Vibrational disharmony- Is it just Spring?

[Little Deb]

This Spring i have been experiencing an unusual restlessness, so to speak. (yeah, I'm turning 44 in June, so there is that proverbial middle-age factor.) I know I should be "doing something about it", but maybe my fears of looking for a new job, place to live, etc. are seriously holding me back. Well,at least as far as implementing those particular kinds of changes are concerned. I have been listening to Paraliminals for a few months and just started the Tapping technique, to see if that could help aleviate some vibrational disharmony. Anyway, I have been observing other people, mostly women, and they have been discussing similar difficulties. For example,a lady came into the DQ were I was working, and she kept ordering one ice cream treat (big ones) after another. She said she didn't know what was wrong with her, as she just could not feel satisfied. (I myself cooked myself a big stir-fry the other day, ate, and ate, and ate. Then I was looking for cookies. Even in the middle of the night i was craving 'something to eat'.) Then, the final straw was yesterday when the new tenet in our apartment was found trying to burn her boyfriend's clothes in her bathtub- which would have set our hundred year old building on fire- and she climbed up the fire escape and stood on the second story roof. She lives on the ground floor. Anyway, the fire truck came along with the RCMP who took her away to the hospital, because she was/is obviously "whacked". Anyway, talking to lots of people, I feel a sense of urgency in their voices. What's going on? Maybe the Universe is going through menopause. Any opinions?

[Angela]

Maybe that's not fear, Little Deb -- maybe it's excitement! You are in such a great moment of your life, leaving behind the inhibitions and insecurities of your 20's and 30's, and entering your "Get out of my way!" years in which you are making your own rules and designing your own game. How wonderful is that!?

It's no suprise that you're attracting other women who are up to the same thing! People who are giddy with the excitement of this new incredible growth spurt -- of course things burn! Of course you're hungry! It takes a lot of calories when you're burning this kind of energy!

That urgency you are experiencing in others -- maybe that is just your urgent wild whacked gorgeous energy being reflected back to you. It may look a little unruly or even crazed (because it is! ), but it's also your opportunity to create something for yourself that you didn't have the resources for up till now.

(I guess you know who I'm really talking to, right? )

[firefly]

Little Deb, I’ve been having similar feelings for a while now (and I’m about 15 years behind you so I hope it’s not menopause ). I just feel this inner churning without any obvious outlet. I’ve noticed similar emotions in my co-workers. Just the other day I was talking to my boss about how we all seem to be stuck in limbo.

I wonder if there are certain times in people’s lives when they’re in a kind of restless, half-awake state and they’re faced with a choice: wake up (live more consciously) or go back to sleep (accept mediocrity and stagnation). I think it can be easier to make that choice when you’re in a truly horrible situation, but most of us are in situations that we can trick ourselves into believing are OK. It’s harder when you have something to lose.

My problem is that I don’t feel ready to take action yet – I don’t know where to go and I’m not confident I have the resources to get there. My fear is that I’ll wake up in ten or twenty years in basically the same situation I’m in now and wonder where all that time went.

Like you, I’ve felt that I should be doing something to get out of this rut, but one thing I’ve learned the hard way is that if I push forward with “should” as my only motivation I’m not going to get anywhere. I only get more frustrated and more separated from my authentic self and any genuine inspiration. Hopefully Angela is right and this negative unrest will soon manifest itself as positive excitement!

Anyway Little Deb, I don’t know if these ramblings were of any help, but you’re certainly not alone and thanks for asking those questions because it’s gotten me thinking more deeply about what's going on here.