dont keep digging at your seed

[Diandra25]

and is aw that 8 again....


as i was analising the month´s income at the store,while looking at the month of March,i saw the income:2888.24€...yup not much but nevertheless...888

i remembered sth-month dez 2007 we did 8888€ hihihi one of our best months!

[Wax Frog]

Right now I've got what I call a "computer hangover". Not sure how many hours I was on last night/this morning, but it was a good many.

Mom had another one of her visions, this time of 'angel wings' on the ceiling of her room at night. Instead of inspiring me, combined with the other irritations of the day, and in general, it depressed me - 'why don't I ever get to see these things?'

[Diandra25]

Waxy

it was a NO day for you too....dont worry.tomorrow will be better.

i was also like you,yesterday and today i decided to go out and be with a close friend of mine,just chatting and having fun.i arrived just a while ago and this made my week.

i decided not to give too much importance on things that really...doesnt worth it...me its my parents issues etc....

maybe you were too depressed to look around and that was why you didnt saw your synch. i know i didnt....and it was cause i was only looking at my own show of self-pitiness


'why don't I ever get to see these things?'

- you see it,it is just you didnt looked at them yet.

[WordKeeper]

I like this thread. I feel like it is a "room" where I can come and be with acquaintences whose conversation I enjoy.

I came yesterday and was saddened by the spat. But that is how it is with acquaintences and friends.

I wanted to come today to say that I had an outstanding day yesterday with several synch type things. Today is a new low. Wonder why that is?

I have had an insight which is disappointing to me though in truth it could be a good thing.

I have to go out now. I am going to be looking for # synchs that I can post here - some sign of encouragement. That's what I need - encouragement.

[Diandra25]

Wordkeeper

you dont need to search theem - they are all around you.you just need to let them flow naturally into you.

Then when you least expect it,your senses will be attracted to them!

and you should post more!....

[magic1]

I want to tell you all, when you walk this path, the lows are there...the magic goes, this is instrumental in the process...its part of the journey...when your building connection, and because you have been disconnected for so long, its only natural that one day its all on, and then the next its off...its again only natural that one day things are together and the next they are not...I cannot explain how normal this is....

You are essentially flicking a switch in your mind from off to on, and to stay on all of the time is unrealistic...it needs to go off, so you can summon all the strength to get back...it is building it in you, and from a spiritual perspective it is saying...HOW SERIOUS ARE YOU!....this is the work......

After w while the light stays on for longer...and just when you think you have it mastered...there's another power cut...

mmmmm just typed a W in there, so I would say to you all...flow down the river and let your emotions be what they are, but know what you all are experiencing has not gone, its simply hidden for a while and I swear it returns...I bet you all in a week, you'll be saying to me...OMG, guess what happened SYNCH!

[magic1]

ps...for the record...unfortunatley fred my American coaching client has decided to find someone in the us...now am I going....NOTHINGS WORKING...no, I'm saying I trust it all.......

Let it all flow and be what it is....the darkness is perfect and when you are in it, know that it means its perfect and you are on the river....

[Diandra25]

magic

i get it!

it is like we must be in the darkness to our Light shine it through.

like the light can be switched off by purpose , for us to light it!isnt it?

[Diandra25]

We are lamps of light,besides of being our own Genie lamp hihihi

[magic1]

well its like you don't just wake up in the morning tuned to another way! you develop it...You need the lows to build the highs....the magic has not gone, its simply leaving you to your own devices for a while to do some work...and then POOF it comes back as encouragement, it takes you up..........and so you use it while its there to build trust...and then as suddenly as it came it goes....

This is truly the journey...this is exactly how it goes...
Whats so funny though,...is once you see it, you can never go back...its got ya so you have keep walking....

whats even more amazing...that you get better at holding it.....and when you can actually hold it all of the time...magic happens in this place...

[magic1]

Originally Posted by Diandra25

magic

i get it!

it is like we must be in the darkness to our Light shine it through.

like the light can be switched off by purpose , for us to light it!isnt it?

you have to experience darkness to keep CHOOSING the light...your building it.......

[magic1]

heres a wee one...leave cafe...go out to my car..one other car in park next to mine TAGS 888....mmm

these are the things that say, stay on the right side of the camp...

keep choosing your camp, no matter what life says...

