Stuck Vibration

[Wolfspirit]

Hello everyone. Not sure if this is the right forum for this post, but I have been working a lot with IM so I would like feedback related to that. It's been helping me with other issues in my life so I'm hoping it can help with this...

My father passed away a month ago. I am 26 and this has hit me really hard as I was really close to my father. This is also my first real experience with the death of someone close. I took some time off from work to be with my father during his final days in Hospice and also help my mother out.

I healed as much I could before I had to go back to work, but I have not been able to work a full week since going back because after this whole experience, everything has changed. While I was out of work, it really gave me the perspective of not working there...and it felt so FREE. I was able to do what really mattered to me. It's in a way been the push I've needed to move into fully doing what I love - running my own business, which I started before my father passed. It unfortunately took a back burner while trying to balance my 40-per-week draining day job (see below) and taking care of my father and mother.

I am one of those people trying to move on from their job for 4 YEARS now! I have had to work through a lot of blocks to get to where I am now, hence the long time span. I was blessed to discover my passion and turn it into a business. I have loved every moment of it. But as a posted in another post, I am giving off two very different vibrations - a very positive one when I am working with my business, and a very negative one when I am at my day job.

Since being back at work, it is starting to get harder to feel that feeling of freedom. And that is leading to a stuck vibration. And what makes me feel even more stuck is I don't have a big enough reserve of cash that I can just quit, so I feel like the only thing I can do is maybe find a part time job. But I know even thinking that is very limiting as there are unlimited possibilities. So, how do I let go? I feel like after this whole experience, it is imperative that I follow my own path and make a difference in the world that makes a difference to me, which is how I've felt with my business.

So that's a little bit where I'm coming from. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks!

[TonyToneTone]

Originally Posted by Wolfspirit

I am one of those people trying to move on from their job for 4 YEARS now! I have had to work through a lot of blocks to get to where I am now, hence the long time span. I was blessed to discover my passion and turn it into a business. I have loved every moment of it. But as a posted in another post, I am giving off two very different vibrations - a very positive one when I am working with my business, and a very negative one when I am at my day job.

"Do or do not. There is no try." - Yoda

3 options I see: 1) Leave your job and focus entirely on your business 2) Stay in your job, be grateful for it and forget about your business or 3) Find a medium where you can work on your business and still keep your job until your business is making enough to support you.

When I started my first business I was sleeping on the floor of my studio apt and turned it into a big success. I don't think you have to do anything that drastic but if I could make it from there I am sure you can as well.

PS - You have my sympathy in regard to your father's passing and I congratulate you on asking yourself the big questions and deciding to make a change.

[thedre4mer]

Hi Wolfspirit,

I was in a similar situation, feeling I was really making headway in one direction outside work but hating my job. Someone was also being very difficult towards me, I would even say bullying, and despite all my efforts I just felt at a loss in terms of what to do. I had to take some time off work due to it. Things felt very bad indeed yet I was still doing positive things as much as I could in-between all this and holding on to that belief inside me that things were going to change.

What I just wanted to say was keep going. Things have shifted very dramatically for me during the last month and a half and then even more dramatically during the last few weeks. I have effortlessly been able to leave that job, the person who was making my life difficult has been uncovered for the way they treat people and is being investigated, but more importantly I just don't have to worry about that job any more and have wonderful things to look forward to. I was offered a wonderful new job and have now been given an even better opportunity, with the door also open to the original job in the future.

I know it seems like you've been waiting for a long time (I had also had a lot of difficult things personal and professional happening during the last few years) but keep doing as much as you can to stay positive and focus on what you want. Even if sometimes you don't feel your energy is that high, be kind to yourself and just do whatever you can to make yourself feel positive. It will definitely be working.

I also agree with what ToneToneTone said about being grateful for your job for as long as you're there. Believe me, I know how difficult this is! Someone recommended it to me and I felt like saying: "You wouldn't be grateful if you knew what I had to put up with!" But I gave it a try and it worked. I wrote a list starting with: "I am at my best at work when I...." for example "...when I make an effort to chat with my colleagues" or "when I make lists for the work I need to do and work through it". I also write lists of things to be grateful for in my personal life and this really helps to shift the energy. I find the most effective time to do it is when I REALLY don't want to!

All the best

[moonrambler]

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