Feel like i'm going crazy

[sean83]

I've been trying really hard with this intention manifestion lately, but i'm so torn between, theres a part of me that really wants to believe and another that just thinks its nonsense and that I need to wake up and face life.

A couple of weeks ago I told everyone I manifested fixing my internet connection and monitor through affirmations, i'm still not convinced however.

Last night I thought I would try with another simple manifestion, I thought when I went to the shops I would try and attract a smile from someone, I said to myself "My subconscious mind has attracted a smile reinforcing my believe in loa". Well not one person smiled at me, not even the cashier gave me a friendly smile, I felt pretty dissapointed.

Next day, while at work, my jobs involves driving around in a van, I tried to intend driving past a porshce, again no luck, I then decided to intend seeing a motorbike, one of those superbikes, I affirmed in my own mind and tried to visualise it. I looked around and nothing not one bike, I began feeling discouraged and down.

Anyway about 30 mins later, I drove back and seen an accident on the road, police were around a guy lying on the floor to my displeasant suprise a red superbike was stood up next to him. Now i'm thinking I could'nt of possibly attracted that, as it looked so bad, I only wanted to see a superbike not an accident.

The last few days i've been trying to change my currently negative mind, by thinking more positively, sometimes i'm doing well and at other times I start putting myself down, envisioning a gloomy lonely future and I have try and snap myself out of it. Its like there is a part of me that is content to be miserable, i'm finding i'm having a hard emotional battle with myself.

The reason I think most of this is just coincidence is because i only seem to have about 50% success rate, with intentions.

Anway could any good manifestors offer any tips?

[wolfgang]

Don't try to manifest things too much. Instead look at how the world is for you and realize that is a reflection of your inner states. Find peaceful moments and appricieate your life now as is, with all the grit it may have too. Manifesting things will not make you believe LoA, I think. Too much of the ego gets involved with manifesting things to prove smoething and that is not coming from the whole of you which has a spiritual side too. It might be easier to just witness LoA in a way of tunning into your innerself and how the "outside" world reflects that. Then work on "raising your vibration" instead of manifesting things. And that means, just finding joyful events or pursuits and taking care of yourself, go into nature and exercise, breathe, stretch, sleep, yell, sing, feel your body energy, be your goofy total self!

[petewilliams]

That's some good advice wolfgang, I think I could learn a thing or two from that myself. I too get caught up in trying to manifest specific things all the time, when maybe I should be looking at the bigger picture.

Having said that, I think it is possible to manifest specific 'stuff' at will, but maybe that is a more advanced use of the LoA which will develop as you gradually build faith in it.

Pete

[BillyBlanks24]

I find it almost impossible to manifest things if im consciously aware of them or hoping them to happen. Its like when you ask someone a question and you really hope they respond quickly, they dont, or they start taking their time...and u start hoping they respond and they dont. But if you just ask the question and dont care they will respond instantly.

here is an article explaining how awareness locks reality and prevents intentions manifestingAwareness locks Reality and Emotion attracts It