[Wax Frog]

I'm definitely having a "why am I not at least being sent a clue?" kind of day, still a blue sky out, but gray clouds inside me It's funny, yesterday, again with no particular reason, I was feeling rather open to possibility, if not particularly up, even tried (and maybe succeeded) at manifesting a particular shape of cloud. Then the sequence of depressing/irritating events interrupted, took over my day, and now I'm feeling kind of hopeless again. I'm thinking of calling my sis early tomorrow and asking if I can come visit (re: getting job advice) just to get away from the house !

[Diandra25]

Wax

do whatever you feel it is best for you.

never know when the synch is there for you - dont search.it will come to you-let it go

your sis might very well show you one.

have a good ride.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Diandra25

do whatever you feel it is best for you.

See, that's part of the problem. Over and over, one of the things I've been told is to do what I want/feel is best for me/etc., you here on this board being the latest to do so. But I honestly just don't know what that would be. At best I just sort of go through the motions, while I drag my ball-and-chain of despair behind; sometimes it's invisible, but it's always there. Floundering around like a fish out of water.

I guess one way to put it is that I have yet to find a place (assuming it exists) where I don't feel like a fish out of water; worse still, I feel like a fish who's being asked to WALK!

[Diandra25]

you re not alone on that. imagine that - i felt like that same fish for almost all my life - still that only changed somewhere months ago

can you trust me,if i say that you will know in the right time?there will be a SPLASH moment for you Big fish,when you will know where that would be,but i cannot tell you where or when.

i did this thing : everynight i asked the Universe/Higher Self/Genie or whateved you like to call it,to help me see what i wanted or to know where to go.some moments i dreamt lot of things and in those dreams things started to make sense.and if it would not made sense in that morning after,some days next,it would.

your Ego is the one making you feel like that - lost and miserable-that is his job.your jog is to simply not giving such importance to it.

that is why Magic said that is important to let go,or to accept what it is.

what is the matter of being a fish with no water to digg in? you can very well be a fish taht doenst need water all the time might very well be a Flying-Fish!!! Fly to see the sky and then digg in.

still...see? i passed almost 25 years not knowing where to dive in.still i lived it trhough liek you.

i believ in You Waxy

doenst matter if you dont knwo now - you will. dont feel pressured.dont put pressure on you.

[magic1]

exactly...your in the same cycle wax...a thought cycle that keeps going round and round and round...and you stay at the same place...that thought is I don't know what to do...and then that thought spirals you back into, trying to think of what to do, and again you come back to the same place...I don't know what to do....and then you have these other thoughts, that cut you off at the bypass...these are your limiting beliefs...and they say even if I did know what to do, that's not going to be it, or its not going to work, or what if that's not it, or I don't want to do that in case this happens....its a cocoon of the mind wax...that keeps you where you are...these are your cords that bind..

so in saying that you do know what to do...do something different....

change just one thought that frees you in being able to move....

[Diandra25]

im going to bed now - and i´ll ask for ones to Guide You.i know they are there,but still just for you to know that we do care,and this is not only a forum of strangers.

we are all together in the boat - and it´s better that the boat has a fast motor in it!!!

and the nezt time i wanna see some Portuguese nonsense int hose sentences....

[magic1]

here is a nice story...a little disappointed in Fred not choosing coaching....I got in my car to head home from the cafe...I drive up to the lights and a RED car is in front of me with the tags FLOWZ...... oh, nice...I say...yes, flow, everything is perfect....as I draw in closer to it...I notice that it dosnt actually say FLOWZ it says FLOWIZ, as in flowers....

now when I started Fred on this path, he told me he wanted to manifest a red flower....and for some reason, unbeknown I just received a red car with the TAGS FLOWIZ....interpreted a red flower...

Ill keep you posted on this one, I have no clue why it came to me and not him....

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by magic1

these are your limiting beliefs...and they say even if I did know what to do, that's not going to be it, or its not going to work, or what if that's not it, or I don't want to do that in case this happens....its a cocoon of the mind wax...that keeps you where you are...these are your cords that bind..

Well said!

so in saying that you do know what to do...do something different....

change just one thought that frees you in being able to move....

I sure wouldn't mind if that 'shift' would bring about some really cool occurence though.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Diandra25

im going to bed now - and i´ll ask for ones to Guide You.i know they are there,but still just for you to know that we do care,and this is not only a forum of strangers.

we are all together in the boat - and it´s better that the boat has a fast motor in it!!!

and the nezt time i wanna see some Portuguese nonsense int hose sentences....

