Yikes

[jeff3]

Well, lets see, last weekend I awoke at 3 am with a slight fever and before the next morning dawned I had run a temp of over 105 for several hours, had 3 sets of rigors lasting over 45 minutes each,then ended up in the emergency room. The next afternoon I got a letter from the IRS saying ,basically, they want money from me. After the high fever I was unable to work all week so no income last week. I have been self-employed for 3 years and currently live check to check, this last week has really put the squeeze on me.

On the positive side, a friend came over the morning I woke up sick, drew my blood at home, ran some tests, then swabbed me for flu, then....she spent the rest of the day (and evening) taking care of me and eventually took me to the hospital.

My daughter had spent the night with a friend so she didn't have to watch me convulse with the rigors ( a scary looking experience).

I honestly thought I was going to die at one point and it has caused me to take a new look at my life, I spent the week throwing away and giving away stuff that I don't need in my life anymore and organizing things around the house.

I also noted that for a few days before all this I had grown increasingly agitated and taken on the personality of a rusty nail. I've been under financial strain for months and it was a sort of culmination of events I suppose. It's odd that in the preceding weeks I had stepped up the meditation and programming and seem to have got a reverse effect.I have had times when unbearable circumstances seem to reach a boiling point before I get any relief, I'm still optimistic that is the case.

any suggestion, comments ?

[Honeywith4bees]

Sorry to hear that you went through that rough time with your health. I remember once when I did some guided meditation with someone who was trying to help me recover some buried memories from childhood. After the initial time spent meditating, I felt really good, but about three days later, I became very ill. The person I had been working with said that this can often be a side effect of releasing toxic stuff from our past. Maybe your sickness is a sign that you are ridding yourself of somethings that were previously holding you back? Good luck!

[torilink]

Just wondering what type of "Programming" you were referring to?

[jeff3]

Originally Posted by torilink

Just wondering what type of "Programming" you were referring to?

health , wealth , freedom ,happiness, and any associated releasing . typical stuff

[Jennihul]

One thing I experienced in beginning to meditate was a serious kind of anger and rage when I would come out of my meditations. These also resulted in direct, instantaneous extremely negative manifestations.

Needless to say, that turned me off of meditation for awhile, but I have since heard/read that this is actually a common occurance and you just have to get past it.

Eventually I did. I use grounding crystals too. Just hold one in your hand or place on a body part that corresponds to it's particular chakra. Examples would be hematite, blue lace agate, but my favorite is red jasper. I even carry one with me in my pocket. For your situation, I would recommend black onyx.

Jennifer

[impaul99]

Hmm.... very interesting thread. I too have been manifesting some subtle physical symptoms lately as I'm working on releasing certain things via meditation. I didn't put the two together though. Hmmmmm........

[jeff3]

Originally Posted by impaul99

Hmm.... very interesting thread. I too have been manifesting some subtle physical symptoms lately as I'm working on releasing certain things via meditation. I didn't put the two together though. Hmmmmm........

In the last couple days I've noticed a change in my internal dialog, less judgmental, more accepting, less worry (despite the ominous financial crises looming). The interesting thing is that it is not forced and it doesn't take constant vigilance like it it normally would.

Of course, I may have just been sick, but they never diagnosed me, all lab was normal, it was officially (fever of unknown origin).