My ex, lyme and manifestation

[Chasz]

Hi everyone,

My question is mostly about manifesting and the law of attraction although I had to dress it up with some “scientific” mumbo jumbo to paint a clear picture of my current situation and blocks to manifesting what I want.

Last year I got bitten by a tick(attraction learning experience? ) and I got Lyme disease. I started treatment with oral antibiotics pretty soon but still I’m left with some muscle twitches and creaking joints. I know I know, don’t focus on the illness I experienced all kinds of weird physical symptoms during my illness which put a strain on my recent relationship and after we read somewhere that Lyme(The Borrelia Burgdorferi bacteria, bb) might be contagious because it is related to the Sifilys bacteria and NO! I repeat NO! research has been done in the field of human to human transmission, my ex girlfriend and me got so scared that the attraction was gone and we broke up.
Now Ive been thinking about manifesting her back, since I started reading and listening to audio books on the law of attraction a month ago. Really an eye opener I must say and it changed my view of reality. I know that I shouldn’t manifest her back but let’s call it to re-meet her then. As long as I miss my ex or need her to fill up a gap manifesting her doesn’t work because I’m pulling and making it an absolute nescessity for her to be back cause otherwise I wont be happy. The key then is to make myself happy and be happy with what I have. Now here is my dilemma. We broke up three months ago and we had been going together for a year and a half. Now I can get past missing her, although I still want her back. Normally I would say I can go on with my life and maybe I’ll find someone new. It doesn’t have to be her but I sure would like to. I’d leave that up to the universe and trust in this. This attitude would clear the way for the universe to let me either meet her again or some other nice girl. But the fact of the matter is that since I don’t know whether I still have the bacteria in my system, no one can. The tests are for antibodies and you keep those so new tests will always be positive. And there are suspicions and animal studies that actually show that it can be transmitted amongst dogs and mice. And also statistically more partners of Lyme patients test positive and no one knows whether it is because they got bitten too or that their partner gave it to them, I can’t bring myself to go with another girl. I mean what if I infect her? Now here’s the kicker. I cant get past the feeling of lack, because I cant see myself going forward because of this. Especially now that I know she’s been dating again. That hurts somewhat although she has every right to. So the need to “keep” my ex is even greater than before. And yes I know that this kind of thinking leaves little room for spontaneous manifestation, but hey what can I do? I’m not gonna kiss a girl or anything else until someone proves of disproves that it can’t be transmitted amongst humans. Now I’m not gonna bore you with the links to the studies that say that Borrelia Dna has in fact been found in human semen samples. You can google it yourself if you want to. I’ll place one exerpt here and you can draw your own conclusions. Trust me when I say that the only reason that almost all Lyme info sites say it can not be transmitted from one human to another is because there is no evidence for it. You know why that is? Precisely, because it has never been researched, ever! Kinda weird huh? Considering that transmission from mother to unborn child has been proven incidentally. Talk about a responsibility to an unborn child. Ofcourse that it hasn’t been proven does not mean that it can be transmitted. Maybe after research it will turn out that in fact it really can’t be transmitted. But then at least we know 4 sure.
But back to me and my ex girlfriend. Basically I am in a standstill situation. I can try to manifest people or circumstances that will stimulate research in this field. Or maybe a girl who understands my dilemma but still will love for me? Or maybe I can visualize her wanting me back even if I might still be sick and have this dilemma. I lack faith that the universe will bring me a solution to this problem cause in my view the only solution would be for me to know that I don’t have the bacteria in my body anymore or to have definite scientific proof that it is not contagious. What are your views on this? How would you manifestation experts handle this? Also what are your views on someone attracting a tick bite? Or do you think that some occurrences are just random or meant to happen for you to learn from them?

Greetings Chasz

We find no study that addresses sexual transmission of Bb among humans; conversely, we find no study supporting that it does not occur. Inferential data, however, suggest the possibility of human sexual transfer. The data come from sound veterinary studies (96,98,115), the finding of Bb in human semen and breast milk (128,129), and by similarity to Treponema
pallidum where sexual transfer is abundantly documented (117,130,131). Our clinical experience strongly suggests that predictable, possibly inevitable Bbsl transfer between sexually active couples occurs. The preponderance of infected spouses we have tested to date also exhibit positive serology or PCR for Bbsl presence.
Source: http://www.ilads.org/files/harvey.pdf

[Chasz]

Hey, so anyone got any ideas? Or is this waaaaaaay to complicated?

