dont keep digging at your seed

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

Good. Keep it up then, why would you want to stop there?

Well, before I can pay for a gym membership I'd like a steady supply of moolah, preferably via a means that doesn't depress me [pulls out can of worms and opener]

[cylon]

You could get the money. LOA? And besides, you can usually get a discounted trial membership. There are all sorts of gyms, more ritzy ones, or some of the "chain" ones. All different prices.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

You could get the money. LOA? And besides, you can usually get a discounted trial membership. There are all sorts of gyms, more ritzy ones, or some of the "chain" ones. All different prices.

Maybe there's a touch of 'wimp' to it, but I'd like to build up slowly. As for LOA, I still haven't manifested anything of substance

[cylon]

How much is a gym membership in your area?

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

How much is a gym membership in your area?

Big surprise: never looked into it. [Googling]

*(chain) - Enrollment 80.00, 30.00 a month, 10.00 with a year committment.
*(chain) - 15.00 a month promotion - "see club for details"
*(local) - not given on site
*(chain) - 20.00/mo or 30 enroll/10.00/mo - promotions w/ year committment (tiers I guess)

[cylon]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Maybe there's a touch of 'wimp' to it, but I'd like to build up slowly. As for LOA, I still haven't manifested anything of substance

There is. I don't buy it though. I don't think you're a wimp. You can convince yourself that you are defective, and try to convince us that you're defective, but I am not buying it. It's BS.

If I got that impression from you, I wouldn't be talking to you like this. You are holding yourself back, that's all there is to it. You're still playing out the drama from high school. Well, join the club dude. I'm still dealing with crap I experienced at that age. But after a lot of excuses, and people encouraging me, and me explaining why I can't change... I just decided to change.

Case in point, smoking. I smoked a pack a day for almost 17 years. I was "the guy that is always smoking". I told my friends I quit, they didn't believe me. They thought I was kidding because I was always smoking and celebrated it.

It's only been two months now, but two months is two months. I never in a million years thought I could give up cigarettes. First thing in the morning, first thing before bed, etc.

I never thought I could join a gym because like you I had an issue with "tough guys". I thought I would look awkward at the gym. I thought the girls would be able to tell I was a newbie and that I wasn't in as good as shape as some other guys.

And I live in southern california, where it seems everyone looks better than you. I'm right in the heart of that stuff.

I never thought I could go to a crowded beach during spring break that had literally thousands of women in bikinis, and walk around and enjoy myself and enjoy the water, almost passing out from how many hot girls there were around me, but I can do that now. I used to never ever go to the beach, now I go several times a week.

I used to not think I could put my music online and have other people hear it. Like you, I was worried people might not like my art. But I have managed now to create two websites that have my music. Not even close to where I want to be, but I am putting the time in and I'm not giving myself any more excuses.

I used to think I was too wimpy to do a lot of stuff Wax, and I wasn't. Everyone kept telling me the potential I had and I never believed them. But it was all BS, self-sabotaging behavior.

Sure I have a ways to go. I have a lot of progress to make. But somewhere along the line, maybe within the last several months, I decided to start being on my own side for a change. I still beat myself up occasionally but I stop myself and get back on my own side again.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

There is. I don't buy it though. I don't think you're a wimp. You can convince yourself that you are defective, and try to convince us that you're defective, but I am not buying it. It's BS.

OK, self correction (second time today) - I am playing the role of a geek/doofus/wimp

I'm just asking for a 'grace period', to see how I react to a bit of 'burning'. Test myself on a smaller scale.

[cylon]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

I'm just asking for a 'grace period', to see how I react to a bit of 'burning'. Test myself on a smaller scale.

Like a physical burn? You're learning to walk on hot coals or something?

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

Like a physical burn? You're learning to walk on hot coals or something?

Now, now, you know I never metaphor I didn't like!




I want to acclimatize to the feeling of risk, if that makes sense.

[cylon]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

I want to acclimatize to the feeling of risk, if that makes sense.

Well I'm sure you'll do fine. But that fear of risk is what's held you back all these years.

Thing is, there is no "risk" with going to the gym. You have absolutely nothing to lose, and everything to gain. The second you walk in the doors years of inertia are literally blown away. The first couple days you get your bearings, then it's smooth sailing.

And the point I'm getting across is, it translates to other aspects of your life. You carry it with you. You get over your fear of the gym and conquer it.... boom! It's instantly applied to your fear of having your artwork critiqued.

