Purging a particularly painful emotion

[torilink]

oh I know it is bliss to recall an event or experience and not feel that inner tightening and resistance anymore. It is like a movie we watched, we either enjoyed it or we didn't but it has no lasting effect.

that is freedom.

[Wax Frog]

Right now my experience is of a computer 'hangover', itchy eyes and fuzzy head But I'm staying on this train no matter what, even now where it looks like it's heading through some desert. I opened my can of worms for basically the whole world to see if it wishes, and now I'm going to sit down and eat it

------------------------

Why must the past seem so enticing? Another "lesson"?

[Anagogy]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

Why must the past seem so enticing? Another "lesson"?

"The past is history, the future is a mystery, and the now is a gift to us, which is why it is called the present."

Everything already exists. There is no such thing as creation outside of the dimension we call time. Even memory already exists. When you, I, and everybody else wakes up, we won't lose any memory, though that is one way of looking at it, I suppose. In actuality, we will simply GAIN all memories and become re-acquainted with our own completeness. I feel I should stress that the Great Awakening should always be looked at in terms of gaining everything, rather than losing anything. Nothingness cannot be lost, because it doesn't exist.

The past is enticing because we associate it with the foundations of our being. It is said the ego is a thought system. It's like looking through rose colored lenses. If all you can see is red, you will never understand blue. When the ego is gone, which in our analogy is like the colored lens, you will have a broader awareness, not just of the color blue, but of all things combined as one.

And like Torilink advised, you don't have to rush anything. It's like looking at a huge mountain and trying to calculate the fastest way to the top. That would simulate an academic approach to the topic. Instead of that, you could just start walking up, at your own pace, enjoying the scenery on your way to the top. If you are feeling uncomfortable with going higher on the mountain, take your time, smell the flowers. Time is an illusion. There is no need to move faster than you are comfortable moving. Remember that.

[uberinquisitive]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

But what would Uber say?

I would say - you're a very manipulative person.

I'm not saying this as a criticism. But as an cold, objective observation.

You complain about your life, in order to get sympathy. You claim to want something bigger, better - but then when someone says, "here is a reliable way to go bigger and better" you then try to twist it around so that the person seems unreasonable.

So, first - you make yourself seem like you're desperate to change. Truth is - you don't want to change. You want everyone else to change, while you stay the same.

Do you truly want to change? Then here is the plan:

- Ask you mother to help you finance 3 sessions each with a master EFT practitioner, a TAT practitioner, and a BSFF practitioner. Just email these practitioners this thread before the first session - they'll know how to help you.

By the way, you don't even need to leave home to have these sessions. They can be done over the phone.

And, by 3 sessions, you will have learned the techniques enough so that you can continue on your own.

Total cost will probably be around $1,000. But, if your mom was willing to pay for your school, I'm sure the money is there.


- Every morning, in your room or in the basement or wherever - do jumping jacks in place. Work up to 20 minutes. Get a nice sweat going.

No need to interact with people.


- Read Eckhart Tolle's "A New Earth" and "Power of Now." Watch the 10-part Oprah/Eckhart webinar (you can google it).

Again, no need to interact with people.

Total investment in money: about $30


- Download some hypnosis mp3. I have the link somewhere in this thread.

No need to interact with people. Listen to each mp3 about 3 times before moving on.

Paul McKenna also has some great NLP/hypnosis mp3's.

Each mp3 is about $13.


---

So, for the next 3 months, do the above. Is this "hitting the pavement" and being "Mr. Brave"?

Will you manifest a new Mac? Probably not. Because you live a life of scarcity and fear...and so LoA gives you more scarcity and fear.

It's called the Law of ATTRACTION. Not the Law of OPPOSITES.

[cylon]

Originally Posted by Anagogy

Time is an illusion. There is no need to move faster than you are comfortable moving. Remember that.

I struggle with this particular one. I think of the age I am now, and in relation to where I want to be in my life, and I want to out-run time. But at the same "time" I feel better when going at my own pace. It's hard to explain, I want both, to be ahead of myself in time, and to be going at a nice leisurely pace too.