I'm kinda over my ex already. Time heals etc. But I still think this is an interesting dilemma. I'm wondering what your thoughts are. Is it possible to manifest research or awareness in a certain field? Or is that focussing on the wrong things and sending a wrong signal? Perhaps no one wants to respond because of the wrong focus

Greetings Chasz

[CarolM]

Chasz, you know at one time scientists only thought there were black holes, then you know what? They found them. Now they think that there are white holes, and guess what, they WILL find them.

Ever wonder why when all the Astrophysicist's think they have found the edge of space, there is more created?

That's manifestation. It would be kind of silly for an Astrophysicist to find the edge of space, study everything in it, and put himself out a job wouldn't it?

I do think you can manifest the proof OR disproof of what you are looking for. Another option would be to let it go, and manifest complete and total health for yourself. Focusing on the possibility of lyme disease being communicable might actually be making just what you don't want, come true.

The wood tick bite might have been a catalyst for you, one that may have brought you here. You just never know.

Just my 2cents.

[rawxstasy]

I believe that you can manifest health. Just let go of the belief that you need "scientific" proof that it is cleared up. I have a virus that will always show up positive in tests but my belief is I am completely healed of it. I haven't had an outbreak in several months which is excellent progress for me. Maybe it would be better to focus on being free of this disease and then manifest your girl. Also if you are feeling you "Need" a relationship to be happy, learn to love yourself and be content with yourself. I believe that will make manifesting her or another girl easier. You do this by being present in the moment. Observing your thoughts and feelings and allow them to be. Take care of your body. Eat optimal nutrition for your health.

[Chasz]

Hey everyone,

Thanx for your input. Yeah I know I should not give (more) attention to the whole thing. However I can't really get over the risk to someone else's health. For me now I can visualise health and believe in it. However this is my personal conviction. I'm still kinda stuck on the spirochetal issue in relation to other girls. And this is a bummer cause it keeps me at a standstill. Even though I'm more over my ex and am fully prepared to move on if me and her are not supposed to happen and let the universe bring me a better/different/currently more compatible girlfriend. But still I can't because I immediately get the feeling like I can't risk letting someone else get it. And that puts me in the feeling of lack again. Well you know. If you can ask anything you want I guess you can just ask for more research, awareness, solutions, my ex wanting me back even though I have this, a new girl etcetera. I mean if it really works(in which I do have faith in smaller things already) then this should work also right? Atleast one of these perhaps?
And who knows maybe this is all a classic case of knowing to much and misinterpreting information. However I had to emerse myself in the material because no one else could answer me in relation to some of my complaints.
The interesting thing is that this dilemma forces me to try different views and approaches in relation to the LOA and is actually very educating even if it sucks

Greetings Chasz

[CarolM]

It occurred to me, that I am not quite sure how you believe you can spread Lyme disease to another person, through sexual intercourse alone? Or do you think it can be spread by kissing? In the first case, you can do what most people do to prevent disease spreading, wear a condom.

I wonder though, (warning: I like to dig deeper with myself, so I challenge others to do the same.) Are you sure this is really about the Lyme disease at all? You might want to examine why you would manifest even the belief that you can't be with another person intimately. I have a feeling you might find some answers there. First, you have to really get honest with yourself. Seems to me from what I've read, you drove one person off already because you are focused on this issue, and now you have shut out (for the time being) anyone else that might want to be in a relationship with you.

I liken it to a person who doesn't believe their partner will be long lasting in a relationship, or cheat, or lie. They focus completely on the negative happening, and it generally happens. They push the person so far away, the relationship basically self-destructs.

Just my 2c.

[rawxstasy]

Are you sure this is really about the Lyme disease at all? You might want to examine why you would manifest even the belief that you can't be with another person intimately. I have a feeling you might find some answers there

I had that SAME thought to.

[Chasz]

Interesting point you are raising here, and ofcourse it never hurts to examine one and one's motives deeper. However even though all this might appear to be symptomatic of a need to control one's environment and circumstances by focussing on the possible dangers thereby having the irrational belief that these can be prevented, I really do feel that it's the "responsibility" towards another human being that makes this such a tough nut to crack for me. Towards myself I can let go of any beliefs etc. In the past I might have displayed risk-avoiding behaviour combined with some perfectionistic tendencies, however these do not play a role in the current dilemma and they actually do not play much of a role in my life as it is today at all.
I don't know really. I can put a link here in which I explain the reasons for my and others suspicions that Lyme might very well be contagious in one form or another but I'm not sure if you are interested in reading it. However this, and other peoples theories and stories through which I got wind of it is what I base it upon: Contagious? What can we do and what do you think? - HealingWell.com Forum

I'm curious what you think.