I'm not trying to tell you how to live your life. I have plenty of my own demons to conquer. But they are in my head, they are not inherent things in my life. And they serve absolutely no purpose, and have zero value.

It's like being in a prison cell and seeing that the door is open. The door is open. You can walk out of it whenever you want.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

I'm not trying to tell you how to live your life. I have plenty of my own demons to conquer. But they are in my head, they are not inherent things in my life. And they serve absolutely no purpose, and have zero value.

No worries, I understand your intent. Choosing dragons is at least a step removed, in the right direction, from putting off the fight. I'm guessing that when I slay my chosen dragon, the rest will run off screaming. If not, it's on to Dragon #2.

It's like being in a prison cell and seeing that the door is open. The door is open. You can walk out of it whenever you want.

I used to scare myself with a strange sort of daydream as a child, around the time my phobias really started kicking in. I'd imagine myself in a dark, dreary jail cell. I'd try to walk out of it, only to instantly 'teleport' back inside. Over and over again this would happen. It came to mind recently, surely no coincidence. I had fun with it this time around, it had no power over me any more!

[cylon]

On the left hand side under "library" are some good recordings. Start with the newest one: 3/26/09

VoiceAmerica™ - Dr. Joe Dispenza Neuro Genesis

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by cylon

On the left hand side under "library" are some good recordings. Start with the newest one: 3/26/09

VoiceAmerica™ - Dr. Joe Dispenza Neuro Genesis

Freebies! Thanks much! That will make a good followup to TJoL, as the latter dealt with meditation literally altering brain structures...

[magic1]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

You were good, easy to talk to and reassuring. I was trying to explain to you that I'd heard some news about a shot that would knock a patient out quickly and safely (dreams are somewhat garbled, so I don't know the specifics). I mostly just thought it odd that I'd realize I was dreaming and incorporate that into the plot (and why in heck didn't I go lucid ).

So as not to derail a certain other thread , I must here state for the record that there is another kind of "Monopol", in Sweden...

dreams are amazing...in the beginning of my process....after I was inundated with messages of faith and numbers....so I was already learning how to create...I went to bed one night...and I had this dream about a huge sign swinging in the wind with the word abundance on it.......

anyhow next to this sign was a huge elephant?????? at that exact time, I suddenly woke up saying out-loud....YOU CAN HAVE IT!

the next morning I knew the elephant was profoundly significant...so I asked the universe to clarify for me.....I happened to be going over to a friends house that day, and when I got there I casually asked her if she knew the symbolic nature of elephants.....

well she said let me tell you my elephant story....Imagine an elephant at the zoo, with a chain around its ankle....now she said, how much does that elephant weigh???? I replied about two tonnes???
yes she said, so if the elephants weighs so much and is so strong, why then does the elephant not move???? I couldn't answer and she replied.....BECAUSE ITS HOLDING LIMITING BELIEFS!!!!!! its just has been told it cant, but in reality it could move at any time, its just been continually telling itself, its impossible to move....

OHHHHHH....I thought do I have those that are stopping me from creating exactly what I want??? I am a trained life coach and surprisingly had never looked at these, little own in myself.... and if I went back to my dream are they holding me back from my abundance????

anyhow...I left her house, and on the way home, I was drivng along...and in frustration out of this cryptic way the universe presents the path...I yelled out...WHAT THE HELL DO I NEED TO DO TO CREATE MY ABUNDANCE??:???

Well blow me down, I swear to god, at that exact second and not a second after....this van pulls up parallel to me, and on the whole side of it....A HUGE PAINTED ELEPHANT, it actually was an elephant van!!!!(what are the odds!)...written in paint.............. one caption across the bottom...ELEPHANT CLEARING!


I immediately just burst into tears as the amazing AHA moment hits.....CLEAR MY ELEPHANTS!!!!!!, in other words clear my limiting beliefs....

and believe me, when I started looking at if I had any, I had thousands...but my mind was on auto and I would thoughtlessly be consistantly be just saying these things to myself, oh you cant do that, oh if you do this, that will happen, your not trained enough, there's no-one that does what you do.................I was riddled and didn't even know it, like a virus in my system.........

ps...and its no surprise that soon after elephants then flooded into my life....I rang my friend as soon as I got home to tell her....and she goes your not going to believe this....she was at that exact time, watching elephants on TV!

