Very bad sexual fetish I have...

[VeryLostSoul]

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[JHL]

Hi VLS, it sounds like you feel a lot of self-loathing towards yourself as a result of this fetish, and that you doubt its something you'll ever be able to overcome. You're reaching out for help here, so it seems it is something you would like to either come to terms with, or overcome completely.

Firstly you're not alone in having an addiction. Secondly, a great many people have sexual fetishes as you're no doubt aware. And this is perfectly normal.

So far as I can tell, there are three problems in your situation:
1 - you are addicted to this sexual habit, its having a negative impact on your life and certainly your self-image.
2 - There's nothing wrong with having a fetish, but yours may be physically unhealthy.
3 - It may continue to progress to even unhealthier activities.

Your fascination with this fetish and your masturbation are "ingrained" only because you've formed a habit. Like any habit, it CAN be overcome with enough dedication and motivation to change. The one challenge with a sexual addiction, as opposed to an addiction to a substance, say, is that its normal to desire sexual release and its not appropriate to try resist this desire in totality, as one would try when quitting cigarettes or alcohol.

My suggestion to you is to take steps to look at how to wean yourself of this habita and replace it with a healthier alternative. It sounds like you are on the verge of taking it one step further, and this will only serve to increase your self-loathing and inevitably the damage to your self-esteem. You may find it hard to go talk to a sex counsellor about this because you may find it embarassing (they wouldnt - they have heard it all before) but this would be a very good option. The other thing I would suggest is that you research your addiction and try to implement steps to curbing it.

Don't give up on yourself. The worst trick the ego can play on us is to convince us that a situation is hopeless. It is not. You simply have a habit you would like to change. You can do it.

[nantucketsunset]

Soul, I think that was excellent advice given in the post above.

I would add a fourth issue to the list of three already spelled out, and that is the fact that you are sexually attracted to your sister. Whether or not your fetish is about something separate from her physical body (such as her poo or items of clothing or hairbrush, etc.), I still think this adds a mighty complicated layer to your situation.

Sex counselors really have heard everything, and I agree that perhaps you should see one, even if just once, to tell someone about this out loud and to hear how they think you might get over it, should you wish to.

I don't know how old you are, but maybe it would help to move out of the place where your sister lives. I sense that if you give in to what you want to do regarding collecting and manipulating these girls' bowel movements, you are going to go several levels further into something that you probably don't want to get into.

Fetishes are common and normal, but this one is so tricky and the reverberations of what might happen to your relationships and reputation if you are "discovered" at it say to me that it's right of you to be concerned about this.

Sometimes this kind of thing is treated by cognitive-behavioral therapy, a short, practical, focused type of therapy that is about changing behavior and urges in the present. You don't have to get into any sort of long-winded, 5 year Freudian analysis if you don't want to. (But certainly with the anal flavour of your complaint, you might be a Freudian analyst's wet dream, if you pardon the expressions!)

Stay strong and do not feel trapped - you are not required to follow your compulsive urges.

[Logicseeker]

Hello VeryLostSoul. I think this is a great time for you to seek professional help. There are a lot of you having these feelings, and any educated psychologist will be aware of this. Your fetish is not good for you, your self-confidence, health etc.

Somethin you could try before you get an appointment with the doctor is "cutting down" to only drinking urine, so at least, you get rid of potential harmful E Coli bacterias...

And don't connect yourself with this sickness. You are still you. I respect you.

[moviestar]

Why do you want to get rid of this fetish? What's wrong about it?
Just because people think it is socially inacceptable to eat your poo doesn't have to make you stop doing it. Really. Why do you want to stop it? Nobody is ever going to know what you are doing and even if they find out then f*** them.
I sense that you really want to change something else and you believe that this habit is what is stopping you. Once you find out what you really want to change, consider changing this again.

[Logicseeker]

moviestar: Eating "poo" is very bad for your physical health. That's a valid reason for most people.

[Dharma]

Good reply JHL.

If you work with a counselor, focus on the self-loathing part.

Looking at what you're doing literally is: "I eat my own ************".
(looks like I got filtered, 4 letter word begins with s)

And also looking at what poo and urine is... it's a waste product of the body. So, "I never let go of what I'm trying to get rid of. I have a habit of putting it back in me."

So I think you have a lot of buried negative feelings about yourself and you never let them go fully.

You WILL get over this. Yes you will. You have courage and that's the first step.