Maybe I can just affirm/imagine/visualise that she would still love me for who I am even if I still have Lyme? I think this is what you are getting at. That it's an issue with accepting love and feeling worthy to receive? That's the point, I do have weird complaints still but after the initial antibody-test, nobody can really be certain if you still have it because you keep the antibodies and DNA-testing is still new and unreliable. So I can't even be sure if I still have it.

So much for the medicine-man's ramblings lol

Greetings Chasz

[rawxstasy]

even if I still have Lyme?

I would change that belief. If you don't have symptoms, (even if you do) I believe you can change your reality that you DON"T have lyme disease. Work on that belief and see what happens. I can tell you when I worry about the symptoms of my virus, even if I think ... oh wow I haven't any symptoms for xx long, the symptoms start coming out. I have been able to reverse the cycle by sending out an affirmation and then forgetting about it. I wonder if you need to step back from your research and not think about this so much.

If you feel it's too difficult to change your belief that you still have this disease, maybe you need to examine why that is.

If you believe that Lyme disease is contagious even if the evidence is not conclusive you will create this reality for yourself.

Another example from my life. At this time, I have three jobs. Of course, they are all part time. But I am getting more than enough hours from them, and one of these jobs pays $22.00 an hour. How come that is the case in this economy? I don't allow the recession to affect me. I hear about the recession, I know people who are out of work. I know there is a recession (depression) but that doesn't mean I need to let it affect my life.

Hope that helps.

[viking4525]

I would suggest the key word here is "detachment" ... I completely agree with rawxstasy ... at the moment you are "attached" to a "disease". You are also "attached" to the ex (which you have admitted to realising that you cannot have a "need" for her to come back etc).

Detach/let go. There is no "need" to label/conceptualise the disease, its modus operandi, its payload etc. There is really no need to know its name, in fact I am going to throw it out there, no disease truly exists in its "absolute" form, only in the "reality" of the individual.

Go inside of yourself to your feelings, your intuition, your gut sense and start to work out the "real" situation. Again I am with rawxstasy on this, there is something to do with the intimacy part. Your pain body has identified with that some how and it could go back further to your past (it may not just be intimacy as such, but to do with closeness, love, along those lines).

Again I will throw it out there that how do you know that you want to be with your ex again? At this stage you are not coming from a place of internal "fullness" so you have a perceived "lack" and that means you are manifesting more of that.

Work on yourself, its ok to stand still in life, and enjoy life as it is, then spend time on yourself to "fill yourself up", then ask yourself, do you desire her back in your life. Whatever you "instinctual" answer is IS the answer for you and then go with that.

You can be, do, or have anything you desire, and this can only come from the "belief" that you KNOW it will be, not that you "hope". Also be aware of living in the past and projecting to the future .... you will forget to live in the now. Nothing is stopping you from what you desire, only your right brained/logical side of you.

Believe, trust and "love" yourself first, if you cannot do that for YOU, you cannot really expect anyone else to ...

[CarolM]

You make some excellent points here rawxstasy.

You're right as well about the economy, if you believe and give power to it affecting your life, it surely will. If not, abundance is yours.

Originally Posted by rawxstasy

even if I still have Lyme?

I would change that belief. If you don't have symptoms, (even if you do) I believe you can change your reality that you DON"T have lyme disease. Work on that belief and see what happens. I can tell you when I worry about the symptoms of my virus, even if I think ... oh wow I haven't any symptoms for xx long, the symptoms start coming out. I have been able to reverse the cycle by sending out an affirmation and then forgetting about it. I wonder if you need to step back from your research and not think about this so much.

If you feel it's too difficult to change your belief that you still have this disease, maybe you need to examine why that is.

If you believe that Lyme disease is contagious even if the evidence is not conclusive you will create this reality for yourself.

Another example from my life. At this time, I have three jobs. Of course, they are all part time. But I am getting more than enough hours from them, and one of these jobs pays $22.00 an hour. How come that is the case in this economy? I don't allow the recession to affect me. I hear about the recession, I know people who are out of work. I know there is a recession (depression) but that doesn't mean I need to let it affect my life.

Hope that helps.