Manifesting love

[pyrogen]

I am noticing this issue with my love LOA. I mostly seem to manifest just sex, or temporary liasons. With highly compatible and delightful people, with whom I have a great deal of chemistry, whom I otherwise would not get to meet via conventional means. I'm very dissappointed with the people I've met who I HAVEN'T LOA'd, but these relationships seem to be longer term.

Now, I have done love LOA nearly my entire dating life (since my teen years). It's my main dating service I have entered about 60% of my relationships using various forms of LOA. The more specific my requirements were, the better the relationship actually was - no matter how temporary it was.

The two horrendous long term relationships I've had, were NOT LOA, but the person actually wanted to stick around and I was the one that ended up leaving.

So, here is what I do. I make a list. I follow a method that involves making a huge extensive list and paring it down to 5 qualities, but I seem to nearly always get every list item.

I set an intention of when I will meet the person - say, by the new moon, or by next month, or in six months - they always show up. Someone always comes into my orbit. This works when conventional dating doesn't. It happens via very mystical means - an old friend calls me and invites me to a party where I meet that person. I usually know immediately that I have met the one I LOAd.

Frequently I notice that my love LOA relationships have a very, very different character than other relationships. There is more immediate click, more honesty.

Now here is the issue. They often seem to move really fast - and I seem to have a knack for manifesting perfect people who just want sex or who scare themselves! They may even be people who are not otherwise players - but I'll be the one exception to the rule.

I find the LOA relationships much harder to pace (as in, take more slowly) than conventional relationships, because the attraction is usually much greater. I also stupidly find myself trusting LOA boyfriends/girlfriends much sooner than I would trust a conventional boyfriend/girlfriend. I have some kind of fallacious reasoning that I don't need to apply conventional caution to someone I LOA.

I almost feel like, sometimes, I am just setting a trap for myself to break my own heart!

I think it's possible this may have happened again. I spent months working on my list, and then did a powerful process that I've used in the past (I call it the ceiling process). The next day, the very person - 100% match - showed up in my inbox and started pursuing me. But now I'm having to accept that I should have used common sense while dating him. I find the LOA relationship partners much harder to use common sense with because it's like I trust them as soon as I meet them because they match my "list".

What is anyone else's experience?

I am wondering if somehow my targeting is off. I also wonder if the problem is with mixing the Tactical and Zen polarities. I'm very programmed with tactics. My LOA relationships tend to be Zen. The non-LOA relationships were entirely Tactical but when I find myself Zenning into a relationship I am still trying to use a Tactical mindset. "Wow, we clicked and you were in the moment - now I get your big bag of expectations!"

I'm completely ready for an LTR. I've been for a long time, actually.

I am wondering if my knack for attracting perfect people who don't actually want an LTR with me, and tendency to settle for completely incompatible people who DO want one, is because of some kind of inner belief that I don't "deserve" what I am LOAing?

My requirements are high. I really require high conversational compatibility, a click - as in, we are on the same wavelength and vibe off one another, we communicate well.