Feeling bad during IM?

[TheFlyingMan]

Hey guys, I got a very strange question about IM.

When I'm using IM on money, I have received alpha reflections and so on. So I'm confident it works. But I'm using it on my recently broken up ex-girlfriend.

Long story short, I had a lot of baggage from my past, and started a lot of fights and said a lot of very nasty things during the fights and just after the breakup. In the 2 months or so that has passed since, I've calmed down and become objective. My feelings went from being crappy to being peaceful and happy. Thinking about her objectively, she really is very nice to me (true she did do her fair share of rubbish when we were together, but she was one of the nicest girls I've ever met.)

On the physical level I've sent out my very sincere apologies. She's read them (her friend told me) but no reply. I've been projecting a lot of love and intending her to come back, following the secret, I'm also saying that I will give her unconditional love when she does (didn't tell her this though, I have not contacted her for a while).

Now..I've been feeling good and getting alpha reflections with all my other intentions like money and so on. But recently with this girl I can't feel good. I feel like crap when I sit down to do my IM, and I have some very strange dreams about her - that she's got a new boyfriend, etc. Is this a part of IM, or just my subconscious telling me something?

I also realise that feeling bad about her and so on just sends out bad signals, but I can't stop - I change my train of thought only to find it automatically going back to her after a while.

Any ideas? Does having bad feelings whenever u intend her and good feelings when you intend money, mean that the universe is telling you something?

[dorothy hanna]

Possably, you are not in alignment for a realtionship, at this time, and so you need to clean up the many, OTHER areas of your life, before you can share, to the degree, neccesary for the depth of relationship you might have in mind, with this girl, or any other. This girl might be heavy on your mind, because she did seem to have some elements of congriency, similar to your desires, but is not, really the end all, of what is, and isn't in total alignment with you, so, perhaps you could just work on you, and the other areas of your life, and see what happens down the road.

You may include in your intention, that the feelings between you, and this girl, soften, and intend that she also, finds direction she needs, whether it be towards you or not, but that she carry no heavy baggage, from her experience with you, into her future.

[AndyMartin]

One thing people seem to forget when dealing with IM is that you are not your mind and you are not your desires. There is an awareness behind thinking and wanting. This is the awareness that comprehends the infinite and expresses itself through the physical and egoic manifestation you call "I." If the egoic "I" is in the IM driver seat, it is looking after the priority of wants and needs of that physical identity--that constrained, finite mind.

So if "TheFlyingMan" wants something, and "InfiniteFlyingMan" sees from its place of infinite wisdom that it's not going to bring you joy and expansion, then "InfiniteFlyingMan" is going to try to get a message across to "TheFlyingMan." One the other hand, when "InfiniteFlyingMan" thinks it's a fine idea, it will point that out to you in all the symbols you see -- in "synchronicities" or "alpha reflections," and in other ways. Try thinking of IM as a dialog with your higher awareness. When you establish agreement, conflict and incongruency will fall away. When there is disagreement, you will know. It really comes down to "listen and follow."

So listen. Stop analyzing and listen; you know the right course. Whether your ego is ready to accept that is a different question.

[TheFlyingMan]

I think you guys are right...I am not ready and neither is this girl. Just that I really want to make things work. I guess I misunderstood IM. Thanks for clearing that up, I think that is really what's happening - my mind wants her, but the superconscious or the universe is telling me she's not good for me and hence I feel upset when I intend for her to come back.