Thank you! @ Horhuhuese*... err, Portuguese* reference

*The dept. manager at a place I once worked was married to a Brazilian; I still remember her saying that "Rio" is pronounced more like "Hio"

[magic1]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Well said!



I sure wouldn't mind if that 'shift' would bring about some really cool occurence though.

I know, but maybe that is your biggest block...maybe change that thought to I have no clue whats going to happen, but whatever happens Ill handle it...and you never now, it may be fab..

[magic1]

also wax...you don't need to make a life altering decision...I'm talking about one thing that will slightly make your life experience more pleasant...just one....

One thing that you can do to change what you have today....this cycle has been to long and it is time to end...

Universe are waiting for you to walk...they want you to step into flow....

whats one thing you feel you could do or would be prepeared to do......anything?

then embrace the fear of it not working before you do it...then the fear dissolves, as you have already felt it...

[Wax Frog]

Like I said, I'm pretty much a blank right now (maybe the trick will be to amplify the 'blankness'?).

[magic1]

does anything inspire you?

[magic1]

ok not a major sync but something to keep an eye open for, a few posts back I had a run of cars, FLOW, I wish and Glenie...and I questioned the L as if Im going to get a sync, they have to be perfect...universe can do better than throwing an L in there...(ie if you take the L out its GENIE!)

so anyway, yesterday I see the car GLENIE again and it puts fresh into my mind, the L from so long ago...

well Just now got behind a car 88 L 88...mmmm very slim odds....

wonder what L means, I may throw that out there...it could be nothing, yet it could be something!

[magic1]

actually wax...I take that does any comment inspire you back..this is your journey and you need to find the road when you are ready.....I guess just know, that if you move, youl prob lower your resistance and that oh so elusive proof that you seek, may then have a thousand more ways to enter your consciousness...

[magic1]

now that was ODD! I was at internet and typed in 8 wishes...BORED, not desperate.... ha! anyhow...I got up walked into the lounge and my friend was on the phone and said exactly as I walked in YOUR NUMBER EIGHT! really loud to whoever she was talking too....

I smiled....guess the lights on for me at the moment......

[Diandra25]

i also had another pretty signal today morning...

on my email box,one of those astrology sites that sometimes send transits:the title was "Enjoy the journey of Growth"

[viking4525]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Like I said, I'm pretty much a blank right now (maybe the trick will be to amplify the 'blankness'?).

So is there a problem with being "blank" now? Who or what is making you "search" for something "greater", with more "meaning" etc?

Most people don't live in the now. This very present moment. Always seeking to "expand" to make a mark on the world. Then what? That feeds the ego like Diandra says, and the ego loves growing, it needs it to survive. But by accepting your situation and live your life fully "now" you will then be "flowing" as many people are saying here.

Live life, and experience what you "feel" like you want to experience. Then in time from your experiences you know what you like and then what you don't like. Thats the wonderful part of life.

The egoic self is a major part of "hassle" in our lives and we all have had and will have problems in our lives that is necessary to "crack" the shell of the ego. If you are a headstrong person, then you will need 1 massive or loads of mini cracks on your ego from life that will encourage you to "awaken" and find another path.

You can be, do and have anything you desire right now, but not in the way you might think. Lots of people strive to possess more and more things, more money, more cars, more consumable items, more knowledge in this subject or that subject. But less can actually be more. The more you look to calm the egoic self/the mind, experience the stillness, then you let your intuitive self come through.

Faith, trust, love, acceptance of "yourself" is the first step on the path. If you don't have these, then "accept" that, and then find out why and your path starts. When you start to understand yourself, then the seeds of intention can be planted and trusted to grow. Of course watering them (as others have said) will always help, but don't stop living, otherwise the universe will give you what you are showing it. By your thought, word and your deed you plant your seeds. So just be aware of what you intend.

Either way its all perfect. As Eckhart Tolle says its amazing that all our fears and thoughts of our past, and future, that controls our lives so much all the time just makes up the 2.5 cm's between our date of birth and our date of death on our grave stones!!!

Keep intending and planting, and most of all find the enjoyment on your journey. You will never ever reach your final "ultimate" manifestation, because when you get there, you will manifest the next "bigger" manifestation!!!! ))