You seek balance

[judge45]

I just found Steve's site and it's very insightful and thought I'd share my thoughts on health.

When I got to 30 I started to drink (alcohol) and eat more fatty foods mainly due to the reward system I installed in my mind to help justify all the hard work I was doing.

But life/universe/your own subject reality is always trying to seek balance, so I tried to lose weight, but I struggle to lose 5 kg then put it back on.

Because I didn't understand my own subject reality, I kept fighting my reality. I was going broke financially, so the reward system went into over drive.

I put on 20 kgs (40lbs?) and life was hell.

But it didn't get better. The drinking got worse and I lost everything except my wife and kids. I think I kept them subjectively as I would have killed myself if I'd lost them as well.

The funny/scary thing is, going broke didn't stop me being fat or my drinking.

In fact I dragged myself out of debt and 5 years later am back in the same situation I was.

The last 12 months I've done nothing but a few jobs and kept rewarding myself with alcohol and food.

But although I'm in a financial pickle (again) for some reason over he last few months I've lost 7 kgs and pretty much stopped drinking (I really can't afford it)

It feels great to be losing weight and I feel I'm going to losse the other 15 kgs.

What I really wanted to share was I'm fairly convinced my subconscious has made the change. I haven't done much focusing on losing the weight, it's been a by product of the other probeloms.

I remember when I tried last time, it was very hard because I was focusing too hard on it and basically through attachment and struggle, didn't get anywhere.

My advice is, if you want it to flow you have to let it go.

Detachment is not disinterest, it's like a sort of sharp focus without the desparate part.

That's the problem with focus, it can easily become overwhelming and turn into desparation.

The universe is always seeking balance and you can't be the slightest bit desparate and balanced.

So if health is your issue, decide to change and let it flow, obsession is a form of desparation.

I'm no expert, I don't think any of us is, just some thoughts I wanted to share.

I liked that star wars line...my the force be with you...always, but I always thought the word 'force' was too strong.

I like the Matrix a little better 'when the one returns to the source'

I consider that when our physicality ends, we return to the source of all things.

So......May the 'Source' Be With You Always

Jeff