Difference between knowing about IM and not knowing

[seirwyn]

I have FINALLY got into a really great state for one of my big manifestations. It took a year to work through everything though! Now I am working on another one for which I have a lot less resistance to. I want to manifest a lot of money. Some years ago before I knew about IM I used to dream about being successful and making lots of money but eveything I tried failed. I did used to feel good about what was coming to me but I must have been doing something very wrong because it never worked!
Now I think about my intention and I feel really good -despite all the 'real life' and 'down to earth' stats about it being hard, an uphill struggle, no one ever makes it etc etc. The feeling is very familiar however-it is how I used to feel before, in the times I ultimately failed. But now I know there must have been a reason why I failed but Im wondering what it is. Not because Im worried Ill make the same mistake, but I want to fully enjoy the expectation without the nagging feeling of 'last time you felt this good it got you nowwhere.'
I wonder if it was because I was coming from a place of need. I wasnt happy with my life and wanted to escape from it. I did have worries and stress about whether it would happen. I had a lot of determination and I put in a lot of effort but I always seemed to fail. And the more I failed the more I would get stressed about my life but also the more tempted I was to escape into the fantasy of making lots of money and feeling good about it. But underlying those fantasies and hope and excitement was misery.
I never asked for success, I thought I had to struggle for it.
Now I am coming from a great place-I am very happy with my life and I want a way to make more money without having to quit my job because I LIKE my job!!! (Do you think its possible to keep my job and make money?)

I asked a question earlier about the difference between faith and delusion. I sometimes feel like I am deluding myself because last time this was what I did.Maybe delusion is the unwillingness to face the truth. If someones life sucks, they hate it. they HATE it! They vibrate that hate. They want to get out and so they dream about something else-winning the X factor or something. Even though their singing voice sucks, they refuse to admit it because they want to escape their miserable reality so badly. They create the fantasy on a foundation of fear, not hope. Their fear drives them to fantasise and hope. It seems like their real motivation for fame is to feel valued and to escape their otgherwise dull reality. if they really wanted to be a singer for the sake of it, they could use IM to make their voice good. (But they dont know about IM)
Whereas an IM'er would say , Im not happy now but I know this can be changed. im not going to focus on how much I badly badly want it, Im going to work on my voice to make sure it is good enough, and then Im going to achieve this-either though this competiotion or another way.
So I think delusion is a refusal to see reality which is driven by fear, and puts faith in something for which there is no reason to do so.
True faith on the otherhand, seems to also be a refusal to see reality but based in love and trust, with a very solid reason to believe-even though it seems unbelievable.
For me, the fact that God , the most authoritative source there is,says this works, is good enought for me, no matter what reality looks like or what other people say. If you do it right, I beleive it will work. And if you dont beleive in God then there is the experience of many, many others whi can testify that this works.