successfully manifesting an ex-love back

[t33ny]

i came across this forum today and have spent many hours reading thread after thread, and let me first say, what a fantastic group of supportive and enlightened people!

i too have used LOA for many years - well before the secret - but then, my mother just referred to it as the power of "positive thinking". i think we've all been aware of this awesome power for practically forever, but it's fantastic that the secret was put out into the world for everyone to share.

i manage to manifest little things constantly, but my main current intention is to rekindle the relationship with my ex, which i would say, i am doing successfully thus far. i am still in the early stages of success

this time last year, my ex - whom i will refer to as M, due to the fact i think "ex" is a negative turn - and i broke up. we never fought, we lived in a lovely apartment, always had fun and loved each other's company. i entered a period of my life suddenly and without warning where i stopped caring about myself. i'm still not really sure why - underlying issues from my past i expect - and i went into a spiral of doubt, depression and disinterest. i didn't care about looking nice, i felt fat and unattractive (definitely attracted THAT for myself - i felt that way, so i started to look that way) and did not want to have sex. i also didn't really appreciate what was happening to me so i didn't talk to M about it.

needless to say, the misery i was attracting started to turn towards fear of M becoming distant with me, and the fear of us breaking up. i spent all my time worrying about us breaking up, and my daily mantra became "we can't break up, we can't break up".

which of course, we did.

now, i'm not saying that i totally created the split - there were things he could have done to help me, i guess - but i definitely created the end result. however:

a year down the track (and believe me, it DOES take that long) i am a completely different person. i dress differently (for the first year in 27 years, i wear skirts almost every day: i was NEVER a skirt/dress person), i take care of myself, i take care of my surroundings. i feel grateful every day, for everything and most importantly, i LOVE myself. if the universe hadn't stepped in and put a halt on that relationship, i would probably still be in that depressed state: not caring, not loving, not living. i owe everything to the universe for seeing what i could not see. it gave me chances to do it myself - i see that now - but then it realised i just couldn't do it by myself, and the ONLY way to jumpstart me was to take away what i was fixated on.

i would never have discovered all the new spirtual things i've learned since the break if it hadn't happened. it was probably the greatest thing that happened to me, in a backwards way. of course, everything happens for a reason AND for the higher good, and i can see no better testimonial for that than my experience.

as soon as i finally and TRUTHFULLY came back to myself (a better, more learned, more secure, more beautiful me also) and forgave myself and M, suddenly i started to see very odd things.

i've always wanted us to get back together. however, the universe just would NOT help that on the way until i intending it for the right reasons. first i tried to do it because i missed him/needed him/missed our life. we ended up having a huge argument and not talking for a couple of months. the 2nd time was because i THOUGHT i'd gone through all the issues and resolved things. i hadn't. we ended up having another argument and not talking for a few more months.

last month i really realised what i needed to do and be for myself. i started swimming for fitness, eating well, cutting down on bad things. i loved myself, i loved my world, i would never let myself get down. i am radiant with positivity.

suddenly, he agreed to come to a party at our friends house with me. it was awkward for a while, but we soon had each other laughing again. it was great to reconnect and find that the initial reason we loved each other so much was still there: the mutual likes and the laughter.

next, i was approaching last month's full moon eclipse with trepidation. i was sure it was going to be the make or break test for us - full moons are about closure, something ending. eclipses more so. i was sure it was something to do with our relationship, but i intended that it would be more along the lines of our "old" way ending and a new start happening.

then the universe threw me some help. we were having a potluck dinner the weekend AFTER the eclipse but then my flatmate brought it forward to the night OF the eclipse. i was a bit nervous, but still didn't let it worry me.

that night, M and i sat up till 4am after everyone else had gone, watching tv shows we used to watch together and joking together. it was the first time in probably 6 or 7 months we'd done anything like that. it was my intended new start.

M says we're not ready for lunch dates etc yet, but i'm definitely intending to manifest that this week

i put out a strong intention yesterday that we would have lunch together this week and he would hold my hand. almost immediately i got an alpha moment where i went to pick up a pen and my hand started tingling like i'd gotten an electric shock. LOA in action!

anyway, i hope this has been helpful to some; i just wanted to share my joy and love to you all, and for those of you hoping to have a lover back - it IS possible; you just have to do A LOT of work on YOU first. it's common knowledge that if YOU don't love yourself, then how can anyone else?

much love!