do NOT get rid of that self talk stupid!

[darkw0rker]

After 4 years of depression, today I got rid of it!

Just yesterday I wanted to take depression pills, but deep inside I knew that if I cannot solve depression by my own, pills cannot truly heal me!

Here is my story. 3 years I was depressed, mainly talking to myself negatively. The voice inside my head was negative on everything, Although I was not really conscious of it.

Last year, I heard of The Power of Now and many other spirituality messages about ego and how to get rid of that negative inner voice.

For a whole year, I was fighting this negative self talk. So I concluded that all my negativity and problems in life is because of this ego thing inside me and untill I get rid of it, nothing is going to get better.

But today I had an AHA experience. I thought about all those successful people with big EGOS. Then I thought, how come my ego is killing me while their ego is making them successful?

Of course not all super achievers are ZEN masters and have not silenced their minds completely. I thought of all those rock stars, rappers and many others that their egos was controlling their life way more than mine, yet they were successful and I was depressed sitting at home.

So I said why not change this self talk to positive, instead of fighting and getting rid of it.

I thought to myself, OMG how stupid of me not realizing it! Then I changed it, how innocent of me to think only in one direction, surely a great lesson today.

I did that. And all of a sudden, my whole mood and everything changed. Now my self talk is pushing me forward instead of pulling me back.

It's critical to become conscious of your self talk, then make it positive!

Before, the last thing I wanted to hear was my self talk. I hated how my 'EGO' was talking. But now even if I get distracted, it's all good and positive because my self talk is just so much supporting.

have fun with your self talk!

[Trezker]

Great post. You've done good to figure it out.

When you think back, can you now see that this is exactly what much of the advice you read was really saying all along? I'm curious, because things like these can't really be taught. Your mind just twists the meaning of the words, then one day it clicks and it's like the solution was totally your own idea.

Anyway, what are you gonna do now that you've awakened?

[darkw0rker]

Originally Posted by Trezker

When you think back, can you now see that this is exactly what much of the advice you read was really saying all along? I'm curious, because things like these can't really be taught. Your mind just twists the meaning of the words, then one day it clicks and it's like the solution was totally your own idea.

Exactly! You mentioned something really important. Until you do it yourself, you cannot really learn it!

I mean if I had read somewhere that you should make your self talk positive, it wouldn't be powerful at all comparing by figuring out myself.

Well now that my life has changed radically, I want to quit this forum first of all. I also want to quit reading any self improvement stuff, books, cds, etc.

I think figuring things on your own is much more interesting and motivating than being told to what to do!

I'm also starting to realize that only when you expect no one to help you, no God, no friend and not even your family, then YOU start to help yourself.

[fellowtraveler]

Originally Posted by darkw0rker

After 4 years of depression, today I got rid of it!

My friend...I am so happy for you. You and Trezker are right: you had to come to it on your own. BUT... ...even though you were unable to listen to anyone else all these years, your subconscious was listening, and absorbing, and figuring this out for you. And it finally broke through clearly enough to your conscious mind with the answer!

This is great news, because when one of us lifts himself up, we all are lifted. Welcome to the rest of your life.

[strawbear]

Originally Posted by darkw0rker

Exactly! You mentioned something really important. Until you do it yourself, you cannot really learn it!

I mean if I had read somewhere that you should make your self talk positive, it wouldn't be powerful at all comparing by figuring out myself.

Well now that my life has changed radically, I want to quit this forum first of all. I also want to quit reading any self improvement stuff, books, cds, etc.

I think figuring things on your own is much more interesting and motivating than being told to what to do!

I'm also starting to realize that only when you expect no one to help you, no God, no friend and not even your family, then YOU start to help yourself.

for me it's a combonation of reading/learning form others and making my own choices. at the end it's you who chooses what you want to incorporate into your life, they are not forcing you to change. without reading and being on here i wouldnt know how to think of these things, they are out of my mind reach right now, maybe you are at the level where you dont need outside knowledge and can rely on your inside insight,that's awesome.

[NexusOfCompletion]

I am really happy for you. I have only recently realized the power of positive thinking after I actually started practicing it with vigor. Along with that, learning meditation is probably one of my greatest achievements.

[Judge]

You cannot become aware or become enlightened. Becoming something implies a future event and there is no future, so it can never happen.

However you can choose awareness right now. There is no need to become anything you were not already. Most people (egos) make their goals future events and of course never reach them.

You can't manifest what you want.

You can only manifest what you already are and have.

Our ego's are very noisy, nosey and opinionated and as you have discovered, when you turn you ego into a supportive validator of experience as you have done, then it ceases to be the annoying reactive entity it's default setting is.

Well done

Judge

[Wax Frog]

My new definition of irony:

By the time I "get" what Judge is saying, it won't matter if I get what Judge is saying!

[Judge]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

My new definition of irony:

By the time I "get" what Judge is saying, it won't matter if I get what Judge is saying!

When you finally get what I'm saying it will still be right now AND ultimately I'm not saying anything............it's you saying it to yourself

Is it a riddle?
Is it confusing?

Not really, it's more of an alignment with what you truly are

Judge

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Judge

When you finally get what I'm saying it will still be right now AND ultimately I'm not saying anything............it's you saying it to yourself

Is it a riddle?
Is it confusing?

Not really, it's more of an alignment with what you truly are

Couldn't have said it better myself (or did I? )

[Lil Chris]

This is baking my noodle...

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by Lil Chris

This is baking my noodle...

I hope you have chunks of smoked ham and cheddar in there too! Yum!