

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Though my life story is way different, I too find myself in a place where I see my old life dissolving, and wonder if I'll just fade away (in a manner of speaking), or a new life will materialize to take its place.

That is exactly what is happening.. the past is being stripped piece by piece layer by layer.. energy all over the planet is being put to work to bring us up.. that was what we all chose.. whether you consciously know that or not is a different matter

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I also realized my problem is lack of money.

You know it's my understanding as the future progress's.. we won't need money.. so it's not a problem if you look at it that way.. my problem if I was going to put a label on it.. is spending the huge amount of money I have

I have one more thing to say..

Manifest: What is my life purpose?

Understand that we do have a theme/soul blueprint when we incarnate.. but we also have "free choice" and most of us if not all of us have gone right past those choices time and time again.. just understand that your life's purpose is your choice.. some of us came to be healers, some of is came to be teachers etc. if you really want to know what's in your blueprint then you can find out.. choose what you want.. it's your life.. It's more than possible I came to be a healer or teacher (most are healers according to the Michael information) but that doesn't mean this incarnation is headed in that full on direction

[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by StarieEyed

Oh my gosh Rockachick, I could have just written your whole post! And I don't remember exactly what, but for as long as a year or two I have resonated with your posts. Wow.

That's cool! It's always nice to feel like you connect with someone. You can feel free to PM me as well, one can never have too many like-minded friends in this world!

[Rockchick26]

themaster...I truly hope and pray that you are right and someday we won't need money. I think it's an awful thing. Even when I have it, I don't like it because I know the only reason why it makes me "happy" is because I don't have to worry about going hungry or having a place to live.

Just thought I'd share this paragraph from this Mayan Universal Laws of Nature thing that I have:

"In order to get what every other biological species recieves freely from nature, human beings had to learn how to sell their bodies in time for an artificial unit called money, and to exchange that artificial unit called money to get what the birds get for free."

[PerDev]

I think to Decide your life purpose you need to first aware of your current surrounding more accurately specially all social conditioning that has done to you.

Once you know in Map where you stand then it will be easier for you to know your life purpose.

frankly speaking its not all about whats your life purpose but about having decipline to work on the purpose you have created for yourself based on your context.

so I would suggest you first think about from which context you are operating right now.

some of the common ineefective context are

1. Security
2. Money
3. Position
4. Relationship
5. Individuals / Boss/Wife/ Husband/ Relatives

You can choose to have more empowering context like

1. Service
2. COntribution
3. Unconditional Love etc.

Originally Posted by Illkarma

Hail all,

I typed what is my life purpose into google after laying face down on my keyboard for about 3 months. I came to the How to Discover Your Life Purpose in About 20 Minutes page. Decided to give it a go. I do believe in a life purpose. Unfortunately the only thing that made me want to cry is that nothing made me want to cry. i wrote and wrote until i couldnt think of anything else. i will try again.

Ive done a lot of things. ive worked so many jobs been in the military deployed three times. been to culinary school worked more random jobs. had lots of money and had no money. had addictions to alcohol pot and video games. lived straight edge and everything in between. im 27. the typical life story.

I recognize the difference between my ego and myself. My last job was a strip club manager i was making about $8,000 a month. i could only pull it off for about 3 months. I was like seriously there has to be something more important. it ate me up inside how little intellect it took to do the job and how little creativity and honesty there was involved. i came to loath the men who would come in and get drunk and be like "oh man you have the greatest job ever" I would put my fake smile on and be like yeah it sure is swell. In this economy how could anyone give up that easy cash. how could i stay there and watch this spectacle i felt bad for everyone the customers and the dancers. when i saw the men around the stages with there beer bottles going "ohhhhh loook at her" i would mentally see a movie of like men in the medieval times eating off a bone and grunting spilling beer on each other and taking advantage of women. it made me sick.

Ive dreamed about giving up all my possessions (which arent much anymore because ive already downsized once) and going for a walk to i dont know where. it seems exciting for a bit and then fades as with every single idea i have. i could do this i could do that woo hooo then about a week later im like eh thats lame. I can only afford about one more month of bills and im completely out of money and i dont care enough to do anything about it. Im down but im still optimistic. i know i have a path and even now im on it some how.

I originally quit my job because i was like ok this is it. Im going to meditate every day. Im going to discover myself. Im going to read these books on the ego, lightworking, reiki, chakras, and divine guidance etc., "im really going to figure out what it is i want to do for real this time" i kept saying. first i got addicted to world of warcraft again for about a month playing 12-18 hours a day every day. until my internal "WTF ARE YOU DOING" went off and i began to get extremely angry and smash things. so i gave that up. i havent drank or smoked in ages and nothing could make me go back to that no matter how bad i percieve anything. but with no addictions i still just sat and did nothing.

i know its all about perception and all i have to do is change my mind. but i continue to just sit and not go deep with in. i dont interact with anyone. im sick of the routine all my friends are in. WORK - BAR - TV. it seems like thats all anyone does. i cant stand it. I WANT PROFOUND MEANING AND EPIC ADVENTURE. yet i sit and sit and sit and sit. ive come to understand what distracts the mind. so i actually sit with the tv and computer off. and do absolutely nothing. although im not really stuck and i know all i have to do is decide on "something", for the love of god anything . . . i dont i just sit. maybe its part of the plan for me to allow my current life situation to dissolve so something new can blossom.

this is why its confusing to me why i should even write this post. if everything is all part of the plan what is there to worry about, ponder about, think about ever. everything is going to happen the way its supposed to. i guess.

i could have written so much more but really its just making the illusion into a solid problem that takes on a life of its own.

all in all i have had a great life. i am grateful but im not in motion and that hurts.

love you all
I like to speed type so i dont concern my self with proper grammar sorry.