[cylon]

Lol, I like this elephant story.

[magic1]

ps....I have just re read all the posts about the gym....mmmmm funny...I'm talking about limiting beliefs huh wax frog.....especially when it was intended to answer a different post theme on dreams.....mmmm maybe a synch for you...

so what are your beliefs about going to the gym or lack of it....pull them out, flick them round to you going to the gym...and presto!

[cylon]

Hey that recording I linked to wax just mentioned elephants, that they have larger brains than humans.

It was only a couple minutes after I said I likes me the elephants.

[magic1]

INCREDIBLE.....by the way wax frog...I decided to go to the gym.....never been and just thought about it as something I would like to do, and does it surprise you, that two days later I actually won a membership without entering!...

[magic1]

Originally Posted by cylon

Hey that recording I linked to wax just mentioned elephants, that they have larger brains than humans.

It was only a couple minutes after I said I likes me the elephants.

ha, that man is sooo on the path its not funny!....seeya wax frog! bonvyarge!

[magic1]

its incredible isnt it...wait till he reads these posts....

[cylon]

I think we're all getting tuned in big time.

[magic1]

do you know what else...the word GENESIS (that was the guys in you recording link to wax fros, website name!!!)....I seriously get it as a symbol for genie all of the time!!!!!! the last time being last week............I looked at the time and it was 11.19, and I looked down and there was a sample pack of hand cream on the floor...yep GENESIS HAND CREAM!, oh and that's was just after having coffee with a friend...and she had this big old sign just behind her head, wait for it....GENESIS DIVING..............in fact genesis in the bible is all about creation....

we are GENIES WHO CAN CREATE and if you really want to be all big about it...we can create like god...

[magic1]

open and you will receive...and it just gets more mind blowing.....till the point you cant even make a logical excuse for it...it surpasses everything you'll ever thought possible to experience.....

ask and ye shall receive.....

[magic1]

ps wax frog...I don't want to be presumptions, but this maybe the path...build some faith that this is actually occurring for you, so the universe is flowing to you, as you are opening and asking,........and look at those damn elephants!

may get in trouble for saying that...lets see...

[SarahLuvzYu]

Originally Posted by magic1

do you know what else...the word GENESIS (that was the guys in you recording link to wax fros, website name!!!)....I seriously get it as a symbol for genie all of the time!!!!!! the last time being last week............I looked at the time and it was 11.19, and I looked down and there was a sample pack of hand cream on the floor...yep GENESIS HAND CREAM!, oh and that's was just after having coffee with a friend...and she had this big old sign just behind her head, wait for it....GENESIS DIVING..............in fact genesis in the bible is all about creation....

we are GENIES WHO CAN CREATE and if you really want to be all big about it...we can create like god...

Genesis...I think that is a episode on Heroes.

Heroes...God powers... He-he.

[magic1]

ill take it...I really love the universe for showing me very thing i needed to do, to begin to recognize myself as an extension of its stuff....hard to do YES!...but grateful....absolutely....I love them and they know it...

[Wax Frog]

Great, now I'm going to have a run of elephant sightings!

[magic1]

ha pretty much....although that may be my own self projection thing...but yes, i did......but seriously, have you pulled out you thoughts of what may be stopping the gym thing?

[magic1]

just had to share the funniest sync!

yesterday I was speaking with my dad who struggles very much to understand my path! Anyway in this conversation he says....YOU KNOW ANG YOUVE ALWAYS BEEN A SEEKER!...now to call me a seeker, is very profound for my dad... and plus, I have never been referred to as one, and liked it, as that is exactly what I am....anyhow later that night, I watched the movie at a friends ARMARGEDDON on tv.....

On the way home, I stop at the lights and billboard of me is this huge sign....saying

LEGEND OF THE SEEKER....ARMAGEDDON, advertising STAR WARS? ( that was the odd part out!)



anyhow this morning I woke up from an email from a friend who is directly involved in one of my intentions and he wrote about our joint wish and said...MAY THE FORCE BE WITH US! ha...he inadvertently tied in the loose end of STAR WARS on the billboard...and basically also linked the whole billboard to my intentions....


now could someone say out loud armageddon


it sounds very much like Im a gettin! god universe has a sense of humor....

[WordKeeper]

Very funny.

I'm open to my own synchronicities. How could you not be in the right place - everything tieing all together. That's crazy fun.

I just get so happy when I read this thread.