[cylon]

I second those tolle/oprah webcasts.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by uberinquisitive

I would say - you're a very manipulative person...So, first - you make yourself seem like you're desperate to change. Truth is - you don't want to change. You want everyone else to change, while you stay the same.

One objection, now that I've had time to digest this post. Wouldn't it be more accurate, and a better fit to the concepts underlying IM/LoA, to say that it's my false ego that is these above things? Your phrasing comes off as an attack, even if it isn't meant as one (especially via text, a painful lesson I'd learned over years of emailing/PMing/chatroom use).

You do have me pretty well pegged. I can even elaborate:

"I (ego) am an incurable emotional cripple who needs others to take care of him and/or a controlled environment that compensates for my permanent blind spots".

I don't think it's all of me though, as I have accomplished a few things in my life that run counter to that 'program'.

[torilink]

Originally Posted by Wax Frog

"I (ego) am an incurable emotional cripple.

It's every ego. This is why non-judgment is so important, people in glass houses kinda thing.

Not one of us is without an ego, and therefor we all are in various states of unconsciousness.

Even if we feel we've evolved to the point of telling others how unconscious they are - it is simply our own ego feeling superior. And so it goes.

I will only recognize myself as conscious when I perceive you as perfect.

[Wax Frog]

My newest definition of irony: I went back to the prior forum I frequented and then abandoned, looking for news on a pal I'd not heard from in awhile. My eyes get caught by a thread on IM, and a poster there was talking about the importance of cleaning out the junk inside in order for IM to work. Even more amusing, his avatar looks almost like the photo of the author of "The Presence Process", which I'm getting ready to re-read (and perhaps actually even work through this time).

I guess I'm manifesting what I NEED, huh?

[CroMagna]

You said 'how do you get yourself to accept option B's?' My answer: you DON'T allow yourself to accept any option B's! Always always shoot for Plan A! Set your sights on a girl who's TEN times better than her, or hope that one will come along, but don't date or marry Girl B.

Trust me, if you settle, especially in relationships, you will be equally if not more unhappy in the end. My first boyfriend was the "oh give him a chance" guy. He was not that good looking, he was stout-looking and had a really serious acne problem, he had a yokel accent, he was just all around average. I was embarassed to show my family his picture. But I really wanted a boyfriend and there were no other available guys and he wasn't THAT bad. Plus everyone kept saying "oh give him a chance" because he's "really nice". Well I gave him a chance and soon fell in love. All his flaws disappeared in my love-sick mind. He look devilishly handsome and well-built, and had a seductive personality. I was in heaven. But in the back of my mind, I wondered if he was really the ONE. I couldn't see myself with him. Well, as fate would have it, he turned out to be a complete jerk and cheated. I was young naive (19) so this seemed like a huge betrayal. He also had an extremely passive-aggressive, manipulative streak. He was a master con-artist. Everything thinks he's nice, but he's probably one of the biggest jerks I've known. My point is that I was even MORE mad at myself because I know I had settled and had just "given him a chance". There have been other instances where I settled, for guys who were poor or not that intelligent or whatever and they turned out to be total jerks.

I've done the same with my major (English), jobs (Administrative Assistant), cars (94 Corolla), the result is the same. It comes back to bite you in the end. Trust me. For example I could have used the $500 I spent on the Corolla plus about $300 of gas towards a down payment on a newer car. Aim higher!

P.S. I'm about to get engaged to a great guy. He's not perfect, but he's pretty close to it.

[Wax Frog]

Originally Posted by CroMagna

You said 'how do you get yourself to accept option B's?' My answer: you DON'T allow yourself to accept any option B's! Always always shoot for Plan A! Set your sights on a girl who's TEN times better than her, or hope that one will come along, but don't date or marry Girl B.

I often tell myself the silver lining of having been a loner all my life, never even close to having a 'sig other', is that at least I didn't end up spending a big chunk of time with the wrong person. I have good reasons to believe that Robyn, for instance, would have been a terrible mismatch.

Anyway, it's becoming increasingly clear that I need to some 'housecleaning' before anyone/anything else can move in.

Thanks for the advice/support!